[Xu Run] Love Parting

08.

On this day, when Runyu woke up, Xufeng was no longer in bed.

Since that day, Xu Feng has always waited for him to get up together, so Runyu woke up the moment she opened her eyes.

Runyu looked out the window just a little dimly, it should be very early.

Suddenly there was a very soft sound in the compartment, and Runyu knew what she was doing, and got up quietly.

Xu Feng was cleaning the altar, carefully brushing every corner and corner, especially when wiping the two memorial tablets.

Standing behind him, Runyu saw him holding the small tablet, looked at it for a long time, raised her hand for a while, but wiped the corner of her eyes.

Xu Feng put the tablet back on the altar, lit the incense again, and bowed three times before turning around.

Seeing Runyu, he was startled, then looked down and saw his bare feet, picked him up without saying a word, and walked towards the bed.

During this period, Runyu kept staring at Xufeng, observing his expression.

It was not until he was put on the bed that Runyu reached out to caress the corners of his eyes, which still seemed a little wet.

Xu Feng froze for a moment, held his hand, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

Runyu didn't resist either, and let him hold it.

He wanted to ask, Xu Feng, you miss Li'er too, don't you?Do you also feel sad?

So what if you just asked?Carp will never come back after all.

Runyu finally shook his head.

Xu Feng sighed softly, pressed a kiss on his forehead, got up and went to the kitchen.

By the time Runyu sat down at the table for breakfast, Xufeng had already gone to the market alone.

Obviously promised to be honest with him, but the result still let him down.

Runyu couldn't help but fell into that long-lost depression.

Runyu didn't move her chopsticks for a long time, when suddenly the courtyard door creaked, and Xu Feng had already returned.

Xu Feng walked into the dining room, saw that the breakfast in front of him hadn't moved at all, and sighed again.

Runyu subconsciously glanced at the things in his basket, and couldn't help being stunned.

It is wormwood, bamboo leaves, red beans and glutinous rice flour.

Runyu looked up at him, Xufeng's eyes were already a little moist.

"So you remember..."

"Well...today is Li'er's birthday, I remember he loves to eat green balls the most."

Runyu's eyes were blurred.

Xu Feng took a deep breath and reached out to Runyu: "Do you want to do it together?"

Runyu held him: "Yes."

Runyu skillfully lit the stove, Xufeng boiled a pot of hot water, added some salt, put the wormwood into it and cooked it, then scooped it up and put it aside in a pound to pound it.

Runyu boiled another pot of hot water according to Xufeng's instructions, put in the red beans and continued to cook, and turned to Xufeng's side to knead the noodles.

Kneading and kneading suddenly a few drops of water fell into the dough.

Xu Feng hurriedly put aside the work in her hands, and came to hold his face, only to see that Runyu's face was full of tears, choked up and said intermittently: "I... have never made a youth group for Li'er before... I don't have time... ...I haven't cooked it for him once..."

While wiping Runyu's tears, Xu Feng's own eyes were red: "Then let's make it more beautiful today, so that Li'er can eat the most delicious green balls, shall we?"

Runyu nodded desperately, but she couldn't stop crying. Xu Feng could only hold him in her arms and pat him on the back. After a while, Runyu calmed down slowly.

The two separated and continued to do their own things. Xufeng told Runyu what to do next from time to time, so that his hands were never empty.

About an hour later, the Youth League came out.

Xu Feng took out a brand new bowl from the cupboard, which was slightly smaller than what they usually ate, and put the green balls into it one by one, neatly stacked from bottom to top.

The bowl was held by Runyu and placed in front of Li'er's tablet.

On this day, the two of them knelt in front of the altar until it was dark before getting up.

Xu Shi knelt for too long, Runyu staggered and almost fell, Xu Feng hurriedly caught him and carried him to the bed.

Runyu's face was covered with tears, her eyes were swollen badly, and she was in a daze.

Xu Feng was going to get some water to wipe his face, but Runyu grabbed the hem of his clothes.

"Don't go." Runyu said.

"it is good."

Xu Feng then sat back on the bed, wrapped him in the quilt, and hugged him tightly.

After a long time, Xu Feng suddenly said: "Yu'er, tell me about Li'er."

"...What are you talking about...you've seen it all..."

"Anything is fine, I want to hear from you."

Runyu didn't make a sound for a long time, just when Xufeng thought he had fallen asleep, he quietly opened his mouth.

His voice is very calm, it seems that those emotions that were so strong to the extreme have been exhausted in the long thoughts.

"Li'er was very thin and small when he was born, about the size of my palm. He is a small charmander with only a little horn on his head. At first glance, it looks like two small bumps bulge on his body. Its scales are different from mine, they are crimson, Xufeng, just like the color of your feathers, with patterns of flames, you haven't seen it, it's really beautiful."

"He is very good, very good. I took him to Dongting Lake. He didn't cry or make trouble all the way. He just fell asleep peacefully, holding my front with his little hands. But when I handed him over to my mother , he suddenly opened his eyes. That was the first time I saw Li'er's eyes, black and shining, like black pearls, with my shadow printed inside. He babbled and babbled at me He stretched out his hand and asked me to hug him, but I turned around and left."

"He was so young, but he seemed to know everything. He started to cry immediately. He was so good before. I didn't dare to look back. I was afraid that if I turned around, I would never be able to leave again. My mother told me later that Li'er had been walking all the time that day. Crying and crying, she couldn't coax her well no matter what, Li'er kept crying until her voice became hoarse, she passed away, and then stopped."

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Xu Feng just quietly listened to Runyu telling Li'er's story bit by bit, so detailed and clear, it seemed that he never forgot every moment with Li'er, and it was vivid in his memory.

Unlike what he saw from Ye Mingzhu at that time, Runyu was lying in his arms now.

His longing, his loneliness, his short-lived happiness, and his heart-piercing pain were vividly placed in front of Xu Feng.

Xu Feng hated herself for missing those years countless times, but never hated herself as much as she does today.

He hurts for Yu'er, hates for Li'er, he even doubts himself, is it worth being forgiven?

"Xufeng," just now, after Runyu finished his last sentence, he was silent for a long time, and then asked suddenly: "When Liuli Jinghuo...is attached to the upper body, does it hurt?"

Following Runyu's words, another scene appeared in front of Xu Feng's eyes: the palm of the Mother God was printed on Li'er's head, and the blue-purple glazed pure fire was burning in her palm...

Xu Feng exhaled tremblingly, and said intermittently: "Liuli Jinghuo... If the primordial spirit is directly burned...the body will not feel pain..."

"That's good... I'm afraid of Li'er, it hurts too much... that's good..."

Runyu murmured, he talked all night, his eyes were not so clear at this time, and his whole body was extremely weak.

Xu Feng quickly wiped away her tears, laid him flat and covered him with a quilt, then sat on the edge of the bed, caressing his face with one hand, holding his hand with the other, and said softly: "Go to sleep, don't think about anything else. , get some sleep, okay?"

"Yeah." Runyu closed the cap obediently, which was heartbreakingly obedient.

Xu Feng stayed by the side of the bed until he fell asleep, and then got up to leave, but at the moment he turned around, Runyu opened her eyes again.

It was already bright, and Xu Feng went to the kitchen. It was still in a mess after working yesterday, and the leftover green balls were still on the stove, which had completely cooled down.

Xu Feng walked over, picked up one and put it in his mouth.

He took a bite, and... fell apart.

With her eyes closed, Xu Feng slowly slid down against the stove, crying loudly, the low and hoarse cry echoed in the small kitchen...

After a while, he seemed to remember that Runyu was next door, biting the back of his hand with his teeth, but the sound of sobbing was still coming out from between his teeth.

At this time, Runyu suddenly broke in and pulled his hand away desperately.

Looking at the back of Xu Feng's blood dripping with blood, Runyu finally couldn't restrain herself, hugged Xu Feng, and cried loudly.

"Xu Feng, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Xu Feng was so overwhelmed by his crying that he even forgot that he was crying too. He pushed Runyu away a little bit, held his face in his hands, and said distressedly: "Fool, why are you sorry, how can you be sorry for me?"

Runyu choked up and said: "I shouldn't say that about you... Actually you are sad too, right? In fact, you are as sad as me... Li'er is my child and yours... You want him to live too, right?"

"I want him to come back to life even in my dreams, I would rather be the one who dies..." Xu Feng kissed Runyu's tears: "But Yu'er, Li'er has gone, there is no more his soul in this world, we will never die again Can't get him back."

"I know, I just... I just can't forget..."

Xu Feng stared into Runyu's eyes seriously: "Yu'er, you don't need to forget. Let's remember him together. As long as we remember him, Li'er will exist for a day and will never disappear, okay?"

"Okay..." Runyu nodded desperately, "Okay."

The two hugged each other tightly, and after a long time, Runyu's sobbing gradually stopped.

He backed away an inch, wiped away Xu Feng's tears with his sleeve, and said softly: "Xu Feng, I don't blame you anymore."

Xu Feng held his hand: "It doesn't matter if you blame me, anyway, I will always be with you until we are old and dead, and then, let's go find Li'er together, shall we?"

Runyu smiled, and said in a nasal voice, "Yes."

Runyu ran out barefoot, with no coat on. Xufeng hugged him and sat him down on the small bench behind the stove. He went back to the house and brought him a robe and boots, and helped him put them on one by one.

Then Xu Feng cooked a pot of millet porridge, and steamed the remaining green balls again.

The two of them didn't eat water or rice all day yesterday, and they didn't want to go to the dining room at this time, so they nestled behind the stove and ate the porridge and green balls one by one.

Take a bite of Qingtuan's tearful eyes, but as long as their eyes meet, the two can't help but smile again.If someone else saw the way of crying and laughing at that time, they might think they were two fools.

Not bothering to wash up after eating, Xu Feng led Runyu back to the bed, and fell asleep hugging each other within a short while.

Only this time, Runyu didn't have any more nightmares.