[Xu Run] Love Parting

03.

The next day, another distinguished guest came to the door.

The door was kicked open by him, and Yanyou started yelling as soon as he entered the door: "Runyu! Runyu!"

Runyu walked out from the flower bed behind the door, and said with a smile, "Here, what's the name of the ghost?"

Yanyou turned around, looked at him for a while, and smiled with tears in his eyes: "Finally, you still remember to notify me."

Runyu was also a little emotional, if Jin Mi hadn't mentioned it yesterday, he probably wouldn't have remembered to give Yanyou a summoning decision.

Runyu walked over and patted him on the shoulder: "Sit down and chat."

Facing Yanyou, Runyu had to tell him the ins and outs of what he said yesterday.

Fortunately, Yanyou didn't chatter like Jin Mi, and only told Runyu some interesting experiences of his past 200 years, and the two chatted very happily.

Suddenly Runyu remembered something and asked, "How is the world today?"

"What else can I do?" Yanyou sneered, "Taisi and Danzhu became black-eyed, and Pojun was in a dilemma inside, and the others were even more foolish and fell with the wind."

"I didn't expect my uncle to intervene in the court now." Runyu sipped his tea, "But yes, besides Xu Feng and me, he is the most orthodox candidate for the throne. Even if he doesn't want to fight, someone will put him up What's more, if he doesn't get in, someone he doesn't like will get in, even if it's a gamble, he can't just let it go."

"You really don't plan to go back to the heavens?"

"No," Runyu shook her head, "I was defeated and died in the Heavenly Demon War. I am already a disgrace to the heavens, and I won't be able to convince everyone when I go back."

"Are you afraid of this with your wrist? It's better to say that you don't want to go back."

"I really don't intend to go back," Runyu slender fingers rubbed the cup, "Heaven, I've had enough. Except for you, few people know that I still exist in this world, and the current heaven has nothing to do with me, but if If they can choose a good candidate, I can have less worries."

"But judging by now..."

"Danzhu is not suitable for the throne. His vision is narrow, and he knows people and only relatives. If he ascends the throne, sooner or later he will be in a mess. Although Taisi knows the current affairs and is flexible, he is too tactful and not a good candidate for the throne. Xu. Feng once told me that Dan Zhu's elder brother, Lian Chao, was still alive, and I had read some files on him dealing with political affairs in the past.

"I don't care about the state of the heavens. It would be so-so if I said to help you take a trip."

Runyu chuckled and shook her head: "Well, I owe you a favor."

Yanyou suddenly glanced at the peach tree behind Runyu: "But I heard that Xu Feng tried to persuade him back then, but it didn't work. He seems to have seen through the world and doesn't want to get involved in it at all."

"Is that so? Then we need to think of a way..." Runyu tapped the table a few times with her fingertips, and Chao Yanyou said, "What's wrong with Yinque?"

Yanyou blinked: "You mean Yinque? Not long after you left, he was removed from the stage."

"I guess so. Tuyao was once the biggest reliance of the Bird Clan. I was responsible for her torture and death, but Yin Que was attached to me. There have been complaints against him in the Bird Clan for a long time." Runyu paused and said It suddenly turned cold, "But if you leave me, you can't control the Bird Clan, and it's also an incompetent thing."

Yinque loyally supported him back then, but now Runyu's words were so cold and ruthless that even Yanyou couldn't help frowning.

After a while, Yanyou said, "He's gone."

Runyu took another sip of tea: "I know."

"Why do you want to say it so ugly on purpose?"

"Sooner or later he will remember what kind of person I am."

Yanyou sighed and shook his head.

After lunch, Yanyou was sent away, and Runyu knelt in front of the altar again.

Usually Xu Feng never came to disturb him, or when he came, he would kneel silently with him.

Today Xu Feng walked behind him, was silent for a while and suddenly said: "No matter how long you kneel, Li'er will never come back."

Runyu trembled slightly, but didn't look back: "I know."

"Did you say what you said today to me on purpose?"

"You think too much."

"The matter of the mother god has already turned a page in my heart, why do you need to bring it up again?"

"What about the father?" Runyu slowly stood up and turned around: "He did not hesitate to destroy his soul to save you, don't you hate me?"

Xu Feng's eyes were a little red: "It's because they were wrong first."

Runyu took a deep breath, her Adam's apple moved, but she stopped talking.

Xu Feng stepped forward and hugged him: "Yu'er, I know the pain in your heart, Li'er died, it was my fault, don't always blame yourself. We still have a long time, we can still have children of……"

"No!" Runyu pushed him away, "I won't have any more children! No!"

Xu Fengfu hugged him tightly again, choked with sobs and said, "As long as you want, you can let me this time..."

"No!" Unexpectedly, Runyu pushed him away, this time even harder and more mercilessly, his eyes were red, and he looked at Xu Feng fiercely and approached ferociously: "Xu Feng, you don't understand anything! To you, Li'er is just the result of your one-night affair, a phantom seen in a bead, but it's not to me! Li'er was bought by me with my life, he is the hottest handful of blood in my heart, he didn't My heart is completely cold, no matter how much you cover it, I won’t be able to cover it back! I will never have a second child in my life, and I will not let anyone take his place in my heart!"

After saying these words, Runyu had already burst into tears, and Xufeng was not much better. He seemed to be in a daze, staring blankly at Li'er's memorial tablet.

After a while, Runyu put down her hand covering her heart, and slowly straightened her back again: "Xufeng, I don't have to blame you, and I don't have to hate you, but I have no way not to blame you, do you understand?" His voice was no longer choked, and his voice was so clear that it was almost temperatureless.

After a long time, Xu Feng looked away at Runyu and nodded silently.

Runyu closed her eyes in pain, and ran out, leaving Xufeng kneeling in front of the altar and weeping bitterly...

In the evening, Xufeng found Runyu by the stream behind the house. He didn't cry, just hugged his knees like that, staring at the gurgling stream.

Xu Feng walked over slowly and sat next to him, and the two sat side by side in silence.

It was not until it was completely dark that Runyu said the first sentence.

"Xu Feng, we can't go back anymore."

"..."

"It took me a month to understand this truth. I can't pretend that nothing happened," Runyu looked sideways at Xufeng, "You are the same, aren't you?"

Xu Feng lowered her head and said nothing.

"This month, you didn't dare to speak, ask, or touch me. Even your only friend drove her away just because of one word from me. Do you feel good about such a cautious life? Heh, Dream compensation, is this your sweet dream?"

Xu Feng shook her head desperately, but still didn't speak.

"Xufeng, I am no longer the original Runyu. The original Runyu who would feel satisfied as long as you smiled is dead, and the willful Xufeng is also dead. Between us, there will be no more love." There is no going back to the past."

Xu Feng finally opened her mouth, but was interrupted by Runyu the moment she opened her mouth.

"Xufeng, let's separate."

It was a very light sigh, but it caused Xu Feng to collapse instantly.

He burst into tears, took Runyu's hand and said word by word: "Yu'er, you can blame me, you can hate me, you can blame me, you can even not love me, as long as you let me stay by your side I'll be with you and let me take care of you, okay? I won't touch you, we can get along like ordinary friends, I just want to see you every day, don't drive me away, okay? "

Xu Feng was sobbing like a child, Runyu had never seen him like this.

"I'm not driving you away, I..." Runyu's tears gradually became uncontrollable, "Xufeng, whenever I see you, I will think of Li'er, and I will remember him asking me, where is daddy?"

"Yu'er, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Seeing him crying, Xu Feng calmed down a little. He wiped the tears on Runyu's face with one hand, and took him into his arms with the other, "It's my fault, I hurt the carp Son, I hurt you too..."

"It's not your fault, I know I shouldn't blame you, but I don't know who to blame..." Runyu lay in Xufeng's arms and cried convulsively, "Xufeng, I miss Li'er so much, I miss you so much. I want...I really miss Li'er..."

Xu Feng hugged him tightly, and patted his back lightly while weeping silently.

Whose fault is it?

If none of them are wrong, why do they always, always miss?

That night, Runyu passed out from crying in Xufeng's arms, and Xufeng carried him back to Compensation Dream Studio.

Runyu didn't drive him away in the end, because Xufeng made herself disappear before his eyes.

When Runyu woke up, all Xufeng's things in the bedroom had been moved to another room.

He also no longer took the initiative to appear in front of Runyu, except for meal time, there would inevitably be prepared meals on the table, and Runyu could hardly feel Xufeng's presence for a whole day.

Of course, it was only almost, because the ubiquitous gaze never left his side for a moment.

But occasionally, when they bumped into each other accidentally, Xu Feng would quickly pass by with her head down.

Runyu wanted to call him to say something, but she didn't know what to say.

The days became more dreary and depressing.

It was the first time that Runyu went down the mountain alone. He didn't use any supernatural power, but he could still feel a figure lingering behind him.

The impetuous feeling of being peeped rushed into her chest again, Runyu took a deep breath, and as soon as she stretched her sleeves, she came to the town.

The size of the town is not small, and a river runs through the town.

It is true that Runyu has not been to the mortal world for a long time, and there are many novel things, so he went around for more than half a day.

It wasn't until noon that she felt a little hungry in her belly, so Runyu found a clean-looking restaurant by the river and planned to go in for some food.

It was past meal time and there were not many people in the building, so Runyu went up to the second floor and found a seat by the window.

After a while, a well-dressed son came over suddenly and asked if he could sit at the same table.

Runyu looked around the empty second floor, and was about to refuse, when suddenly that familiar sight appeared again, Runyu paused, stretched out her hand to the opposite stool and said, "Please sit down."

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In the previous chapter, Runyu’s mentality when facing Jin Mi left a suspense. I believe everyone can understand it in this chapter. Runyu’s mood is very complicated:

He knew that Xu Feng had nothing to do with Jin Mi, and Jin Mi had helped Xu Feng a lot, but he couldn't let it go, it was his helplessness;

He felt that Xu Feng would care about his changes, and he waited for Xu Feng to question him, but Xu Feng didn't, and just chose to bear it silently, which made him feel distressed and depressed, which was beyond his power.

A few cuties guessed the first level, but the second level may not have been hinted in my article, nor mentioned in the comments.

That's why I said that Runyu is the kindest one.