The ten-year trace of the soul of chess

The two of them lingered at the porch for about 10 minutes before Guang finally let go.

"After I said that sentence yesterday, I really regret it, very-very, very regret." Standing up a little bit, Guang raised his head to look at Liang, then lowered his eyes, and put his right hand on Liang's chest, gently Rubbing, "But I know, it's useless for me to apologize now. As soon as the words are spoken, the hurt is already here."

The palm of the light is so hot.

Even through the shirt, Ryo could still feel the scorching heat coming from his chest.

It seemed to scald his heart.

Reluctantly, Liang grabbed Guang's hand on his chest, put it to his lips and gently pecked it.

But Guang pulled his hand out of Liang's palm, raised his head again, and looked at Liang seriously without the slightest hint of joke: "But I still want to make some compensation, although maybe you don't care."

As he spoke, he took a step back, pulled the schoolbag on his back to his front, then took out a small white piece of paper from the bag and handed it to Liang.

Ryo reached out and took the small piece of paper that Guang handed over.

I saw that the top and right edge of the small piece of paper were bumpy, with obvious traces of hand tearing. It looked like the paper was temporarily torn from a notepad. In the middle of the small piece of paper, there were words of different sizes. Two lines of text.

The first line is larger and reads—Exclusively for Ryota Taya

The second line, which is slightly smaller, reads - Expiry date: indefinitely

Even though he guessed roughly, Liang couldn't help asking Guang: "This is...?"

"This is my 'sorry'." Guang said, "In order to express my 'sorry' for losing control of my emotions yesterday, I specially prepared this 'coupon' for you. With this 'coupon', as long as Not breaking the law is something I can do, as long as you ask, I will do it for you."

Looking at this simple but heavy piece of paper in his hand, Liang thought of something, his eyes flashed, and he asked with a smile: "Is there anything?"

The speaker has no intention, the listener has the heart.

A certain light was obviously dreaming, and immediately blew up: "Taya Ryo! What are you thinking!!!"

Mr. Taya, who was bearded and stared at by his lover, expressed his grievance.

The corners of his mouth dropped slightly, the bottom of his lips were raised, and his lips were pursed into the shape of "へ" like an arch bridge - when he listened to the explanation of the purpose of the "voucher" just now, he was just a little curious, if he used this voucher If he used a coupon to ask him not to eat ramen noodles for a year, what would his little impulse be like...

But looking at the appearance of Guang/Qi/咻/咻, Liang didn't explain too much. After appeasing Guang and accepting his lover's heart, he corrected quite subjectively: "However, I am not I don't want this to be a ticket for 'sorry', rather than 'sorry', I want it to be a 'symbol' that you care about me. It's because you care about my feelings that you worry about expressing anger After that, I'll be sad, won't I? Huh?"

"Hmm" what "hmm"? !

Isn't it just a voucher?This person is necessary, then, so serious!

Guang slandered in his heart, but his cheeks were burning red for some reason.

"An-whatever you want! Anyway, I've already given you the things!" I just raised my head and took a sneak peek at Liang, and as soon as my eyes met Liang, Guang immediately fled away.

But even if he doesn't look at Liang, Guang can clearly feel Liang's stare naked/naked/naked on his face, as if he is about to burn a hole in his face.

There was really nothing to do, so it was best to simply walk in: "Who said just now, 'We'll talk after we enter the house'? You have to stand at the door...you stand by yourself! Anyway, I'll go in first!"

After speaking, he rubbed the soles of his feet with oil and slipped into the house.

There was still a helpless and doting smile on his lips. After seeing Guang stepping into the living room, Liang followed him back into the living room.

After a few brief exhortations, Liang settled down on the sofa, and Liang walked to the kitchen alone.

Just now he was only focused on changing the topic, seeing Liang's figure disappear into the kitchen, only then did Guang realize that he still had so many things he hadn't said to Liang.

It was impossible to stay in the living room without light for a moment, so Guang stood up and followed silently.

Walking to the door of the kitchen, Guang didn't go in, just sticking to the door like a wooden stick, quietly watching Liang take out a whole honeydew melon from the refrigerator and put it on the cutting board.

He clearly remembered that when he opened the refrigerator yesterday, there was no honeydew melon...

Cut the honeydew melon in two, sealed half of it with plastic wrap, and was about to put it back in the refrigerator, as if feeling the gaze of a lover, Liang turned around, saw the light, and asked him with a smile: "What are you doing standing there?" ? Go sit in the living room for a while, and I'll be right over."

Guang nodded and said "yes" with his mouth, but there was no movement under his feet.

Liang showed a helpless smile: "What are you looking at?"

Guang leaned against the door frame, his eyes were tightly locked, and he also smiled, and said softly: "Look at you."

Liang: "What's interesting about me?"

Light didn't answer, just laughed.

Liang couldn't hold back the light, so he had to let him go.

So, Guang just stood and watched at the kitchen door so blatantly.

Look at the bright and handsome side face, the bare/exposed tight forearm after rolling up the sleeves, and the outline of the shoulder blades that are faintly revealed under the white shirt as the hand lifts the knife and falls.

There was a distance of several meters, but Guang felt as if he could clearly see the slight smile on Liang's lips.

The moonlight entered the window, only the crisp sound of falling knives echoed in the quiet kitchen.

If you stare at something for a long time on weekdays, you will definitely feel sleepy.

But even if it's just a simple cut of fruit, because Liang is doing the operation, Guang feels that he won't get tired of watching it a thousand times.

It was also during this quiet time that some words that had been blocked before were surging again in Guang's heart.

I just don't know what to say or not to say.

I endured it for a while, but I was still not greedy enough.

Just looking at the silhouette of the person in front of me doesn't seem to be enough anymore.

Afraid of affecting Liang's movements, he quietly walked behind Liang, holding his waist lightly, and lightly resting his forehead on Liang's back.

"Liang..." He meowed softly like a kitten.

Liang slightly turned his face to the side: "Huh?"

Guang put his arms around him and said in a low voice: "Well, I haven't finished what I just said. You just need to listen and answer what you want to say next. Don't turn around. Because when I see you, I have something to say. I can't say..."

Liang didn't know what Guang wanted to say, so he nodded first.

After getting Liang's promise, Guang asked the first question with confidence: "I have performed so badly these days, did I let you down?"

Hearing that Guang's tone was wrong, Liang just wanted to turn around, but was stopped by Guang clasping his waist tightly.

"I said, don't turn around!"

Liang froze.

After a while, he nodded slightly.

Seeing that Liang finally gave up the idea of ​​turning around, Guang continued to ask: "Do you think I'm stupid? You can't understand some very simple questions?"

Liang couldn't see Guang's expression, so he turned his back to Guang and shook his head firmly: "No."

"Then do you think I'm always in trouble? Or the kind that keeps on going?" Guang continued to ask relentlessly.

"No." Liang still replied without thinking, thought for a while, and added, "I like the trouble you bring me."

Hikaru smiled softly, resting his chin lightly on Liang's back, and joked with a smile: "I can't tell, you are such a Taya."

"Ah, I was discovered." Liang also laughed, "After all, I wanted to run away from home since I was a child."

During the back and forth between Guang and Guang, Liang suddenly felt that leaning against each other at such a close distance seemed to be fine even if he couldn't see the other's expression.

Just where the light couldn't see, Liang lowered his head slightly, his eyes full of emotional smiles.

"Actually, as long as you are by my side, nothing is troublesome."

Peaceful and silent moon.

In such a quiet night, it seems that even the rise and fall of the elevator car outside the door can be clearly heard.

But after saying this, a certain light lying on his back suddenly fell silent.

He couldn't help calling softly: "Light?"

Finally, a small voice came from behind: "Well, I'm here."

Liangcai asked again, "Why are you asking these questions?"

Now that Liangdu asked, Guang didn't care about his face.

Taking a deep breath, lightly rubbing his forehead against his shiny back, Guang finally confessed: "I just feel that I'm still too weak, and I lost confidence..."

Before losing chess, although I felt sad in my heart, I didn't feel ashamed.

But now, the more scenery I have seen, the more I feel a little... I can't afford to lose...

"Hey, Liang," put his face on Liang's back, and leaned against Liang's body for a while. After hesitating for half a second, Guang continued the unfinished words just now, and at the same time, the most difficult words to say, " Do you think I'm... good? Do you have a good chance of winning the next match against Mr. Kuwahara? Can you win?"

These questions that can't be given definite answers, if they were changed before, they would never ask themselves.Because I know that even if I ask, I will definitely be lectured by myself.

But this time the situation is different.

Light is visibly disturbed.He can feel it.

Kwang was looking for his own validation in a deflected way, in his usual awkward way.He also knows.

With him, there is nothing that cannot be given light.

Besides, it's just an obvious answer.

Liang could no longer let himself see the expression of light.

So he pushed the cutting board with the fruit knife a little farther in, then washed his hands, and turned around abruptly before Guang could react.

Liang's speed was so fast, before the frustration on Guang's face could be put away, Liang's eyes were unobstructed.

Liang did not expose him.

"I said light," he gently caressed his lover's somewhat embarrassed face, and asked with a bright smile, "You are running and talking so much, don't you feel thirsty?"

After being reminded by Liang, Guang seemed to have reacted, instantly revealing his foodie nature, and nodded foolishly: "Thirsty!"

Smiling softly again, Liang turned sideways and picked up a plate of honeydew melon cut on the cooking table, then used a fruit fork to feed a piece into Guang's mouth: "Is it sweet?"

"sweet!"

"Are you still eating?"

"Eat!" After answering Liang's question almost reflexively, Guang realized that he had been interrupted again. Just as he was about to ask the teacher, he heard Liang put the fruit plate back on the cooking table, lowered his body slightly, and helped Rubbing his shoulders, he said firmly, "I will win, I have a hunch."

Why did Liang speak so confidently about something that he, the client, was not sure about?

So, it must be fake!

Liang must be perfunctory himself!

But this short sentence is like an invisible force, seeping into Guang's skin, flowing to his limbs and bones, making him want to believe and confirm involuntarily.

"Really?" Guang's nose suddenly touched Liang's, "Really really really?"

The light was too close, a pair of eyes were about to meet, but Liang was still patient, pinching the light's face with a smile, and answered him over and over again: "It's true! It's true, it's true, it's true. !"

Seems like this has happened more than once.

When he was with Guang, Liang felt that he would always become very childish.

Will do some very childish things, say some very childish things.

But maybe when you really fall in love with someone, you will unconsciously become childish.

Because "love" itself will make a person very simple and pure.

But the chicken soup "made by Ryo Taya" seems to be not strong enough, and the flames in the eyes of the light only ignite for a while, and then dim again.

Knowing that he was being unreasonable, Guang still couldn't help wanting more affirmation from Liang.

This is almost impossible to say in normal times.

Then he cheekily asked Liang again: "Then is there any shining point in me? I don't have any confidence right now. If there is, please tell me quickly and praise me more, okay?"

After finishing speaking with a blushing face, Guang immediately followed up: "But it must not be perfunctory! There must be a reason!"

It's so easy.Liangxin said.

But he still used his index finger and middle finger as pincers, gently pinched Guang's nose, and confirmed to Guang with a smile: "Do you really want to listen?"

"Listen!" Light nodded vigorously again.

After confirming again and again, Liang didn't evade any more, and while stroking Guang Guang's back and taking him back into his arms, he said slowly: "Do you know what attracts me the most about you?"

"What is it?"

"It's the drive in your body that will never give up, no matter what you don't care about." Liang lowered his head, looked at Guang and said.

Guang obviously didn't believe it, and retorted in a low voice: "I think it's 'foolish', right?"

But before he finished speaking, Liang gently sealed his lips with his index finger.

"Hush, listen to me first." Seeing Guang nodded obediently, Liang let go of his index finger and continued, "There are too many people who worry about doing things and dare not let go of them. It's a habit to leave a way for yourself, but you haven't. Have you discovered it yourself?"

Guang was taken aback by what was said, and only shook his head.

Liang gently stroked Guang's black hair, and smiled again: "I can't be mistaken. You are different from most people. You are born with a sense of 'no matter what happens, as long as it is something I believe, it will be fine'." Will do it to the end' stubbornness and drive."

"But you also have this point!" Guang couldn't help but interjected again.

Liang shook his head disapprovingly again.

"It's different." Liang said, "For a long time, I was unwilling to admit to others that I was indeed chasing you and paying attention to you, even when I was facing Mr. Ogata."

Liang said, and smiled again, with a hint of embarrassment on his face: "Now that I think about it, this is the so-called self-esteem. I don't want to admit it, but I would actually chase a student who just became a college student and even waited for a long time in the second group. A stagnant newcomer to Go. But the situation at that time was indeed that I paid close attention to you. Even if you performed so badly in the three generals tournament, I still couldn’t help paying attention to you silently, not wanting to be discovered, and was always vigilant Did you catch up behind me?"

"But you are different." Liang said again, "Did you ever think about what would happen if you failed the vocational exam?"

Light froze, shaking his head.

"When you said you wanted to catch up with me, did you ever think about what would happen if you were ignored by me, or if you couldn't catch up with me?"

Shaking his head.

"When you said 'I am Taya Ryo's rival' to others, did you ever think about what would happen if others didn't believe you, or even laughed at you?"

Still shaking his head.

"That's it." Liang smiled again, and lightly put his palms on the side of Guang's neck, "The reason why you never thought about this is because you never have these thoughts. When you are doing these things, All I think is 'I want to do this'. But I have. I have selfishness and concerns, so you are stronger than me, and you are more free than most people, free in thought."

"There are some things I have never said before, but in fact, after I found out that you are 'different', I have always thought so in my heart." After a slight pause, Liang sipped it lightly as if embarrassed He pursed his lips, looked at Guang and continued, "The sun is the most important central celestial body in the entire solar system, and also the most important light source for all life on Earth. And you have always been like the sun in my heart. Your eyes are like the sun. Your smile is like the sun. Your breath is like the sun. Or, to be more precise, your very existence is, to me, the unique sun."

Light:"……"

This, this person doesn't even need to draft a lie?

The person Liang said, why the more he listened, the more he felt that he was talking about a stranger he didn't know at all?

After listening to Liang say this, Guang has completely blushed.

Even in a home where there is only each other, Guang couldn't help but cover his bright mouth: "Enough, enough! You don't need to say any more..."

Besides, he really wanted to find a crack in the ground to get down...

Covering Liang's mouth with both hands, the kitchen is filled with the sound of his heartbeat that is about to jump, his whole head seems to be dizzy from the words, but the armor on his heart seems to be repaired and strengthened layer.

"...I'm sorry for making you worry." After the fuss, he hugged Liang again, and Guang raised his head again, and kissed the corner of Liang's lips reverently, "I didn't finish the chess game last night, let's continue today, okay? good?"

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