atypical rebirth

what is love?

Meng Zheng once read in a book that love is the organic unity of sex-love, affection and caring.Among them, sex-love is a concept from a physiological point of view, love is a concept from a psychological point of view, and caring is a concept from an ethical point of view.

Starting from this definition, Meng Zheng felt that he should reject Shen Duqing, because now he has no physical desire for Shen Duqing.

First of all, he is a straight man, even if he can accept love between two men, but before he actually falls in love with a man, he will not yearn for sex-love between the same sex, and naturally he will not have desire for the same sex.

Secondly, fortunately, there is no desire. If there is, then he really feels that he is too beastly.His family knew about his family affairs, and others thought he was the same age as Shen Duqing, but he knew that when he first met Shen Duqing, he was an adult with the mentality of an adult, and he always took care of Shen Duqing as a younger brother, as a Children come to care and respect them as friends, and they will never treat Shen Duqing as a lover to lust.

But at the same time, Meng Zheng knew that he must have feelings for Shen Duqing.

Leaving aside the point of sex-love, the relationship between him and Shen Duqing has already unknowingly entered the state of an old married couple.He understood almost all of Shen Duqing's living habits, and Shen Duqing also understood his.He knew Shen Duqing's ambition, had participated in Shen Duqing's past, and was bound to participate in Shen Duqing's future, and the same was true for Shen Duqing.

Meng Zheng also knew that Shen Duqing's feelings for him were definitely not a hot-headed period in his teenage years, but slowly accumulated from the countless time spent together in the past.If he asked Shen Duqing to give up, the harm to Shen Duqing would definitely be beyond imagination.Therefore, he could not refuse Shen Duqing, nor could he bear to let him down.

Therefore, when Meng Zheng realized that Shen Duqing liked him, he only spent one tenth of the time thinking about rejecting him, and the remaining nine tenths of the time, he was thinking about accepting it.He tried hard to imagine the life after two people were together.They will live in the same room, when he was cooking, Shen Duqing suddenly hugged him from behind.

Hate Shen Duqing's hug?

it's OK.

So, go ahead and imagine the two exchanging a kiss in the morning sun, hate it?

it's OK.

Thus, Meng Zheng fell into a dilemma.

He couldn't completely accept Shen Duqing.Because there is a question, if he accepts, should he be polite and hard when they kiss?If he's not hard, it's weird that his body doesn't even feel the slightest bit when kissing a lover.If he was hard, it would be even more strange, he raised the flag at his cub!

But Meng Zheng couldn't refuse Shen Duqing, not only because he couldn't make any decision that would hurt Shen Duqing, but also because when he looked at Shen Duqing with a new perspective, he found that being together like this is not bad.

So Meng Zheng felt that he had sinned deeply.

Meng Zheng originally wanted to drag on.He intends to delay for a year or two without making a statement.However, when he saw that Shen Duqing bought two pots of small plants for himself but dared not admit it, insisting on pushing the matter to Shen Feizhuo's head, he felt that he could not procrastinate any longer.Meng Zheng thought, why didn't Shen Duqing dare to admit it?Is it because you are afraid of your own rejection?Is it because he feels that he will not only reject his feelings, but also reject his overtures and everything about him, so he can only choose to hide and give silently without letting himself find out?

How could this child be so stupid!

In Meng Zheng's heart, Shen Duqing should be proud, he can be as high as a prince, and he won't be like many idiots in this world, who will lower himself into the dust because of begging for a love.

Such a cautious Shen Duqing made Meng Zheng very distressed.

Meng Zheng even felt a little sad.He thought that Shen Duqing would definitely feel even more sad in his heart.

Therefore, Meng Zheng couldn't help but stepped forward and hugged Shen Duqing.

This hug lasted more than ten seconds.Meng Zheng turned to Shen Feizhuo and said, "You stay in the living room and do your homework, and I'll have a good chat with your brother." Then, he dragged Shen Duqing to the small room and closed the door of the small room.

Shen Feizhuo shouted loudly behind them: "You guys have a good chat, I promise not to disturb you."

Meng Zheng pulled Shen Duqing to sit down beside the bed.Neither of them spoke.

Shen Duqing was undoubtedly smart. He had spied something from Meng Zheng's series of behaviors, and realized that he had hope, so he changed his previous restrained and restrained style, and looked at Meng Zheng with scorching eyes.He's nervous, but also powerful.As long as Meng Zheng took the first step, he would be able to run the remaining 99 steps in no time!

Meng Zheng felt uncomfortable when he saw him.

Meng Zheng was nervous, but Shen Duqing was not.He chuckled and let out a long breath.Before, it was the beast who voluntarily put on the shackles to be imprisoned for so long, but now this beast was released by Meng Zheng.

"I feel like I'm dreaming." Shen Duqing's gaze was as precise as a scalpel, peeling Meng Zheng's heart away bit by bit, "If this is really a dream, I am willing to sleep forever. I want to say ..."

"Stop talking!" Meng Zheng quickly covered Shen Duqing's mouth with his hands.

Shen Duqing stared at Meng Zheng stubbornly.

"Stop talking." Meng Zheng sighed, "I know what you're going to say. But if you have to tell me all the confession, I (this grown-up) would be too bad. It's really bad. So, let me say first .”

Shen Duqing's eyes lit up, he suddenly grabbed Meng Zheng's hand and held it firmly.

Meng Zheng struggled a bit but did not get away, so he let him go.

There was another long silence.Meng Zheng lowered his head, not daring to look into Shen Duqing's eyes. After a while, he gritted his teeth and said, "We are limited to 20 years old. I can assure you that before I am 20 years old, I will never fall in love with others suddenly .At 20, if you still like me, we'll be together."

"Aren't you perfunctory?" Shen Duqing asked.

Meng Zheng still lowered his head, and there seemed to be a sigh and a smile hidden in his voice: "Although I have never been in a relationship, I know that I am very slow in love. Some people will Feel lonely to fall in love, some people will fall in love because they have physical desires that need to be diverted, but I don’t.”

Meng Zheng's view of love seems to be stuck in the last century, when the most common way of communication between people was still writing letters.He said: "The love in my mind should be the kind... After we have been together for a certain period of time, we found that each other's souls are very compatible. We appreciate each other's personality and agree with each other's values, so it is natural to attract each other and let it go Together naturally. Fall in love at first sight will never happen to me. At 20 years old, when you are 20 years old, if your heart remains the same, we will really be together."

"Why 20 years old?"

"Because at the age of 20, your... our minds are truly mature."

"You're legally of age."

"Are you in love with me, or with the law?"

The term "falling in love" made Shen Duqing feel very sweet, and he hurriedly said, "Talk with you, talk with you."

The sour yet sweet long secret love finally ushered in a positive response. Shen Duqing was so excited that he wished he could go downstairs and run ten laps right now.He couldn't think anymore, he just wanted to look at Meng Zheng, and only knew how to giggle.Suddenly, he suddenly stepped forward and hugged Meng Zheng.And because of too much force, Meng Zheng fell backwards and was pressed on the bed by him.Meng Zheng was so frightened that he yelled and said, "No, no, let me go!"

Shen Duqing looked down at Meng Zheng, and saw that he was swearing to defend his chastity, and his brows were slightly frowned.

Meng Zheng shouted: "All intimate behaviors can only be done after the age of 20!"

"Is it okay to hug? When we were good friends before, we didn't miss hugs on the court. Now we are considered a quasi-couple relationship, so we can't hug anymore?" Shen Duqing couldn't understand Meng Zheng's way of thinking.

Suddenly, Shen Duqing seemed to think of something, his complexion changed drastically, and he asked: "Are you... don't you want to fall in love with me? Are you perfunctory me? Are you..." There was a tremor in his voice.

Who can bear such ups and downs!Shen Duqing was so anxious that his eyes were red.

"No, no! Give me a hug! Come here and give me a hug!" Meng Zheng opened his arms to Shen Duqing.

Shen Duqing still looked at Meng Zheng suspiciously.

Meng Zheng said: "What do other college couples usually do? They study together, go to the cafeteria to eat together, and go out to play together on weekends. We have already done this. We even buy vegetables together, cook together, and bring food together. Boy, we're more of a couple than other couples. You have nothing to worry about, right?"

Shen Duqing kicked off his slippers, climbed onto the bed, wrapped his hands and feet around Meng Zheng, rubbed his head on Meng Zheng's shoulder, and said in a low voice, "In this case, why do you insist on setting a deadline of 20 years old?" ..."

Meng Zheng patted Shen Duqing on the back, and said (not) with tears in his eyes: "You have to give me a process to change my mind? I used to treat you as a cub before, but now I don't treat you as a cub. a transition."

Shen Duqing: "???"

Among the many reasons for choosing Plato's love, Meng Zheng's reason is definitely the most strange.

"However, after all, we are already prospective couples. Couples and friends will definitely be different." Shen Duqing actually wanted to remove the word "quasi" from the three words "quasi-couples", "Can we... can that ..."

"No, no, no! You can't kiss, let alone touch!" Meng Zheng shook his head frantically.

Shen Duqing widened his eyes.Can you still kiss?Can I still touch it?Yes, yes, couples can touch each other!But, kissing and touching as soon as you come up, isn't it a bit too fast?Shen Duqing raised his head and stared at the corner of Meng Zheng's mouth.

Shen Duqing blushed.This innocent child has already made up a series of impure things in his brain.

Meng Zheng faintly had a bad premonition, and stammered and asked, "You, which one did you just refer to?"

"Just, just write love letters to each other." Shen Duqing also stammered.

Meng Zheng pulled the quilt from the side, covered Shen Duqing's face, blocked his sight from looking at him, and pretended to be fierce and said: "I will write it for you! I must write it!" Ahhh, why did he say that just now? Kiss and touch!

Shen Duqing laughed, shook the quilt, and also covered Meng Zheng.The two were covered in the quilt, the eyes could not see, and other senses were magnified.Shen Duqing put his arms around Meng Zheng's waist.Meng Zheng felt uncomfortable being hugged.

It's strange, as Shen Duqing said, they used to hug each other on the court, and they would hug each other when they cheered each other up before the exam, but why didn't they have the feeling of rapid heartbeat at that time?

Meng Zheng pushed Shen Duqing away in a panic, and said, "I, I'll go and see Feizhuo."

Shen Duqing refused.He didn't sleep well the night before, now that he was holding Meng Zheng, he gradually felt sleepy.

Shen Duqing was awakened by the phone ringing.

He opened his eyes and saw that Meng Zheng was no longer on the bed, and Meng Zheng's mobile phone on the bedside table was ringing happily.Shen Duqing rolled over on the bed first, then picked up his phone and looked at it.The call was from Liu Jian.

Shen Duqing quickly sat up to answer the phone.

Liu Jian on the other end of the phone was not surprised when he saw that the person answering the phone was Shen Duqing. He knew that Shen Duqing and Meng Zheng lived together, and they were so nice that they could wear a pair of pants.Anyway, telling Shen Duqing the same thing.

As he talked, Liu Jian gradually realized that something was wrong. Shen Duqing's tone of voice was so strange.

Liu Jian paused for a moment.

Your uncle's spouse is your aunt, your aunt's spouse is your uncle, your father's spouse is... your father.Shen Duqing, who automatically upgraded himself to a senior, said kindly, "Jianjian, why don't you say anything, I'll listen."