Precipitous spring breeze blows drunk sober

After buying a box of mooncakes for each person, the two came to the cashier.

After finishing all the items, the cashier asked politely: "Hello, the total is 570 yuan. Do you need a bag?"

"Well, please take a bag." Dong Xun also returned a polite smile.

He swiped the card, and Xiang Bei stared intently at the card in his hand.

Since Dong Xun left Xiangbei, all his things were done in the name of Qin Jin and Bi Xi, and Xiangbei only recently realized why he seemed to have evaporated from the world.

Dong Xunliao decided that Xiangbei would not let it go, and canceled all his mobile phone numbers and bank cards. Now the mobile phone number and bank cards he uses are all in the name of Qin Jin, and the store contract is also signed by Bi Xi.

He really didn't leave any clues to Xiang Bei, and he made up his mind to disappear completely.

After Dongxun swiped his card to check out, Xiang Bei borrowed a trolley from the supermarket to load his things and push the trolley outside.As soon as he walked out of the gate of the mall, he bumped into Su Xia head-on.

Su Xia exclaimed, pointed at Dong Xun and looked at Xiang Bei for a long time, speechless.In my impression, Xiang Bei frantically searched for Dong Xun for a long time, and she followed him to many places, but recently Xiang Bei also disappeared without a sound, and she was really surprised to meet him suddenly, still with Dong Xun.

Before Su Xia could speak, Xiang Bei took a step forward and covered her mouth, dragging her aside.

"What's going on, Xiangbei!" She asked in a low voice, "When did you find Dongxun? Why didn't you hear anything?"

"Well, wait a minute—"

"What's the matter, Ji Qiu?" Dongxun was puzzled, he groped along the side of the car with his fingers, but found no one, he asked again: "Ji Qiu, are you still there?"

Su Xia frowned and pointed at Dong Xun: "What's the matter? What happened to Dong Xun's eyes? Who is Ji Qiu?"

"I'll tell you in detail when I have time, and you can greet him normally." After exhorting Xiang Bei, Su Xia went back to the car, stretched out her hand and pinched Dong Xun's wrist to indicate that she was still there.

"Did we bump into someone just now?" Dong Xun asked.

Su Xia took a deep breath, stood in front of him and said cheerfully, "Ah Dongxun! What a coincidence!"

Hearing Su Xia's voice, Dong Xun was stunned for a moment, and then greeted her familiarly: "It's Su Xia. I'm sorry, did I bump into you just now?"

Su Xia glanced at Xiang Bei, and Xiang Bei shook her head at her, and she immediately said, "Ah...no, I didn't hit it. Dongxun...your eyes..."

"There was an accident."

Dong Xun's tone was calm, but Su Xia looked at Xiang Bei as if she was about to eat her, so she hurriedly changed the subject: "Then, is this your friend?"

"Ah, I forgot to introduce you. His name is Ji Qiu, and he is an employee of my store. Ji Qiu, this is Su Xia, my high school classmate."

Su Xia didn't understand the situation, and greeted Xiang Bei dryly: "Hello...Ji, Ji Qiu?" Seeing that Xiang Bei hadn't spoken for a long time, she coughed twice and asked, "Why don't you speak?"

"Su Xia, Ji Qiu can't speak."

Su Xia's eyes widened, she mouthed and asked Xiang Bei: What the hell are you doing? !

"He...he can't speak?" She frowned and asked Dong Xun, but she was actually confirming the "script" with Xiang Bei.

"Well," Dong Xun nodded, "Are you here to buy things too?"

After getting confirmation from Xiang Bei, Su Xia responded to Dong Xun while typing on her mobile phone: "Ah, yes, I'm working around here, and I'm here to buy a bottle of milk for my little nephew..."

-North, your current setting is a dumb?

Dong Xun said: "Then you go quickly."

Xiang Bei also typed to respond to Su Xia: It's hard to say, let's have dinner together in a few days, I still have something to ask you.

Su Xia nodded to him and put the phone away, and said, "I don't know where there is a convenience store nearby..."

"Isn't there a supermarket inside?"

"Supermarket? Isn't the supermarket closed?" Su Xia wondered.

"But we just came out of shopping..." Dong Xun pointed behind him, "When did you go?"

"Just now—oh, I see! Xiang—" as soon as she said the words, Xiang Bei stood behind Dong Xun and waved at her frantically, her eyebrows were almost knit together, so she understood it and immediately changed her words abruptly. Turned the second half of the sentence: "It's such a good weather today... right... well, why is the supermarket closed? I'll take another look... and take a look..."

Dong Xun smiled, and said: "Then go get busy, I'm opening a coffee bookstore, come and sit if you're free." After speaking, Dong Xun took a business card from his wallet and handed it over, adding: " What you saw about me today, don't tell Xiang Bei."

Su Xia was even more confused.

Seeing Xiang Bei nodding to her, she hurriedly said, "Okay, okay. Then I'll go first, and come to your shop when I'm free."

"Well, welcome anytime."

When the three of them were in the wrong position, Dong Xun couldn't help but stop her after thinking about it again and again: "Su Xia—"

"Huh?" Su Xia turned her head when she heard the sound.

Dong Xun then turned around, and he asked, "Xiang Bei, he still—"

Su Xia knew how to answer this question. She didn't even look at Xiang Bei and said to herself, "No, he's not looking for you! You don't have to hide from him, Dong Xun!"

Xiang Bei looked at Su Xia with a hateful expression, raised his hand to pinch the center of his eyebrows, and sighed secretly.

Dong Xun moved his lips and wanted to ask, Xiang Bei quickly waved his hand to Su Xia, so Su Xia hurriedly greeted Dong Xun: "Dong Xun, my brother is still waiting for me, I'm leaving first, I'll be with you another day chat!"

"Okay, goodbye Susha."

Pushing the trolley north to the side of the road, Xu Le just drove over. He got out of the car and helped put the things in the trunk. He glanced at their boss, hesitated to speak, and opened the car door for him.

Dong Xun has been in a bad mood since he separated from Su Xia. He didn't hide from Xiang Bei's hand, as if he didn't feel the warmth of his palm at all, and rested on the backrest with his eyes blank.

- Sleep when you are tired.

writes north.

"It's okay, I'm not sleepy."

On the way, Dongxun still fell asleep.

Xiang Bei specifically told Xu Le to drive slowly, leaned towards him lightly, and let him rest on his shoulder.

And Dong Xun seemed to see Xiang Bei again in a daze, standing in front of him, calling his name arrogantly, smiling and kissing him, hugging him warmly.He could hear his steady and strong heartbeat, and clasped his fingers tightly with his familiar temperature.

Then Xiang Bei said goodbye to him calmly and gently, saying goodbye to him, no longer confronting him fiercely, and no longer having conflicts and quarrels about love and dislike.

This dream is not wonderful, and Dong Xun struggles every minute and every second.

For him, it is too difficult to love and not to love.There is no result if you continue to love, and if you stop loving, you can't let go of the obsession of the past 20 years.He couldn't distinguish between dream and reality and even thought that he was going to fall into the abyss again. After an unknown amount of time, he finally opened his eyes under Song Yao's soft call in the half-dream and half-awake state.

It was still dark when I opened my eyes, there was no north, no embrace from the north.Nor was his peaceful farewell.

"Boss, boss?"

"Well, are you here?"

He got out of the car, his head was dizzy and he couldn't find his way, his feet went limp and he fell into Xiang Bei's arms.

"Boss, are you okay?!" Song Yao exclaimed.

Dong Xun shook his head, thanked Xiang Bei in a low voice, told Song Yao that it was okay, then pushed Xiang Bei back to the store.He took the remaining beer from the last dinner in the refrigerator and went back to the room and gently closed the door.

The dream in the car flashed back in his mind over and over again. He took a sip of the wine and found it hard to swallow. It was uncomfortable when he swallowed it.

Xiangbei in the dream is like a different person, and I also seem to be a different person.

It was a version of himself he had never seen before.He frantically tore at Xiang Bei's collar, almost yelling at him. From the time he met him at the age of eight to the decisive parting half a year ago, he told Xiang Bei carefully.

Said that he gave everything he had to earnestly repay Xiang Rui with what he had, but greedily wanted to get Xiang Bei's love.Cut open this strange yet familiar self completely, and lay it out in front of him.It was as solemn as a farewell that had already taken root, and now it finally broke through the ground. It was like a towering tree growing crazily in his heart, and it was about to break through his psychological defense.

In Xiang Rui's eyes, he is a sensible and obedient child, but in Xiang Bei's heart he is nothing - this is his dream, and Dong Xun feels that this is a nightmare that Xiang Bei wove for him.

He is going crazy.Torn apart by a complex emotion of wanting to give up but never giving up, I became less and less like myself.

This is the first time in so many years that he wants to give up going north. The eight years of long separation have never made him feel this way, but recently he suddenly had that strange idea.

He raised his head and took a big sip of the wine, unable to swallow in time, it flowed down from the corner of his lips, scratched his neck and wet his collar.

Xiang Bei carried his things to the storage room and put them away. Before he could go to Dongxun's room, Song Yao called him to help unload the goods.When he was sweating profusely and went to the bathroom after unloading, the room passing by Dong Xun smelled faintly of alcohol.

He went back to his room and changed his clothes, came out and glanced at Song Yao who was cleaning the table outside, then turned around and entered Dongxun's room and locked it with his backhand.

Dong Xun didn't eat much of the lunch on the table, it was already cold now.

Dong Xun sat on the ground, holding a notebook in his hand.In fact, he didn't quite remember what was written in the notebook, and he was even more in a trance after drinking, and he even forgot what the notebook was like.

He tried his best to recall, when he heard the sound of the door opening and closing and locking, he raised his eyes full of drunken haze.He asked softly, "Is it Ji Qiu?"

Xiang Bei also heard drunkenness from his tone and voice, and walked up to him and stood down and stared at him.

If there is no response, it will be Ji Qiu.Dong Xun thought.

He patted the floor beside him and "invited" to sit down to the north.Xiang Bei was a little dazed—Dong Xun never took the initiative to give "Ji Qiu" any chance to get close to him, and even moved him into his room by himself.

"Do you drink?" Dong Xun took a can of wine from his side and handed it to Xiang Bei, "It seems that there are no guests today, so you can have a drink."

"Come with me for a drink."

Dongxun, who has always been calm and alienated in front of Ji Qiu, now softly "shows weakness" to him.

He took the wine, held it in his hand and didn't open it.

After a moment of silence, Xiang Bei heard Dong Xun let out a long sigh, and said lightly, "Why should I go home with her? If I didn't go home with her when I was young, I wouldn't have met Xiang Bei."

These words suddenly exploded in Xiang Bei's ears, a huge wave from the bottom of his heart overturned his normal breathing and heartbeat.He turned sideways to look at Dong Xun.Moving his lips, he almost blurted out Hu Dongxun's name.

"Actually, I'm really bad." Dong Xun said, "Obviously I'm the one who left, and it's me who's going to disappear, but it's me who can't let go from the beginning to the end."

"Actually, after so many years of tossing around, everyone is tired. I have to ask for love or not, and he can't give me a clear answer. I really want too much."

Xiang Bei didn't respond, Dong Xun didn't even care if he listened or not, and continued to say:

"When I was young, my mother told me that the reason why Xiangbei was so hostile to me was because my sudden appearance made him feel that the love he got was divided, not because he hated me.

"But——I was kind to him because I felt guilty. Later, when I loved him, he didn't know anything. He just regarded me as a brother he could trust after hard work. It was me who made him unable to see himself clearly. He gave birth to me. Angry, I think it should be."

Xiang Bei was stunned, and then an indescribable emotion spread from the bottom of his heart to his whole body, hitting every cell directly.

During that time, when he just found out that Dong Xun liked him, he suffered every day.He didn't know that Dongxun knew everything, so he allowed himself to spoil his feelings even more unconditionally.

But Dongxun actually said that he wanted too much.

He obviously didn't give him anything, how could he say that he asked for too much?

In that dark and damp alley, the fierce conflict between him and Yang Zhe made Dong Xun disappear from home, and he told himself that it was Dong Xun's own choice—under Dong Xun's shelter, he was used to shirking responsibility, he Put all the responsibility on Dongxun for being so conflicted and unable to tell whether Dongxun is a brother or a lover.

The incompleteness of his family made him afraid of the unknown and out of control since he was a child, and Dong Xun has both.

He didn't know where Dongxun came from, and whether he would leave him when he grew up. The busyness of Xiangrui in junior high made him have no choice but to approach Dongxun. He had to temporarily let go of his absolute desire to control at home and accept it completely. Dong Xun's gesture of favor.

But he didn't expect that Dongxun would fall in love with him because of this - he should be in his own hands.He will be happy when he is happy, and he will be sad when he is sad. He was able to survive that winter because of Xiang Rui's charity.

But how could he just fall into the boundless love for himself without permission.

This person is no longer in my control—he thought so ten years ago, so he decided to be with Dongxun to make up for the part of him that was out of control, and regain control of Dongxun's feelings.

Then he turned Dongxun into such a person who loves so much but can't let go, he is happy and painful, he can clearly feel that Dongxun is his, and the rest is all guilt and pain .

Dongxun's departure half a year ago made him sober, and he found that his paranoid and persistent control seemed so insignificant in front of love.

He loves Dongxun, and it was Dongxun's love that brought him back to his senses gradually. He followed the direction where Dongxun left, picked up his broken heart bit by bit, mended it carefully, and held it in the palm of his hand.

I traded his heart for my own, and finally felt all his love, and untied my knot.

He quietly let out a long breath, stared at the slightly drunk Dong Xun as if he had let go of all the restraints in his heart, and wrote in his palm: Boss, offended.

Dong Xun was stunned for a moment, and instantly felt that the world was turned upside down—he left the floor, and Xiang Bei picked him up by the waist and took a few steps, and put him safely on the bed.Then he half-knelt by the bed, grabbed his hand and wrote in his palm: You have a good rest.

Enduring until that moment just now, Xiang Bei had no concentration anymore. Looking at Dong Xun, who had a ruddy complexion and his eyes were not very clear, he decided to go out and sleep on the sofa because he was afraid that all his previous efforts would be wasted.

"Sorry North..."

Standing at the door, when he pressed the doorknob, he heard Dong Xun's voice was crying, and apologized cautiously.

In the dim afterglow of the setting sun, Xiang Bei curled up his mouth and smiled.

Although I don't know why you are still reluctant to blame me, but in fact, it is me who should apologize.he thinks.