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"Why are you called Xiaoman? Because of the solar term of birth?"

The little girl said yes.

"It's very nice. When I was a child, I went to school to learn solar term songs. Xia Manmang and summer heat are connected. It's very beautiful."

"I think your name sounds nice." Xiao Man asked, "This is the first time I've met someone with the surname Pei."

"I can hear my name a little bit because of my surname Pei. Isn't it weird if you change it to Niu Xu Gou Xu?" Pei Xu asked with a smile, "By the way, I've been calling you Xiao Man, what's your last name?"

The little girl was silent for a while, and said, "My surname is Niu."

Pei Xu: "..."

In the evening, the three of them went back to the guest house in the town and found a restaurant for dinner.

Lin Ke said, "I always feel that the little girl likes you a little bit. Have you noticed it yourself?"

"Isn't this quite normal? Is there anyone in the whole village who is more handsome than me? It's normal to have a crush on a handsome guy when you first fell in love." Pei Xu Sprite drank half of it, and felt that the taste was not right. It was Rebecca.Damn, it's knockoffs again.

"Don't tease the little girl." The senior sister also said.

"Am I this kind of person? I am loyal and unyielding to the other half." Pei Xu took two bites of food, "We are leaving in a few days, and the little girl didn't say anything, so it's not worth throwing cold water on others. If this This kind of ignorant emotion can motivate her to get out of here and go to college outside, which is also considered a merit."

"It's a bit difficult." Lin Ke sighed, "Xiaoman's classmate will get engaged in the second half of the year, so it's not certain whether Xiaoman can go to high school."

However, they can't do anything to help Xiaoman. The teachers here are not good, and Xiaoman's grades are relatively poor. Even if they go to school in their county now and spend a year of hard work, they may not be able to pass the high school entrance examination.Not to mention that her family didn't intend to let her give it a go, and just waited to finish compulsory education before learning a craft.

"Education is not valued here." Lin Ke sighed, "Life is not equal, and such a life can't catch up with others by flattering others."

Pei Xu thought of talking about teaching support with Randian's senior before, and the senior also said that the biggest trouble is that the local students who support teaching do not seek to make progress, and it is useless to change your life by teaching knowledge a hundred times, they are only satisfied with staying in the small Mountain village, graduated and became a social person.It's not that I haven't seen a better choice, but I have seen it. I feel that such a life is out of reach, so I just enjoy it first.It is much more comfortable to have fun in time than to work hard.

Pei Xu and the others have little social experience, so they can't think of any way to do it, just chatting and sighing, that's fine.

Before going to bed, Pei Xu fumbled on his phone wondering whether to call Zhong Jurui.Zhong Jurui was worried about his grandmother these days, and he really didn't have the spirit to flirt, and he didn't even know what to say when he called him.Sometimes Pei Xu also wanted to act coquettishly like before, saying something like "My delicate skin is sunburned, maybe you should rub it for me yourself", but when the words came to her lips, thinking that her mother-in-law might It was very uncomfortable, and it seemed too ignorant to say it, so I swallowed it.

He tossed and turned here and couldn't sleep, and Zhong Jurui was not much better.

My mother-in-law had a severe reaction to chemotherapy. She vomited until she vomited bile, and more than half of her hair fell out.The mother-in-law has no energy and has not spoken for several days, and Zhong Jurui is also very sad.

He heard Pei Xu complain that the sun is too poisonous, and there is always a dark villain in his heart. Before talking about her mother-in-law, she asked why you haven't come these days before chemotherapy, and still misses you. You are doing it yourself. Who told you to do it What kind of mountain research is nothing more than sunbathing. What is this? My mother-in-law has been unable to eat for four or five days, and she is as thin as a skeleton with a few bones piled up.

But he knew that these thoughts were all because of his bad mood, and he would never really say them out.

The mother-in-law was seriously ill, so Zhong Jurui looked at everything with malice, and his expression changed to that of frowning forever a few years ago.The man in bed No. [-] was picked up by his relatives, looking haggard and lacking energy.The fat man in bed No. [-] who just played with his mobile phone was also discharged from the hospital. His wife was seldom talkative, but she was considerate. When he was discharged from the hospital, the fat man seemed to have gained a lot of weight.A new patient came in, and there was only one bed left in this room. Chen Jiarui was an acquaintance. He had just finished the operation and hired a nurse to take care of him.

It was rare for the mother-in-law to say: "At the end of the day, I still need someone to take care of me, otherwise I will get sick and be alone, not as good as a wild dog on the side of the road."

Zhong Jurui wiped his grandmother's face.

The mother-in-law pulled him: "It's good that I have you, who will you have in the future? I don't feel at ease if I leave now."

Zhong Jurui said: "With you, I will have you when I get sick. We take care of each other."

"You treat me like a bastard, it's such a long life." The mother-in-law closed her eyes and fell into a drowsy sleep again.

The mother-in-law's words planted seeds in Zhong Jurui's heart.Especially after the first chemotherapy, my grandmother did not actively cooperate with the follow-up treatment, and she seemed to have the meaning of not wanting to continue chemotherapy, Zhong Jurui was very anxious.He worried that her mother-in-law didn't have the will to survive, so she was so negative.

——If there is a girlfriend, let the mother-in-law see his hope of starting a family, will the mother-in-law be happier?Be more optimistic about treatment, too?

Zhong Jurui couldn't help but think so.

☆、Chapter 44

Pei Xu finally came out of the valley, his face was not tanned, the skin on the back of his neck had been peeled off twice, and the lower legs were full of scars left by mosquito bites and scratches—the mosquitoes in the village were too powerful to fight. Pei Xu, who had never seen mosquitoes in the summer, was willing to bow down.

Xiao Man took a few group photos with him, and said that when he grows up, he will go to City A to find him.

"Okay, I hope you will come to college." Pei Xu did not tell the cruel truth in the end, but still sincerely blessed him.He rummaged around, but couldn't find a decent gift, so he gave Xiaoman a book he brought.

Xiaoman didn't say anything.

On the way from the county town to the nearby city by bus, Lin Ke and his senior sister leaned together in disgrace to catch up on sleep.Pei Xu didn't feel sleepy, and when he was looking for a tissue, he found a tube of aloe vera gel in the small pocket on the side of the backpack. The printed Korean characters were blurry, and Pei Xu always felt that it was a counterfeit product.But he didn't lose it.After much deliberation, only one person could possibly send this.I don't know when this little girl slipped into the town and asked several shops to find it.

Pure, ignorant, unresponsive, unrequited, teenage crush.

Pei Xu suddenly felt a little sad.He doesn't seem to have had this period.

Childhood, adolescence, including chasing Zhong Jurui later, I had a lot of thoughts in my mind, and I could do whatever I wanted, except there was no such moment of innocence.However, after a not-so-good beginning, there is still a relatively good process, and Pei Xu is grateful.

He suddenly missed Zhong Jurui very much.

There was an accident on the highway and there was a brief congestion.Pei Xu twisted his neck and sent Zhong Jurui a WeChat message to report this boring news.

The phone vibrated twice in his trouser pocket, but Zhong Jurui had no time to take it out to look at it.As soon as he came home, Chen Xiaoju made some soup according to the doctor's order and asked him to bring it to his mother-in-law, saying that it might improve his appetite.In order to prevent the insulated lunch box in his hand from tilting and overflowing with soup, Zhong Jurui had to raise his hands high and squeeze through the crowded back door of the bus—his movements were funny, as if he raised his hands in surrender.

Zhong Jurui has recently started to take on small projects piecemeal - he can't be idle all the time while taking care of his mother-in-law.The ward is full of patients, and they have to rest at night, and typing on the keyboard will disturb others. It is inconvenient for Zhong Jurui to stay up late to work, so he can only wait for his grandmother to fall asleep, and sit in the corridor with his computer in his arms.Fortunately, the weather is not cold, except for the smell of disinfectant water, which makes people sick to the stomach, there is nothing wrong with it.

Continuously staying up all night and the smell of pungent disinfectant greatly spoiled Zhong Jurui's appetite. He didn't eat much for several days, and he would walk like a wandering spirit.

The sun was drying out the sweat on the forehead, and the eyes were also stinging.

Zhong Jurui walked quickly into the gate of the inpatient department and up the stairs.

The footsteps were so vacant, Zhong Jurui's heart was beating wildly, his ears were buzzing, the voices of noisy people fluctuated, and the world turned gray and white.He stopped to support the handrail of the stairs, and subconsciously felt that it was full of bacteria. A nausea surged up, and he frowned and moved his hand away.He closed his eyes and opened them again, his eyes were still gray and white, as if he had sweated a lot in an instant, he suddenly couldn't breathe, he fell down with a "boom", his forehead hit the steps heavily.

He felt that someone was calling someone, someone was carrying him to a certain place, but he had no energy to respond.

Someone listened to his heartbeat and opened his eyes, and someone vaguely said that it was nothing serious.

Zhong Jurui woke up quickly, and he was conscious when he passed out.It was only 10 minutes at the most, and when he slowed down, he opened his eyes.

——Long-term insomnia and fasting for too long lead to hypoglycemia.

He sat up slowly, and found himself placed on a bench opposite the nurse's station, and the familiar Nurse Liang handed him a bottle of oral glucose solution.

"Let me wipe your forehead." Nurse Liang said, "See if the wound needs stitches."

Zhong Jurui took out his mobile phone and clicked on the front camera, only to find that half of his forehead was covered in blood, which looked scary.

After wiping off the blood, I found that the cut was not big, but deep, just half a centimeter below the hairline, and the hair could not be seen clearly even if the hair was covered.

"Fortunately, the hole is not big, so it's fine without stitches. There may be scars."

"Thank you." Zhong Jurui whispered after drinking the glucose solution.He was holding a small bottle in his hand. Anyway, his fingers were stained with blood and it was already dry, so he could rub it hard to get it off.

He rubbed his index finger silently until the nurse applied the gauze on him.

"Is there no one else at home? It's very difficult to take care of him alone." Nurse Liang knew the general situation of his family and couldn't help but say.She had seen too many patients, so she would not easily soften her heart for them, but this young boy who was always silent still made her sigh.

Zhong Jurui smiled politely, but didn't answer.He took the insulated lunch box and walked to the mother-in-law's ward. He hesitated as he approached the door, turned into the nearby toilet, tore off the gauze, and fiddled with his forehead hair to cover the small wound.Only then did he cheer up and went in again.

Four or 10 minutes ago Pei Xu sent, "There is a traffic jam. I want to be stuck in a place like this with you. I wonder if you can understand what I mean."

Stuck on a road, no need to move forward, no need to retreat, just stand still in place, pretending to be a short eternity.

After Zhong Jurui fed her mother-in-law soup, she took the thermos bucket to wash, and finally freed up one hand to reply.He didn't have the luxury of being stuck in the middle of the road—a state of mind that was too extravagant.He hurriedly sent it to Pei Xu to be careful not to get motion sickness, if he felt uncomfortable, he would go to sleep, put his phone back in his trouser pocket and stop looking at it.

——In the days when I was taking care of my mother-in-law, the battery of my mobile phone dropped very slowly.

After Pei Xu came back, she immediately came to see her mother-in-law.This day is just in time for grandma to go home.She underwent chemotherapy several times, and she was allowed to go home to recuperate and wait for the next arrangement.

The mother-in-law was very happy to see Pei Xu. While Zhong Jurui was going through the discharge procedures, the mother-in-law called Pei Xu to the small shop in front of the hospital and said she wanted to buy a hat.

"He's bald on the top of his head, like a skinny man." The mother-in-law disliked herself very much.

The velvet hats are too hot in winter, and the straw hats are not suitable for indoors. After choosing and choosing, my mother-in-law chose a bright yellow fisherman's hat.

"Show white?" the mother-in-law laughed, "cover it in the room, it's so white."

Pei Xu flattered her seriously: "It's very pretty and trendy. This is the most popular girls' hat."

The mother-in-law said that she wanted this, and the old woman also has spring.

The old lady wearing a bright yellow girl hat happily returned home, sweeping away her gloomy mood in the hospital.However, Zhong Jurui and Pei Xu were not in the mood to talk about love, so when they got home and had something to eat, Pei Xu said goodbye.

Zhong Jurui sent him to the platform, watched Pei Xu get into the car and sat by the window, lying on the edge of the bed, waving his hands gently at him, like a docile little fox wagging its tail.

Zhong Jurui leaned against the billboard on the platform, and also smiled and waved to the car. The evening wind blew his hair, revealing the scars that were no longer obvious.

Zhong Jurui returned home and went to grandma's room, where she was already sitting on the bed.Her cheeks were sunken under the incandescent light, but she was in good spirits.She wanted to insert the straw into the hole on the milk carton, but her hand trembled unconsciously, and she couldn't control it no matter what, she finally gave up and put the milk aside.

Zhong Jurui helped her put away the fisherman hat.

"Ju Rui." The mother-in-law called him, as if a bellows was stuck in her throat, and she spoke loudly.

Zhong Jurui hurriedly asked what was wrong, if he felt uncomfortable.

"Come here, I want to say a few words to you."

Zhong Jurui moved the chair closer, sat down and held her mother-in-law's hand.Grandma's hands were covered with calluses and age spots, and they were rough to the touch. There were raised blood vessels on the back of the hands, and they were covered in blankets all the time, so they were very warm.

"Let's die next time, okay?" The mother-in-law said with a slight smile.

"What nonsense are you talking about! Have you heard someone say something and you're thinking again?" Zhong Jurui was anxious.

"No, I thought about it myself. I started thinking about it a long time ago." The mother-in-law said, "I am over 70. How many years can I live without illness or disaster? I don't want to worry about it anymore."

"Are you worried about money?" Zhong Jurui said, "We are not short of money. We can reimburse many medicines, which is not much. We can afford it."

He got up and wanted to show his grandma the deposit and the reimbursement form, so that grandma could rest assured.

"It's not about money. It's because I don't want to be treated. I don't want to be treated when I find out in spring. Surgery, medicine, chemotherapy, how uncomfortable, people who are not sick don't know. I am older, and I am older than before. I'm still afraid of pain, and I don't want to torment myself." The mother-in-law held Zhong Jurui's hand, "I have been cooperating with the treatment, because I don't want to give up too early and make you feel uncomfortable."

——I was worried that if I gave up directly at the beginning, Zhong Jurui would blame myself when I left, why I didn't force my mother-in-law to get medical treatment at that time.Because he didn't want Zhong Jurui to leave regrets in his heart, he endured the pain of chemotherapy, lost his hair and lost his appetite, and endured convulsions and shivering in bed late at night.

Now that it has been cured, everyone understands that it is only a matter of time.She also didn't want to wait for the doctor to announce "conservative treatment is recommended, go home and eat something good", and Zhong Jurui would be in a dilemma as to what to tell herself.Instead of leaving in such a disgraceful way, it is better to say open, and not to leave any regrets for each other before the worst time.

——However, there is no way to solve problems in life, no matter what you do, it is wrong.

"I don't want to make trouble anymore, okay?" The mother-in-law smiled and patted Zhong Jurui's head.

Zhong Jurui wanted to say no.He wants her mother-in-law to continue to treat and live.With such advanced medical skills, it will always be cured. How can the doctor give up without a verdict.But he couldn't tell, the mother-in-law wanted conservative treatment, but she still had to think about him in every possible way, afraid of his embarrassment, as if life should not be her own decision.

The sentence "I don't want to be treated anymore, can you tell me?" I don't know how many times the old lady opened her eyes in the middle of the night and thought about it before she made up her mind to say it.

From the palm of his hand to the bottom of his heart, he is like a lump of ice, and grandma's hand can't cover the heat.

The mother-in-law said: "I have raised you for more than [-] years, and I have only raised Pingru for more than [-] years."

Zhong Jurui lowered his head.

The mother-in-law said, "I really miss Pingru. I don't know if I can recognize her."

Zhong Jurui's tears fell on the quilt.

Grandma fell into memories, staring blankly at the wall, as if she had dreamed of Pingru once, and Pingru was not young, but turned into a middle-aged woman.Hey, I don’t know if I will meet you below one day, can you recognize it?

Zhong Jurui quietly wiped away tears, with red eyes, forced a smiling face: "You will always see my mother, why don't you stay with me for a few more years? Don't you love me? Don't you want to watch me get married? ?”

The mother-in-law leaned on the pillow and whispered, "I discussed it with you because it hurts you. If you can't say it well, we will continue to treat it. Just pretend I didn't say it."

"Get a good sleep first, let me think about it." After a long silence, Zhong Jurui said.

The mother-in-law only had a few strands of sparse hair, and when the hat was taken off, it was a mess.She combed her hair with her fingers, unwilling to lie down in such a disheveled state.

Zhong Jurui stood at the door and waited for grandma to lie down completely before turning off the light.

Looking from a distance through the gradually narrowing crack of the door, the middle of the quilt is raised, and only a human figure can be vaguely seen.

Zhong Jurui walked to his room, pulled the door mechanically, stepped in, closed it, and leaned against the door.His usual expression of no joy or anger suddenly shattered, as if a huge sorrow kept pouring out, he was about to drown in the river.He looked up, the tears couldn't stop, he could even feel those tears flowing to his temples and ears.

Tears are hot.Ah, it turns out that the tears are so hot.

He couldn't control his expression, he raised his head and cried ferociously, embarrassedly, and silently.I cried until my nose was buzzing, and my chest tightened as if I was choking, and then I walked back to the bed in a daze.

He was scared, and he didn't want to do this kind of multiple choice questions at all.

The author has something to say: It should be enough to suppress another two or three chapters.

☆、Chapter 45

Because she decided to give up after only one chemotherapy, the doctor had to make a new conservative treatment plan for her mother-in-law.Seeing Zhong Jurui's worried expression, Nurse Liang called him to stop, and said in relief that radical treatment is generally not recommended for older people, and going home to recuperate is a better choice.

"Your mother-in-law reacted too much before, and chemotherapy may not be able to bear it. It is a good thing to give up early."

Zhong Jurui nodded and said thanks.

He helped his mother-in-law to stop a taxi at the entrance of the hospital. The moment he raised his hand, the wind blew up his coat, and his tall and thin figure was precarious.

He only invested in two companies this fall, and both received offers in advance, so he simply didn't want to find another company.After comparing the two offers, I finally chose a machine learning algorithm engineer from a large factory because of the salary.

"Doesn't artificial intelligence bubble?" Pei Xu lay on the lawn of the school, biting the wooden stick of Little Pudding between his upper and lower canine teeth, squinting his eyes to see the students practicing roller skating in the open space in the distance. He is going to the School of Computer Science this semester. After listening to the elective course, I only felt that the AI ​​was blowing too much, "Xiao Zhong, is your career choice too rash?"

Zhong Jurui pondered for a while: "This high-end talent is fearless. Anyway, whoever gives the most money at this stage is the father."

When he said this, his own father, Zhong Jianxing, didn't know where his brain was broken, so he called him and asked him how he was looking for a job in his senior year.

"Hey, you still remember that I'm looking for a job this year." Zhong Jurui replied, trying to remove the wooden stick between Pei Xu's teeth, with a smile in his voice, "You're amazing."

Zhong Jianxing was very unhappy and asked him what tone he was in - Zhong Jurui used to attack himself, so he could be regarded as ignorant, and now he is about to enter the society, why is he still so immature?

Since his mother-in-law was receiving conservative treatment at home, Zhong Jurui let go a lot - the most important things in his life are only two people, as long as these two people are safe and sound, everything else doesn't matter. If he wants to understand this point, he can't even talk to Zhong Jurui. The malice and resentment that Lite had had had disappeared.At this time, he said seriously: "I haven't found a suitable one, and I may have to take the civil servant test. What is your current title, can you promote me?"

Zhong Jianxing hung up the phone with a "snap".

"I guess it will be quiet in the second half of the year." Zhong Jurui shrugged and asked to put the phone back.

"Hey, give me your phone, and I'll save some beautiful photos in your phone." Pei Xu grabbed the phone and asked, "You don't like your dad so much?"

"It's not that I don't like it, it's the same as when I received a harassing phone call to sell insurance." Zhong Jurui thought about it and said, "I hold grudges more."

"What kind of revenge method?"

"If you make me unhappy..."

Pei Xu immediately responded: "You have been holding back your unhappiness."

Zhong Jurui laughed out loud: "Am I so cowardly?"

"It's Mensao." Pei Xu took a selfie with wink on the phone camera, "How is mother-in-law today?"

"It's pretty good." Zhong Jurui thought about it, "I'm better than before I was hospitalized, and I even invited someone to play mahjong this morning."

"So brave?"

"No, she's watching the cards and listening to the excitement." Zhong Jurui's expression became gloomy again, "I'm not at home, it's really uncomfortable for her to be alone without hearing any noise from the house."

Pei Xu sat up in silence for a while, then sat up, and said, "Look at this teaching building, the bathroom is very nice after renovation, it makes people dream about it."

Zhong Jurui took the opportunity to pick up the two reference books that Pei Xu had just placed under his head, and was about to go to the library to return them later. Hearing this, he followed Pei Xu's gaze to look at the teaching building in the distance.

"Is there a chance to do it?"

"What?"

"Tsk. Passionate play." Pei Xu said: "You don't even read Xiao Huangwen? Are you more pure than this pure beauty?"

Zhong Jurui didn't bother to talk to him, and let him fume.

Pei Xu said solemnly: "I'll make up for you. I don't know if you have read such a story. The protagonists are two brothers, let's call them Pei Pei and Zhong Zhong. This Pei Pei is young and ignorant, and Zhong Zhong is innocent. It’s harder to say, it’s a boring one. One day Pei Pei found Zhong Zhong doing that dirty thing by himself in the toilet.”

Zhong Jurui hit Pei Xu on the head with the textbook, and said with a smile, "What kind of story are you making up? And doing dirty things, your uncle's dirty things."

"My uncle must have done such dirty things. There's nothing wrong with admitting it." Pei Xu said with a smile, "Don't interrupt, just listen to the author of this yellow article. Pei Pei asked, brother Why is your bottom swollen! It's as swollen as a Sichuan-style sausage!"

"Chuan Shi, your uncle."

"The Cantonese style is too thin and does not match the real thing. Although the Sichuan style is not up to standard, it is better than the Cantonese style." Pei Xu deliberately looked at Zhong Jurui's crotch, grinning, "Listen to my story! Then This Zhong Zhong felt ashamed and said that I was actually poisoned. When Pei Pei heard this, it’s okay? I want to detoxify my brother. So he immediately... Hey, have you seen costume dramas? You have to suck it out yourself.”

Zhong Jurui put his hand on his forehead, and said with a smile: "Hey, you can forget about talking in the middle of the night. It will be broad daylight and you are still on the school lawn. Are you ashamed?"

Pei Xu ignored him, immersed in the plot: "Pei Pei sucked hard, and the white venom was sucked out, Zhong Zhong said thank you for saving my life, but my poison attacks once a day, tomorrow you will return it You have to detoxify me."

Zhong Jurui was speechless: "This Zhong Zhong is quite scheming."

"Isn't it?" Pei Xu said, "The simple Pei Pei was deceived like this, saying it's okay, wrapping it on my mouth, but when he lowered his head, Pei Pei said with a mournful face, Zhong Zhong, your poison is still contagious! I am also swollen Wake up, suck the poison out of me quickly!"

"Okay, these two are just practicing inhalation/refinement in the toilet, and I'll go on stage after you release inhalation." Zhong Jurui smiled after thinking about it, and slapped Pei Xu on the back of the head, "If you have nothing to do, can you be more serious?" Fuck, what kind of yellow waste is in my head."

Pei Xu laughed and wanted to lie down on the lawn again, his head almost touched the grass and was caught by Zhong Jurui's palm.

"I took the book away, and you just lay your pillow on the grass, is it dirty?"

Pei Xu looked at Zhong Jurui with a full smile, with a gentle gleam in his eyes.

——There are days of gloom and gloom, but after a long time of gloom, you must always learn to enjoy the bitterness.Humans have an emotional immune system, and there is always some bluff joy amidst the anxiety.Zhong Jurui's palm was scratched by Pei Xu's short hair, and he was very grateful to Pei Xu for always providing such happy ingredients.After he finished going to the library, he was going back to accompany his grandmother, leaving only Pei Xu wandering around the school.Pei Xu suddenly felt bored, so he simply became self-willed, and didn't want to go to evening class, so he skipped class and went back to his home.

Sister Xue pretentiously set up an afternoon tea, bought a box of macarons, took pictures for a long time, and asked Pei Xu to have a taste.

Pei Xu wasn't interested. After changing his slippers, he wanted to go back to his room, and said, "What's so delicious about this damn sweet thing made out of pigment and sugar?"

"You know fart." Sister Xue said, "The reputation of macarons in the dessert industry is that of girls' breasts."

"Oh?" Pei Xu raised his eyebrows and smiled wickedly, "Then I'm not interested in girls anymore, I'm still willing to try a boy's dick."

Sister Xue suddenly felt that the box of macarons had become particularly disgusting, and couldn't help the groundhog screaming.

Pei Xu shrugged and returned to his room, turned on the computer, and there were several manuscripts in his local file.

I clicked on it casually, glanced twice, and then closed it again. Looking at the document was also very unpleasant, so I simply dragged it into the trash can.

— Tired of writing unresponsive manuscripts, tired of pretending to be smart.Looking back at what he had written, he felt very dissatisfied—the cynicism seemed to be a form of performance, which only satisfied himself.This kind of anxiety is cyclical, and every once in a while I have to doubt the use of what I do.

Retired Professor Hou recommended him to a former student of his. The senior was in his 30s and served as the deputy editor of a current review newspaper. After reading what he wrote, he said that he was very brave and childish.

"You can calm down. Talking to you always makes me feel that you are holding back."

Pei Xu thought to himself that he was holding his breath, which might be affected by his family circumstances.But he also felt that it was lazy introspection to push all personality problems and behaviors to family circumstances.

--funeral.

An extremely anxious funeral exclusively for young people.

He clicked on his mailbox and saw that it had been sent. The last time he sent an email to Zhong Jurui was a year ago.After the relationship is stable, he doesn't care much about these forms. What happened one after another this year really makes people unhappy, so he is not in the mood to continue his love letter project.He propped his chin and looked at the monitor for a while, then sent another email on a whim.

"Good night, I wish you no dream."

The mother-in-law buried half of her face in the shadow of the fisherman's hat, and she was still on the rocking chair, as if she was asleep.Zhong Jurui walked over and smelled a strong smell of medicine.

Two days ago, Chen Xiaoju didn't know where to get a folk prescription, she brought ginseng, centipede and bellflower, and asked her mother-in-law to boil Chinese medicine.Zhong Jurui doesn't really believe in traditional Chinese medicine, and always feels that it is unreliable to look at it. The mother-in-law said it's okay, let's endure it. She always has good intentions. If you have an appetite, you can drink a little, and if you don't, you will pour it out. people.

Zhong Jurui knelt down to observe her mother-in-law, and couldn't help stretching out his index finger to sniff. Feeling the weak air current, he silently withdrew his hand.He moved a small bench and sat next to his mother-in-law, just looking at her wrinkles, sunken eye sockets, and even the gum in the corners of her eyes.

There was a distant sound of a bicycle bell ringing outside.Chen Xiaoju from the neighbor's house didn't know what was burnt, and the smell wafted across the yard and pierced people's noses.

"Dong dong" someone knocked on the door again, before the people inside could answer, they came in first.

Zhong Jurui frowned, a little unhappy.The mother-in-law has not been sleeping very well, and it is rare for her to sleep deeply. He doesn't want others to disturb her.

However, the mother-in-law has been awakened.She opened her eyes and saw Zhong Jurui laughing first, touched Zhong Jurui's hand to see if he was cold, and then greeted outside the door.It was another neighbor who came, holding a child who had just turned one month old.

"When the baby cries, I'll take her around."

Sure enough, the baby's face was also crying, and then he calmed down, looking around with dark eyes.

The mother-in-law was very happy and kept talking to the young daughter-in-law.

"The baby likes your house, as soon as he cries and hugs him, he will be here for a while." The young woman said.

The mother-in-law used her mouth to make a "beep beep" sound to tease the child.

Zhong Jurui stood by and watched, not thinking that the child was so good-looking, like a monkey.When people reach a certain age, they feel cute when they see a child, and can't help teasing them. I really don't know why.

"Ju Rui is not young anymore." The woman saw Zhong Jurui and said, "One year younger than me?"

"One year younger." The mother-in-law also took a look at Zhong Jurui and said, "I'm still young, I haven't graduated from university yet."

"That's right, high-achieving students get married late." The woman said a little embarrassedly, "It's only for those of us who didn't go to college to have children so early."

"How could it be? You are destined to have a family. How nice it is to have a happy family." The mother-in-law said flatteringly.

Zhong Jurui stood for a while and then went back to his room, he was quite busy with things at hand.In the afternoon, a classmate introduced him to a private job. Party A didn’t understand anything, and felt that “everything is ready, only a programmer is missing.” It took a lot of time to communicate with that person. Made me want to drop my phone several times.By the time he walked out of the room again, the neighbor had already left.

The mother-in-law looked at his back preparing dinner and said, "It's just a pity that I didn't see your family settle down."

Zhong Jurui was very afraid that her mother-in-law would tell her her wish.

But the mother-in-law said: "There are always regrets in life, and I can't be happy. I think it's good for you." Thinking about the visitor just now, she said, "It's hard to marry early and have an ugly child."

Zhong Jurui laughed: "I thought you thought that kid was cute."

"Cute is cute. There's no such thing as a cute child." The mother-in-law also laughed, "But it's also ugly. When you were your age, you had round eyes, double eyelids, and a high nose bridge. You looked good at first glance."

"How can a child see a high nose bridge?" Zhong Jurui laughed sullenly.

"Why can't you see this? You'll know when you're born. Anyway, your child won't be ugly, I'm confident." The little old lady started to talk nonsense again.

The light is warm yellow, Zhong Jurui is standing in front of the gas stove, the pot is steaming.

In the evening, he flipped through his phone and saw a few more selfies of Pei Xu lying on the lawn in the afternoon in the photo album.There are all kinds of weird angles, even those with the chin up, but they can't stop people from looking good.He watched it for a while, then called Pei Xu.

"Are you asleep?" Zhong Jurui asked.

Pei Xu had just taken a shower, his hair was still wet, and he was looking in the mirror: "No, what are you doing?"

"I want to discuss something with you." Since her mother-in-law said that there are always regrets in life and that she can't live up to her expectations, Zhong Jurui is thinking about not letting her mother-in-law have any regrets. As many as a year..."

Pei Xu stopped still.

"I don't want her to still worry about my life in the end, so I thought about asking some friend to pretend to be my girlfriend and have a meal with her in two days, so that she can put this stone down in her heart." Zhong Jurui said, "There is no No other meaning, let her be happy."

"Then what do you mean by telling me?"

"Just to tell you, I just called a friend to comfort my mother-in-law. I have no other ideas. Maybe I can find Zhou Xin. We both know each other, so you can rest assured."

"Oh, it's good. I have nothing to worry about."

"I'm afraid you'll be unhappy." Zhong Jurui looked at the ceiling, "If you think it's a bad idea, forget it. I don't want you to be unhappy."

Pei Xu laughed: "The sky is big and the earth is big, mother-in-law is the most important thing now. Zhou Xin is pretty good, let her go, it's appropriate to ask her for help."

Zhong Jurui finally felt relieved, and said cautiously: "Then I'll invite her to dinner in two days and tell her about it. You can come with me when the time comes, um, you can also come with her when she comes to my house."

"Why? Let me watch you?" Pei Xu said.

"No... It's just meeting the parents... I really hope you'll be there." Zhong Jurui was silent for a while and said, "Is that okay?"

He wanted to say, don't give up on me, I need your support so much, but he was embarrassed.So he thought about it and only dared to ask "Is it okay?"

Pei Xu said yes, hung up the phone, continued to wipe his hair, and sighed imperceptibly.

——It’s hard not to feel tired if you have to be sensible.

The author has something to say: The three-dimensional is very busy, and the update is irregular, sorry.

☆、Chapter 46

Zhong Jurui's plan was very careful. He first hinted that it would be nice for his mother-in-law to have a girl, and then made excuses to return home late on Christmas Eve.

The mother-in-law lay on the bed and asked if she was dating that girl.

"Just to have a meal, not to the extent of a date." Zhong Jurui stuffed the charged hand warmer into her mother-in-law's hand, "I'll try to come back as soon as possible."

"You have to pay, don't be stingy." The mother-in-law said.

"Understood. Be careful by yourself, and call me if you feel uncomfortable."

Looking at the back of Zhong Jurui wearing a scarf, the mother-in-law suddenly said, "Xu Xu hasn't been here for a long time, is he busy?"

"Get busy, it's almost the end of the term." Zhong Jurui rubbed his nose, "I'll call him to see you in two days."

"Don't come here if you're busy, let him be busy with his business."

Zhong Jurui let out an "um" and gently helped her mother-in-law to change her clothes.