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Unfortunately, I don't think there is anything to miss.There is no fragrant grass anywhere in the world.Hey, don't get me wrong, I'm not taking the opportunity to advertise myself. "

Zhong Jurui rubbed his forehead and smiled.

"Some loves are especially unforgettable, but they are only suitable for unforgettable. If you wrong yourself in the end, it is absolutely unacceptable. It hurts your heart and self-esteem like you fall in love, it is really a loss!"

Zhong Jurui said: "You probably grew up surrounded by the love of your parents and friends."

Yan Xi didn't know how the conversation turned a corner here.

"I have an observation that is not necessarily accurate. All children who grow up surrounded by love are confident, open-minded, and have a graceful attitude when they fall in love. If you don't love me, then I won't love you. It’s just a small grievance, the love education they have experienced will eventually guide them to another confident and open person. This feeling is something that people like me can’t learn no matter how hard they try.”

Yan Xi asked: "Then what kind of person are you?"

Zhong Jurui said: "I'm... I never ate maltose when I was a child, thinking that I would never need maltose when I grew up, but I became addicted after trying it once."

Zhong Jurui obviously didn't want to talk any more, he pointed to the intersection ahead and asked Yan Xi to let him go.

Yan Xi watched him get off the car, and saw Zhong Jurui's back, tall and upright.She got a glimpse of Zhongju Rui's other side under the skin, but that side clearly said do not disturb strangers.

Maybe Zhong Jurui is still a child in his heart, and you can't reason with a child to let him give up his obsessed maltose for the sake of dignity and perhaps better chocolate toffee.For that dead child, there are too few things in his hands, and the maltose he has is the whole world.

He just waited stubbornly for Maltose.

Zhong Jurui looked back on his own life. In fact, he has never felt safe. His mother-in-law has done well enough, but he is just like other children on the surface. Sometimes he thinks that he is not sunny enough, and even feels guilty towards his mother-in-law. .He's reserved, unsociable, and whatever happens he always feels it's because he wasn't good enough.He is sensitive, but emotional. Sometimes he is a good person, and he would rather suffer a bit of trouble than leave the people around him, but he is very contradictory and keeps a distance from the people around him, deceiving himself that as long as he does this, he will not be hurt. Others give up first.

During the sleepless nights, Zhong Jurui committed suicide countless times.Strip away the past and judge yourself as a stranger.He even felt that although Pei Xu's departure made his heart ache, it also made a stone fall from his heart.In the darkest part of his mind, he never believed he was that lucky.

He has always been very aware of his character flaws.

He walked under the street lamp, and the ground flickered.He thought of his father Zhong Jianxing again.When he was a child, on the day he was picked up by his grandmother, his stepmother packed up his things, and his dirty clothes were placed in an enamel basin alone, and he never washed them in the washing machine with the three of them.Zhong Jianxing knew but never said it.The stepmother used a plastic bag to pack the dirty clothes that hadn't been washed in time, and stuffed them casually into a bigger backpack.At that time, he always felt that it was because his clothes were too dirty, so he loved to clean up after arriving at his mother-in-law's house, but later he also realized that it was not the case.Grandma refused to enter Zhong Jianxing's house, and stood outside holding his hand. He looked back and saw that the gap in the door was gradually narrowing, but Zhong Jianxing didn't come out to see him off.Without saying goodbye, life with a father came to an end.When he grew up, no matter how much he bluffed towards Zhong Jianxing, he knew that he hadn't fully come out.

Why doesn't Zhong Jianxing love me?I thought about it, but I didn't think of an answer.

But it would be cowardly to attribute all character defects to childhood.Zhong Jurui was always unwilling to be a follower of Freud willingly.

He wandered downstairs for a long time that day, and caught a cold after taking a shower when he got home.He hadn't had a headache for two or three years, but he didn't expect that after catching a cold this time, the virus would attack fiercely, and he would have a top-heavy fever at home in the second half of the night, so he had to ask for sick leave, saying that he couldn't go on Sunday.

Zhong Jurui's lips turned white from the fever, and the antipyretics didn't work, so he got up with his clothes on and took a taxi to the hospital for emergency treatment.

Pei Xu has a few active WeChat groups, all of which are college classmates he has a good relationship with, and they are all majors, and they usually talk nonsense in there.

At two o'clock in the middle of the night, dozens of unread messages suddenly appeared in one of the groups.He clicked in and saw that it was discussing the sudden death of a programmer.

"120 rescue failed, so he was sent to the emergency department of our hospital for cardiopulmonary resuscitation."

"Really dead???"

"Yeah. Chest opening and cardiopulmonary compression didn't work either."

"very young?"

"Very young. What a pity. Hey."

Below are countless swiping screens saying "Don't stay up late, the dog's life is important."

Pei Xu dropped the phone.He is a typical night owl. He usually doesn't take a shower until two o'clock, which is too early for him to fall asleep.It was for this reason that he refused to go home to live. Originally, his brother and sister-in-law were nocturnal, but since the first two years, they have also started to maintain their health. They insist on working during the day and must go to bed before twelve o'clock.As long as Pei Xu stays up late at home, there will be two people talking about it.Thinking of Nagging, he also thought of Zhong Jurui, Zhong Jurui's work and rest is the most standard, not like young people, like retired grandpa, I don't know if he has changed after work.It is also difficult for him to go to bed early and get up early for a job like a programmer.

He has a book in his hand and is going to read this chapter before going to bed.Just about to charge the phone first, I accidentally clicked on the group chat again.

"Fuck, the latest news, the one who died suddenly was an alumnus of our University A!"

Pei Xu didn't know which nerve trembled slightly. He took a closer look and found that the company name above was Zhong Jurui's.

Pei Xu doesn't know how many programmers graduated from University A in this company, he thinks there should be no fewer than a few dozen.The probability that it happened to be Zhong Jurui was too low.Pei Xu casually clicked on the function of finding friends, and suddenly felt a little trembling in his heart - it's better to locate it in the community, which means that Zhong Jurui is sleeping.

His little broken network, the speed of the network is extremely poor, it took more than ten seconds to load it, and the small circle tremblingly located a hospital. H University Affiliated Hospital.

Pei Xu was stunned for a moment, and cursed in his heart, fuck it.

He immediately sent a WeChat message to the classmate in the hospital: "I can't remember which hospital you are in, is it the Fifth People's Hospital?"

That classmate was probably busy, and he didn't come back until several minutes later, Pei Xu's heart was about to fall into the frying pan.

"Did you remember correctly? I'm in the Affiliated Hospital of University H. What's the matter?"

thump.

Nourishing.

Heart oil cooking.

Pei Xu's heart was in a ball, his hands couldn't help shaking, he quickly jumped off the bed and turned around in the room.Gritting his teeth, he dialed the phone.I got through but no one answered.

It suddenly occurred to him that Zhong Jurui didn't even have a family member after his mother-in-law passed away.While changing clothes, his teeth chattered uncontrollably. He didn't know whether he touched the wallet on the table or stuffed it into his coat pocket, and ran out as if in a daze.

He stood on the side of the road and waited for a long time, only to realize that it would be midnight, and he couldn't get a taxi around his broken community, so he couldn't help but cursed repeatedly, and hurriedly called a taxi online.

He bit his lips tightly, his face was pale, his eyes were red, standing in the autumn wind, like a reed about to break at any moment.

☆、Chapter 57

Zhong Jurui was in a daze in the infusion room, his brains burned to the point of being cooked tofu, and he vomited profusely. He could only carry his infusion bottle in one hand and lean on the wall with the other to go to the bathroom. Every time he came back, he was sad to find that , because no one has occupied a seat for himself, and someone else has already sat where he was sitting before.After a while, two or three seats were changed.

At 02:30 in the morning, the fluorescent lamp was pale, and the uncle sitting opposite had already started snoring.Zhong Jurui fell asleep with his head on the back of the chair.He was so tired that he had no idea that the silent phone was in his pocket and the screen was on for a long time.

Pei Xu contacted a friend in the hospital, saying that he knew the one who died suddenly and that he was going to take a look, his voice was shaking all the time.

The friend was startled: "Do you know him? Really?"

"What about others? I'll go see him"

The friend said: "He has been sent to the morgue. His girlfriend is still going through the formalities, and he will cry and collapse. I will take you to find her first. Hey, you can persuade me."

Pei Xu's brain exploded, and he couldn't help repeating: "Girlfriend?"

"you do not know?"

Pei Xu froze there, saying incoherently: "I...I don't know...We were still in college..."

The friend stopped wasting with him: "Let's go there quickly, I still have a lot of things to do."

Pei Xu followed his friend in a daze, and the friend said that he forgot to worship the God of Duty today, and sure enough, the whole night was not peaceful. These words were like rolling wheels, and they couldn't roll into his ears.

Zhong Jurui has a girlfriend?

Yes, of course Zhong Jurui may have a girlfriend.

Pei Xu didn't know what kind of mentality he should use to face that girl, and the situation didn't allow him to do mental construction first, his brain was blank, and he sprained his ankle when he went up the stairs and he didn't seem to be conscious.

Sure enough, there was a girl sitting in the corner crying, crying until she was silent, beating her chest hard.

The friend was about to point it out to Pei Xu, when he turned his head, a line of tears rolled down Pei Xu's eyes, his whole face was pale, the friend was stunned for a moment.He patted Pei Xu's shoulder hard, and comforted him: "Don't feel too uncomfortable." Someone called him to urge him, and he promised to tell Pei Xu a few times: "I still have an emergency, call me if you have anything to do."

Pei Xu stood two steps away from the girl like a puppet, and suddenly felt a little grateful to his friend, and took him to the girl first instead of seeing Zhong Jurui first—his ghostly walking dead, compared with the people lying in the mortuary , It's really hard to say who is more like alive.

The girl hugged her knees and cried so intently that she didn't notice him.Pei Xu didn't move at all, he didn't feel that he was crying, he didn't feel any wailing at all, he was quiet, his face was icy cold, and his hands were covered with water when he touched it.

Approaching with the same hands and feet, he tripped again.

Pei Xu spoke with great difficulty: "Hello...I am his...friend." He was suddenly very sad. It turned out that Zhong Jurui died, and he could only say one thing, I am his friend.Fuck friends, how could they be summed up in just two words, friends.

But Zhong Jurui died and still had a girlfriend, Pei Xu didn't want to bring criticism to Zhong Jurui again, so he couldn't ask others to point out that the day Zhong Jurui died was really lively, and the guy who came was his ex-boyfriend.Zhong Jurui had never come out of the closet when he was alive, so he couldn't let him rest in peace when he died.

Pei Xu held back the great grief in his heart, squatted beside the girl, and tried his best to organize his words: "Is there anything you can do for me?"

The girl raised her head, her face was very delicate, her eyes were already swollen from crying.She watched Pei Xu weeping dumbly, as if she had come to her senses and grabbed a life-saving straw, she spoke incoherently: "I don't know, I really don't know... He said he was a little uncomfortable when he was having dinner, and he wanted to sleep. Then washing the dishes, I watched TV, and I went out for a walk with the dog... No matter how I called him, he didn't respond...Why? Why?"

She asked why repeatedly, leaning against the wall exhaustedly.

A little nurse came over reluctantly and said to Pei Xu: "Don't sit on the floor, the floor is so dirty, just around the corner is the infusion room, help her to find a bench to sit on for a while, and then hurry up Come and finish the formalities."

Pei Xu tried his best to lift the girl up and helped her in.He felt the cold body temperature of another person, and this thin body temperature gave him strength—fortunately, Zhong Jurui was not alone.He pretended to be a selfish person, only to find that at the juncture of his life, he was not as selfish as he thought.He didn't have time to be jealous, he just rejoiced, fortunately, someone had accompanied Zhong Jurui, and they had a dog, fortunately, this girl seemed to love Zhong Jurui very much.But he is very jealous, why is this person not him.

In the middle of the night, the infusion room was overcrowded. Pei Xu found a seat at the door for the girl to sit down. He walked out, took out a cigarette and put it in his mouth.The nurse pointed to the no-smoking sign and told him to go to the stairs of the safe passage.Pei Xu went in and sat on the stairs, shivering, staring blankly at the steps.

Zhong Jurui opened his eyes tiredly. The old man on the opposite side was really big-hearted, and his snoring was loud during the infusion.He woke up with a layer of sweat on his back, and couldn't fall asleep listening to the snoring.

He got up with the infusion bag and wanted to go to the bathroom to rinse his mouth.

There was a girl at the door with her legs stretched out into the aisle, covering her face and crying all the time. He glanced at it strangely and passed by slowly.Coming out of the bathroom, he took out his mobile phone to check what time it was, when Zhong Jurui suddenly found several missed calls.

Caller: Pei Xu.

Zhong Jurui thought he was dazzled, but he took another look, and it was true.The most recent call was made four or ten minutes ago.No matter how you think about making a three-way call, it is not a mistake in the middle of the night.

Do you want to call back.Zhong Jurui was entangled.I don't know why Pei Xu called me in the middle of the night, but I was afraid of embarrassment.He thought for a long time, and convinced himself with a strange reason: Maybe Pei Xu was kidnapped and secretly called for help.

Saving a life is better than building a seven-level pagoda, Zhong Jurui called back.There was a draft in the aisle that made him uncomfortable, so he accidentally pushed open the door of the safe passage on the right with his shoulder.There was a smell of tobacco, and there was a person sitting down the stairs with his back to him, the phone in his hand was buzzing and vibrating.

Oh, someone is here, Zhong Jurui is ready to go out.However, this door is a one-way door. He holds the mobile phone in one hand and the infusion bag in the other, and easily bumps in with his shoulder from the outside. It is a bit troublesome to get out, so he can only vacate the handle with one hand first.

Pei Xu didn't pay attention to the movement behind him, he looked at the name on the caller ID, his heart pounded, and when he returned to his senses, he thought that Zhong Jurui's cell phone might be in the hands of that girl, and it was the girl who called him, so he settled down to answer it.

"Hello?" Pei Xu said, "I'll have a cigarette, I'll be right over."The sound echoed in the empty corridor.

Zhong Jurui froze when he opened the door.He turned around mechanically, and asked tentatively, "Pei Xu?"

The back also froze.

Zhong Jurui thought to himself, did I have a fever and burned my brain?This is probably a dream, how could Pei Xu be here.He saw Pei Xu get up slowly and turn around - Pei Xu's complexion was very bad.

The lights in the stairs were not as bright as those outside, which made people pale.

Pei Xu looked up at the figure above the stairs, all the strong emotions couldn't hold back anymore.It turns out that the soul exists!Zhong Jurui's soul sensed that he was coming to him.

He hadn't finished his sedative cigarette, and he was completely out of his composure at the moment.

He cried so sadly, he said: "Are you here?"

Zhong Jurui stepped forward and touched Pei Xu cautiously. Pei Xu grabbed his hand and put it on his face. Many tears flowed into his palm.

Pei Xu laughed and cried: "So you can touch it."

Zhong Jurui asked in a hoarse voice: "What's wrong with you?" This touch was so real, Zhong Jurui thought, can you feel the cold temperature in your dreams?

Pei Xu said: "Do you have anything else to tell me? I heard that if a person has a last wish that is not fulfilled, the soul will not disperse. Tell me, and I will help you complete it."

Zhong Jurui thought to himself that in this dream, he was already dead.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Pei Xu stretched out his sleeves to wipe away his tears: "I don't know if you will come to see me in the future, I'm afraid you'll forget about me after drinking Mengpo soup." He didn't believe these things on Huangquan Road Yes, but since he could see Zhong Jurui's ghost, he immediately believed in all supernatural things, he said, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I regret my waywardness, I regret my own way, I regret everything. I never I haven't forgotten you, I love you. I hate myself very much, I know I'm arrogant, ignorant, arrogant, ruining people's minds, and I don't deserve a good death."

Zhong Jurui looked at Pei Xu's red and swollen eyes.He was really afraid to wake up and find that he was just sitting in the infusion room, and the old man was opposite him.The dream was so good that he didn't want to wake up.

Pei Xu wiped away his tears tremblingly and said: "God may be punishing me, so that I will never be able to repent. I know you may not want me anymore, you have a girlfriend, you... I will take care of her for you , you can rest assured."

Zhong Jurui thought, this dream is too bizarre, he actually has a girlfriend.

"I just beg you, if you don't hate me so much, don't disappear from now on, and come to my dream once in a while, okay?"

crunch--

Someone pushed open the door, and one person poked his head out. It was the nurse who asked Pei Xu to come here to smoke before, and said to Pei Xu: "If it's convenient, can I go through the remaining procedures for Wang Bingcheng?"

Pei Xu was stunned, and asked, "Who is Wang Bingcheng?"

Zhong Jurui asked: "What happened to Wang Bingcheng?"

"Didn't you stay with his girlfriend for a long time? Aren't you his friend?" The nurse said to Pei Xu, seeing that Zhong Jurui's infusion bag was almost empty, and said, "You should change the bottle, return the infusion immediately room."

Pei Xu was even more incredible: "Can you see him?"

The nurse gave him a look as if he was insane, and left directly.

Pei Xu really wanted to ask who Wang Bingcheng was.

He looked up at Zhong Jurui.

Zhong Jurui was obviously also very confused, because there was actually a colleague of his in the dream.

Their hands were still held together.

Pei Xu was stunned for a long time, then suddenly threw away his hand and shouted angrily: "Fuck!"

The hand was shaking too hard, and the infusion needle hurt a little bit.Zhong Jurui looked at the door, then at Pei Xu, and belatedly cursed "fuck".

☆、Chapter 58

Zhong Jurui suffered from headaches, migraines, and neuralgia. He helplessly stretched out an index finger to rub his temples. The light above his head dimmed for a second and then returned to brightness. The rhythm was like his beating eyelids.

Pei Xu leaned his back against the wall, in order to ease the embarrassment, he took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, put it in his mouth, and fumbled in his pocket but couldn't find the lighter, so he had to give up.

Zhong Jurui suddenly became angry: "Have you learned to smoke yet? Who did you learn from? What kind of virtue?"

Pei Xu bit his cigarette: "..."

The two looked at each other, and Zhong Jurui said angrily again: "Didn't you hear that she asked me to go back and change the infusion bottle? Why are you standing there stupidly? You asked me, a weak patient, to open the door?"

Pei Xu didn't feel weak from his cursing voice, but he still obediently took the cigarette out of his mouth, put it back in the case, and came over to pull the door.

Zhong Jurui walked over and stopped when they crossed shoulders. Their faces were separated by a palm. Pei Xu's eyes were bloodshot, his wet eyelashes were trembling, and his nose was also red.Zhong Jurui stared at it for two seconds, then said with a little disgust, "You're crying so stupidly." After finishing speaking, he ignored Pei Xu and went straight to the infusion room.

Pei Xu followed behind with lowered eyebrows, and suddenly felt that Zhong Jurui's tone when he said him at the end...was actually gentle.

Zhong Jurui changed the infusion bag, figured out what happened, and went to find the girl with Pei Xu.

Although Pei Xu is a fake friend, Zhong Jurui is a real colleague.They cannot sit idly by.

Pei Xu ran the errands for the procedures and advance payment. Zhong Jurui accompanied the girl on the phone to inform Wang Bingcheng's parents. The girl didn't dare to tell the bad news directly. She only said that their son was not feeling well and that he would be rescued in the hospital. They come quickly.

"If you have relatives and friends who live close together, ask them to drive you here. I'm worried that it's not safe for you to drive by yourself," the girl said.

"Okay, girl, do you have any money on hand? If you are in a hurry to pay the fee or something, please pay first, and we will be there soon." Wang Bingcheng's father said, "Don't worry about us, I'm afraid that Chengcheng needs relatives, The hospital can't find you." Then he said, "Good boy, don't be afraid, we can't mess ourselves up first, Chengcheng auspicious people have their own appearance."

"What can I say when they come..." After hanging up the phone, the girl covered her face and choked up.

Zhong Jurui held up the infusion bag with one hand and watched the liquid "tick" down in the infusion tube.Some people leave with a long prelude, like a mother-in-law, everyone around them is fully prepared, just waiting for the infusion bag to gradually empty; On the ground, torn apart, suddenly silent.

——It turns out that I have also reached the age when people around me will die.

Zhong Jurui and Wang Bingcheng have nothing to do with each other. They are not from the same class, and their jobs do not overlap, because they are alumni, and they are in some WeChat groups at the same time.Even in a group, he doesn't remember what Wang Bingcheng said in it. The other party is similar to himself, a Wannian diving party.In my impression, he was a tall, fat man with small eyes.At the company's annual meeting last year, Wang Bingcheng and his group went up to dance house dances, and the scene was very lively - chubby people always have a laugh on such occasions.The lights were dazzling, Zhong Jurui looked up and saw Wang Bingcheng was the lead dancer, dancing clumsily and cutely.

Like a stone thrown into the sea, some people disappear, never to be seen again.But you know that life is the sea, and the sea is a monster.Zhong Jurui shuddered.

When Pei Xu came back, there were some matters that could only be handled by immediate family members, and he was helpless.He silently pushed a bracket for hanging an infusion bag, took the bag from Zhong Jurui's hand and hung it up, and sat next to Zhong Jurui.

All three were silent.

Pei Xu wanted to go back a little bit.After such an oolong, his scalp tingled when he thought of facing Zhong Jurui alone after the girl left.

Zhong Jurui's head really hurts.He wanted to close his eyes and rest for a while, but he was afraid that Pei Xu would run away while he fell asleep.

He said, "Do you have a tissue? Give it to her to wipe her face."

Pei Xu said "Oh", and started to rummage through his clothes pockets - he didn't know that when he went out, he took something from the table and stuffed it into his pockets, groping, and took out keys, wallets, recording pens, earphones and a bag Unopened hotel disposable toothbrush.He fumbles in his pants pocket again, which reveals a lighter, a pack of tissues, and...a jar of toothpicks.

Pei Xu handed over the tissue, frantically stuffed the thing back into his pants pocket, accidentally knocked over the toothpick holder, and a dozen toothpicks fell out.Pei Xu quickly glanced at Zhong Jurui, and quickly squatted down to pick it up.

Zhong Jurui smiled silently, this smile was fleeting, and when Pei Xu sat back, Zhong Jurui just looked at the ground indifferently.

Wang Bingcheng's parents arrived.Zhong Jurui and the others were outsiders, so they didn't talk to each other, they just watched the girl go out from a distance.

Pei Xu watched the movement in the distance through the glass door of the infusion room.

"Don't look." Zhong Jurui clicked his chin on the left hand side, "Sit next to me."

Pei Xu still sighed to himself: "A man has reached middle age and lost his only son, how should he spend this night."

Zhong Jurui stared at Pei Xu and said, "Don't pretend you didn't hear."

Pei Xu didn't dare to look into Zhong Jurui's eyes, lowered his head and said, "I see that your infusion will be over after another half an hour, and there is no need for my help. I haven't slept all night, and this will cause chest tightness, which is very painful. Sleepy." Sure enough, he yawned as if he could fall asleep on the ground, "Our relationship is very awkward, you probably don't want to see me jumping around, and you're embarrassed to bother me, how about I..."

Zhong Jurui interrupted: "Why am I embarrassed to trouble you?"

Pei Xu: "..."

Zhong Jurui leisurely said: "I have an epiphany, I am the victim, you are the victim, why can't I be justified. I will trouble you today, and I will trouble you greatly."

Pei Xu was silent for a while and said, "We seem to have reached a consensus last time. Let the past go like a cloud. It's not the fault of one person. We should let go of the past and welcome a new life..."

Zhong Jurui said: "Oh, I was polite to you last time, did you really take it seriously?"

Pei Xu was speechless, and suddenly felt that Zhong Jurui was no longer the Zhong Jurui he used to be, this guy is very cunning now, very difficult to deal with.

Zhong Jurui looked at Pei Xu's tangled face, and he really had an epiphany: it turns out that being a demon is so happy.In the past, when Pei Xu was blasphemy everywhere, he could only run away, but now that he thinks about it, why did he run away?How much fun is lost in a shameless life!In this world, whoever is shameless is the king.Sure enough, it's cool to hate people for a while, and it's always cool to keep fighting.

He was willing to let the relationship matter come to an end because he felt that there was no play.But when he saw Pei Xu's distraught appearance today, and heard Pei Xu's choked and broken confession, he knew that there was still something to sing about in this play.Originally, all of this was like a geometry problem that people couldn't get started with, but the hand of fate set things right and drew a clear auxiliary line.Zhong Jurui figured it out as he stood on the stairs. There was a solution to this problem, and he didn't need to skip it hastily.

Zhong Jurui said rascally: "I have a headache."

"Then I'll call the nurse to take a look."

Zhong Jurui said: "Because I have been sitting all the time, my cervical spine is uncomfortable. Come here and give me a hand."

Pei Xu laughed, and said, "Mr. Zhong, you may not know much about the world. Generally speaking, people don't rest their heads on their ex-boyfriends."

"The case that the ex-boyfriend is a scumbag is out of the discussion."

Pei Xu: "..."

He babbled and sat up, giving up half of his shoulders.Zhong Jurui didn't come closer.

A middle-aged woman's cry could be faintly heard in the aisle.

Pei Xu asked: "At that time, you were also very sad." It was about the death of grandma.He was very cautious in his tone, afraid of hurting Zhong Jurui.

"There's more guilt than sadness."

The most painful time was actually when he was told by the doctor that there was no difference between treatment and treatment, but at that time he chose to bear this concern alone, and did not have a serious talk with Pei Xu—why didn’t he tell, probably subconsciously still felt that this was the case. his own business.

Zhong Jurui said: "It seems that once, I called you and asked you to tell a joke, do you remember?"

Pei Xu thought that Zhong Jurui was going to tell the story of the past that was full of depression in his heart, so he said with a serious expression, "I vaguely remember it."

Zhong Jurui said: "I forgot what you said, please tell me again."

——At that time, Zhong Jurui just cried.

Pei Xu was silent for a while and said, "I was talking about dirty jokes."

The implication is that it is not suitable to say it again in this situation.

Zhong Jurui laughed suddenly: "I also think you can't spit ivory out of your dog's mouth." He rested his forehead on Pei Xu's shoulder and said in a deep voice, "Let's just say dirty jokes, please speak in a low voice. I have a headache and want to Listen to two passages to relax."

Pei Xu had never heard of such a perverted request: Zhong Jurui was indeed not the pure and upright Zhong Jurui by the Daming Lake.

"I've forgotten all about it now." Pei Xu made an excuse.

"Then you can say whatever you want."

Pei Xu declined: "It's actually nice not to speak, we don't need to deliberately break the silence."

Zhong Jurui snorted, closed his eyes and said, "It's nice not to talk. That's between lovers. Isn't it more embarrassing for our ex-relationship to be silent?"

Pei Xu was speechless.

Zhong Jurui said: "You scumbag is quite pushy."

Being named a scumbag again, Pei Xu gritted his teeth and said, "Brother, don't be angry, I'll tell you now..."

It dawned early, it was already bright after five o'clock.However, there was already a long queue of people who registered early in the hospital.

Zhong Jurui and Pei Xu got into the taxi.

Zhong Jurui leaned weakly against the car door, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt that today's victory was remarkable. Although his headache hadn't subsided, he was still full of energy for work, and he had the urge to sit up in shock and see where the code was when he was dying.Seeing Pei Xu's gloomy and vigilant face, YouQi wanted to beat his chest and shout, "Excellent!"

Zhong Jurui kept his eyes closed all the time, and there were five hundred monkeys jumping up and down in his heart.

When approaching the gate of Zhongjurui Community, the driver asked, "Which gate is the stop?"

Seeing that Zhong Jurui seemed to be asleep with his eyes closed, Pei Xu cheered up and looked around, saying, "Turn at the intersection ahead, stop at the north gate of Sijia Road, don't stop at the south gate."

When he turned his head, he saw Zhong Jurui opened his eyes and was staring at him, startled.

Zhong Jurui looked at him silently, then suddenly turned his head and smiled again.

Fuck, creepier.

Pei Xu didn't know what Zhong Jurui was thinking, he just wanted to send this Buddha home and hurry back.Before getting off the car, Zhong Jurui saw that he didn't intend to come down together, and asked, "What are you doing? Aren't you coming down?"

Pei Xu said, "Why should I come down?"

Zhong Jurui supported the car door and said, "I'm dying of illness!"

Pei Xu spread his hands and expressed with body language: "So what?"

"I'm dead, you cry so sadly. Why don't you come down and take care of me yourself, and you can rest assured after seeing me recover." Zhong Jurui coughed a few more times, as if he was about to cough up his lungs, "Look at the past In terms of friendship, I can't bear you to cry like that, presumably you also can't bear to watch me die? Besides, I work in a high-risk profession, and there was a colleague last night..."

The driver impatiently urged, "Do you want to get out of the car or not?"

Pei Xu crawled out with a sad face.

Fuck, this guy is full of nonsense, and he doesn't breathe when he speaks. How can he look like he's dying of illness?

They walked into the community, Pei Xu suddenly said: "Zhong Jurui, you used to just pretend to be old and not talkative, but in fact you were complaining all over your heart, right?"

Zhong Jurui coughed a few more times, waved his hands and said, "It's nothing, I'm the same."

Pei Xu believes that he is a ghost.Today's set of snarky rhetoric doesn't look like a player who doesn't talk much can play on the spot.

Pei Xu looked at the kitchen for a long time, let alone pots and pans, Zhong Jurui didn't even have a kettle.Zhong Jurui pointed to the two boxes at the door and said that there was Nongfu Spring in it, and asked Pei Xu to take two bottles, one for him to take medicine and the other for Pei Xu to drink.

Pei Xu said, "You have to eat something before going to sleep?"

Zhong Jurui took out a bag of toast from the refrigerator.Pei Xu glanced into the refrigerator, and there was only this bag of toast in it.

Two people sat on the sofa and ate one piece at a time.

After sharing the whole bag, Zhong Jurui said, "I'm going to sleep."

Pei Xu: "Meow meow?"

"Don't you insist that I come down to take care of you? Why should I go when you sleep?"

"You take care of me?" Zhong Jurui seemed to have heard something funny, "You will take care of me."

"Then you did something like that?"

"I'm willing." Zhong Jurui said, "I'm going to sleep. If you want to sleep too, I have no objection. But I'm a single bed, so I can't sleep you. And considering our relationship, you'd better sleep on the sofa."

Pei Xu chuckled: "It's as if I covet you."

Zhong Jurui just walked to the door of the room, turned his head and said seriously: "Do you know how many people have taken a fancy to me?" Seeing Pei Xu still smiling and not caring, he said, "It's a fool who doesn't have any sense of crisis."

Pei Xu still wanted to make excuses before closing the door.

He took a short nap in the living room and didn't leave until afternoon.Before leaving, he opened the door and looked in, and saw Zhong Jurui sleeping soundly wrapped in a small tapestry, so he tiptoed away.

This may be the best sleep Zhong Jurui had in the past two years. Because of the effect of the medicine and the inexplicable peace of mind, he slept for a full 16 hours.Pei Xu left a long time ago, the sofa is crumpled, and there are still some traces of people coming.Zhong Jurui sat there in a daze for a while and then began to laugh softly.

When I went to work on Monday, the sad news of the death of a colleague had spread throughout the company.There are two more emails in Zhong Jurui's mailbox, one to the effect that the company is saddened by the loss of talents and will assist the family members in dealing with the funeral, and the other is to advise employees to pay attention to their bodies, after all, their bodies are their own.

It makes people feel sad.

The company operates like a large machine, and you are not missing a screw.If you lose this one, a new one will be added immediately. The only ones who remember you as a flesh-and-blood person are family members.But the general environment is such that there is no way if you don’t want to be a screw.It is said that their salary is high, no matter how you look at it, they are trading their lives for money.

Zhong Jurui didn't even have time to sigh a few more words before he was called away because of work.

Seeing that he was coughing badly, Du Ang said, "If you're not feeling well, you should take another vacation. It's definitely easy to ask for two days off."

Zhong Jurui said that he thought so too, and if he still felt uncomfortable at noon, he would go back in the afternoon.He came out of the meeting room and bumped into Chen Jiarui in the aisle.

Chen Jiarui also saw that he was sick, and said, "The people in your company are working too hard, right?"

Zhong Jurui thought that since Pei Xu still likes him, what is going on with Chen Jiarui, and was subtly upset.

There is a barber shop near his hometown, which always plays some sloppy love songs. At this moment, he seems to hear a song "Finally you are someone else's mistress~" from that shop dozens of kilometers away, but he doesn't know Is this song for him or for Chen Jiarui