Pretend to be straight

My sleep is neither good nor bad. If I have insomnia, I will fall asleep if I take medicine.

But taking medicine tonight was useless, and I didn't dare to take more. Although I often lost my life and doubted my life, I still regretted my life, especially when I was almost strangled to death by Qin Yiwen, I understood more.

I'm still young, I can't just die like this.

But a few hours ago, I once again felt that I was very close to death. There was only one reason: my heart beat too fast.

Shi Jinghe gave me the "choose one of the two" which made me unable to answer for a while, but I still cooperated with her and said, "I don't mind."

She laughed when she heard what I said, her voice was soft, like a feather, floating slowly on my heart, but with a certain weight, splashing water in my peaceful heart.

She said again: "But the light is not enough now, I'm afraid I can't wear it properly."

This is true, although I can wear it myself in the dark, but she is not me, so she doesn't know my ear piercing.

I echoed: "Yes." I shook the box, "But I really took it with me, so there's really no need to worry about it."

"Do I care?" Shi Jinghe asked me back.

Well, I don't use the word "compare" well, and it shouldn't be used here.

I shook my head: "No..." I found a way out for myself, "I will wear it on my ears next time we meet, okay?"

Shi Jinghe shook his head: "No."

I:"......"

I took her arm and put the box directly in her hand: "Give it back to you, if you want to wear it, you can wear it yourself."

Shi Jinghe quickly grabbed my arm, with a smile on his face: "No, I apologize, I shouldn't watch you playful and tease you."

She put the box in my hand again: "Go back, see you tomorrow." After she finished speaking, she didn't hesitate anymore, turned around and went back to her car, opened the door and sat down.

Maomao rolled down the car window, smiled and waved to me and said, "Goodbye, sister Zhizhi."

I made way for them and responded to her: "Goodbye."

Shi Jinghe didn't speak, she concentrated on driving, and soon the car drove out of the parking lot until I couldn't see the body of the car.

I squeezed the small box and finally breathed a sigh of relief.

Because I was very nervous just now, I was afraid that Shi Jinghe would be angry when I said that sentence.

What's more tense is that she said she would wear earrings for me when I was so close to Shi Jinghe.

I didn't even think about this scene, but after she said it, my mind was full of the picture of her putting earrings on me.

Just thinking about it makes my heart beat faster.

And I can feel that my face has heated up rapidly at that time. Fortunately, the parking lot is not bright, otherwise Shi Jinghe will definitely see it.

I think her operation made me a little unbearable. From the time she said that sentence until now, I have been hearing my heartbeat.

Once, once, fast and loud.

Back in my car, I put my head on the steering wheel and exhaled, thinking I needed to calm down.

I'm too green.

Shi Jinghe hasn't done anything yet, but I've made up too much by myself.

But this calmness could not calm down at all. I took a shower, dried my hair, and went to bed, but I could still feel the restlessness in my heart.

I know what this sign means, it means that I am moved by Shi Jinghe.

I don't know if she did it on purpose or not, but no matter what, I really fell for her during that short period of time.

Of course, this is not the first time.

It was the same situation a few days ago before watching a movie with her in Liucheng - when he was head to head with her.

For this reason, I am a little troubled now, so that my sleep has been affected, and I finally fell asleep at five o'clock in the morning.

I went to bed late and woke up late, and it was three o'clock in the afternoon when I woke up.

It rained again in Yuncheng, but it was much smaller than yesterday, and there was no lightning or thunder.

After washing up, I knocked on Xie Ying's door to see if she was there.

She came back later than me last night, pulling a suitcase with tears on her face.

Obviously hurt by the family affairs, I didn't ask carefully, but silently patted her on the shoulder, hoping that she would be in a better mood the next day.

It's true in the first place, generally speaking, unless it is absolutely necessary, who would want to cut off contact with their own family and become like a stranger?

Her parents' attitude towards her made me, a bystander, look down on it for a long time. Xie Ying gave them regular transfers, and sometimes her family asked for extra money, and she didn't refuse.

She has done well enough, but her parents still feel that it is not enough, and they even called her unfilial before.

But where do they have the responsibility to be parents now?

Wonderful parents, wonderful family, I was speechless for a long time.

Xie Ying's voice came from her bedroom: "Zhizhi, I'm fine."

"I haven't said anything yet."

Xie Ying didn't speak anymore, and she opened the door after a few seconds.

It's impossible to be okay. No matter how she was treated before, she was still trying her best to be a good daughter.

Making this decision all at once must make her feel uncomfortable, and what is even more uncomfortable must be her family's attitude towards her.

Xie Ying's eyes were red and swollen, with obvious dark circles, the tip of her nose was very red, and there were still tears in her eyes.

I sighed softly, and patted her on the back silently, she hugged me, buried her face on my shoulder, and cried loudly.

I patted her on the back to comfort her, and at this moment, my phone rang.

Xie Ying is a very sensible and considerate person. She let go of me, wiped her tears with the back of her hand, and said, "Zhizhi, go and answer the phone. I, I won't feel bad if I cry a little longer."

"it is good."

I sincerely hope that she can do what she says, but the difficulty is not so great.

It was my work cell phone, ringing happily in my bedroom.

So I knew it wouldn't be Shi Jinghe.

Sure enough, it was Yuan Xinrui who called. I don't know what's wrong with her, but my relationship with her is a little different.

Because after I confide in her last time, we have almost become friends, the kind that we don't often contact.

She called me and said straight up, "I think I'm forgetting about him."

I congratulated and said, "Really? That's good."

The boy I like is gay with a boyfriend. This situation is really hopeless. It would be great if I could forget it.

Yuan Xinrui said: "I am now a happy star chasing girl, and I don't feel so lonely anymore."

I couldn't help being stunned for a few seconds, but many examples have proved that star chasing is a good channel to forget worries and troubles.

Yuan Xinrui finally laughed, and I felt that this was the first time I heard her laugh.

She said, "Come on, too."

"I try my best."

After hanging up the phone, I hung my head and sat by the bed.

I have calmed down now, because I found a key point after waking up.

Shi Jinghe said last night that she teases me when she sees me having fun, which reminds me that this happened several times before.

So I don't need to think about some of her behaviors at all, because she is just watching me for fun.

In fact, where am I having fun?I thought about it for a long time and couldn't figure it out.

I have never considered myself an interesting person, but Shi Jinghe thinks I am amusing.

I really want to ask her, where is my fun.

And I really want to ask her, was she nervous when she teased me last night?

Why can she say anything and do anything with ease.

But I didn't ask, and I didn't even contact her at all. I used to open WeChat when I woke up, and I didn't see her send me a message.

I clicked on her Weibo, but there was no new news, and the fans in the comments were talking about their missing, asking why she had disappeared for several days and hadn't appeared yet.

Then, as my friend Z, I still have a little "superiority" compared with fans. At least I saw Shi Jinghe last night, and saw her, and ate her cooking.

But... where is this enough?

The rain outside the window is still falling, and my mood is the same as today's weather.

My heart is still playing the phrase "Look at you for fun", over and over again, from the atrium to the brain, occupying my thoughts, and I don't intend to let me go.

I took the phone and clicked on the chat dialog with Shi Jinghe again.

Frowning and thinking for a few seconds, I still sent her a message: [Is the candy for broken love still for sale? 】

I'm very sad now because of Shi Jinghe's behavior.

But Shi Jinghe didn't reply me right away, I gave up after waiting for a few minutes, and because I felt uncomfortable, I turned off the phone.

Xie Ying lost contact with her family for half a year, so I lost contact with the whole world for a few hours, is there any problem?

No, only a few hours.

Today, Thursday, they are basically working, and Meng Yisheng's side has also stabilized, so there should be no more emergencies.

Xie Ying also worked hard to recover her emotions. At 06:30, she began to take ingredients from the refrigerator to cook.

I just eat and do the dishes, so I watch TV in the living room while she cooks.

The rain has stopped, but the tears from the glass have not evaporated so quickly, so the outside world is still unclear.

After a while, the doorbell rang.

I yelled to Xie Ying in the kitchen: "Yingying, did you buy anything?"

Xie Ying leaned out and looked at me and shook her head: "No." After she finished speaking, she went back to the kitchen and continued cooking.

The doorbell kept ringing, and I was a little confused because I didn't know who it was, but I got up and went to the door.

I didn't open the door right away, but looked through the cat's eyes first.

And this glance shocked me - the person who came was Shi Jinghe.

I cleared my throat and opened the door.

Shi Jinghe stood straight outside the door, and when she saw me coming out, she put her eyes on my face.

She didn't say a word, she pursed her lips tightly, and her face was a little serious.

I was beating a drum in my heart, and tried to raise the corner of my mouth: "Why are you here?"

Shi Jinghe raised his eyebrows, and smiled in the next second: "Lu Zhi, you really look like a scumbag."