The difference between cloud and mud

Gu Yu bought the earliest flight back to Cambridge the next day.He typed the draft all the way, but the confrontation between the two in his imagination didn't happen.

Xiao Fengtai disappeared.

It didn't really disappear, he just didn't see Gu Yu anymore.The phone calls were not answered, the text messages were not returned, Gu Yu rushed to his villa in the suburbs of Cambridge, but was blocked by the security guards, saying that the master was not there.

It wasn't until this time that they realized that the connection between them was unbelievably weak.Gu Yu stood at the door of the villa at a loss, trying to call his mutual friend with Xiao Fengtai, but he searched through the address book again and again, but couldn't find a name.

In Cambridge in January, Gu Yu broke out in a cold sweat.Did Xiao Fengtai prepare for this day long ago?

But he still didn't believe it, and was unwilling, so he simply stayed at the gate of the villa and waited.From dawn to dark, at midnight, Xiao Fengtai finally came back.

Not alone, there are several beautiful boys and girls stuffed in the Aston Martin, the sound effect of the sports car is outstanding, the electronic music is deafening, and it can be heard clearly outside the car.

The door of the villa opened slowly, but Aston Martin did not move.Because Gu Yu ignored the security guards, ran to the center of the gate and opened his arms: "Kenneth! Get out of the car, let's talk!"

The headlights were bright, he was shaken to the side, the passenger window was rolled down, a blonde girl leaned out half of her body, and made a rude gesture to him: "Asshole! Get out of the way!"

Gu Yu didn't move, Xiao Fengtai sat in the driver's seat, with one hand on the steering wheel, expressionless.Facing the glare of the light, he struggled to meet his gaze. The young man received his gaze, raised one corner of his lips, and smiled casually.

Gu Yu saw his mouth moving, and he talked to him in silence through the din.

Good job.Xiao Fengtai said with a smile.

The engine roared loudly, Xiao Fengtai turned the steering wheel, Aston Martin nimbly bypassed Gu Yu, and drove into the yard before he could react.He wanted to chase after him, but was firmly held down by the security guard.

He struggled hard and watched the boys and girls get out of the car laughing and staggering into the villa.

Xiao Fengtai didn't even look back at him.

There were no buses late at night in the suburbs, so Gu Yu walked home from Xiao Fengtai's villa step by step.The boots were soaked in snow water, icy cold, and my heart seemed to be soaked in dirty cold water. I struggled and struggled, leaving the last gloomy spark, which finally went out with a chirp.

When I got home, it was already dark, and Gu Yu fell asleep all day with his head covered, and when he woke up, he deleted all of Xiao Fengtai's contact information.Xiao Fengtai threw away all the things that Xiao Fengtai gave him at one time, and he sorted everything that could be recycled into a cardboard box, ready to be sent to the second-hand store of the Salvation Army.

It was just a beautiful and colorful dream.After waking up from the dream, he should return to real life.

However, Meng came to him again.Gu Yu went downstairs with the suitcase in his car and saw Xiao Fengtai smoking a cigarette beside the Bugatti Veyron.

Even if Gu Yu was heartbroken by Xiao Fengtai, he had to admit that this scene was really pleasing to the eye.The European-style quaint buildings are covered with white snow, like a small castle on chocolate wrapping paper. The sports car has exaggerated colors and smooth lines, which collide violently with the background, but are harmonious and unified.The key to harmony lies in the handsome young man with a leisurely posture in the snow.

"Where are you going?" Seeing him, Xiao Fengtai threw away the cigarette butt and stomped it out, his smile was still as innocent as when we first met: "I'll give you a ride."

Gu Yu got into Xiao Fengtai's car, but did not go to the Salvation Army store. Xiao Fengtai drove all the way to the wilderness until he reached a deserted field.

"It's so beautiful." He opened the roof of the car, and the cold air rushed in, and they were instantly exposed to the sub-zero outdoor.Xiao Fengtai got out of the car and looked around, took a deep breath: "I like winter in Cambridge the most."

He turned his head and smiled at Gu Yu: "You know, it never snows in Singapore."

Gu Yu sat in the car without moving: "What do you mean?".

He didn't believe that Xiao Fengtai drove here specially to take him to watch the snow while freezing.

"You still want to be with me."

Not an interrogative sentence, but an affirmative sentence.Xiao Fengtai's confident appearance made Gu Yu angry from embarrassment, angry at him for being unscrupulous, and even more angry at him for guessing what was on his mind.

Alcohol and tobacco can still be addictive, but how can love be easily quit.Even if Xiao Fengtai's love is a hollow cake, there is only tasteless paleness under the gorgeous shell, and the frosted strawberries used as decoration are already sweet enough, so that he can no longer be content with mediocrity and normality.

"I am selfish and lazy, and I am especially afraid of trouble. If you are with me, you must abide by my rules."

"Don't be jealous, don't be stubborn, and always put me first. I need you to be there when you show up, and leave quietly when you don't need it. Meet my requirements, don't ask unnecessary questions, my questions should be Answer all honestly."

"Of course, you don't have to be loyal to me, and you can end this relationship at any time. We get together and part ways."

He asked him almost gently: "Mr. Gu, can you do it?"

How domineering.Gu Yu's stomach was cramping, it would happen when he was extremely nervous.

"it is good."

Gu Yu thought he was a normal person with a sound outlook, so he agreed temporarily, thinking that he would not be able to bear it in a few days.However, until Xiao Fengtai graduated, they maintained a distorted relationship between flesh-and-blood friendship and love.

From the looks of outsiders, maybe they are more harmonious and natural than ordinary lovers.

Not without sweet and memorable moments.When he was tired from doing experiments, Xiao Fengtai would pick him up from get off work without saying hello on a whim.Wrapping his coat tightly alone, pushing open the door of the laboratory building in the bleak autumn wind, and seeing the sports car lying quietly in the dark night, even though Gu Yu was disappointed a thousand times, he still had a little hope in his heart, thinking that they would have a future to speak of.

"Why are you working so hard?" On the way to drive him home, Xiao Fengtai looked at Lu and asked casually: "All of you from mainland China seem to be ready to shed their blood for their ideals at any time."

Gu Yu was so tired that his mind was a mess, and he leaned against the car window and muttered: "I don't have any ideals, it's just forced by life."

"Nowadays, most college AP*s are scrambling. There is no SCI paper in the third year of graduate students. I am afraid that I will find a laboratory to clean test tubes after graduation. It is difficult for biological migrant workers to eat."

Xiao Fengtai seemed to be amused by him, he sent him home, Gu Yu asked him to have a glass of water, he waved his hand.

"Have a good rest and get up early tomorrow to move bricks."

There was another year of Christmas, and Gu Yu and Xiao Fengtai had a Christmas Eve dinner at a Michelin-starred Chinese restaurant in London.Xiao Fengtai was surprisingly in good spirits, which attracted Gu Yu to drink a few more glasses of red wine, and started to talk more.

"I've always wanted to say it but I haven't had the chance—as an overseas Chinese in Southeast Asia, you can speak Mandarin very well."

"No accent at all! You Singaporeans... hey, you understand, so I won't talk about it."

Xiao Fengtai propped his cheeks and smiled: "My Chinese language was not good until high school, but I met a good teacher."

"I can still recite a lot of Tang poems now." His eyes became distant, as if caught in an almost forgotten memory: "When a gentleman comes to his hometown, he should know the stories of his hometown. In the future, in front of the beautiful window, the winter plums will bloom."

Gu Yu clapped his hands: "Amazing! Do you like Wang Wei?"

"is acceptable."

"Poems are good poems, but I don't like Wang Wei very much." He must have drunk too much, but he started to drop his book bag on the spot following Xiao Fengtai's words.

"Why?" Xiao Fengtai sat up straight.

"You need both face and appearance. It's too particular, it's fake. Relying on a woman's position, living in a villa in front of a high-ranking official, writing poems about cultivating immortality, how can he take all the good things."

"I just love Du Fu, the sage of poetry! The great poet of realism in China! From the people to the people! Ah, there are thousands of mansions in An De, which shelters the underprivileged people in the world to be happy!"

Xiao Fengtai didn't say anything at the dinner table, just smiled and watched him talk nonsense.When he got home, he suddenly went crazy, directly pressed Gu Yu on the dining table, without even lubricating, and penetrated him hard.

Gu Yu was in so much pain that tears welled up in his eyes, begging him to be gentle.Xiao Fengtai snorted and bit his neck hard.

If Xiao Fengtai is willing, they may be able to maintain this twisted relationship.

Gu Yu didn't know the news of Xiao Fengtai's graduation and departure from England until the last week.

"I'm going back to Singapore next week. I'm quite busy these days. If you have any requests, let me know by text message. I will try my best to accommodate them." They had dinner at Xiao Fengtai's country house in Cambridge.

"My UK number will no longer be used, you delete it."

In the blink of an eye, Gu Yu understood that this was his last farewell.

A silent dinner.One person is careless, and the other is like a stick in the throat.When the dessert was served, Gu Yu finally couldn't help but ask Xiao Fengtai.

"When you arrive in Singapore, can we still contact you?"

"It's not like it is now... just ordinary friends, the kind who occasionally greet each other during New Years and holidays."

Xiao Fengtai raised his eyes and smiled, and raised his wine glass to him.

"Gu Yu, I wish you a bright future and smooth sailing."

He is not procrastinating, and he will get together and leave neatly, he will do what he says.

Two years later, Gu Yu finally graduated. He failed to find a teaching position, so he simply returned to China and mixed into the financial circle.His professional knowledge is not enough to get a lecture at a university, but it is more than enough to identify the target prospects of start-up pharmaceutical companies.After working hard for several years, he also successfully bought a garage and joined the ranks of the middle class.

He looks good, his salary is fair, and he has a registered permanent residence in a big city, so there are naturally matchmakers in an endless stream.Gu Yu honestly participated in the blind date activities, which really allowed him to find a person he was quite interested in.The other party is not in a hurry to get married, the two are slowly falling in love, go to the suburbs of Beijing to eat reservoir fish together on weekends, and make appointments to watch movies and play badminton after get off work, which is quite pleasant.

The experience of interacting with Xiao Fengtai, those dazzling and blurred past, gradually became like a dream, even the outlines were blurred.

It's not that he has never seen Xiao Fengtai.After several years of experience in the family business, Xiao Fengtai set up a US dollar fund on his own to invest in Chinese new economy companies.The so-called new economy is nothing more than consumer technology and biomedicine.The financial circle is so big, he not only heard about Xiao Fengtai's deeds from other people, but also saw him from afar in several investment forums.

After graduating, he seemed to have restrained himself a lot. Gu Yu never heard about his romantic deeds again, but heard that he was good at dancing with his sleeves and making good use of resources. Soon after the foundation was established, he successively won several good projects coveted by his peers in the industry.

It would be great if we could meet again and eat again.Gu Yu seldom thinks of Xiao Fengtai now, only on very rare occasions, such as late at night when he is working overtime, when he wraps his coat tightly and walks out of the elevator in the office building, the young man's face will appear in front of his eyes.

Have another meal and sit right across from him like a friend.Ask him calmly if he has ever loved him.

Is it because you don't love that you are so chic?Or have you been injured, so you dare not commit again?

If we change the time and place, let him know Xiao Fengtai before that person, will they have a different ending?

His girlfriend's car was parked in front of the office building, Gu Yu waved to her, and walked quickly into the boundless night of late autumn in Beijing.

*Ap: assistant professor, assistant professor.