The difference between cloud and mud

The day after blacklisting Xiao Fengtai, Jiang Tong received an offer.

The world's best immunology laboratory, his first choice that he could not even imagine, sent a full scholarship offer.The email was written with enthusiasm, praising Jiang Tong's resume and research results, saying that he is the No.1 global admission of the project this year.

Jiang Tong imagined the scene of this day countless times, relying on fictional happiness to survive countless lonely and hard nights in the laboratory.However, when this day really comes, happiness seems to have been overdrawn in the tormenting long wait.He spent an afternoon reporting the good news to seniors and professors who had helped before, and spent half an evening replying warm congratulations to everyone.Even the joy of others seems to be more tangible.

To congratulate him on getting the offer, Pei Jing took the initiative to give him a day off for Professor Gu.However, Jiang Tong expressed his gratitude and came to the laboratory on time the next day with his bag on his back to check in.

"Adequate rest is the source of inspiration for scientists." Pei Jing couldn't stand it anymore: "Go back and do whatever you want, don't appear in front of me today."

"I haven't worked part-time recently, and I have enough rest." Jiang Tong quietly made him hit a soft nail: "Anyway, apart from the laboratory, I don't have any special place to go."

The days are still passing day by day, and he finally took the first step on the broad road. The ideal that was once unattainable revealed a faint golden light at the end of the dark clouds.

But everything is different.It seemed that when Xiao Fengtai's contact information was deleted, a part of himself died along with it.Joy, sadness, anger, no matter how strong and pure emotions are, they are like scratches, lacking in reality.Lack of wants, only necessary life, is it still alive?

His life is a building made of building blocks, the base of which is unstable, and the more it is stacked up, the more precarious it will be.In exchange for a key load-bearing stone, he removed a small block, thinking it was a icing on the cake, a dispensable part of the building.However, without this small building block, the castle in the air that he worked so hard to build collapsed at an incredible speed.

On this day, he returned to the laboratory to prepare cell samples after class as usual.Jiang Tong was operating the microscope when someone patted his shoulder lightly.

"Come out for a while." Pei Jing's expression changed: "There are people looking outside."

Jiang Tong soon knew the reason for Pei Jing's abnormality - Xiao Fengtai was standing outside the door, wearing long-sleeved trousers in the 30-degree heat in Singapore, with disheveled hair, pale face, and red eyes.The two deep blue marks in front of his eyes made him even more haggard and embarrassed, without his usual air.

"What's going on?" Jiang Tong was taken aback, unable to question why Xiao Fengtai was here: "Are you sick?"

"Why?" Xiao Fengtai interrupted him, he stared straight into Jiang Tong's eyes, like a drowning person looking for driftwood: "Why do you do this?"

He asked nonsensically, but both of them knew the subtext.Jiang Tong was silent, Xiao Fengtai stared at him relentlessly, and would not leave until he got the answer.

"I'm sorry to interrupt you." Pei Jing who was standing next to him finally couldn't help but say, "Irrelevant personnel are prohibited from staying at the entrance of the laboratory."

"Let's go." Jiang Tong took the lead and took two steps outside as if waking up from a dream.Xiao Fengtai stood there without moving.

"I'll invite you to dinner, let's talk slowly in another place." Jiang Tong smiled wryly: "Don't worry, I won't run away."

Jiang Tong took him to the high-end western restaurant next to the school. The lunch time was coming to an end. There were few guests in the restaurant, but it seemed that there were more waiters.Not long after the two got together, Xiao Fengtai brought Jiang Tong here once. Jiang Tong wanted aa when paying the bill, but found that Xiao Fengtai had already paid the bill secretly.

The two were taken to a good location on the second floor facing the sea.Jiang Tong pushed the menu towards Xiao Fengtai: "What do you want to eat? I'll treat you."

The boy remained expressionless, but the muscles on his face twitched.

"Why take my grandma's money?"

Jiang Tong froze all over.

He smiled at Xiao Fengtai, and he could still smile.

"I'm sorry for you." He maintained a smile, and said slowly, slowly: "Forget about me."

The light in the boy's eyes went out in an instant.

Xiao Fengtai gritted his teeth and asked, "How much did she give you? One million? Five million?"

"You sold me, you should let me know the price."

Jiang Tong didn't speak.

Silence, again silence.Do you dare or disdain to tell him the truth?In fact, why did he really care about him?Grandma was right, he gave a heart without hesitation, and would sell it even if it was crushed.

Xiao Fengtai sneered, and leaned back in the chair, the churning anger and grievance turned into hatred, hatred was bitter and poisonous, his heart was soaked in the venom, which made him restless.He couldn't wait to release his hatred, making Jiang Tong feel his torment and pain.

"Jiang Tong, are you cheap to sell your feelings and dignity for such a little money?"

He couldn't be more familiar with the domineering appearance.The more he said it, the more natural and cordial he felt, yes, this was his original face.How stupid it was to wrong myself for Jiang Tong before, to put away those piercing thorns, and to be careful with every move.

He even laughed.

"I have never seen money, and my vision is too narrow. If you stand up to the pressure and stay with me, you will get more than just a few million in the future."

"My father is smarter than you. He hugged my mother's gold brick and reborn in a few years. Who would have guessed that he was so poor in England that he bought expired bread in supermarkets?"

People like Jiang Tong take their face too seriously.Xiao Fengtai picked up harsh words, intending to provoke him.He didn't say a word, causing the boy to punch the cotton, and his emotions became even more agitated.

"Why don't you talk anymore? We met for the first time, aren't you very eloquent?"

"Contradict me! Tell me what you have to say! Say you have any compelling reasons to bow to grandma. As long as you tell me, I will... I will... You just talk!"

Jiang Tong looked down at his phone: "The car is here."

Xiao Fengtai was taken aback for a moment, then he heard hurried footsteps coming from the stairwell.His face changed suddenly: "Did you call my home?"

He wanted to leave, but in the blink of an eye, the entrance and exit of the restaurant were tightly blocked.Xiao Fengtai slumped back to the dining table.

"Teacher Jiang, I admire you." He said bitterly: "Duplicate your face, you're so dignified. Doing scientific research is too unfair to your talent."

In the chaos, Jiang Tong finally spoke.

"You are quite right, and I have nothing to refute."

He was still smiling, and his tone was extremely steady and peaceful.You have to get very close to notice the almost inaudible choking between his breaths.

"I'm not good enough for you."

We were never part of the same world.

"I wish you good health, a bright future, and all your wishes come true."

Don't wish you find true love soon.You are so good, when you go to the vast world outside, there will naturally be countless beautiful people chasing and surrounding you, and you will easily get a lot of love.Shining sincerity, generous, unadulterated love.

"Stop looking for me."

This is the last time they will see each other for real.