The difference between cloud and mud

Pei Jing took his comment as a compliment, and her smile widened: "I am very lucky to live in the 21st century where technology is flourishing."

"why?"

"Otherwise I might become a famous dark alchemist or Frankenstein." Pei Jing said solemnly: "You know, Dr. Hyde or Frankenstein."

Jiang Tong began to regret mentioning scientific research, and Pei Jing's conversation became more intense, his eyes were like lightning, reminding him of an addict who was hyperactive after taking drugs.

He waved his hand in the air, full of ambition: "It was only 70 years ago that human beings finally cracked the double helix structure of dna, and the sequencing of human genes was just completed in 2000. Our research on why human beings are no better than our understanding of the universe Many. Jiang Tong, think about the physics field in the [-]th century, when future generations look back at history, our generation will become the founders and pioneers of biology."

"Just by moving a few nucleotides, activating or inhibiting a few proteins, we can change the lives of billions of people - cure cancer, eradicate genetic diseases, enhance human body functions, and even achieve human immortality. I will never understand Why Harry Potter is popular all over the world, we obviously already have biology - this is the magic of the 21st century."

It is easy for a teenager to say such things, but Pei Jing is already a doctoral student, and she is an adult who is about to start competing with others for the order of the names on the papers and considering graduation.Jiang Tong was shocked. Pei Jing not only loves scientific research, but also has a religious fanaticism about his career.

When you are a teenager, your emotions are pure, but as you get older, the impurities of life are mixed in, and people's choices gradually become involuntary.Jiang Tong's choice of living things naturally has ideal elements, but it is also the result of a rational balance of profit and loss.He felt a subtle sense of shame in front of Pei Jing.Ashamed and inexplicably jealous, it seems that he and Pei Jing are pursuing a girl together, but they are frustrated to find that the love of their rival is far more sincere than their own.

"What about you?" Pei Jing changed the subject: "Why did you choose to do scientific research?"

Some ideas that have never been revealed in front of outsiders flowed naturally: "I hope that one day we can develop anti-cancer drugs that are affordable for everyone."

"You are right, biotechnology is the magic of the 21st century, but only a few people are lucky enough to appreciate its magic." Jiang Tong whispered: "Lenalidomide can make multiple myeloma patients live for more than two years, Herceptin can extend the progression-free survival of breast cancer patients by a third if they can afford the $[-]-a-month drug."

"Do you know what the per capita income of an ordinary Chinese family is?" Jiang Tong smiled wryly: "1 RMB per month."

His mother's face appeared in his mind.Swollen and deformed, his face was pale and sallow.Wrinkles and scars covered her face like cobwebs, and her black and thick hair fell off one by one during the chemotherapy, leaving only a sparse and thin layer, no matter how she covered it, she could see her shiny scalp.

Her physical body remained, but her soul had been rotted and deformed by illness.She was lethargic most of the time and awake a small part of the time. When she was awake, she was grumpy and unresponsive. She spread her pain as evenly as possible to everyone around her.

She is better now, she can go home to recuperate, water the flowers every day, and bask in the sun.But Jiang Tong knew better than anyone that this was just a temporary respite.Tumor cells will come back sooner or later, gathering and growing in the liver, lungs, or unknown organs.Every time you repel them, the next round of attack will be more ferocious.

If they are rich enough - if the mother can have regular medical examinations, early treatment, if they can raise money earlier, if he can send her to Singapore to see a doctor.Will everything be different?

Or earlier.If the father didn't go to Africa to make money, would the mother still work hard for the family's livelihood?If she has been a happy housewife, will she still get sick?

Pei Jing looked him up and down, with his intelligence, it was impossible not to realize something.

"I apologize to you." He said solemnly: "Some of the things I said before may have been thoughtless."

Jiang Tong smiled: "How long has passed. I want to thank you for letting go of the past and giving me the opportunity to continue working in the laboratory."

It was dawn when he walked out of the laboratory, and Jiang Tong hadn't slept all night, but he was in high spirits and walked briskly.Fragments of many people and events flashed through his mind uncontrollably.The back view of the father when he left home for the last time, the silent dinner before the mother's remarriage, and the family members of the patients lying in disorder in the hospital hall late at night with their own bedding.And Xiao Fengtai, how they looked when they first met.Standing in the luxurious study, he held out his hand to him, holding a check between his fingers, and the check was shaking up and down like a small white flag.

Xiao Fengtai already regretted the moment he proposed the invitation.It's a pity that voice can't be clicked to send and withdraw like email.Jiang Tong did not agree immediately.Not only that, his shocked and hesitant expression made Xiao Fengtai realize that he had violated Jiang Tong's social boundaries.

Has he been exposed?Xiao Fengtai thought desperately.Jiang Tong might, no, must have noticed something.He was so reckless, so reckless it bordered on stupid.Xiao Fengtai knew very well that he was at best a precocious teenager in Jiang Tong's heart.He has already drawn up a complete plan in his heart, how to gradually approach Jiang Tong, how to infiltrate his life, and when he opens his heart to him, make some naive and provocative actions and then run away.When Jiang Tong was overwhelmed by his actions, Xiao Fengtai would remain silent, temporarily disappearing from Jiang Tong's life, at least pretending to disappear.

This is the moment of truth.In the time that Xiao Fengtai suddenly withdraws, the time that was once filled by him will become a vacuum that Jiang Tong cannot fill.He would feel the importance of Xiao Fengtai in a panic in a vacuum, and as long as there is a little push - Lu She is good at this - Jiang Tong will fall to him in a daze.

From childhood to adulthood, Xiao Fengtai saw countless women using the same technique on his father and tried it repeatedly.He is confident that he can excel in blue.After all, compared to those ambitious aunts, Xiao Fengtai's goal is very simple.No Van Cleef & Arpels, Aston Martin or Bay Area mansions.He only wants Jiang Tong.Such a perfect and complicated plan was used on Jiang Tong, it was simply - what is it, "how can you kill a chicken with a sledgehammer".

If things go well.

Now, everything is ruined.All because of his inappropriate recklessness.The sentences slipped from his lips in a light tap dance, and he had no time to stop them.Xiao Fengtai knew that he wanted Jiang Tong to watch his performance.He wants Jiang Tong to see how he looks on stage, how other people appreciate him and praise him, and he wants himself to look better in his eyes.

However, Jiang Tong's reaction can only stay in his imagination now.In a moment when he couldn't restrain his heartbeat, he ruined everything.

He wanted to lower his head to avoid Jiang Tong's gaze, but found himself stiff and unable to move.He watched Jiang Tong's smile fade from his face little by little, his gaze became very strange, a little withdrawn, and condescending, just like when they first met.

He had to do something, anything, before it was too late.

"I'm just asking casually." Xiao Fengtai squeezed out words between his teeth: "It's fine if you don't have time."

Stupid.he thought to himself.One wrong step, every step is wrong.He could imagine what he was like in Jiang Tong's heart now, a childish, self-willed and dreamy teenager, no different from high school students all over the street.

What reason would Jiang Tong reject him?Probably too busy with experiments.He would never know how much Xiao Fengtai liked the way he talked about his research work.Speaking of those biological terms that Xiao Fengtai didn't understand at all, Jiang Tong's eyes seemed to be burning with two clusters of flames.With a smile on his face unconsciously, he would ignore Xiao Fengtai's incomprehensible expression and speak faster and faster, with a higher pitch, even with some gestures to assist.Xiao Fengtai looked up at Jiang Tong sincerely at those moments, as if a ray of light illuminated Jiang Tong's whole body, making him stand out from the crowd, and people couldn't take their eyes off him.

Do people only deeply realize their own possessions when they lose them?While waiting for the rejection, Xiao Fengtai discovered in frustration that he liked Jiang Tong even more.

"Of course I have time."

Xiao Fengtai couldn't believe his ears for a moment.He saw that Jiang Tong's mouth was still moving.This world is real, and the smell of burnt coffee in the air is real, so the scene just now, shouldn't be his hallucination?

Jiang Tong's embarrassment and surprise also seemed extremely believable: "I just... just didn't expect you to invite me."

Xiao Fengtai didn't know how he took out the envelope and handed it to Jiang Tong.When he came back to his senses, he was already sitting in the car going home.He gently stroked his lips with his hand, recalling all the details of meeting today.He still can't believe that Jiang Tong actually agreed?He agreed, knowing he might have crossed the line?

What does this represent?

No, it might mean nothing.Xiao Fengtai put down his hands, thinking gloomily.Jiang Tong is a good person, the rare kind of person in Xiao Fengtai's life circle who truly thinks about others.And he... Even if there is no mirror in front of Xiao Fengtai, he can still imagine how embarrassed he looked at that time.

He couldn't even control his words, how could he control his facial expressions?

When he got home, he rode a few rounds of horses, ate dinner alone, played the piano by the window for a while, wrote papers, and made videos with his grandmother.However, until before going to bed, Xiao Fengtai still couldn't get Jiang Tong's figure out of his mind.

Before they broke up, Jiang Tong smiled as if hesitant - he really didn't want to, right?

Will he turn around and write him a resignation letter?Xiao Fengtai thought in horror, getting out as soon as possible before everything becomes unmanageable, this is also Jiang Tong's style.

So he sent another stupid message to Jiang Tong.Say he must never force it—as if he cares how much Jiang Tong came to see him play the piano!

The moment Xiao Fengtai sent it out, he regretted it again.The torment of holding the phone and waiting for the other party's reply is far better than talking face-to-face.

Will Jiang Tong ignore his message?Pretend you didn't see it, and just brush off the whole thing?

However, Jiang Tong replied quickly: "Thank you for your invitation, I am looking forward to it."

Xiao Fengtai didn't dare to think about what Jiang Tong's reply meant. He just suddenly felt that the temperature of the air conditioner in the room was too high, and a wave of heat rose from his chest all the way to Tianling Gai.He suddenly had a lot to say to Jiang Tong. It was the conductor who recommended him to participate in the competition, and he would play Mozart's Fifth Violin Concerto.Does Jiang Tong listen to the violin?Does he have a favorite composer?

However, after typing and deleting, deleting and typing, he didn't send anything.

That's all for now.Xiao Fengtai warned himself.Stop being stupid and stop thinking too much.It is useless to talk more and make more mistakes.

He jumped up from the bed, ran across the room barefoot, picked up the violin and played a cheerful rondo.