Han Zhiguang

Mr. Gu was ashamed to sleep with Zhang Xianzong. After Zhang Xianzong finished crying and calmed down, he lifted his pants and slipped back to the mansion without delaying even a minute.

The next day Mr. Gu was alone in the headquarters, worrying about how this matter would end. Unexpectedly, Zhang Xianzong stood in front of him in military uniform again, as if nothing had happened, and handed him several official documents for his signature.

The attitude of the other party was so ordinary that Mr. Gu suspected that he had just had a dream yesterday, but he glanced at Zhang Xianzong's red and swollen eyes, and knew that the person crying in his arms last night was indeed the indifferent face in front of him. Zhang Xianzong.

He couldn't help but began to think again: This kid was seriously injured last night, and now just standing like this should already hurt enough, let alone standing upright, but he still doesn't even frown, it's quite capable.

If it was normal, Mr. Gu would probably intentionally tease Zhang Xianzong, tease his body, or order him to do some heavy work. In short, we have to see if this person is really still weak.But now Mrs. Gu was frightened, wishing that no one would mention yesterday's incident, he signed in a hurry without even daring to lift his head.

Zhang Xianzong took the document but did not leave. He stared at Gu Xuanwu without hesitation: "Commander Gu."

Gu Xuanwu shuddered.

Zhang Xianzong said slowly: "Gu Xuanwu, what I want is not the same thing as what you give."

There is no bitterness or sentimentality in the tone, just as calm as telling an established fact

Gu Xuanwu finally looked at Zhang Xianzong, but did not reply.

Zhang Xianzong didn't seem to intend to get any response from the other party, so he turned around and left after paying a military salute.After the door was closed, Gu Xuanwu sank into the leather seat, with his feet on the table, smoking one cigarette after another all afternoon.

It's not that he doesn't know what Zhang Xianzong wants.

The reason why he was unwilling to face Zhang Xianzong, and even more unwilling to face Zhang Xianzong's feelings, was because he realized from the very beginning that the liking Zhang Xianzong wanted was not the same thing as the liking he could give Gu Xuanwu.

Zhang Xianzong's feelings are too hot, he has already burned himself out, leaving only a ball of fire, he will burn just by looking at it, not to mention embracing this fire, or even blending with it.

He can only avoid it, because he himself is not fire.

But for some reason, he was greedy for the warmth of the firelight, so he once successfully convinced himself—as long as the fire is no longer fire.He extinguished the remaining heat of the fire with strong means, and finally he was able to hold the fire that was no longer a fire in his arms, and enjoy everything he had from aloof.

He didn't care about the will of the fire itself, and he didn't hesitate to destroy the dignity of the fire for this, but that was not what the fire wanted after all.The fire just wanted him to burn together.

There's no way he doesn't know, he just can't.

Now Huoguang is aware of his worries and fears, and chooses to take the initiative to distance himself, but he is still not satisfied—he neither wants to burn himself, nor does he want to let go of this warmth after all.Then, the only way is to let the flame never rekindle forever, and only belong to oneself forever, as long as this is good.

There is no need to pay a price, you can get what you want, and you can get out of it, is there such a good thing in this world?Mr. Gu thinks it is possible.After all, even his life was taken away by Zhang Xianzong in his previous life, even if Zhang Xianzong paid him his whole life in this life, it would not be worth the life that Zhang Xianzong owed him.

Obviously as long as this is done, it is enough to take away everything from Zhang Xianzong. Gu Xuanwu knows that he is doing something too much, but this is already his biggest concession to Zhang Xianzong.

Then why, he actually felt that there was only an unprecedented emptiness left in his heart.This emptiness made him at a loss, and he suddenly discovered that he had never known what he wanted.

Master Gu went to Wuxin's house to drink some wine.Disliked that Wuxin's house didn't have enough wine, she brought three altars of daughter red with her, and forced Wuxin to drink with him for a night.

The two of them collapsed on the wine table, Gu Xuanwu hugged Wuxin without letting go, and asked inarticulately: "Master, you said that this person, hiccup, how can he be alive?"

Wuxin was too drunk to speak, but even though he was clear-headed, he probably didn't know how to answer this question—Master Wuxin never aged or died, he didn't know where he came from, and when he would die, he lived only because of Can't die.

In this room, the only one who can answer Mr. Gu's question is Crescent Moon who is knitting a sweater for Wuxin beside him: "There is nothing wrong with being alive, as long as you are happy."

Gu Xuanwu laughed at himself: "How can it be so easy to be happy in a lifetime?"

Is Master Gu living a chic life?Chic.Master Gu has never restrained his desires, he is very powerful, he plays and sings every day, women, wine, and the luxury and luxury in the mansion have never stopped, but now he is lying on the kang of Wuxin's house, thinking about the blood soaked in half his life as a soldier , and those brothers and enemies who are separated from life and death.

Crescent Moon glanced at him: "Master Gu can still say this, it's not easy, I think you know how to drink."

Gu Xuanwu muttered a few words, ignoring Yueya's teasing.

Seeing that he was really worried, Yue Ya put down the work she was doing and took a lot of effort to pull Wu Xin out of Gu Xuanwu's entanglement like a puddle of mud, while saying: "Master Gu wants too many things. Niang said that people can be happy when they are satisfied. How can there be so many things in this world that have the best of both worlds? Mr. Gu has too much, but he doesn’t know how to be satisfied. Like me, as long as I can live like this with Wuxin, I feel very good. "

Wuxin smiled and nodded in her drunken dream: "Yes, as long as I am with Yueya, I will be happy."

Yue Ya blushed, she laid Wu Xin flat on the kang, and gently tucked him in the corner of the quilt.

Gu Xuanwu was better at drinking than Wu Xin, and when Wu Xin fell asleep, he became clearer, pursed his mouth, and shook his head: "Love, it's too childish. How can a big man be influenced by love."

"Then what do Master Gu think is more important?" Yueya asked back, "Some people think fame and fortune are important, some people think money is important, and some people think love is important. Anyway, there is always something important, which one is more important? Just go after whichever one, there are so many things.”

Gu Xuanwu was taken aback for a moment, not knowing how to answer.For him, there are so many things that are more important than Zhang Xianzong, and he can casually name a list, but after he died once, his obsession faded away, and those things that were originally extremely important became not necessarily inseparable.Only Zhang Xianzong, no matter how unimportant he was, he was unwilling to let go.

Is this like it?Mr. Gu couldn't tell.Mr. Gu doesn't know what love is, and love is indeed not necessary for him, but he knows that his obsession with Zhang Xianzong has already surpassed the simple category of love, otherwise, it is not enough to just like each other To support his entanglement with Zhang Xianzong so far.

Human nature is so complicated.Gu Xuanwu recalled every detail of his time with Zhang Xianzong. Zhang Xianzong would always look up at him while lighting a cigarette for him. When his eyes met, the man would smile slightly.Zhang Xianzong also learned to smoke for him, but he was always coughed by choking.It's fine if I can't smoke well, and I can't get excited when I drink, and I always look at myself in a daze.

Zhang Xianzong is not a person who is good at playing with the world, and his reaction to these entertainment items is extremely slow. He always complains that Zhang Xianzong is not like a man, but once a war starts, that man stands beside him with a gun in his hand. Cruel and decisive.

Zhang Xianzong was his comrade-in-arms who fought side by side with him, and was also a consultant who took care of his official affairs, and later, he was also his lover in bed.Is he happy with Zhang Xianzong?It seems that if that person is obedient, he is indeed very happy.

Gu Xuanwu lit another cigarette: "Why don't you say... Hey, why don't you say that Miss Yueya knows how to live."

Yueya put away the food and drinks, and while wiping the table, she thought that Gu Xuanwu was in the way, and pushed him aside.Gu Xuanwu hiccupped, reeking of alcohol, Crescent Moon glared at him: "Don't keep bringing my Wuxin to drink in the future, Wuxin's drinking capacity is no match for yours, he is the one who feels uncomfortable after drinking!"

Gu Xuanwu and Ren Yueya didn't care when he said it, and he said perfunctorily: "Sister is so heartless."

Crescent Moon flicked the rag, raised her eyebrows on her hips, "Running here every day, running here every day, and bringing so many soldiers, it's really annoying me!" Then she pulled Gu Xuanwu and pushed him away, "You go to Zhang Xianzong, hurry up! Settle this matter, so you don't have to keep talking about it!"

Once the door was closed, it was locked.In the dark night, Gu Xuanwu turned his head and looked at his guards, when a gust of cold wind blew, he shivered and was mostly sober.

Gu Xuanwu didn't intend to listen to Yueya's words, and ordered the driver to drive back directly to the mansion.The driver has been with Mr. Gu for a long time - in fact, it doesn't take long, only a few months is enough to see Mr. Gu's love-hate attitude towards Zhang Xianzong, neither leaving nor staying. My lord will still go to find Zhang Xianzong in the end, I'm really overwhelmed - so the driver drove very slowly this way, waiting for Master Gu to change his mind at any time, in case he had to change the route in a hurry.

Unexpectedly, looking back, the lord was quite stubborn, and he didn't speak when he was almost at the place, his head was dizzy, and he blew the night wind for half the night in vain.The mansion is close at hand, and the lights are still on.When Commander Gu didn't come home, the lights were always on waiting for him.

But the person waiting for him inside was not Zhang Xianzong.Gu Xuanwu gritted his teeth: "Go to Chief of Staff Zhang."

The driver sighed and had to turn around.