The Blaze of Xueba

Boyhood (26)

You Yan was only 17 years old when she gave birth to Li Lie. In the past 15 years, she has taken better care of herself than ordinary women. She has lost her previous thinness and replaced it with a plump but not redundant figure. Her face is extraordinarily delicate due to makeup.

Li Lie looked at You Yan, and felt that the woman sitting in front of him wearing a mink fur coat was too strange. After You Yan left home, Li Lie had met her once in junior high school, and the rest of the time he thought of his mother would just go When the bank withdraws money.

You Yan had already ordered the food on her own initiative, Li Lie didn't move his chopsticks, and went straight in, "What do you want from me?"

You Yan smiled and said, "What's the matter, I haven't seen my son for a long time, I'm thinking about it."

Li Lie disliked such words the most, he wished he could turn around and leave, You Yan said, "15 minutes, it will delay you for 15 minutes."

Then the two began to eat, only the sound of chopsticks and bowls colliding could be heard, but no human voice could be heard.After eating, You Yan stuffed Li Lie with three bags, "New Year's gift." Then she wanted to say something, her throat choked up, and she swallowed the words of mother and child's concern hidden in her belly. She knew Li Lie didn't like it. In this way, even though they are mother and son, the relationship is very shallow, and Li Lie cannot be required to be more caring and caring to the mother who abandoned him in the early years.

Before Li Lie refused her, You Yan put on her sunglasses again, wrapped her in mink fur, and said restrainedly, "The account has been settled, I have to leave beforehand."

Li Lie saw You Yan climbed into another man's car this time from the window. It was different from the car he had seen in junior high school, and seemed more advanced.

Li Lie sighed deeply. Over the years, he no longer hated his mother, but he also had no feelings for him. Every time he used the bank card his mother gave him to withdraw money, he would feel extremely painful, as if the money came from nothing. It's not right, he doesn't deserve it and has no reason to do it, so he vowed that he would make a lot of money in the future and return it to her with interest.

He opened three bags, shoes and clothes, and a greeting card inside: "Happy New Year! Eat something good during the New Year, take care of yourself and your sister."

After a few sentences, Li Lie's eyebrows moved when he read it.He went to the bank card to withdraw money to prepare for the New Year, and unexpectedly found that there was a huge sum of money in the bank card, and his mother must have called him.

When Li Lie was walking back, a light snow fell on him, and he was holding three bags tightly, his expression was expressionless, or his expression was more sad than the gloomy sky.

On the night before Chinese New Year’s Eve, Cheng Fang was making bread in the kitchen in full swing. Zhou Shuzhi was watching the TV in the living room with great interest. Zhou Yan came out of the room, took out a small box of yogurt from the refrigerator, and drank it down. Throw it in the trash after drinking.

Zhou Yan's inexplicable irritability began in the morning, a kind of unreasonable irritability like a fire. He had just finished drinking a cup of frozen yogurt in the winter, but he still couldn't suppress the fire in his heart, so he changed it Shoes, clothes on, ready to go.

Cheng Fang was making buns while video chatting with her best friend, acting as if no one else was there, and the volume of the conversation was turned up so that a group of demons could be screamed to death.Zhou Yan said to Zhou Shuzhi, "Dad, I'm going out for a while."

Zhou Shuzhi looked at him worriedly, "It's so cold outside, why are you going out?"

Zhou Yan was determined, "Go out and buy something, and I'll be right back." After speaking, he closed the door softly, pressed the elevator, and left the complex.

The temperature is low at night, but there is no wind, the streets of the community are clean, only the dim street lights are shining, and there are few pedestrians, it is quiet and desolate.However, Zhou Yan likes this kind of place the most, and his anxious heart gradually cooled down. The more he got to the kind of virtual and lively festivals celebrated by the whole country, his natural withdrawnness made him feel more uncomfortable.

bother.envious.self-abasement.impatient.All of these twisted together actually made him gather a burst of heat for a while, and he didn't shiver from the cold while walking on the road.

Walking out of the community and coming to the central square, there are a lot of people here, the fountain is still working hard and shining, and the LED lights are creating dreams 24 hours a day. People come and go with smiling faces, full of festive joy .

Fireworks and firecrackers have been banned in many places in the city, but without these, can it still be called Chinese New Year?Under the concerted efforts of merchants and consumers, there are people throwing small firecrackers here in the central square every second, which is the kind of small firecrackers that can create colors and halo light effects, which add a vivid layer to the festival. lively.

Zhou Yan followed the crowd and walked aimlessly. He wondered what fun the firecrackers were. He lit them up and cheered for a while, and then they went out in a flash.Those who set off the firecrackers were all young people, in twos and threes, men and women in groups, laughing unscrupulously, really happy.

Zhou Yan couldn't help but move his heart. It would be a lie to say that he didn't feel anything at all. He was a little envious of this group of people. They should be friends, playing and going crazy together... Slowly, he thought of Li Lie.

If it is said that Zhou Yan has no friends since he was a child, it is not entirely true, but he is paranoid by nature, and the older he grows, this paranoia has been deeply embedded in his bones like a gangrene.

He has too high demands on others, of course it's not Qu Zi's feeling of "the whole world is turbid and I'm alone", it's just that he is too possessive, once he recognizes someone, even if he is a friend, he must be the only one in that person's eyes He is alone, so he often feels that he is a bit perverted, and being friends will harm others instead.The classmates at the same table over the years can hardly remember the appearance, but the current tablemate, Li Lie, he left a point or two.

While thinking wildly, a hand was placed on his shoulder, Zhou Yan turned around, he thought he would see a familiar face, but instead he saw Yang Wei, with a girl beside him.

"School Committee, come out to play alone? Why don't you buy some firecrackers!" Yang Wei said with a smile, a large number of firecrackers in different shapes, red, willow and green in his hand.

"Oh." After Zhou Yan responded, he found that he had nothing to say to Yang Wei, and he felt embarrassed.Fortunately, Yang Wei didn't know it. He was afraid that the girl would be in a hurry, so he hurriedly greeted Zhou Yan, and rushed to a place where there were few people in the square, ostentatiously throwing fluorescent firecrackers with the girl.

Zhou Yan was originally as calm as water, but suddenly Yang Wei couldn't help but go to watch. He saw a fireworks show in the center of the square, surrounded by people inside and outside. It was as high as the waves, and because of excitement, some people began to crowd around. Seeing that the situation was not good, Zhou Yan wanted to rush out, but it was too late. He was pushed hard, and he was about to fall to the ground.

Li Lie rushed out from nowhere to support Zhou Yan, and safely dragged him out of the crowded and dangerous crowd.As soon as Zhou Yan stood firm, he heard Li Lie's fatherly reprimand:

"The Chinese New Year is not staying at home, what are you doing out at night! You are afraid of the cold, what if you catch a cold? You are still crowded with so many people, are the fireworks so beautiful?! If it weren't for me just now, how much would you do?" Dangerous, what to do if someone steps on you! You, you, you——I’m so pissed off!"

It was the first time for Zhou Yan to see Li Lie get so angry. Of course, there were times when he got angry in the class, but it was only when the management class was treating others. As for him, this guy was always either smiling or laughing. It's like a different person, what kind of nerves did he have.

Before Zhou Yan could react, Li Lie realized that his anger was a little too much, and immediately suppressed his anger, and asked anxiously, "Did you get stepped on and bumped somewhere just now?"

Zhou Yan shook his head, and Li Lie let out a long breath.

Li Lie inquired about Zhou Yan with keen eyesight. Seeing that his face was normal, he stretched out his hand to touch his hand, which turned out to be a little hot. He couldn't help feeling that this young man is really a monster. Reason to shake his hand.

Li Lie's demeanor changed instantly, from angry to hippie smiling, he hooked Zhou Yan's shoulder, "Why did you come out alone at night?"

Uh... Zhou Yan didn't know why he came out, his eyes were blank and his face was covered.

"Aren't you here to buy soy sauce?" Li Lie asked with a smile.

Zhou Yan nodded seriously, "Yes. I'm here to buy soy sauce."

Li Lie, "..."

Zhou Yan asked back, "Ask me again, why are you following me all the time?"

Li Lie glanced at Zhou Yan pretending to be disgusted, "My little brother, can you please stop being so narcissistic?"

"Then what are you doing out at night?" Zhou Yan's expression was calm.

"Uh, I'm also here to buy soy sauce." Li Lie smiled.

Zhou Yan, "..."

The two kids who also claimed to buy soy sauce were wandering around in a supermarket with the heating turned on. Today the supermarket was just right, not too many and not too few. They were either couples or husband and wife. It makes people's eyes hurt, which can also be said to be envy.

Li Lie said something mean, "Look, we also seem like a couple." After he finished speaking, he regretted it, and he quickly covered his mouth, pretending that he hadn't said this sentence.

Zhou Yan didn't take it seriously, his expression was indifferent, and he added, "Then I'm attacking you or receiving it."

Li Lie's knowledge of animation only stays in the "Legend of Nezha" and "Black Cat Sheriff" he read when he was very young. He has read only a handful of literary books. Except for "Journey to the West", he has read the four major classics. The first one was a TV series, and the other three books were only read once under the compulsory request of the teacher.He didn't know anything about Two-dimensional subculture, let alone danmei, so he asked Zhou Yan innocently and innocently, "What is attack and what is suffering?"

Zhou Yan rolled his eyes at him, feeling a little guilty, and he threw two words at Li Lie, a three-year-old who didn't understand anything, "Illiterate."

Li Lie stepped forward and grabbed Zhou Yan's neck, "What, you dare to say that your brother is illiterate! Before your brother met you, he was the number one in his grade. You took away my number one position in ten thousand years. Today I want revenge."