blood

The first time I met Mo Nian was in elementary school. I thought he would be a boring person, but I never thought that I would be so infatuated with him in the days to come that I couldn't extricate myself.

When I saw him for the first time, I felt that his appearance was plain and there was nothing outstanding, but he was very attractive. This is what I discovered after a long time.

He doesn't seem to like people looking into his eyes. He said that being watched makes him feel like being watched, so he always covers them with bangs from time to time.But he may not know how bewitching his eyes are, how captivating the eyes that look at people through his bangs.Moran's eyes seem to understand all your sufferings, and they are flattened and shared by him, forgetting the word loneliness, giving people the illusion that they will be relieved even when they die.

It was an afternoon, and almost everyone in the school witnessed his fight, which was the complete opposite of his usual forbearance and low-key.

In fact, it is impossible for him to beat those guys who are good at fighting in school by himself, and he seems to know this, but knowing and doing are two different things.No matter how hard the others beat him, he always hit the weakest one, gnawing at him until that person fell down, turned around, and continued the cycle...

His body didn't seem to feel any pain, and it was running mechanically, but the whole white school uniform was stained with blood. He spat, and the wound on his lip kept gushing blood. When he raised his head, the sun shone on his black In the pupils, staring at the leader like a ghost, words flowed out one by one,

"Say it again..."

Asura-like remnant color, the beauty is touching.

In the end, he got a demerit from the school, lay in the hospital for a week, and then came to class covered in bandages.Those guys were not much better, they were almost suspended from school, but the person who was beaten by him heard that he had transferred to another school. Since then, no one dared to find fault with him.

Most of the time, he always lived his life in a very ordinary way. That glimpse seemed to be just an illusion for him, but it was deeply imprinted in my mind.

One of his hobbies is watching horror movies. Some of them made me feel hairy, but he can analyze the plot calmly, and he can even tell the excitement of the movie from the opening credits. The ending is probably what he said. middle.

Fatty once asked him about the future,

"In the future, I will probably be with a gentle girl, um, find a job... Maybe I will be as happy as my parents." When he squinted his eyes and described the future with a faint smile, my heart was It's so boring, after all, it's good for him to be happy.

But is it also a kind of happiness to watch him silently?

I know that I am very greedy. When I won his trust and became his brother, I wanted to have everything about him. The desire to possess him had already grown like a weed before I realized it. It's hard to return.

Sometimes he often stays at my house because of his mobile phone. He is the kind of person who sleeps very deeply and can't be woken up by thunder.I know I'm mean, I always use the new racing game to lure him again and again, and then kiss him secretly while he is asleep, and gently wrap his thin body in my arms, foolishly Looking at his sleeping face carefully, feeling his breath every time, only at that moment he belongs to me, and I really feel that I am happy.

Entering the nightclub, when he went to the bathroom, we got into trouble when we were wandering around—Xiao Pang didn’t know what happened to the table next to him, and he screamed,

"Ah, a gun! Look, that man has a gun, it seems real..." he exclaimed excitedly.Depend on!I've never eaten pigs and I've seen pigs run away. I spat, and it seemed like the two of them were negotiating something, but because Xiaopang's words were messed up... Before I had time to escape, I surrounded myself with a few people They punched and kicked us, the sound of broken glass, the cry of Xiaopang... and the warm and wet liquid on his head.

"Boy, which way, come here to play wild before the hair is fully grown!" the man in the light-colored suit asked sullenly.

I clenched my fist, thinking that it would be difficult to survive this time if it fell into the hands of these people.At this time, Nuo Yuan pulled me, I followed his dazed eyes to see that Mo Nian was withdrawing from the crowd of onlookers, my heart jumped into my throat.

When those people were planning to deal with us, I heard someone shouting for fire. I followed the source of the sound and looked through the cracks. When I saw the familiar figure at the corner, I suddenly wanted to hug him tightly, Hug him hard.

But, I can't, those people quickly controlled the scene, I looked at him distressedly, Ah Nian, hurry up... At this moment, for some reason, the whole venue blew the siren of the fire alarm, the whole venue was in chaos, and we Before he could react, he heard his voice.

"Walk!"

We ran desperately like that until we got on the bus. I hugged him softly in my arms, and I couldn't hear what other people said. I only knew that from this moment on, I never wanted to let go.

Ah Nian, Ah Nian... No matter what, it will be like this forever.

The direct trigger was that love letter at Christmas, the pink letter was full of love for him, and my mind was full of anger, as messy as paste.

he's mine!How can you be with someone else!Can't!Absolutely not!he's mine!

I tear up that filth in front of his face, you're mine!be mine!

"Hong Zhiye, what do you mean?" I looked at him, and he looked at me coldly.

Why?Why are you looking at me like this!I love you! You can't look at me like this!you belong With Me!belong to me!No one can take you away from me!

I pulled him into my arms, hugged him tightly, grabbed his head and kissed him deeply, well, it was so soft, and there was a faint scent of tea...

"Snapped!"

The left side of my face suddenly became hot, and my body also leaned to one side. He looked at me with a livid face, and his whole body was trembling uncontrollably.

"Don't touch me!" I was about to hug him into my arms, but he took a big step back

"Why can't I touch you! Why! Do you know how much I love you! I love you! Ah Nian, I love you! Why can't I touch you?" I grabbed him, but he tried to break free while covering his ears Why do I!I said I love you, why don't you let me touch you!Why!

"Let me go! Ah Nian, come back! Ah Nian!" I was restrained on the ground, watching his fading figure, it hurts, it really hurts, this feeling hurts every nerve in me , why go!Why!

The days that followed were worse than death, and he kept avoiding me, trying his best to hide.I frantically searched for him wherever he might pass by, waiting for him, guarding him, and buying him the latest game, the scariest movie, and favorite snacks... But the scary thing is, he But passing by me as if I were air, worse than a stranger, as if I had never appeared in his life, this recognition made me panic like never before, and I felt more terrible than death.don't want!I don't want to be like that!

"A Nian, please, don't do this, okay? Just pretend that I didn't say anything that day, and we are still friends, okay? A Nian, please, don't treat me like this..."

"Let go." He said coldly, without the slightest warmth in his eyes, "Hong Zhiye, we can't go back to the past."

His body temperature gradually drained from my fingers, and I stared blankly at the familiar figure disappearing around the corner.Can't go back, really can't go back?If I hadn't made such a move at the beginning, wouldn't it have turned into today's situation?Seeing him with that woman, won't it be as heartbreaking as it is today?

I want to laugh, but the corners of my eyes are extremely bitter... Is it just gone?I covered my heart, the pain was so painful that I couldn't breathe, no!can not do this!I looked in the direction of his departure with my hazy eyes, taking a gamble!At least it will make me feel better... Ah Nian...

There was an ear-piercing sound, and the body seemed to be floating for an instant, and then fell rapidly...

My eyelids were heavy, and the white light made me squint.

"Wake up, wake up...doctor..."

My parents were sobbing next to me, Xiaopang, Nuo Yuan, Huashu...all came, but he was not in the crowd. I stared at the door, but the person I missed the most still didn't come...

"Yeye, eh..., we told him about that...but" Xiaopang hesitantly said, the others were silent, I suddenly felt sore eyes, Mo Nian, I bet my life..., You are still not here.

In the middle of the night, my mouth was extremely dry. I opened my eyes to look for the position of the water glass, but saw a figure lying beside the bed. I turned on the light casually, and under the light was that familiar profile.

I pinched myself, yes, it will hurt!

Not a dream? !

I stared at him obsessively, afraid that there would be nothing left from this dream when I woke up.The temperature under the hand is so real, so nostalgic, his eyes slowly opened, and my fingertips were also on his soft lips,

"Want to drink water?"

The tone of voice was still the same caring tone as before, as if the previous period had been vacuumed up, leaving only the beautiful past.I nodded blankly, until I saw him handing me the water, I grabbed him and locked him tightly in my arms.

"A Nian, is this real? I'm not dreaming, am I?"

I held his face in my arms and kissed his cheek until tears flowed down my cheeks.

"Is it true? Even if it's fake..."

"It's true,...Ye Ye, don't hug so tightly, it will press the wound..."

He seemed to sigh, and wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes with slightly cool fingertips.

it is true!it is true!

My heart was almost bursting with happiness. With the sudden sense of happiness, my tense nerves relaxed all of a sudden, and the drowsiness slowly hit me. I hugged the person in my arms and fell asleep contentedly. ...

I woke up in the morning and wanted to give that person a kiss, but the seat next to me was empty.

empty!

I suddenly woke up, I spent a whole minute looking at that empty seat, just staring at that bed, wishing to stare at it...

fake!

fake!

all fake!

So true but tell me it's Nankeyimeng!It's all a lie!Liar!

I frantically swept everything away,

deceitful!It's all a lie!

I tore the needles off my body,

Fake!all fake! ...

"Ye Ye!"

I turned my head, Ah Nian was looking at me in panic,

it is true?it is true!Ah Nian didn't lie to me!

I smiled happily.

"A Nian..."

"Don't move!...the needle is still pulling..."

His voice was hoarse and he walked towards me.

"A Nian, what's wrong with you?"

He looked at me, his eyes were flushed, his lips opened and closed, before he could say anything, a drop of hot liquid ran across his face and fell into my skin,

"A Nian, don't, don't cry, it's my fault..."

I tremblingly wiped away tears for him, but more and more, my heart was about to break,

Ah Nian, don't cry, I love you, I really love you, don't refuse me, okay?I really like you... I kissed his forehead deeply.

"Let me think about it, let me think about it... I don't know... I'm in a mess right now... let me think about it..."

He was also tired in the end, closed his eyes tiredly, and spoke unconsciously.I pecked at his crying eyes, nose, lips... and kissed my love again and again.

Sometimes when happiness comes too fast, it gives me the illusion of stepping on clouds.

Even every day I have to take the trouble to confirm his existence.

"Hong Zhiye, you are a dog! Why do you keep biting me every day!" He gave me a blank look, and covered my mouth helplessly.

"I love you"

"I know"

He rubbed his ears and looked at me unbearably, then continued to play his game, I wrapped him in my arms, buried my head in his white and gentle neck contentedly, feeling the rhythm of the beating pulse, my body trembled hot……

That's the way people are, they want to take an inch when they have an inch.

"do not move"

I stopped him from trying to break free from my embrace, and he seemed to know something, and he didn't dare to move for a long time... I didn't want to hurt him, so I could only suppress that desire desperately, but I don't know how long I can bear it.

"Nuo Yuan, why did you call me here?"

I couldn't wait impatiently, this guy somehow said this morning that he wanted to tell me something, and brought me to the roof of this school, and he just started smoking while seeing no one around.

Before I realized what was going on, I was punched in the stomach by him.

"What the hell is going on with you! What a nerve!"

I spat at him.But he grabbed my neckline and said to me viciously:

"Do you know that it's selfish of you to do this! Do you know that you will destroy Ah Nian!"

His face was full of ferocity,

"I warn you! Hong Zhiye, I will never let you go!"

He threw me on the ground and walked straight down the stairs... I couldn't recover for a long time.

Suddenly I realized that I had been ignoring a very important issue!

Mo Nian is so good that I am not the only one who can see it, maybe someone has already engraved it deeply in my heart like me, yes, there must be someone like me who loves him deeply?

Today is Nuo Yuan, who will it be tomorrow?

An unprecedented fear crawled into my heart, gnawing at my aching nerve endings like thousands of termites.

Do not!

he's mine!

No one can take him away!

its mine!

be mine! …

"Ye, you, what are you doing..."

He looked at me a little scared, and stopped my hand that was about to reach into his pants.

"Can you give it to me, Ah Nian? I want you."

I kissed his slightly cool fingertips piously, and held that slightly trembling index finger, with a hoarse voice.

"Yeye, don't force me...I don't want to..."

Is this the first time?

why?

We are already together, why are you still rejecting me?

Don't you love me too!

Why?To reject me!

You are mine, are mine!

…I stared straight at his back as he was taking notes seriously, feeling bitter in my heart.

On the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, we went to Wanhua Street to watch the Lantern Festival. In the dense crowd of people, our fingers intertwined. I tightened my grip every time.

"Why is it still so cold"

I licked his fingertips and hid it on my heart,

"Is it warmer?"

Already drunk?The alcohol capacity is really light.

Ah Nian, you will understand me.

Yeah...yes, you'll understand me.

I love you so much, Anian,

I want you...so give me

Looking at his pupils that were a bit confused due to alcohol, and the sparse and long eyelashes flickering from time to time, I kissed his double eyelids.

If you don't answer, it's the default.

That was, the happiest moment of my life,

Mo Nian, I love you.

I kiss his ring finger and swear:

my love,

unswervingly to death.