forget the soul

Yu Rong called the police.But because Lin Wangyue disappeared less than a day ago, the local police suggested that Yu Rong could first contact the search and rescue team to find people in the volcano and rainforest. They also gave Yu Rong the contact number of a local private search and rescue team.Yu Rong called, and the search and rescue team came very quickly. A person in charge came with two strong men in black bodysuits, army green camouflage pants, and Ray-Ban sunglasses. Yu Rong asked Anu: "What did I do just now?" Did you call the search and rescue team?"

Anu reassures Yu Rong that the search and rescue teams are indeed veterans, and most of them use equipment retired from the military. The things are not new, the fees are not low, and they have rich experience. They have participated in many missions in the South Pacific. , The search for missing planes, ships, expeditions, and private climbers on this island has a formal process, you have to sign a contract and pay a deposit. The first phase of the contract is signed for ten days. After ten days, no clues or people can be found. Yes, keep looking if you want to, and give up if you don’t want to.They also do not rule out cooperating with other search and rescue teams in the search.

Yu Rong was sitting in a wooden house in hot tide, looking at the price offered by the search and rescue team, the deposit alone was far beyond the amount he could afford by gritting his teeth. When he was hesitating, Anu discussed with him and said: " Maybe we should contact his family first."

Anu added: "It may be cruel to say that, but you may have to accept that he chose to take his own life."

Yu Rong pinched the contract drafted by the search and rescue team and said, "Didn't you say that the volcano is very repulsive to outsiders? Then why did he go up the mountain alone and the volcano didn't erupt? Didn't the volcano tell anyone in your village?"

He turned his head and bit his lips tightly. Through the open window, he saw a group of naked, curly-haired local children huddled in front of the wooden house, whispering, pointing and pointing blatantly.Yu Rong was in a worse mood, pressed his temples, and said to Anu: "Let me think about it, can I give them an answer tomorrow?"

He spoke again in English with the person in charge of the search and rescue team.The person in charge was not tall, with dark skin, little white eyes, and extremely dark lips. At first glance, he saw only a dark shadow. He reached out to shake hands with Yu Rong, and spoke English with a strong accent: "I understand very well, but if it were me, in this situation, I would respect his decision."

Yu Rong quickly argued: "He is a very powerful designer! He still has many dreams, he...he can't commit suicide!"

Everyone stopped talking, and Anu sent people out, but he didn't come back.Yu Rong closed the door, drew the bamboo curtains, and blocked out the sunlight and eyes from outside.He sat on Lin Wangyue's bed, holding Lin Wangyue's mobile phone, thinking hard.

What will be the password?

0000, 8888, or birthday?

What is Lin Wangyue's birthday?

He searched the Internet, and all he found was the day when Lin Wangyue's brand was established, and he didn't even find a recent photo of Lin Wangyue.Three years ago, after a spring/summer women's wear conference held in the botanical garden, Lin Wangyue stopped accepting any media interviews and refused to take any form of photography. Only when the catwalk ended, the public had the opportunity to see his true face , Take advantage of this to take some phantom-like photos.Gossip is everywhere on the Internet. Some people say that Lin Wangyue and Li Xiao have been at odds since then. It is unavoidable that he speaks out in front of the media and brings too much negative news to the brand. The brand side limits his chances of appearing in the public eye. .

Could it be Li Xiao's birthday?

Yu Rong couldn't find Li Xiao's birthday either.His social accounts are either new product release announcements or cross-border cooperation promotions. Occasionally, there are a few photos of the office, and design sketches and fabric samples occupy most of the screen.There is only one photo that has a touch of life. Li Xiao was invited to visit Dior’s archives and collection room. He leaned sideways at the door and waved to the camera, smiling.Li Xiao described this photo like this: I can't wait.

Yu Rong tapped his head, trying to recall the details of the fourteen missed calls from the same number that he accidentally saw in Bamei.But the memory is too vague, any permutation and combination seem to be right and hopeful, but they all seem to be wrong.

Yu Rong really had no choice but to call Xinyun. As soon as the call was connected, he said: "Sister Xinyun, you said that your cousin was an intern in Lin Wangyue's design company, right? She can contact his partner ?"

Xin Yun asked him quickly: "What's wrong with Lin Wangyue? Are you looking for Li Xiao? What's the matter, hurry up and reveal it."

"Oh, it's nothing." Yu Rong rubbed his nose and said, "I was talking about cooperation with him. He said that he is not very clear about the copyright ownership of his design manuscripts. He has to ask his partner, who , I'm in a hurry, can I..."

"His partner, can't he contact himself?"

"You also know that their current relationship is very tense. To be honest, Lin Wangyue's temper is not very good. First, he doesn't want to contact him. Second, I'm afraid that the two of them will quarrel and affect our cooperation. If people get angry and file a copyright lawsuit, it will be troublesome, don’t you think so?” Yu Rong said with a stiff smile, tugging at his pants and pinching his fingers.

Xin Yun seemed to be convinced, and said: "Then let me ask for you." She then said: "Hey, did you go to Macau with Lin Wangyue before?"

Yu Rong laughed dryly: "Sister Xinyun is well informed."

His ears were buzzing, and his head hurt like someone was drilling his skull. He could hear it clearly, but he couldn't stop it.Yu Rong said with a smile: "He and I, let's go to Macau to shoot something."

"What are you shooting?"

"It was he who asked me to help him make a commercial, let's shoot some material."

"Ah? He wants to make a comeback? Who will invest in him? He inherited a large sum of money from his father? You know he is the illegitimate son of Pu Yuesheng, right? Oh, you didn't tell me earlier! Hey, you want It’s not that he inherited the inheritance, otherwise who would invest in him? You know that their parent company banned him? The fashion industry is not big or small. Pansidong is originally an Asian It’s not easy to do business in Europe, and he’s a real guy. He’s doing so many things by himself, and he’s going to lose his underwear. Now that he’s backed by a big company, he’s starting to make a profit. He…”

Yu Rong couldn't bear it anymore: "Nonsense!"

Xin Yun was stunned, quiet for a moment, Yu Rong was also stunned, and hurriedly smiled and said, "Who is spreading nonsense rumors! He didn't get any inheritance, anyway, I didn't hear him say, as for banning, it won't Well, he didn't slander the Jews, and he wasn't involved in any crimes..."

Xin Yun giggled: "Okay, okay, I see, let me ask for you."

Yu Rong hung up the phone, sighed, leaned against the head of the bed, and lay down crookedly.Without a break, Xinyun voicemailed him on WeChat and asked, "Are you really going to cooperate?"

Yes.Yu Rong went back and clasped the phone to his stomach.

After another break, his phone vibrated, Yu Rong turned over to see, an unknown number called, and he quickly picked it up.

"Hello, hello... is that Li Xiao?" He asked quickly.

The other party replied warmly, the voice was a little far away from the receiver: "I am. Excuse me, is this Mr. Yu?"

Yu Rong asked: "Do you have the contact information of Lin Wangyue's mother?"

Li Xiao said: "His mother has been recuperating in her hometown in Jiangxi. She is not in good health. If you have anything to say, just tell me."

Yu Rong refused: "No, you must tell his family about this matter. With all due respect, you... you are not considered his family no matter what?"

Li Xiao fell silent, as if he had switched from a quiet place to a quieter place to talk on the phone, and the other end of the phone was surprisingly quiet.After a break, Li Xiao spoke again: "Sorry, I was driving just now."

His voice was closer, clearer, softer.

He added: "A Yue's mother may not be able to understand what you want to tell me."

Yu Rong was confused: "What do you mean by that? Did you know something? Did he call you, what did he tell you? Did he tell you in advance?? He told you that he was going to..." Yu Rong sat up, waving his hands in the air, as if trying to grab something, but he couldn't catch anything, he choked up, and lowered his head heavily.

Li Xiao said calmly, "Mr. Yu, calm down."

Yu Rong's reaction was very strong. He beat the bed and waved his hands indiscriminately: "Calm down, how can I calm down?? His clothes, his shoes! He...he will disappear if he doesn't see him! We have been out together for so long, he alone He didn't say a word to me!" He gasped and cursed, "He broke his promise! He hasn't finished filming for me yet!! He promised me to be my photographer! He gave up halfway! How could he do this??! "

"Mr. Yu..." Li Xiao called him again.

Yu Rong bounced up: "Don't call me Mr. Yu!"

"Don't tell me to calm down!" Yu Rong grabbed his hair and circled the room, "If it were you, would you be able to calm down? Oh, be alone, and I was by your side a few hours ago, saying It's gone," Yu Rong gritted his teeth, almost teaching others with hatred: "How can you be so calm? Li Xiao, do you care about him? Lin Wangyue, he is your partner Man, the person who took you from an underground tailor workshop in Milan to London, a person who loves you so much and cannot leave you by himself, is dead!" Yu Rong trembled all over, slipped on the soles of his feet, and fell to the ground , he couldn't get up, so he sat on the ground, lowered his head, and lowered his voice, "No, he's missing, he's not dead, there's no body, just found his clothes, shoes, they're just there , he was carrying a feather cloak, that cloak was not found, he was still alive, and with its cloak..."

Yu Rong's voice became hoarse, and he asked Li Xiao, "Why don't you speak?"

Li Xiao said, "May I ask where you are now?"

Yu Rong asked, "Did he suffer from some terminal illness?"

Li Xiao said: "He is in good health."

"That's right, he's still so young!" Yu Rong inserted his fingers into his hair, and the tip of his nose almost touched his bent knee, "He smokes less than I do, doesn't drink much, and works and rests regularly." Very regular!"

Li Xiao said: "Well, let's make an appointment to meet at a time and place. If it's not convenient for you, I'll come and find you."

Yu Rong turned a deaf ear to it, and babbled on to himself: "Won't a person who wants to die make a bucket list? Go to some places that have never been, want to go, do things that have always wanted to be done but haven't done, he ...Why is he willing to run around with me, to Bamei, to Thailand, to Japan, and even here...Do you know how much time we were wasting on the road just waiting for the bus and waiting for the connecting flight? He doesn't seem to be at all In a hurry, how could he not be in a hurry? He was still laughing all the time, heartless...unscrupulous...he, he said a lot, a lot of meaningless things, really, there was no meaning at all , he still eats everything, he is not picky eater, would people who want to die like this? If I decide to die, I must eat all the most memorable food I have ever eaten in my life, I must eat again Once I eat the sweet and sour pork ribs made by my mother, I will definitely..."

Yu Rong took a deep breath: "How can a person die without saying anything, without reminding him?"

Li Xiao said: "He has his problems. Don't blame yourself too much, this matter has nothing to do with you."

Yu Rong suddenly became furious, and his voice became louder, almost screaming: "What do you mean it has nothing to do with me! It's not me, he will come to Ambrym, come to the volcano? It's not me, he, he...will he jump off? You are cold-blooded An animal?!!! How can you be so calm! Do you...do you have feelings for him!! He committed suicide!!! He jumped off the volcano! How could someone end his life in such a cruel way !!"

Li Xiao still spoke peacefully: "He has been thinking about this matter for a long time."

Yu Rong asked: "Is it because of you??! It must be because of you! Those people in the Pu family, what media, what public, he doesn't care at all, only you, is it because you cheated? You betrayed him? Yes Ah, he said you were ungrateful!"

Li Xiao said: "People are looking for a balance point in the world. He lost that balance point very early, and he has been leaning in one direction."

"No, he sees it very clearly."

"He's too sensitive."

Yu Rong shook his head: "No. He is too good at observing words and expressions. He seems to know everything. He knows what other people think."

Li Xiao said: "His background has to require him to learn to read words and expressions. He has too strong perception of his surroundings, but he can't bear so many emotions."

"How can you say it so easily?" Yu Rong was puzzled, he asked Li Xiao, "Do you love him?"

Li Xiao's tone was light: "A person, with someone who loves him, and someone who loves him, he will choose to die, and he can also choose to die. For him, his birth is a puzzle, and death is his After searching for a long time, I found an answer. Mr. Yu, don't be too sad, he solved his own problem, this is his relief."

"Do you believe in Buddhism?"

Li Xiao smiled and said: "If he can be freed, it will be happiness for him, and I accept his choice."

He said again: "You said Ambrym just now, didn't you? I'll buy a plane ticket and come here now."

Yu Rong thought of something. He crawled to the bed, grabbed Lin Wangyue's backpack, took out his two dead notebooks, and said, "He still has a career, doesn't he? He likes it so much... you You know, he draws and draws in his notebook all day long."

Yu Rong opened Lin Wangyue's notebook. Each page was a design manuscript, marking the fabric and pattern, in English and Chinese. The word "Qing Li" is over.

He arranged the release date for his manuscript, 2020, 2021, 2022, spring and summer, autumn and winter, women's clothing, men's clothing, how the show is arranged, what is the overall concept, what music to use, which lighting engineer to find, he They all made up their minds.

He drew three Grim Reapers, one holding Easter eggs, one holding a bouquet of snow-white porcelain roses, and the other holding an astronaut helmet.He needs three models who are both male and female, and he will decorate their faces with tears made of crystals, and he will put a smiley mask made out of their own faces on the back of their heads.

Yu Rong propped his forehead, terribly confused: "Why?"

"He always said that I like to shoot funerals and dead people." Yu Rong closed his notebooks, leaned against them, and said, "Yes, I like it, yes, I just can't get around it."

He said: "I photographed it time and time again, I tried to describe it, I tried to understand it, to understand it better. I just wanted to understand why it could appear and come for no reason. In the end, it was really so for no reason. The land took people away from me, and there was no sign at all."

Yu Rong asked: "I contacted the search and rescue team, do you want to find him?"

Li Xiao said: "Please tell the search and rescue team, I won't look for it. I will be there in about two days."

Yu Rong waved his hands: "No, no, no, you don't have to come here, let's meet in Shanghai, I can return to Shanghai in four days."

"Okay, then let's meet in Shanghai. I hope that Mr. Yu will not disclose this matter to the outside world for the time being." Li Xiao said respectfully.

Yu Rong nodded, and suddenly asked, "You don't want to come and have a look?"

Li Xiao said, "Let's talk about it later when we have a chance."

Yu Rong nodded and hung up the phone.After being in a daze for a while, he picked up the phone again.He sent a voice message to Jennifer on WeChat, saying, "Mom, a friend of mine committed suicide yesterday."

He withdrew the message, reposted it, and said, "Mom, a friend of mine turned into a big bird and flew away."

For the next two days, Yu Rong and Anu camped on the volcano. He slept very little every day. In order to wait for the smoke and clouds and the natural light, he got up at three in the morning every day, followed Anu to the summit, and waited for the sunrise. Waiting for the clouds, waiting for the sun to dazzle, he returned to the camp to eat something, took a nap, and set off again in the evening, taking pictures of clouds and volcanoes as usual, using mobile phones, cameras, and drones.He also took pictures of the volcano at night. He watched the real-time transmission from the mountainside. The tumbling magma gushed out from a side of the mountain that no one could climb, and divided into many small tributaries.They shone red, like fine veins on the black earth.

The land under the volcano is rich in nutrients, and Yu Rong ate many of the sweetest tomatoes he had ever eaten in his life.

On the day he left, the village chief brought a little girl to see him off. The little girl whispered to the village chief, the village chief told Anu, and Anu told Yu Rong.Last night, the little girl had a dream. She dreamed that a crow stuck its beak into the magma. It was not afraid of the heat at all, and it ate the magma as if it was drinking water.As he drank and drank, the crow became very red and big, its wings began to burn, and its tail stretched out very long.The crow turned into another bird.The little girl had never seen such a bird.

Yu Rong left Ambrym Island.

During the intervals of waiting and connecting planes, as long as there is internet, Yu Rong would look for Lin Wangyue's fashion show to watch.He fell asleep on the plane and had a dream. He dreamed that many costumed gods of death in black came towards him one after another. , continue to bite the bullet and bravely look for clues of death in the skirts and veils of these gods of death.

When we arrived in Shanghai, it was still Pudong Airport, the same pick-up gate, and the pick-up aisle full of people on both sides.

Yu Rong continued to search.The Sheraton Hotel came to pick up Mr. David White, the Shangri-La came to pick up Ms. Wang Lingling, the Jingmen Group came to pick up Mr. Li Li, and there were people who asked "Will you go to Hangzhou?" "Will you go to Jiaxing?" They are everywhere Yellow, anxious, unfamiliar face.

Yu Rong suddenly couldn't move anymore. He stopped in the middle of the road. Ms. Wang and Mr. Li passed him one after another, facing the people who were waiting for them. Children walked to parents, old people walked to children, men walked to women, women walked to men.Everyone hugged wearily, rushing to greet each other.Yu Rong wanted to cry.He lowered his head, took a deep breath, walked quickly to a middle-aged woman, and said angrily, "I'm going to Jiaxing!!"

The woman looked at him strangely, then put on a courteous smile, pointed to the front and said, "Okay then, let's go, let's go!"

It's raining in Shanghai.The black car was a minivan. After Yu Rong got up, five people came one after another. It was full of people and stuffed with luggage, and the driver set off.

Yu Rong replied to Janet's email in the car.

"A lot of things happened, my camera is gone, maybe I should make a documentary about him. Maybe the truth of the death is sudden. I don't know. I came to find the answer, but I am more and more confused, about many questions. Really Is there an answer? Is the truth of life a maze? Are we living in a huge maze?"

After sending the email, he hugged his backpack and sprinted. Halfway through, he was woken up by his mobile phone.Old Yu called him.Yu Rong took the time to answer the phone and said, "What's wrong?"

Lao Yu said, "Ah? Mengbusha (nothing), I want to ask Guleluota (where are you)."

Yu Rong spoke Suzhou dialect: "Let's go to Jiaxing to Ge Lulang. I just arrived in Shanghai and got off the plane."

"Huh? Nang went to Jiaxing, tsk?"

"Ah."

Old Yu coughed twice: "The bus?"

"The van."

"I'm in the van! I'm here in Shanghai, please tell me?"

Yu Rong said in Mandarin: "So what if I told you? Before I came back, I told you in advance every time. Isn't it the same as taking a three-hour car home? Every time I leave, I also tell you in advance. , and you never asked me if I wanted to send it."

Lao Yu was dumbfounded, took a break, and said, "Well, Lu Lang, be careful, and take a look at the valuables."

"Got it." Yu Rong rubbed his eyebrows, impatient.

"Menghaha (nothing), let's be busy, let's be busy." Lao Yu also got a little impatient, and then asked, "Gehe Chenguang returned to Suzhou from Jiaxing? Or where should I go? Did you say you were going back to America last time?"

Yu Rong said, "I have something to do."

As soon as he finished speaking, the driver slammed on the brakes, and Yu Rong's head hit the back of the chair in front of him. Somehow, the driver of the black car made a sudden stop, cursing and going around to the side driveway. Yu Rong looked out, and in the gloomy rain and fog, the white Ford hit a dog, the dog fell to the ground, and a car got out A panicked woman.A little girl was lying by the window of the passenger seat, her round eyes were wide open.

Yu Rong and Lao Yu said: "I don't know what you really want from me. If you don't want something, I will give it to you."

The people in the car were still talking loudly about the accident just now, Yu Rong said softly: "Mom should have told you, I don't know if you forgot or don't want to remember."

"I like men," he said.

"You don't like it, you don't understand it, you don't accept it, and I'm still like this, like..." Yu Rong paused, leaning forward against the back of the chair in front of him, his voice was low and clear, "It's like I don't like you, Sometimes, I don't understand you, I don't accept some of what you say, and some things you do, but you are still old Yu, and you are still my father..."

He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand, the more he wiped his vision became blurred, he simply closed his eyes and wept silently.

After a long time, Old Yu spoke: "I know tsk... Dad knows tsk..."

Yu Rong stopped ringing, and neither did Lao Yu.Yu Rong's cell phone ran out of battery, and the phone disconnected by itself.

forget the soul