Only Junshu

Junzi was walking on the street, wearing a peaked cap on his head, his head was buried a little low, and his eyes were always glued to the heels of the person in front of him.

He didn't dare to raise his head, firstly because he was afraid that his face would attract crowds, and secondly because he was afraid that he would be frightened by the person in front of him when he turned around.

It was someone he had liked for a long time, probably since high school.He still remembers that cloudy afternoon a few years ago, when he was tripped by someone stretching out his foot on the playground, his foot was sprained and he couldn't stand up, and it rained heavily in an unbelievable weather. .

All the students started to run to the classroom, only he sat helplessly in the rain, gave up struggling, let the heavy rain wash away, and was drenched from head to toe.

At that time, that person rushed out of the teaching building with an umbrella, and helped the limping him to a place where he could not get wet.

The seeds of emotion were planted at that time.

Junzi sighed silently.

Unfortunately, the seeds germinated and grew up, but in the end he couldn't reap the fruit he wanted.

He knew the name of the person in front of him, Shen Zhongshu, and the three words he overheard were engraved in his mind just like that, making him remember them for five years.

Junzi has never taken the initiative to follow this person. He is afraid of being discovered by this person, afraid of being disgusted by this person.

If you're destined not to get it, at least don't screw things up too badly.Just like this silently, it is enough to meet once in a while on the street, take a look at it, and follow along the street.

Sometimes, people are so easily satisfied.

Seeing that this road is about to come to an end, at the next intersection, they will go in two different directions.

The next time we meet, I don't know when it will be.

Time always speeds up when people least want it to flow away. At the crossroads, Junzi finally raised his head slightly and glanced at the back of the man's head.

The man turned the corner.

Junzi froze for a moment, then quickly followed.

This person turned out to be walking in the same direction as him today. Could it be that he was going to buy something on this street?Or something else...

Jun Zi shook his head.Anyway, his small flower shop is coming soon, and it will be a matter of time before we part.

But things don't always play out according to common sense.

Shen Zhongshu stopped in front of the small flower and plant shop that hadn't opened the rolling shutter door, turned around, and after Jun Zi stopped the car and walked a few steps forward, he said, "Is this your shop?"

Jun Zi stopped immediately and froze on the spot. For a while, he was not sure who the person was asking, so he didn't give an answer.

Shen Zhongshu stretched out a hand towards him, and snapped his fingers under his nose, "I'm asking you something, don't be in a daze!"

Only then did Jun Zi raise her head, and immediately buried it down after raising it, her voice was a little low, "Well, it's mine, do you want to buy flowers?"

Shen Zhongshu nodded, and after clicking, he felt that this person should be invisible, so he said, "Well, buy a bouquet of roses, red ones, do you have them?"

Junzi nodded, and took out the key from his pocket, "It was delivered yesterday, but today's one has to wait until noon." As he spoke, he bent down and opened the shutter door, and pushed the shutter up.

Shen Zhongshu came over to help, "It's okay, yesterday's is fine too."

Junzi fixed the door, turned on the lights in the store, and went inside to find roses, feeling a little uncomfortable.

People who come here to buy red roses usually only for one thing.And this matter, he didn't want to think about it.

It's a bit uncomfortable.

Junzi pointed to the red rose stuck in the water, "Are these okay?"

Shen Zhongshu picked up one and looked at it, "Yes, it's pretty good."

"How many flowers do you want?" Junzi asked, and went to the other side of the table to get a few pieces of wrapping paper, "What color do you want?"

"Juduo, I want this one." Shen Zhongshu pointed to the second wrapping paper in Junzi's hand, it was retro and looked very comfortable.

Nine roses represent long-term protection and firm love.

Junzi picked out nine of the most beautiful roses, wrapped them skillfully in paper, and finally tied a lovely bow on the wrapping paper.

Shen Zhongshu took the bouquet, and after paying the money, he handed the bouquet in front of Junzi, "Here, it's for you."

After being stunned for three seconds, Junzi raised her head in disbelief, and met the man's gentle eyes.

Shen Zhongshu stuffed the bouquet of roses into his arms, "Take it."

Junzi hurriedly pushed the flowers towards him, "Don't be like this, do you know what roses represent? You can't just give them away!"

"I know." Shen Zhongshu grabbed his hand and told him to hold the flower firmly, "You may not believe it, but in the past five years, I have seen you as many times as you have seen me , and if you really want to count, I should have one more time than you..."

Jun Zi couldn't quite understand the scene he was going through now.When he dreamed back in the middle of the night, he didn't know how many times he had imagined a scene like this, but when all this really happened before his eyes, he felt a little dazed, feeling that it was unreal, as if he was still dreaming.

Maybe you need to wake yourself up.

Junzi quietly pressed his fingers against the thorns of the rose, and the tingling sensation hit him all of a sudden, but he tried not to gasp.

However, Shen Zhongshu still noticed his move.

"What are you doing!" Shen Zhongshu snatched the rose back and put it on the flower stand beside him, grabbed Junzi's hand and looked at it, frowning: "Do you have alcohol cotton and band-aid here?"

Junxi pointed blankly at the wooden table where the wrapping paper was placed, "It's in the drawer."

Shen Zhongshu dragged him over, opened the drawer and rummaged through it. After finding the alcohol swab, he wiped it on Junzi's fingers. The action was a little rough, and Junzi frowned in pain.

After putting the band-aid on, Shen Zhongshu said, "I've been in pain, do you know that I'm awake now?"

Jun Zi shook her head, and replied honestly, "I'm still not sure."

Shen Zhongshu sighed, "It's my fault, I haven't told you for so long...Sorry."

Jun Zi continued to shake her head, "No, what did you just say... what do you mean?"

"Two-way crush." ​​Shen Zhongshu said, "But not now."

"Ah...ah?" When she heard the words "two-way secret love", Junzi's heart beat fast, and she felt that there must be something wrong with the way she got up today, otherwise how could she encounter such a thing and hear such words?

In the past five years, the conversation he had with the person in front of him was nothing more than a few sentences in the rain that year.

"Hold the umbrella, and I'll help you up."

"Thank you."

There are only these two sentences.

As for the others, they are all seen by the eyes, the figure of a young man running in the sun, his eloquent recitation on the flag stage, and a distant look back at the graduation ceremony.

Then, there are countless times of following on the street.

They didn't even meet eyes a few times.

"Then what did you say, one more time than me?" Junzi still cared more about this sentence.

Shen Zhongshu thought for a while, and said, "It's not easy to say, I'm afraid you will be embarrassed."

"it does not matter."

Shen finally said: "In the second half of the third year of high school, when a new classmate came to your next class..."

Those few days left a deep impression on Junzi, he understood Shen Zhongshu's meaning almost immediately, and couldn't help but widen his eyes, "It's you?"

On the third night when the new classmate came, he was blocked in an alley by several people, and encountered some things that he didn't want to recall. In the end, he passed out, and when he woke up again, he was already at his home.

He never knew how he got back home, and now it seems that the shadow he saw at the end of his vision before he fell into a coma may have an owner.

Shen Zhongshu nodded, "Sorry, I'm still late."

For so many years, Junzi has not been able to get rid of the shadow brought to him by that night. At this moment, he was suddenly recalled, but he was surprised to find that he didn't feel any discomfort at all.

Probably because he finally knew who the person who saved him was.

And that person, standing in front of him now, looked at him with unusually gentle eyes, and even gave him roses, telling him calmly that they were two-way secret love.

Kind of fucked up.

"Thank you." Junzi took a deep breath and bent over Shen Zhongshu, "Really, thank you."

Shen Zhongshu quickly helped him up, "Don't, if you really want to thank me, just accept the confession just now."

Junzi raised her face and pointed to herself, "You see clearly, I have such a face, are you serious?"

This burn had been there since he was very young.As for the reason for the formation, he has never quite understood.At that time, he was still young, and his memory was very vague. He just vaguely knew that it was caused by his late parents' quarrel. As for more, he didn't know.

No one knows anymore.

"I'm serious." Shen Zhongshu still maintained the posture after helping Junzi up just now. The two are very close now, breathing almost on each other. "For today, I have considered It's been a long time, and if you don't believe me, I can use every day to prove it to you."

Junzi felt that it was difficult to breathe, so she stretched out her hand and pushed him, opening the distance between them.

Shen Zhongshu backed away obediently, "But you'd better think it through in the next eleven days."

Junzi is a little puzzled, why must it be within eleven days?Besides, this matter...he doesn't need to think about it at all.

Shen Zhongshu looked at the watch on his wrist, scratched his hair, "I'm going to be late, I'm leaving first, see you tomorrow."

So Junji stood there and watched the man run out of the store, and quickly disappeared from sight.

what is this?

Junzi squatted down and lowered the peaked cap a little.

Is what just happened really true?

After a long time, he stood up, glanced at the bouquet of roses on the flower stand, took the roses down with his own hand with a band-aid on it, carefully unpacked the flowers and put the flowers into an unused vase on the table.

Maybe, it's true.

Junzi doesn't want to think about the future.

A person like him who has been ridiculed and bullied since he was a child has long since ceased to expect a happy future.He just wanted to seize the moment, to grab what was in front of him.

A day is a day to be together.Anyway, with my appearance like this, there is nothing that person can draw.

He is not afraid of being cheated, not only because he has long been used to being cheated, but also because he thinks that he is like this, and it is good for that person to deceive himself.

Such a good person should not sink in himself.

It doesn't matter whether it's a whim or a well-thought-out decision, in short, from now on, he will treat this situation well and pay for it. Even if the final outcome is not satisfactory, he has nothing to regret and regret of.

He earned it.

He doesn't want anything else.

On this day, he didn't see that person again, but the occasional pain in his fingertips let him know that something happened, and he was caught off guard.

The next day, when Junzi came out of the community, he saw the man leaning on the street tree. The man obviously saw him too, smiled and waved to him.

Junzi walked over, wearing a mask on his face.

Shen Zhongshu glanced at him, "I won't despise you."

Junzi said: "There are always people who will dislike it. How do you know that I live here?" Junzi moved.Two years ago, he moved out of the dark alley and lived in this small house given by his uncle.

Shen Zhongshu said: "I said, I know you no less than you know me."

Jun Zi buried her head down a little more, feeling that her face was a little bit unbearable.As expected of the person I have been thinking about for so many years, just a word can make him have emotions that usually don't appear.

This is probably the second time they have walked side by side.Junzi thought while walking.The first time was in the heavy rain that year.

"Have you really thought it through? I'm a man." Just to be on the safe side, Junzi still said this on the road.He didn't want this person to feel that he was too casual, so there were some questions that should be asked, just like going through the process. It seemed that if we didn't go through it like this, both parties would not be at ease.

Shen Zhongshu held his hand directly, "It's so clear."

The temperature was uploaded from that person's hand, and Junzi struggled a little in a panic, but was held tighter by the other party.

Two big men walking hand in hand on the street, would it be considered strange?

Junzi himself doesn't care, he has long been used to all kinds of strange eyes, he is just afraid that Shen Zhongshu will be looked at with that kind of eyes, and that kind of eyes will still make people feel uncomfortable after all, he doesn't want to Shen Zhongshu was despised because of himself.

Shen Zhongshu said: "Don't worry, if I didn't really think about it, I wouldn't come to you, and I wouldn't say those things to you. Since I said it, I will definitely be responsible for what I said in the end."

Jun Zi pursed her lips, not knowing what to say, and finally could only reply with a very light "um".

At the crossroads, Shen Zhongshu didn't let go, just like yesterday, he followed Junzi to the flower shop.

Junzi opened the door and turned to look at him, "Aren't you going to work?"

"It's still early." Shen Zhongshu curled his lips, "Boss, I'm buying flowers, roses, nine, red ones."

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