I, the orphan of a traitor, is in demand

The white flag leads the way, important ministers die in battle, and the whole country mourns.

My skies are darkened, my breathing hurts, and my wounds that healed hurt again.I once thought about the panic when I met him again, and the grievance and anger when I met him again, but I never thought about saying goodbye to him forever in this way.

In accordance with the fate of heaven, the emperor said: Seven kings go out to fight for the country and the people, but God is not merciful, take away my beloved son, and take away the good king of the people.Three days later, the king returned home, and the people of the imperial city bowed down to greet him and send him off. The whole world mourned in plain clothes for the March month.

After the decree, my heart seemed to be empty.Life is short, like the dew in the morning, like a fleeting image, the world is impermanent, there is no time to have too much disgust and hatred.Walking down the street, passers-by were mourning the death of the Seventh Prince Li Ziyi.My legs were trembling and I couldn't move forward, so I sat down on the side of the street, but the servant hurriedly stepped forward to pull me, "My lord, it's cold in the ground, and the sun is getting brighter now, let's find a teahouse to sit."

"When did the Seventh Prince go to the frontier? Why didn't I hear any news?" In the past two months, I have been walking on this street almost every day, and I have met no less than 30 ministers of the court and China, even Xia Nianzhen. Once, of course, I have never met Li Ziyi, and now I know the reason why I can't see him.Disappointed tears fell one drop after another, and the servant responded, "The frontier is in a hurry, and the Seventh Prince left two months ago. This is a big matter, and the emperor did not announce it to the world. Only some ministers and princes are concerned about this matter." I know, I only learned about the Seventh Prince's expedition to the frontier after listening to them two days ago."

Left two months ago?No wonder he would say those things to me, he would let me go.If I had agreed to him at the time, would he not have gone to the frontier, would he not have this result?My vision was so blurred that I couldn't see the way ahead or the light.I finally got the freedom I was thinking about, why do I still feel so painful, why.

I don't know how long I sat there, but the noise around me gradually died down.The sound of carriages and horses stopped in front of me, and I heard a servant calling, "My lord." I wiped the tears from my face with my sleeves, and Li Cixiao said softly, "Yuqian, it's hot outside, let's go home." I was holding the hem of my clothes and didn't know what to say. I had no home, completely homeless.

As soon as I got back to Li Cixiao's other courtyard, I excused myself to be sleepy and lay down on the bed.Li Cixiao stood by the bed, "Yuqian, I'm to blame for this incident, I'm sorry, I should have told you earlier that Ziyi was going to the frontier. Foreigners from the Western Regions wantonly invaded our territory, and the soldiers who have been stationed on the frontier all year round are exhausted. The emperor was very worried. A minister proposed to send the prince to boost morale. Among the royal family, only Zi Yi was familiar with the art of war and was good at fighting. Maybe something went wrong. Let me tell you, I asked you to send Ziyi off for a ride, but Ziyi stopped me and said it was unnecessary... the deceased is dead, please take care of your health."

"Prince Tai, I'm tired." I turned my back to Li Cixiao and grabbed my aching heart.The love and hatred of the past, the grievances and grievances of the past all turned into long needles, piercing into my flesh and blood one by one.Li Cixiao seemed to sigh, "Then I'll go first, just call me if you need anything."

When I heard the door closing, I couldn't help crying.I hate him, I hate him, now that he is dead, I should be happy, why cry?I didn't shed tears when the two hundred and eight members of the Ling family became souls under the sword. Why do I have to cry so sadly for an enemy now? Why?Taifu often praised me for being smart, and Li Ziyi and Li Cixiao also often said that I was smart. At that time, I really thought I was smart, but now I understand that my smartness is only for a while, but being stupid is forever.

Memories come to my mind, from three years old to 23 years old, there were laughter and tears, sadness and joy during this period.Li Ziyi has told me more than once that he will protect me and keep me safe for the rest of my life.He has always kept his word. When he was 12 years old, he knelt outside the emperor's palace for six full days, kowtowed until the ground was covered with blood, and saved me with his own life.Afterwards, Li Cixiao protected me even more. The Taifu punished me to copy the book, and he copied it for me alone; the princes bullied me, and he stood up for me alone; And changed all the servants and girls.I have always been immersed in my own pain, ignoring his concern for me, ignoring the pain he endured for me.Now that he understands, so what, he will never come back.

I lay on the bed for a whole day, neither hungry nor thirsty, Li Cixiao stayed by the bedside and didn't talk much, only occasionally asked me to drink some water and eat some porridge.I answered him without saying a word, endured for two days, and finally waited until the third day.I got up early to take a shower, and I changed into plain clothes to go out. Li Cixiao said: "Yuqian, I need to go to the palace when the seventh brother returns to the city today. Remember to bring one or two servants with you when you go out. Don't worry me." .”

"I know that the King of Thailand doesn't need to worry about it. Things in the palace are important, so it's better for the King of Thailand not to delay." Li Cixiao told the servants a few more words before getting on his horse and leaving.Today's sky is a bit dark, today's old city is tightly suppressed, everyone who sees is wearing plain clothes, and the two sides of the main street are bustling with people.I led my servants to the gate of the city, and after waiting for about half an hour, the team to transport Li Ziyi's coffin arrived.

Everything in front of my eyes is white, the paper money floating in the sky is white, the funeral flowers on the coffin are white, and the filial piety of the soldiers is white.When everyone saw the coffin, they knelt down together, crying one after another.As the leading soldiers entered the city, the carriage carrying the coffin came slowly, and Wen Lan rode beside the coffin.His face was tired, his eyes were still sharp, Wen Lan had several wounds on his cheeks, and his battle clothes were damaged in many places.

The coffin moved past my eyes, and Li Ziyi's words that night rang in my ears again.Now I abandon everything, the title, fame and fortune, and I don't even bother to compete with Li Cixiao for the throne.Yuqian, I only want you, I just want to watch the sun rise and the moon set with you, I just want to walk all over the mountains and rivers with you, I want to grow old with you.Yuqian, will you come with me?Let's not stay in the old capital, let's go to the mountains and countryside, to a place where no one can find us, okay?Li Ziyi, say it again, as long as you say it again, I will promise you, I will promise you everything.

I asked over and over again, but no one answered.The coffin gradually went away, I got up and chased after it, "Liars are all liars! Li Ziyi can't die, he never does things that are not sure, he never fights battles that are not sure! They are all liars! , he is definitely not dead!"

"Young Master, Young Master Ling, don't chase after me." The servant held me tightly, and I fell to the ground while being pushed, "Li Xuan, come back!" How many times does a person have to experience despair in a lifetime?How much life and death do you have to go through?The Buddha said the eight sufferings: birth, old age, sickness and death, parting from love, long-lasting resentment, not being able to ask, not being able to let go.I am not afraid of the first four kinds of birth, old age, sickness and death, but the latter four tortured me unspeakably.

For Li Ziyi, I love him regardless of my own selfishness.My feelings for Li Ziyi are different from Dai Yichun and Dai Yian, and even more different from Li Cixiao.Lied to others and lied to myself, and now everything is meaningless. "Li Xuan, come back, I promise you everything, I promise you everything." Tears filled his eyes, but he saw the crowd leaving behind the coffin.

"My lord, the lord has passed away, please do not hurt your body." The servant helped me up, and without wiping away my tears, I chased after the coffin again.Kneeling all the way in front of Li Ziyi's palace, the servants pulled me and stopped letting me go forward.Xia Nianzhen led a group of girls and servants in white clothes and plain clothes to wait in front of the mansion. I hid aside and watched from a distance, not daring to approach.Xia Nianzhen hated me to the bone, if I stepped forward at this moment, it would only add to her pain.

Xia Nianzhen's eyes were red and swollen, she looked very haggard without makeup.After the kneeling ceremony, everyone carried the coffin into the palace. Xia Nianzhen was unsteady and fell on the stone steps. The girl stepped forward to help her, but Xia Nianzhen pushed her away, "Are you really so cruel? Ziyi, Are you really going to abandon me so cruelly?!"

The cries were endless, and I stood under the tree for a long time before I turned around in a daze. Before taking two steps, my heart hurt violently, and I vomited a pool of black blood. "My lord!" The servant helped me to turn pale with shock, my eyes became brighter and brighter, the servant's shouts became smaller and smaller, and the children's laughter became louder and louder.I seem to have seen Li Ziyi, who was 17 years old that year, standing under the plane tree in a red dress, handsome and unrestrained.He asked me, "Yuqian, is there any place you want to go?" I said, "There is no place you want to go."

Li Ziyi said, "The water town in the south is very interesting, and the scenery there is also very good. There is also the sea in the east, which is very magnificent. Would you like Yuqian to go and see it with me?" I said, "I will go if the prince goes." Li Ci Xiao hugged me, "Yu Qian, you are so kind, please don't leave me in the future." The scene at that time is still vivid in my memory.I promised not to leave him, but I broke my promise.

Li Ziyi laughed and cried for me, and even suffered a lot of scolding for me after the Miemen case.Everything in the past became clearer and clearer, and the pain in my heart became more intense. I owed him and he owed me. I should have cleared up with him, but I always felt that I still owed him a lot.

When I woke up, it was already dark, and Li Cixiao also came back, "Yuqian, do you feel better now?" I looked at the candlelight on the table in a daze, and An stepped forward to take the number for me. The pulse signaled, "My lord is fine, it's just a heatstroke, just rest for a few days." Dai Yi'an said a few more words intermittently, but I didn't hear the truth.

It was just dawn, and I was fully dressed and ready to go outside Li Ziyi's mansion to have a look, but Li Cixiao stopped me, "Yuqian, don't go today, come with me to Ziyi's mansion tomorrow to express condolences. Today you Take a good rest in the house, don't run around, if you suffer from heat stroke again, you may not be able to go tomorrow."

I responded, and Li Cixiao just left in peace.After eating and drinking medicine in the morning, I still couldn't hold back and went for a walk outside Li Ziyi's mansion.The courtiers who went to offer their condolences came one after another, and after a short while, Wen Lan came out.I hurried forward, Wen Lan greeted me, "Mr. Ling."

"I was thinking of handing over the things to the young master in a few days, but now that the young master is here, I will simply give it to you." Wen Lan took out a kit and handed it to me, "This is what the prince asked me to hand over to you, he said , I’m sorry for you in this life. He also said that what he said to you in Wanzhou City before was all sincere words, and there was no deceit. Whether you believe it or not, the prince will meet you in this life, and he will not regret it.”

Trembling, I opened the kit, and there was a key in the kit.