follow the light, fly

"What do you think I'm going to do?!" Lu Mingsu smiled, not intending to stop his movements at all, "Hey, just let me do it once, brother will definitely love you well."

"Lu Mingsu! You're going to die, I'll say it again, let me go!" Ni Yan's eyes were full of horror, the hairs all over his body stood on end, and he stared wide-eyed at Lu Mingsu in the darkness.

Lu Mingsu pressed on Ni Yan's body, locked his hands and feet, rubbed his hands on his waist, and slowly moved down: "Baby, be good, let's not be stubborn, be obedient." Then, Lu Mingsu gently rubbed between Ni Yan's legs, but Ni Yan didn't feel any enjoyment at all, his whole body began to tremble, and all the nerves seemed to be broken one by one.

"Let go of me! Don't touch me!" The darkness of the room, the irritation coming from his lower body, and the fear rising in his heart are tearing apart Ni Yan's heart little by little, "Let me go! Let go! Don't! "Ni Yan began to struggle desperately, but he couldn't use his hands, and his whole body was pressed down by Lu Mingsu, and he couldn't break free.The pictures in my mind came back bit by bit, the same darkness, the same excitement, the same fear...

It is true that Lu Mingsu drank too much. In the past, if he heard Ni Yan's roar, he would definitely jump up, apologizing and comforting him. However, today, Lu Mingsu became more and more excited when he heard the screaming in his ear.He wrapped his arms around Ni Yan's waist, rubbed his hands back, and pressed in gently.In order to let Ni Yan relax, he kept kissing Ni Yan's neck and chest, but Ni Yan trembled more and more.

"I beg you, please let me go, I really don't know...don't...let go! Let me go!" The moment Lu Mingsu's finger entered, Ni Yan burst into a heart-piercing burst. Crying, struggling with all the strength in his body, "Let go of me! Don't... don't touch me, don't touch me, I beg you, please! Help me!" The wrists tied by the rope had already leaked. After bleeding, Ni Yan suddenly trembled like crazy.

Lu Mingsu finally noticed Ni Yan's resistance. He thought that he could get Ni Yan's initiative to cater to him if he insisted a little longer like before, but Ni Yan's desperate resistance surprised him, and he was more than half sober.

"Don't touch me! Please, let me go, I beg you, brother, I beg you, don't..." Ni Yan kept crying these words repeatedly, Lu Mingsu stopped his hands He turned on the bedside lamp and saw Ni Yan's eyes tightly closed, tears all over his face, and his long eyelashes were soaked, hanging down listlessly under them.Ni Yan's expression was painful, Lu Mingsu had never seen anything that could make Ni Yan so painful, he was really scared at this moment.

Lu Mingsu turned over and knelt beside Ni Yan, lifted the quilt and pillow that was pressing on Ni Yan's hands, and saw that the two wrists were already covered with blood, he hurriedly reached out to untie the red rope.Unexpectedly, the moment Ni Yan felt the restraints on his body recede, he kicked Lu Mingsu out of the bed, then hugged his legs and curled up on the head of the bed, buried his head in his arms, and kept talking. talking about something.

There was a buzz in Lu Mingsu's mind, and he suddenly regretted what he had done... He climbed onto the bed and wanted to hug Ni Yan to calm his emotions, but he couldn't get close to Ni Yan at all.Ni Yan's hands were still tied together, but he didn't seem to feel the pain in his wrist at all, but he was vigilant about everything that happened around him, whenever Lu Mingsu dared to get a little closer, he would kick him, and then continued to cry.

Seeing Ni Yan like this, Lu Mingsu's heart was about to break. He gritted his teeth and threw himself on Ni Yan's side. He lifted Ni Yan's feet abruptly, and hugged him tightly: "I was wrong. , I'm damned, I drank too much, don't do this, be good, I won't do it again. It's okay, Ni Yan, it's okay, I won't touch you anymore, I don't want you to let me in my life, it's okay, Don't be afraid."

However, the more he hugged Ni Yan, the more he softly comforted Ni Yan, the more Ni Yan trembled, and the soft whisper suddenly turned into a cry: "Go away! Go away, don't come here, don't come here. Touch me!" Lu Mingsu looked at him stupidly, Ni Yan kicked his feet wildly, tears kept welling up in his eyes, and repeated those few words in his mouth, the screams startled even Zhang Muchen in the living room.

Zhang Muchen could often hear indistinct wails coming from the room, and she didn't pay much attention to them at first, but she was about to go to bed tonight, and suddenly felt that the shouts in the room were not right.Fourth brother was crying and calling for help, it didn't look like flirting anymore... Zhang Muchen was startled, don't Lu Mingsu be too violent and hurt fourth brother? !

"Fourth brother! Fourth brother!" Zhang Muchen slammed the door, "Are you okay, open the door, open the door, what did that bastard do to you?"

"Ni Yan, what's wrong with you?" Lu Mingsu was so anxious that his eyes turned red, "I beg you, I was wrong, don't do this, come here and hit me, don't cry..."

"Smelly shameless, you open the door for my old lady!" Zhang Muchen slammed the door outside the door, "What did you do to him, if you don't open the door again, see if I'm not skinning you?!"

Lu Mingsu suddenly reacted to the shouts from outside the door, ran to the door and slammed it open, hitting his chest straight with a fist.

"Get out!" Zhang Muchen pushed Lu Mingsu aside, and suddenly saw Ni Yan curled up on the bedside crying, as if she had been greatly frightened, she climbed onto the bed and ran to Ni Yan's side, just as she was about to reach out, suddenly Kicked off the bed by Ni Yan, Ni Yan glanced at her, as if he didn't recognize who she was at all: "Go away! Don't touch me! Don't touch me!"

Even Lu Mingsu couldn't hold back Ni Yan's kick. The moment Zhang Muchen fell under the bed, she felt that she was going to be cold in a second. She waited for a while before barely getting up.Seeing Lu Mingsu beside him, Zhang Muchen's eyes were on fire, and he grabbed Lu Mingsu's lapel: "What the hell are you doing, how did he become like this, do you want to die, jump from here if you miss Go down, don't drag my fourth brother to be buried with you!"

After Lu Mingsu saw that Ni Yan even kicked Zhang Muchen off the bed, he was completely stupid. He thought that Ni Yan was angry with him, but now it seems that he is really crazy, and he no longer recognizes anyone.

Suddenly, a person appeared in Lu Mingsu's mind. He grabbed Zhang Muchen's hand and dragged her to the living room.

"What are you doing?!" Zhang Muchen was dragged and stumbled down on the sofa, glaring at Lu Mingsu angrily.

"Call, call Bai Lin! Hurry up!" Lu Mingsu roared in panic.

"Ah? Oh, okay..." Zhang Muchen suddenly realized that she also knew a doctor who treated neurosis.

When Bai Lin received Zhang Muchen's phone call, he was sorting out his case files, and when he heard Zhang Muchen intermittently saying that her fourth brother was dying, she was startled: "What? Tell me clearly, what's wrong with Ni Yan?"

"I don't know," Zhang Muchen was so anxious that his voice began to tremble, "I saw him go crazy when I opened the door. Come quickly, or you will be able to catch up with this farewell!"

"Shut your crow mouth!" Bai Lin snarled and hung up the phone, and rushed out the door as soon as he took the coat.

Half an hour later, Bai Lin knocked on the door of Ni Yan's house, before he had time to say hello to Zhang Muchen and Lu Mingsu, he ran straight into the bedroom.Seeing Ni Yan's current state, Bai Lin's heart sank, he seemed to know what happened to Ni Yan intuitively.He wanted to step onto the bed with a quick stride, but Lu Mingsu grabbed his arm with one hand: "Don't go over, he kicks everyone now, and the seventh child was kicked off by him."

Bai Lin turned around and glared angrily, and said coldly: "Get out, close the door from the outside!"

Lu Mingsu was still in a daze, but Zhang Muchen dragged him out of the room and closed the door.Zhang Muchen was sitting on the sofa, hugging Gatlin with a dazed face, while Lu Mingsu was pacing back and forth in the living room. Now he regrets and wants to turn back the time by two hours. He must take a bath and sleep obediently, what? Neither do.No, he should rewind the time five or six hours, he must go home with Ni Yan, Ni Yan is right, Yan Xin is really not a good thing.

Half an hour later, Bai Lin finally came out, but it seemed that the battle situation was not very optimistic, Bai Lin's shirt was already wrinkled, and his hair was a little messy.Lu Mingsu rushed forward anxiously: "How's it going?"

Bai Lin ignored him, and turned to Zhang Muchen, "Where is your fourth brother's medicine?"

"Ah?... Oh!" Zhang Muchen jumped off the sofa, took out the medicine box from the cabinet, and handed it to Bai Lin, and saw Bai Lin returned to the room, and the door slammed shut with a "bang".

Lu Mingsu ran over and lay down on the door trying to hear the movement inside the house clearly, but there was no sound inside, and it took him a while to realize that the sound insulation effect of Ni Yan's house is very good.Suddenly, his heart stabbed. How did Ni Yan cry just now to alarm Zhang Muchen on the sofa.

"Okay, don't lie down!" Zhang Muchen yelled at Lu Mingsu angrily, "Now I know I'm in a hurry, why didn't you think of the consequences when you fucking died?!"

"I..." Lu Mingsu wanted to beat himself to death right now, but Ni Yan didn't know what was going on now, he could do nothing... "Squad Leader Lu is everywhere and omnipotent." Ni Yan's voice still echoed in his In his mind, for the first time, he felt that he was such a jerk.

"You're right, I'm a bastard!" Lu Mingsu slumped down on the sofa, propping his forehead with one hand, weeping silently, "Is he... all right?"

"Who are you asking?" Zhang Muchen jumped up suddenly, "Who the hell are you asking?! If the fourth brother is okay, I will spare you for now. If he... I want you to be buried with me, do you believe it?!"

Zhang Muchen pointed out that Lu Mingsu ran into the toilet after yelling, and slammed the door shut.

If there is really regret medicine in this world, Lu Mingsu will definitely buy it and eat it at all costs. During the period of waiting on the sofa, every second is suffering.He didn't know how long it had passed, time seemed to have lost his concept for him, all he knew was a blurry figure suddenly appeared in front of him, he raised his head, rubbed his eyes, wiped away the tears in his eyes, and saw that it was white. Rin stood in front of him.

"What's the matter?" Lu Mingsu stood up abruptly, looking nervously into Bai Lin's eyes.

"Sleeping." Bai Lin said coldly, picked up Ni Yan's glass and poured a glass of water, raised his head and poured it into his mouth.

Lu Mingsu breathed a sigh of relief instantly: "Is he... all right?"

"Is there anything wrong? It doesn't count now." Bai Lin put down the glass, turned his head and stared at Lu Mingsu viciously, "Did you touch him?"

"I..." Lu Mingsu frowned, "I drank too much."

Bai Lin was silent for a few seconds, then suddenly grabbed Lu Mingsu by the collar and pushed him forward, pushing him against the wall, and said fiercely, "Why do you touch him? You don't know his past, how can you touch him?" What presumptuous claim to try to get involved?? Do you know that he can no longer be stimulated!"

"I... I really drank too much." It was the first time Lu Mingsu was treated so violently by Bai Lin and he didn't think about fighting back. He deserved it if he was beaten to death, "I don't know his past, he didn't even I had the opportunity to understand, but he himself forgot, how should I understand?"

"Do you know why he forgot?" Bai Lin suddenly let go, returned to the sofa and sat down.

Lu Mingsu was taken aback, followed and sat beside Bai Lin, looking at Bai Lin expectantly, he knew in his heart that the only person who might know about Ni Yan's past was Bai Lin, and he didn't dare to let Ni Yan reveal his past again. Scars can only be learned from Bai Lin.

"I know he is very happy with you, and you have indeed changed him a lot. He has already started to consider stopping the hypnosis and receiving treatment." Bai Lin said blankly, "It's your credit, so I just want to tell you something about the past, I hope you can help me... cure him."

"Treatment?" Lu Mingsu was taken aback. He always thought that Ni Yan went to the daytime center every once in a while just to relieve the pressure in his heart. How could it be so serious that he needs to receive treatment? !

"Did you notice his watch?" Bai Lin turned his head to look at Lu Mingsu.

"The one with more than 2 yuan?" Lu Mingsu thought about the time when school just started.

"Didn't you notice that he never took off his watch whether he was taking a shower or sleeping?" Bai Lin said.

Lu Mingsu recalled it and found that it was indeed the case, so he nodded timidly.

"Go in now and take off his watch!" Bai Lin poured another glass of water, and said something nonchalantly.

Lu Mingsu ran into the room and saw that Ni Yan was sleeping soundly, quietly and peacefully, completely gone from the mad state a few hours ago.Lu Mingsu walked up to Ni Yan's side lightly, for fear of waking him up, looking at that pale face, Lu Mingsu felt a pang of sadness in his heart.

"I really know I was wrong." Lu Mingsu lightly touched Ni Yan's side face with his fingers, slowly raised his left wrist, pulled the watch buckle off, and slowly took off the watch.

The moment the watch left his wrist, Lu Mingsu's eyes widened suddenly - on Ni Yan's wrist, just under the watch chain, there was a scar like an earthworm.

Lu Mingsu was stunned for a while, then suddenly ran back to the sofa in the living room, looked at Bai Lin in surprise, "What's going on?"

"I know three times in total. That was the first time I was rescued by Lin Zhen. The second time I swallowed a whole bottle of sleeping pills and was also rescued by Lin Zhen. The third time I jumped into the river. I saved it," Bai Lin said calmly. As he spoke, his face was expressionless as if he was relaying the tripartite meeting in the news broadcast, "Now you know why I was so nervous when I heard that he fell into the lake."

"Why exactly?" Lu Mingsu's mind was completely empty, he didn't expect Ni Yan to be like this, "So, he is afraid of everything except death?"

Bai Lin leaned back on the sofa, and said calmly: "Do you know his childhood life?"

"You know, we are classmates in junior high school," Lu Mingsu recalled carefully, "His family... seemed to be quite difficult at that time."

"Before his parents divorced, Ni Yan lived in fear every day. His father loved to drink and was drunk every night. No matter how late he came back, he would be picked up and beaten. Even if the door was locked, his father He will also kick it away." Bai Lin told other people's stories expressionlessly, "He has good grades in his studies since he was a child, because even if he got 99 points in the test, he would be beaten up when he came home. In his world, a hundred points are justified.”

"His father... is so violent?" Lu Mingsu thought of Lu Li. Although Lu Li beat him hard, it was not so unreasonable.

"Forget about violence. He has been in poor health since he was a child. He vomits blood all over the place at night. No matter how late it is, he always runs to the hospital half-dead." Bai Lin sneered, not knowing whether it was helplessness or pity.

"What about his parents?" Lu Mingsu asked in surprise.

"His mother often works night shift, his father..." Bai Lin glanced at Lu Mingsu, "Do you have any cigarettes?"

"Yes!" Lu Mingsu took out a cigarette case from his pocket, smoked a cigarette, handed it to Bai Lin, and lit it for him.

Bai Lin took two puffs and continued: "His father is a womanizer."

Lu Mingsu was taken aback for a moment, and instantly understood Bai Lin's meaning: "Then you can't just leave your son alone?"

"At that time, they were all young and energetic, and they only cared about having fun, so they couldn't care about anything else," Bai Lin said with a smile, "Ni Yan's violent temper is probably inherited."

"But their family was so difficult at that time, where did his father get the money to eat, drink, prostitute and gamble?" Lu Mingsu was surprised.

"So, he never lived a peaceful life at all. At that time, every meal was gruel, and sometimes he couldn't even eat a bowl of pickles. All the money in the family was taken by his father... I don't know what he did," Bai Lin said, when he didn't smile, there was only indifference, "But Ni Yan likes that his father takes all the family's money, because that way, the house can be quiet for at least two days, even if there is no food, he doesn't want to go through that." A weary life."

"Just because of this...he just..." Lu Mingsu looked at Bai Lin in horror.

"This... is just a foreshadowing..." Bai Lin resumed his smile.