gender doesn't matter

Just like Lin Mo who vowed to accompany Lan until the end of time, the vowed tone is still in his ears, but they have been separated for many years.

Lin Mo is like a normal person now, hugging the beautiful women around him like a cloud, but Lan...

In relationships, there are men and women who are hurt.

But no matter whether it is a man or a woman who is hurt, it must be the one who gave his heart more, no matter whether their feelings are hot like fire or trickling like spring water.

I didn't expect Lan to come to see me. I was really shocked when I woke up and saw Lan in the ward.

Lan is still wearing the simple cassock, and the expression on his face is also faint, neither sad nor happy, but the flesh on his face is more than before. It seems that he has been living well after leaving Lin Mo for these years.

Maybe, it's not bad...

Lan looked at me, with a calm expression on his face, and opened his mouth: "If you feel tired from living, take a rest." After a short pause, he said: "Life is not a game, you don't have to win everyone."

I thought Lan would be like everyone else, asking me how I was sick, what happened to me, how I got into a car accident... etc., but I didn't expect him to say such a sentence suddenly.

But after thinking about it, he felt that this was in line with Lan's personality. If his boss Li Jiashou asked him, he wouldn't be Lan.After all these years, Lan hasn't changed, which is great.

"Enen, I see." I said quickly, but after I said it, I suddenly remembered that Ye Xi and I were still discussing this matter before.

The scene at that time is still vivid in my memory, I said I don’t want to act anymore, Ye Xi was very surprised and said to let me rest first, and come back in two years, he was a little disappointed when he heard that I would stop acting, When I said that I would shoot the advertisement he had signed, a smile appeared on my face again.

It didn't feel like Ye Xiye's big manager who was famous for his poisonous tongue, but like a child.

But now...

I still remember that day when the director called us, I swore that we would not be late, but now... not only are we late, but we are so late.

I'm afraid that the advertisement has already been ruined, and when the time comes, I will lose money again. Ye Xi doesn't feel sorry for her when she finds out.

Ye Xi used to always say that I was stingy and stingy, but he didn't know that he just followed me.

I still remember when we were still in the art troupe. Although we were poor at that time, we still had some money on us. We could afford a car when we went out, but Ye Xi was reluctant to spend that money. The art troupe, but it rained heavily while walking, and he was soaked in the rain and had to take a taxi.

In the end, after spending the taxi fare, he caught a cold and bought cold medicine. Ye Xi was annoyed about this for several days.

Now that I think about it, I find it funny, but how could I be so picky at that time?

Maybe it's because I'm relatively poor, so I have to be stingy.Although I am rich and rich now, I can't change this habit.

This is how people are all their lives. Some things have been engraved in their hearts, and it is really difficult to get rid of them.

I just think of Ye Xi, I just think of Lan, I just think of Lin Yue, and Zhou Mingyu, Director Gu...

They are the most important memories of my life.

Unless amnesia, it is impossible to forget people in this life.

"Ean, don't think too much, just follow your heart." This is what Lan said, and only Lan would say this to me, because Lan is different from others.

You can see that he is cool and cold, as if he doesn't take anything to heart, but in fact he takes everything to heart, but he doesn't like talking around like others.

Seeing Lan like this, still the same as before, makes people feel distressed.

If I can meet Lin Mo again, I really want to ask him: Lin Mo, do you regret leaving Lan?

But when I really asked this sentence, it was too late. Lan has left us and passed away forever.

Shemale itself has a short lifespan, especially those like Lan who have been taking various hormones and various drugs since childhood will have a shorter lifespan, and being in their 30s is already considered a long lifespan. Although Lan can live to 32 years old, although it is not considered a long life, it is considered a normal life span in the shemale world.

I still remember the mocking smile on Lin Mo's face when I asked Lin Mo the question on the day of Lan's burial: "Don't you know that the person he likes has never been me?"

"how come?"

"So you don't know!" A disdainful smile: "Otherwise, why do you think he wants to help you everywhere?"

"what do you mean?"

"Xiaozhi, you really..." Lin Mo gritted his teeth, his appearance wished to eat me alive: "Haven't you ever wondered why Lan is by your side every time you have an accident?" Smiling contemptuously, gnashing his teeth: "You Why do you think that those who blackmailed you suddenly have no news? Who do you think those online attacks on you turned to Lin Yue? Do you think you have the ability to get Director Yang's script?..."

Lin Mo's words were like a series of bombs, but they were like bombs, which made me dizzy and lost my mind...

"How could it be? Lan, how could he be so capable?" It must not be the case.

Yes, it must not be so, it must not be...

But why do I feel so powerless.

My chest hurts so much.

"Yes, he didn't, but I did..."

I looked up at Lin Mo, this time Lin Mo didn't dye his hair fancy as usual, his black hair was tightly attached to his head, and he looked a little sad.

He said: "Lan came to beg me, he came to beg me for you." He suddenly smiled miserably: "Although I, Lin Mo, is not a good person, I am not low enough to cling to someone who doesn't love me." She curled her lips, and said a little shyly, "Besides, is a handsome and rich person like me afraid that no one will like him? Why should you chase after him!" The tone was full of self-deprecating.

From Lin Mo's words, I saw myself.

It's just that Lin Mo understood it early, but I have been obsessed with it.

Only then will the people who really love me be hurt one by one.

First Ye Xi, then Lan.

Ye Xi is still lying in the hospital now.

How can a person like me still be alive, why am I the one who is alive?

Is it God's punishment for letting me live?Show me how wrong I've been, how stupid I've been.

"Do you know why the character of the heroine of "In the Red Dust" is so similar to yours?" Lin Mo smiled, and his voice calmed down, not as excited as before.He didn't wait for my answer before he finished asking, and said to himself: "Because the script was written by Lan, and the heroine was written based on you."

"Why..." Why did things become like this?

why?

Lan him?How could you like me?

Suddenly, he remembered a long time ago, when Lan Gang and Lin Mo were together.That time when Lin Yue and I went out to eat, we met Lin Mo and Lan who also came to eat. What Lan said to Lin Yue, he said: "Lin Shao, I don't care what will happen to you in the future, but now you are together. Now, I hope you treat Ean well."

I still remember when I asked about him and Lin Mo, he said: "Te is very good to me now, that's enough." I still remember me saying: "Lan, if one day, I said that if... none of us If you want, let's live together." I still remember him putting his head in my arms and letting me hold it, and I still remember him saying helplessly, "What stupid things are you talking about?"

Remember him saying: He just wanted a home.

Suddenly I felt: Home is a luxury for us.

Although Zhou Mingyu would come to the hospital to see Ye Xi every day after get off work, I don't know how long he can last, one year, two years, three years... If Ye Xi wakes up, then everything is easy to talk about, but what if Ye Xi doesn't wake up?

What will happen, no one can tell.

It's like I never thought that there will be a day when I really don't want to see Lin Yue again.

Maybe this is fate, maybe I think what the judge said: some people are destined to only be a passer-by in your life, although they may become a frequent visitor in your memory, but they are limited to being a guest.

##### Half a year is finally over.