Why have an afterlife

The father is like a stranger with little communication.

Only occasionally, Lin Qing would secretly envy the child held high by his father, which was a treatment he had never had before.

If my mother hadn't left, would this warmth also belong to me? Lin Qing thought about it countless times when she was a child.

After work this day, Lin Qing opened the dating website that he hadn't logged in for a long time after dinner, glanced at the chat box of 99+, and logged out.I spent money to become a member, as if I had an explanation to someone, I came up occasionally to take a look, and I just replied a few words when I was in a good mood, but I didn't meet a single person in two years.

At the age of 30, no car, no house, no savings, it sounds like a joke.Sometimes he was envious when he heard the little nurse in Corey talk about Yueyueguang.Although you are moonlighting, you are not in debt, Lin Qing couldn't help thinking.

Putting down the phone, Lin Qing went to the bathroom to take a shower.The dormitory environment of the hospital is not bad. There are two doctors living in a two-bedroom, two-living room. The other doctor has just had a girlfriend, and it is when it is hot, so he seldom comes back to live in it. Lin Qing is also happy to relax.

Turning on the shower and pointing it at the back, Lin Qing looked at the young man standing under the shower in the mirror, his mind was empty for a while.In fact, Lin Qing looks very pleasing, with well-shaped eyebrows, like sword eyebrows, but not so sharp, with a pair of double eyelids and big eyes, when he smiles, he feels very sincere and kind. The height of 1.7 meters [-] is not tall but it is passable, and the thin body makes up for this shortcoming visually.

Lin Qing was stunned, and started to apply shower gel. When he applied it to his stomach, he looked at the ten-centimeter scar on his stomach and became fascinated.Seven years later, this scar is still conspicuous as if it would burn Lin Qing's eyes.Lin Qing raised her head, let the water flow towards her face, groped her hands between her legs, and began to move.

When I came out of the bathroom, I heard the phone kept ringing.Picking up the phone and seeing the words "Papa Lin" flashing on the screen, Lin Qing covered her forehead and sighed.

"Hey."

"Qing, your sister is hospitalized, her meniscus is damaged, and the doctor ordered an operation."

Let me die, Lin Qing thought.

The author has something to say: what is this, it’s endless

No.: ☆, Let go of the past

When Lin Qing left the hospital gate, he received a call from his cousin.The words over there were concise and to the point: "Come home for dinner."

Lin Qing looked at the long locust trees that had begun to shed leaves on the side of the road, and swept a shared bicycle to ride to his cousin's house.

After entering the door, my cousin and sister-in-law were already waiting in the dining room, and my aunt was still busy with the last dish in the kitchen. After a brief greeting, Lin Qing sat down.

This meal is not so delicious, Lin Qing stared at a roast chicken in the middle of the dining table, as if he was the one who would be eaten soon.

The cousin first put a wine glass in front of the two of them, then took out a bottle of Wuliangye and watched Lin Qing's face while pouring the wine slowly.When it fell to 2/3, Lin Qing withdrew his hand seeing that he was about to lose his hold.

Lin Qing breathed a sigh of relief and thought, this meal really isn't that delicious.

"I called you over for a casual meal. There's nothing special about it. It's just that you've been working for a while, so I'd like to ask how your work is going." My cousin got drunk, and his face started to turn red after taking a sip of the wine.

Lin Qing held the wine glass, thinking about his words: "It went well, the atmosphere in Corey was good, and the leader took good care of me."

The cousin seemed very satisfied with his obedient appearance, and clinked glasses with him again: "As long as the work goes well, then what, have you been back for four years?"

Lin Qing's heart skipped a beat, thinking that this is it.

The aunt just served the last dish, wiped her hands, and complained to her cousin: "Let Xiao Qing eat first." She turned to look at Lin Qing, hesitated for a while and asked, "Have you had a blind date recently? Is it?"

Lin Qing replied that he was looking for something, but at the same time he murmured in his heart, how come one or two are all on this topic...

My cousin is still nagging: "I'm not too young, now that I've let go, I'll look for someone openly, we want someone who looks good and has a job."

Lin Qing chewed the grilled chicken in his mouth hard, with a taste of gnashing his teeth, but he didn't dare to refute, this kind of concern was based on family affection, although the nagging was really for his own good.

Lin Qing is greedy for this kind of family affection.

The consequence of being greedy is: Lin Qing drank too much.

When she was sent out by her cousin's family, Lin Qing was very sober, said goodbye to her cousin's family politely, got on the bicycle steadily, and rode a smooth straight line.After arriving at the intersection, Lin Qing got off the car, put the bicycle on the side of the road and walked.

Looking up at the night sky slowly, Lin Qingfa was stunned for a while.Thinking of my cousin's saying that saving money should buy a house, I laughed at myself, this smile was uncontrollable until tears came out of my eyes.

The sound of a car horn sounded at the intersection, and Lin Qing turned his head to see that it was a Volkswagen parked in front of the zebra crossing where he was standing, urging him to make way.It turned out that he initiated a daze on the zebra crossing, and the green light had already ended.He looked at the half of his face protruding from the car, and thought to himself, he is so handsome, it would be nice if he killed him.

No.: ☆, let’s go on a blind date

Lin Qing looked at the car not far away, smiled slowly, showing a mouthful of big white teeth.As he stepped back, he unbuttoned the two buttons on his collar, and when he saw the car started, he tilted his head and waved his hands.

The wine is coming up.

By the time Lin Qinghuang came home, it was already past 10 o'clock.Standing at the door of the house, he took out the key and inserted it into the keyhole for a long time, but he didn't insert it.He lay on the door in a daze, muttering: "Why can't you open it, why don't you open it, open the door with Sesame, open the door with Sesame..."

The raving seemed to have an effect. After a while, the door handle was turned, and the anti-theft door opened from the inside.Lin Qing was lying on the door like a gecko, but as the door opened, he slid in, and then his head fell into a solid chest, and his armpit was supported by a strong arm, which prevented him from falling. Intimate contact with the earth.

Lin Qing stood up straight with the person in front of him, then took a step back, showing a big smile: "Doctor Liang, you are back."

Feng Baiyu looked at the silly young man smiling in front of him, feeling a little helpless.This person looked drunk, and he seemed to have seen him at the intersection before.He looked back at his grandma: "Do you know this person?"

Grandma Feng walked to the door, looked at Lin Qing carefully, and said uncertainly: "The child upstairs, right? Not long after we moved in, the doctors at the nearby Bokang Hospital walked with their heads down. This is my first It's the first time I saw the face..."

Feng Baiyu turned his head to look at Lin Qing again, Lin Qing had already closed his eyes with the door frame closed.Feng Baiyu's eyes behind the lens involuntarily looked at the collarbone exposed by Lin Qing's movements.The person in front of him had a thin body, and he could feel his waist was very thin just now, his face was slightly flushed due to drunkenness, and there was a clear smell of alcohol from his slightly opened mouth.

Seeing Lin Qing like this, Grandma Feng asked Feng Baiyu to send him upstairs.

Feng Baiyu took the key hooked in Lin Qing's hand, and helped Lin Qing go upstairs. He paused when he put his arms around Lin Qing's waist, and then continued to walk up as if nothing had happened.After entering the door, Lin Qing squinted her eyes and groped for her bedroom, threw off her shoes and began to undress.When he took off his shirt and started to bend down to take off his pants, Feng Baiyu turned and left.When going downstairs, Feng Baiyu twirled his fingers involuntarily, as if he was nostalgic for the feeling just now.

Lin Qing, who didn't realize it, threw herself on the bed and fell asleep in a while.

After waking up, Lin Qing didn't remember what happened last night at all, and continued to live his ordinary life.

Now that he said he wanted to let go of the past and start over, Lin Qing began to accept blind dates arranged by relatives.This day, he went home and changed into a suit, sprayed on some perfume, checked the balance of his bank card, and then took a taxi to the western restaurant sent by his blind date.

When he arrived at the place, the girl was already waiting. He apologized to the other party very embarrassedly, and opened the menu for the other party to order.When the girl was ordering, he took the opportunity to secretly raise his eyes to look at the other person, and quickly looked back when the other person was about to look up.

The girl who came to the blind date wore heavy makeup and was a little fat. From the number of meals she ordered, it can be seen that she is a person who can eat.

In the free time before serving the dishes, the girl kept asking about Lin Qing's personal situation, such as work, income, whether she had a house, whether she had a car, etc. When she heard Lin Qing say that she had no house or car, she stopped asking go down.When the meal is served, concentrate on conquering the food in front of you.Lin Qing patiently helped him peel the shrimp shells, and refilled her with water from time to time, and only started to move her chopsticks when the girl was full.The other party may finally feel embarrassed and persuade Lin Qing to take care of herself.

Lin Qing ate the food in front of him slowly, and he was full after a while. When he picked up the water at hand to drink, the girl opposite suddenly said: "Although we are not suitable, I think you are very good. Let me introduce you to a man." How are friends?"

Lin Qing spit out a mouthful of water.

For a moment, all eyes in the restaurant were on Lin Qing.Lin Qing frantically pulled out a tissue, covered her mouth and coughed, her face was red to the back of her ears.The girl covered her face with her hands, feeling ashamed.Lin Qing covered her mouth hard, trying to keep her voice down as low as possible, and when she stopped coughing, she got up and went to the front desk to pay the bill.

When paying the bill, Lin Qing tried her best not to shake her hands: The girl ate more than 2000 yuan, almost half a month's salary of Lin Qing.When they parted at the door, the two tacitly did not leave each other's phone number.

When Lin Qing left dejectedly, she didn't notice that there were a pair of eyes staring at her all the time behind her.

Feng Baiyu felt incredible to meet Lin Qing again in such a short time.The Lin Qing I saw this time was a little shy when talking to people, he rarely looked up, and he didn't talk much and didn't smile. He was a person with a low sense of presence. Water, and then the embarrassment of being flustered when he gulped out a mouthful of water.

A discerning person would know at a glance that it was a blind date, and it failed.Thinking of this, Feng Baiyu couldn't help laughing.This smile startled the friends who had dinner with him, as if Feng Baiyu's smile was something serious.

Lin Qing was depressed for a week, and then went into battle again to continue the blind date business.

This time, Lin Qing didn't make an appointment with the other party at the restaurant, and directly made an appointment at the Starbucks next to the hospital on the grounds that he would have to work overtime later.The girl didn't say much this time. After adding Lin Qing's WeChat, she directly pulled Lin Qing into a group. Except for the girl and a girl, the rest of the group were men. The man who had a blind date with her... ....

Lin Qing: "..." Shall I go on a blind date with you or with them?

Lin Qing has been staring at his mobile phone for 10 minutes, and he is waiting for the other party to reply to the message.After experiencing the previous two blind dates, Lin Qing decided to get to know each other first before considering meeting.The person I contacted this time was introduced by my cousin. The other party was a man who had served in the army. He was three years younger than Lin Qing, and he was a young man with a successful career.Lin Qing chatted with him very well, and felt that it could be done, so he stared at the phone and waited for the other party to reply.

For the first time in four years, Lin Qing had this desire to meet and learn more about someone.

The mobile phone prompts that there is a new message, Lin Qing immediately grabbed the mobile phone: "I have an occasion, we will talk when I have time." Lin Qing pouted in disappointment, and replied "Okay".

Lin Qing opened the avatar of her chat software and stared at her selfie in a daze. The young man on the screen had been modified with beautiful pictures. It looked fair-skinned, red lips and white teeth, and a pair of eyes were big and bright, like a cute little girl. dog.

In the eyes of outsiders, Lin Qing is handsome, but he has low self-esteem and always feels that he is not good enough, especially the indelible scar on his stomach, which makes him unable to face the blind date calmly.

This inferiority complex is engraved in the bone.

When he was young, he grew up with his grandparents, who made food for him, and his grandfather paid for the tuition. Because he was a stepmother, he was bullied by his classmates every day. In his young mind, resistance was meaningless. If grandparents don't love him anymore, he will become a human being.In order to prove that he is a child worth raising, he put away his aggressive paws and turned into a docile kitten, competing to do housework, studying hard, and gradually becoming a child with excellent character and learning in the eyes of others.

Later, when I met Zhao Zhengjun, because of the prodigal son's words: "I'm fine, I'll take care of you", I plunged in, but ended up having a hard somersault, and fled back home in a state of embarrassment.

After recovering from his thoughts, Lin Qing locked the screen of his phone and suddenly wanted to go for a walk in the park downstairs.When he went downstairs, the downstairs door just opened, and a man wearing glasses walked out.

This man is so handsome, Lin Qing thought, wearing glasses is really abstinent.When passing by him, he was shocked to realize that the other party was nearly a head taller than himself.

Feng Baiyu was also very surprised to meet Lin Qing again, he met three times in just one month, this frequency is already amazing.And the other party seemed to have no impression of him at all, this was a novel experience for Feng Baiyu who was used to compliments.

I want to sleep with him, Feng Baiyu thought, wondering if the feel of the buttocks is as fascinating as the waist.

The author has something to say: Feng Baiyu is bright, Lin Qing is dark.

No.: ☆, blind date to death

Lin Qing finally waited until the blind date again.

Because I already had a certain understanding before, I didn't worry too much about what would happen this time.

After work, he repeatedly confirmed that there was no problem with his attire, and then went to the hospital gate to wait for this blind date, Wang Xin.

That night, Wang Xin drove a Land Rover. When he saw Lin Qing at the entrance of the hospital, he was obviously surprised. On the way to make a reservation for the restaurant, he turned his head to look at Lin Qing whose ears were reddish, and stretched out his hand to hold his left hand.

Lin Qing froze for a moment, surprised at his initiative, but because she had a good impression of Wang Xin, she didn't struggle, but the sweat from her palms revealed his nervousness.

When entering the restaurant, Wang Xin held Lin Qing's shoulders and introduced the characteristics of this restaurant to him. Lin Qing's back was stiff and he let him lead her to a seat, her mind was a little blank.

The tall and tall Wang Xin's young and flamboyant temperament cannot be ignored. He discussed the dishes with Lin Qing openly, and made harmless jokes from time to time, which relieved Lin Qing's tension very well.Although Wang Xin is not very old, he is obviously more sophisticated than Lin Qing, and knows how to get along with different people. It looks like someone who has been immersed in the wine table for many years.

Lin Qing feels very comfortable, if he wants to be with me, I will, Lin Qing thought.

Like many people, Lin Qing has a kind of admiration for those who have served in the army, and is grateful for their contributions and sacrifices for the people of the country, so he trusts Wang Xin very much.In the evening, the two opened a bottle of red wine. Because the atmosphere was good, Lin Qing did not refuse Wang Xin to keep adding wine to the glass.

After drinking for three rounds, Lin Qing started to get to the point. Lin Qing confessed the fact that he had given birth by drinking some wine.In his opinion, if two people are together, these must be confessed. After speaking, he mustered up the courage to look up at Wang Xin, showing a somewhat complicated smile.Because he was a little drunk, he didn't see Wang Xin's slightly changed face, so he just smiled at Wang Xin, waiting for Wang Xin's answer.

Wang Xin quickly calmed down, refilled Lin Qing's empty wine glass, and showed a charming smile. He patted Lin Qing's clenched hands and said, "You must have suffered a lot before, and I love you very much. "

Lin Qing looked into Wang Xin's affectionate eyes and couldn't help but want to indulge in it.This person is so gentle, Lin Qing thought, does he mean to associate with me...

Lin Qing stood up in a hurry, and said to Wang Xin with a little embarrassment: "I want to go to the bathroom." After receiving Wang Xin's response, he immediately walked to the bathroom with his feet fluttering.

In the bathroom, his hands were shaking, and he quickly splashed water on his face. When he calmed down a little, he put his hands on the sink, looked at the young man with a flushed face in the mirror, and then looked at the young man in the back door through the mirror. The eyes of a man wearing glasses came out.

This man is so handsome, Lin Qing thought, why is he so familiar?

Before he could think about it, he saw Wang Xin following, and he looked at Lin Qing with a smile: "Are you dizzy? I'm afraid you'll come over and take a look when you're drunk."

Lin Qing blushed and waved her hands: "No, I..."

Wang Xin waits for the person next to him who has finished washing his hands