Buddhism

The night in the Demon Realm has no light from the moon, nor is it decorated with stars.It's just a piece of gray and black hazy, and the cold wind is bleak.

In the dead of night, Chi Tong was still sitting quietly on Kong Qing's bedside, silently looking at Kong Qing's sleeping face in a daze.Kong Qing was still thin and bony.His face was pale, and there was a lifeless silence.He raised his hand, stroking Kong Qing's slightly cold cheek with his slender fingertips.

He sighed, and said with infinite nostalgia: "Kong Qing, why don't you want to wake up?"

The night was silent, and no one answered him.

After a while of silence, he said to himself: "Is it because of me? Because of me, you violated your original intention, so are you trying to avoid me if you stay asleep?"

Kong Qing still closed his eyes tightly, silently, and still no one answered his question.

Chitong sighed faintly, and continued: "You don't want to see me, do you?" His fingertips rested on Kongqing's pale thin lips, his heart palpitated, and infinite nostalgia spontaneously arose.After a moment of silence, he curled his lips and smiled: "Since you don't want to see me, then I'll leave." He was still smiling, but the smile was extremely bitter and sad.

Starting from the two lines of tears when Kong Qing woke up, Chi Tong probably thought of why Kong Qing was at a loss and uneasy.Until Kong Qing vomited blood and before he passed out, he anxiously called his name and held his hand tightly.Only then did he realize exactly that Kong Qing's coma was due to him.

Since Kong Qing is unwilling to face it, there is no reason for him to stay here any longer, adding to the burden on Kong Qing's heart.He thought that after guarding for so long, he should understand.

After countless times of struggle, he finally couldn't bear to watch Kong Qing, who continued to fall asleep while escaping and panicking, gradually withering, so he decided that he should give up, and he was willing to fulfill Kong Qing's original intention.

Chitong leaned over and kissed Kongqing's pale and cool thin lips, but with a shallow kiss, he seemed to have eaten an extremely precious delicacy, lingering on it, unable to extricate himself.

He reluctantly left Kong Qing's cool lips, and then looked at Kong Qing's face in a daze in silence.His persistence and reluctance seemed to engrave his empty face into his mind.With burning eyes, Yiyi is nostalgic.

My heart was full of reluctance, and suddenly I felt a sudden pain.He lowered his eyes unconsciously, and his eyes fell on Kong Qing's hand that had been holding his palm when he was unconscious.After being silent for a moment, he seemed to have made great determination, and firmly and gently broke apart Kong Qing's fingers that were holding his palm tightly one by one.Breaking apart Kong Qing's palm, he did not let go of Kong Qing's hand, but unconsciously held Kong Qing's thin palm and pressed it to his cheek.

Tears slipped from the corners of his eyes and flowed into Kong Qing's palms.The red pupils were full of sorrow, and his heart seemed to have been scorched by a raging fire at this moment. At this moment, the ground was scorched everywhere, shrouded in thick black smoke, desolate and desolate.Without any light, it was extremely dark.It's like falling into an endless abyss, unable to extricate myself or save myself.

Chitong knew that if Kong Qing insisted on not waking up, and just fell asleep day after day, sooner or later, his body would be exhausted and he would die quietly.Such a result is definitely not what he wants, so this difficult decision must be made by him.

No matter how much he misses it, he should let it go.Chitong kissed Kong Qing's forehead, and Yiyi said goodbye: "As long as I leave, you won't be in trouble. As long as you don't be in trouble anymore, you don't have to run away. Then you should wake up."

Emotions that have been suppressed for a long time, like a river that has broken its embankment, surge out and vent.Chi Tong couldn't stop crying, except for the sadness in his eyes, his lips were tightly pursed into a straight line, and his expression was still indifferent.After a moment of silence, his voice was as clear as before, and he continued: "After I leave, you have to take good care of yourself."

Chitong was silent for a moment, and put away his emotions.The unscrupulous love in his eyes was suppressed by him forcefully, he turned his face away, closed his eyes, finally made up his mind, and continued: "From now on, I will never see you again, you should concentrate on cultivating your Buddha, and be with the world." No contention, live in peace for a lifetime. I will also cultivate my immortal way, stay away from the secular world, and ascend to the Tao." Being able to make up your mind to say something that goes against your heart is always extremely decisive and desolate.

Chi Tong raised his eyes, and his eyes touched the rosary beads hanging around Kong Qing's neck. With a thought, he split one from the string of rosary beads.Kong Qing's string of rosary beads was made by him himself, and it was carefully crafted from high-quality rosewood.There are a total of 36 beads, which have the same meaning as the one hundred and eight rosary beads in Buddhism.Only because of the convenience of carrying, it was reduced from 36 to [-].

He thought that he would not be able to see each other again in the future, so let Kong Qing, the never-leaving rosary, accompany him.He strung the rosary he had allocated with a red string and put it on his wrist.

He curled his lips and silently said something to the sleeping Kong Qing, and then smiled poignantly.After a long time, I took a last look at Kong Qing with deep reluctance and infinite nostalgia, and disappeared in an instant.

Kong Qing, who was drowsy, could clearly feel that familiar breath disappeared suddenly.He, who was originally silent in his own world, was flustered at this moment, and every part of his body suddenly boiled.

After he was in good health, although he was not fully awake, he was already conscious.So for so long, he also knew that Chitong was always watching over him, accompanying him who was still asleep, talking to him.

It's not that he doesn't want to respond to Chitong, nor does he want to see Chitong.But he couldn't, he was afraid, he had a hurdle in his heart, he didn't know how to get over it, so he subconsciously avoided it.He thought that it would be enough for Chi Tong to be by his side all the time like this, and he didn't want to think about anything else, that was enough.

Zhizi's hysterical crying made him very upset, and he showed his traces.But he still didn't want to wake up, because as soon as he woke up, he knew that he had to face his own heart and reality.He is panicked and apprehensive.He was timid, so he chose to continue to escape.

But at this time, Chitong left suddenly, resolutely left, and no longer guarded him every step of the way.Chitong even said farewell that he would never see each other again.He was very anxious, he didn't want to escape from being trapped in his own world anymore, he wanted to wake up, he wanted to tell Chitong loudly, telling him not to leave.

After Chi Tong left, two lines of clear tears flowed from Kong Qing's tightly closed eyes. He frowned and struggled to wake up.But he had been immersed in it for too long, how could he wake up so easily.So no matter how hard he struggled and screamed, he was powerless, the pain of loss was endlessly eroding him, no matter how hard he struggled, he couldn't escape in time.

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Zhizi cried all day, because he was worried that Kong would wake up early, he thought Chitong was still inside the house, so he didn't dare to come to disturb him rashly, so he stood outside and wandered.

Nan Ming had the habit of coming over to take a look every morning, and saw the wandering figure of Zhizi before he got close.When he approached, Zhizi seemed very nervous and didn't talk to him, but followed him silently, and entered the room with him.

Qing Mo tossed and turned, without sleep all night.He was always worried, and after Mu Youfang drank the medicine and fell asleep, he left Mu Youfang to rest in the room alone.He walked over here by himself.

As soon as Nanming and Zhizi entered, he followed behind.Before he got close, he heard Zhizi's bluffing, he was afraid that Zhizi would disturb Kongqing, so he quickened his pace and walked up.In the distance, he didn't see Chitong, only the flustered Zhizi and the anxious Nanming.He asked loudly: "Why are you panicking, where is Chi Tong?"

"We don't know either, we haven't seen him since we came in." Zhizi replied.

Something is strange, Chitong has never left here for so long.Nan Ming felt it carefully, he couldn't feel Chi Tong's breath anymore.

Suddenly, Qing Mo felt a familiar voice enter his head, it was Chi Tong's voice.He took back his steps and stood quietly on the spot, listening to what Chi Tong wanted to tell him.In the end, he heard that Chitong told him that he was gone and would not come back again, and told them not to look for him and to be safe.

Qing Mo opened his eyes in disbelief, staring blankly not far away.Seeing that his expression was different, Nan Ming asked, "What's wrong?"

Zhizi helped Kong Qing wipe away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and said anxiously: "Qing Mo, come and see Kong Qing, Kong Qing has been crying."

Qing Mo walked towards the bed with strides, and when he looked closely, Kong Qing was indeed crying.He remembered that Kong Qing's hand was holding Chi Tong's hand yesterday, and now Kong Qing must have known that Chi Tong had gone, that's why he couldn't stop crying when he was asleep, so anxious?

He didn't quite understand why Chitong left without saying a word.He frowned, sighed faintly and said: "Chitong told me that he left and will not come back again, let us all be safe!"

Nan Ming was shocked, thinking: how could he leave so suddenly without saying hello, what made him leave so resolutely?

Zhizi stiffened his body, and asked anxiously: "What's wrong with Chitong? Why did he just leave without a sound when we just arrived?"

Kong Qing, who was still struggling, could still hear the movement outside, and the words of Qing Mo and the others immediately entered his ears. At this moment, he was even more sure about the news of Chi Tong's departure.He repeated Qing Mo's words over and over in his heart, Chi Tong left and would not come back again, let them be well.He said everyone is well!Kong Qing felt that his head was about to explode, he raised his head to the sky and roared silently, completely bursting out his last bit of strength.Such hysteria and determination allowed him to break through the cage he had built himself.

The original endless darkness suddenly brightened.Zhizi kept looking at him, saw that his eyes opened suddenly, and he backed away unconsciously in fright. After a short period of sluggishness and panic, he was filled with joy.He shouted ecstatically: "Kong Qing, you're awake, you're finally awake."

Seeing this, Nanming and Qingmo were not as happy as Zhizi, because they seemed to know part of the reason.After Chi Tong left, Kong Qing couldn't stop crying, and even woke up in a short time, no matter how he felt, something was wrong.

Kong Qing opened his bloodshot eyes and looked at them expectantly. Among them, he did not see the figure of Chitong as he wished. The light in his eyes suddenly dimmed, and then disappeared.He frowned and lowered his eyes, panicking, but he kept his eyebrows closed and remained silent.

At the moment of waking up, he hoped that Chi Tong's departure was a lie to him, Qing Mo, Zhi Zi and Nan Ming were just acting with Chi Tong to show him, forcing him to wake up.But after all, he was thinking too much, Chitong was so indifferent and proud, how could he join forces with Qingmo and the others to act for him, forcing him to wake up.

In fact, he knew that Chitong had been with him for so long, just waiting for him to wake up.But he just blindly escaped, and continued to be immersed in lethargy and couldn't extricate himself.In the end, Chitong exhausted all his patience, and finally left silently and resolutely.

Kong Qing lay curled up on the bed, staring blankly, silently.Zhizi obviously felt something was wrong with Kong Qing's eyes, he was at a loss, he didn't know what was going on, he looked at this and then at that.

Nan Ming and Qing Mo frowned, relatively speechless, not knowing how to persuade them.They are currently relying entirely on guesswork, and they are not sure what the situation is at all.

Kong Qing looked distraught, Nan Ming knew that Kong Qing must be suffering, so he probably didn't want to talk to them at this time.He took the initiative to stand up, and said to Kong Qing: "You just woke up, you are not feeling well, please take a rest first. We are outside, just call us if there is anything to do."

Kong Qing didn't pay attention to them, but opened his bloodshot eyes, staring at his palm in a daze.

Seeing him like this, Qing Mo also knew that it would be useless to talk too much, and it was inconvenient to disturb him.He went out with Zhizi who didn't know why, Zhizi didn't want to go out, but seeing Kong Qing's sad expression, he had to back out.

After going out, Qing Mo said to Nan Ming: "I'll go back to Lin Zhongyuan to look for it, to see if Chitong has returned to the top of Yunshan Mountain. He just left without saying a word, I really don't feel relieved."

Nan Ming nodded worriedly: "You go, Mu Youfang and Kong Qing will take care of them."

Time was running out and he had to catch up immediately. If he missed it, it would be very difficult to find the trace of Chitong who avoided seeing them.So he didn't even take another look at Mu Youfang, and just left.

Nan Ming originally wanted to send Zhizi away and let him find a place to play by himself.But Zhizi refused to leave, saying that he should wait for Kongqing to come out, or go in slowly to see Kongqing.Nan Ming told him that Kong Qing had woken up, which meant that his body was indeed in good health, and he would be able to recover after a period of rest later.

Zhizi didn't listen, but insisted on guarding with him, Nanming couldn't do it, so he let him go.

Fu Lumo, who was guarding outside, heard their conversation, and walked over with his tall and strong body.He asked aloud, "Chitong is gone?"

Nan Ming nodded sadly, his face was not very good-looking.

Fu Rumo quietly looked at the closed door for a while, sighed in disappointment and melancholy, turned and left silently.

Looking at the back of Fu Lumo leaving, Nan Ming's depression became even worse.It was a good thing that Kong woke up, but Chitong left without saying goodbye.When it was supposed to be joyful, it was tainted with deep sorrow and sentimentality.

Ever since Kong Qing fell into a coma, Chi Tong was very worried about him, steadfastly sticking to him and taking care of him in every possible way.It's not difficult for Nanming to see that Chitong's feelings for Kong Qing have far exceeded the scope of family affection he knows.

He saw several times that Chi Tong held Kong Qing's hand that was holding him tightly, and he was so sad that he couldn't move for a whole day.The heart of family members, Yangliu Yiyi.

Nan Ming sighed, thinking of a common saying in the world. "Ask what love is in the world, and teach life and death to promise." Chitong left without a sound, and was in a panic without a sound.Who are they trying to be true to, and who are they really helping?He didn't know, but he was full of emotion.