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After Zheng Xi calmed down, he didn't ask Shen Feng to watch it for him.

He should learn to face it alone, and he can't always push all the bad things to Shen Feng.What's more, this is what Zheng Lei wrote to him. If he doesn't even have the courage to face this, how can he fight Shen Feng to the end in this war without gunpowder?

Therefore, Shen Feng just needs to be by his side.

Zheng Xi took a deep breath and slowly opened the letter.

The content was only one page, and the handwriting was a bit scribbled. At the beginning, it was in the gentle and demure tone that Shen Feng was familiar with.

Zheng Lei has always been like this in front of Shen Feng, tepid, never demanding, never losing her temper.Like a doll programmed to behave perfectly.

【Xiaoxi, it's been a long time since I called you that.

But you need not be afraid, I am writing this letter with no malice.Although you may not want to believe me anymore, there are some things I really want to tell you before I leave.

In fact, people can feel the process of life coming to an end, just like me now.In order to write this letter, I waited for a long time, and finally waited for a day when my mental state was still relatively good.I let the nurse push me to the window, where I was bathed in the wonderful sunlight outside the window.At that moment, I finally felt a little different.It seems that I am no longer a poor person who has been trapped in a broken body, lingering on his last breath.It's a strand of soul freed from the mistakes of this life and truly free.

Xiaoxi, I'm so sorry.For the last three years of my life, I ended up being a stranger to you.

You were my dearest brother and my spiritual sustenance.Before that happened, you were my most important family member, even more than grandpa.

I don't know if you are willing to forgive me, but I want to tell you that I love Shen Feng no less than you.

Seeing this, if you haven't recovered your memory, you may find it strange.Why do I say you love Shen Feng?

If you haven't thought of it yet, go back to China and find Shen Feng.He will be delighted to see you and will tell you everything.But if you think about it, and know all the things that your sister has done, can you not hate your sister?

While I know this is asking too much, I'm dying.I know this feeling of hating someone very well. I have been in pain for three years, and I have been stuck in the contradiction between unwillingness and regret and self-blame.

I can't let go of my jealousy for you, but I regret it very much. If there was no car accident, maybe you and I would be fine.Although I can't get Shen Feng, at least our family is still complete, at least you and I will still be the close siblings before, instead of the current ending of being strangers and forgetting each other.

Xiaoxi, I planned the car accident.At that time, I was probably really driven crazy by jealousy, so I did that kind of thing.I don't know if you still remember that time, but I will never forget it.

When you and I rushed out after arguing, when I saw that car driving towards you, I really panicked.

I regret it, I am afraid that the car really hit you to death, and I will have no younger brother from then on.For a Shen Feng, is it really worth it?

At that time, I couldn't think of anything, I just rushed out to stop the driver.

But still too late.

But fortunately, maybe it saw me rushing out suddenly.He freaked out and you just hurt your brain in the end.And God was going to punish me, so I was knocked into a paraplegic.

But when I learned that I could never stand up again, I started to hate you again.

Why, why do you just lose part of your memory, but I have to pay the price of not being able to stand up again for the rest of my life?

Xiaoxi, you will never understand my feelings at that time.It was like stepping into the gate of hell, and I was dragged back to the underworld.But I have already lost my dignity as a human being, and I have lost the chance to be happy again in this life.

I want to die, but I hate it so much!

Why is it that I am the only one who loses the most in the end?I want to save you!If I didn't rush out at that time, would you still be alive? 】

A hot tear fell on the letter paper and seeped into the paper, leaving traces that could not be wiped off.Just like the despair that seeped into Zheng Xi's heart, no matter how tightly Shen Feng hugged him and how many comforting words he whispered in his ear, there was no way to stop this pain from seeping in.

He couldn't stop shaking, his head hurt like something was trying to get out.He couldn't believe that his own sister didn't want to fake his death, but really wanted him to die.

He tried his best to control his emotions, biting the knuckle of his index finger to bleed out.Shen Feng couldn't see him like this, and wanted to take the letter away, but he refused.Because the letter has not been read yet, what Zheng Lei wants to say is not finished yet.

He didn't know why he insisted on reading it, but since Zheng Lei's purpose in writing this letter was to tell him the truth, then he had no reason not to read it.

Shen Feng pulled the tissue aside to help him stop the bleeding, and watched him turn his gaze back to the letter paper.

[Xiaoxi, do you find this unacceptable?As my own sister, I actually miss you dead.I'm sorry, but I understand how painful it will be for you to know the truth.In fact, I have done so many wrong things, I should have kept everything a secret.Whether you think about it or not in the future, at least you will not know the truth about the car accident.

But the reason I want to tell you this is because I didn't do it alone. 】

The muscles on the back suddenly tightened, and every word that followed seemed to be chiseled in Shen Feng's heart, making the soft-spoken and well-behaved Miss Song family in his memory shattered like a broken mirror .

【You may not know Song Yayan, but Shen Feng must know.She appeared when I first fell in love with Shen Feng, she also knew about Shen Feng and you, she encouraged me to plan that car accident.So Xiaoxi, if you still want to be with Shen Feng, you have to beware of this woman.In the USB flash drive sent to you with the letter, there are recordings of my sister meeting Song Yayan later, including the time she encouraged me to plan a car accident.Remember to put it away, if necessary, hand it over to Shen Feng, he will know how to deal with it.You must not go to this woman to make a theory by yourself, she is not as simple as you think, you can't beat her. 】

Zheng Xi was no less shocked than Shen Feng.Zheng Lei didn't say anything at the end of the letter, she just hoped that he could get rid of the past and have a new life.I also hope that he doesn't blame Zheng Xueqing. Zheng Xueqing sent him abroad to prevent this matter from getting worse.

The letter paper in his hand fell lightly, and fell lightly to the ground without any sound.The person holding the letter didn't pick it up, but looked at the USB flash drive on the desktop, and suddenly got up and pressed the computer's power button.

Shen Feng knew what Zheng Xi wanted to do.

Zheng Xi inserted the U disk into the USB port, and the folder that popped up was encrypted, requiring a fingerprint password.He unplugged the USB drive and found a small fingerprint reader in the cover on the other end.He pressed his finger up, and on the fourth try the green light came on.He inserted the U disk back into the interface again, and the folder that popped up indicated that the decryption was successful.

He doesn't know where Zheng Lei got his fingerprints, but that's not important anymore, what's important is that there are five audio files on the page.

Zheng Xi was about to double-click the mouse to open it, when Shen Feng suddenly said, "Do you really want to listen?"

Zheng Xi knew what Shen Feng was worried about. Shen Feng was afraid that he would not be able to face these conspiracies and calculations, and that he would be more unbearable after listening to them.

But this is the evidence Zheng Lei gave him, and he can't believe what Zheng Lei said just by relying on a letter.Although subconsciously he had chosen to believe, he didn't want to leave himself with any uncertainty.

Because of this incident, his family has been torn apart.Since returning to New York, he has not answered every phone call made by Zheng Xueqing, and he does not want to reply to the messages sent to him.

It's not that he can be so heartless, it's just that he doesn't know how to face such a selfish and cruel grandpa.

If... If everything Zheng Lei did was fueled by someone behind the scenes, could he convince himself to forgive this sister?To forgive what happened between them, these scandals that are enough to cut off the family relationship?

If he could even forgive his sister, could he also forgive his grandfather?

He turned on the recording firmly, and listened to the recording without giving himself any time to catch his breath.But in the end, I couldn't hold back and rushed to the bathroom to vomit.

Shen Feng rubbed the center of his eyebrows with his fingers, he seemed to be torn in two, one half was full of anger, wanting to destroy everything, and the other half was exhausted and just wanted to laugh.

The sound of Zheng Xi retching kept coming from the bathroom. He moved the wheelchair to the door of the bathroom, but was stuck at the door because the door was not wide enough.

He asked Zheng Xi worriedly, "Are you okay?"

Zheng Xi turned his back to him, lying on the toilet, looking so thin and helpless from the back.Shen Feng couldn't help but wanted to hug him, but he couldn't reach him when he stretched out his hand.

This sense of distance reminded Shen Feng of the three years when he lost him.

Shen Feng laughed.

Zheng Xi heard some crazy laughter behind him, he turned his head and saw that Shen Feng was clearly looking at him, but he didn't seem to see anything.His vision was empty and precarious, like glass beads that would roll down at any moment.

With a pain in his chest, he stood up and rinsed his mouth, then pushed Shen Feng back to the bed.

Compared to Shen Feng's somewhat out-of-control emotions, he did not have the previous collapsed expression.He sat down beside Shen Feng, opened his arms and hugged Shen Feng tightly.

He choked up: "I'm fine, how about you? Does it matter?"

Shen Feng hugged him back, and breathed hard on the side of his neck, as if he wanted to absorb his breath to support himself.

Shen Feng was speechless for a long time.

He couldn't imagine how deep the malice of the two women could be. In order to separate Zheng Xi from him, they could even give up their humanity.

Shen Feng closed his eyes, the emotion of remorse has never been so strong.Not only did he marry Zheng Lei, who caused the car accident, but he also let Song Yayan, who gave advice and advice, stay by his side, even if it was only as a friend for three years.

As long as he thinks of Song Yayan's smiling face now, his hair will shudder.

He couldn't tell what an ugly and bloody face lay under that woman's tender skin.

He hugged Zheng Xi tighter and tighter, and it was difficult for the tight Zheng Xi to breathe before he came back to his senses: "After listening to this, will you leave me?"

Zheng Xi looked at Shen Feng's haggard and helpless appearance, the cracked place in his heart seemed to be poured into the howling cold wind.The voice in the recording just now seemed to ring in his ears again, making him deeply aware that he was hurt in this way because he was with Shen Feng.

This realization made him suddenly come to his senses. He wondered if there were still people watching behind them.Is that Song Yayan still planning to hurt him in the next round?

Will he forget Shen Feng again, go to a strange country, and spend another three years with a strange self?

Tears seemed to sense his pain and panic, rushing out of his eyes.

Zheng Xi pushed Shen Feng down on the bed, clasped his hand, and clumsily rummaged in his mouth, trying to confirm that he belonged to him.

The hot tears didn't stop because of this kiss, but got out of control even more.

Shen Feng allowed Zheng Xi to pull on his body, ripping off the buttons of his shirt, laying jerky on his chest, trying to tease his desire and curry favor with him.

He knew what Zheng Xi was afraid of.In the past, he would hold Zheng Xi to comfort him, and say some nice words to make Zheng Xi feel at ease.

But at this moment, he was also filled with fear.

He has been working hard alone all this time, and it was his unwillingness to give up that brought Zheng Xi back to his side.Even if the memory hadn't fully recovered, at least he didn't reject him anymore.

But this time is different.

Emotional matters can never last long with unilateral protection, not to mention they are surrounded by invisible malice.He needs Zheng Xi to reassure him, and wants to feel Zheng Xi's determination that he will never leave him because of anything.

So, he watched Zheng Xi take off his pants on his own initiative, stretched his hand with difficulty, and sat down without any lubrication.

Zheng Xi was trembling from the heart-pounding pain, but there was contented joy in his tear-filled eyes, and Shen Feng saw this crazy look deep into his pupil membranes.

Shen Feng pulled him down and plundered his mouth frantically, not giving him a chance to breathe.

There was a silky sticky feeling at the intersecting place, Shen Feng stretched out his hand, and touched the dazzling red.Although his heart hurt like a knife, he didn't let go of Zheng Xi, instead he stood up fiercely with this lubricity, and entered the deepest part amidst Zheng Xi's screams.

This is the worst time they have ever done together, but both of them are crazy.Shen Feng tirelessly plundered and demanded.And what made him so crazy was Zheng Xi's attitude, no matter how many times he gave Zheng Xi it was not enough, even if his already tired calf was cramped, he still refused to let Shen Feng stop.

In the end, he couldn't do it anymore, Zheng Xi could only hug Shen Feng tightly, his red and swollen eyes looked like rabbits, he was clearly tired and just wanted to sleep, but he still stubbornly looked at the man in front of him.

With a hoarse voice, Shen Feng asked him if he had anything to say.

Zheng Xi lost her nasal sound and murmured, "Don't leave me."

Shen Feng kissed him: "What else?"

Zheng Xi stared at Shen Feng's dark pupils, and looked at himself in the reflection. The intense sex made him look embarrassed and lewd.But he knew that no matter what he was, Shen Feng would love him forever.

He got into Shen Feng's arms, his hot cheek pressed against Shen Feng's warm chest, an unspeakable peace of mind erased the bitterness and hesitation just now.

He said: "I will never leave you again."

Shen Feng raised his chin, making him look at himself: "One more thing."

Zheng Xi looked at him: "What?"

Shen Feng recovered his serious expression, and said solemnly: "I love you, what about you?"

Water mist rose from those beautiful eyes again, Zheng Xi buried his head in Shen Feng's chest again, warm tears soaked his chest like a dike.

After a while, Shen Feng heard his answer: "Me too."

The indescribable sense of happiness waters this scarred love, just like the hope born from the ground in early spring.Shen Feng hugged Zheng Xi tightly and kept kissing his face.There are many, many things I want to say to Zheng Xi at this moment, but in the end there are only two lines of silent tears, pouring out the sweetness and bitterness in my heart.

After so many hardships, he finally got Zheng Xi's willing answer.

They really won't be separated again in the future.