escape from the world

Chapter 42 Original Sin

He curled up in the rain, his eyes were bloodshot, and he vaguely heard someone talking, rustling, whispering in his ear.

- "Are you leaving me?"

The bright red in his eyes gradually faded, Fang Chen entered a room, and saw himself sitting on a chair with his head bowed.

"...I'm sorry." He heard himself talking, and then he was hugged tightly, strangled tightly, and his arms were aching.

When he heard Nie, he said, "No."

He went back to that spring, there was a thin layer of frost on the window, and the early morning light could hardly shine in.

In his memory, Fang Chen gently closed his eyes, hugged Nie Shi and patted lightly, "Forget it, I'm joking." The voice fell like a sigh, and he said casually, how could he throw Nie Shi away? Well, he just didn't want to save himself.

So life goes on.

Nie Shi changed his job, and the salary was even better than when he was a teacher.The lives of the two finally improved, and Nie Shi had more free time.Neither of them mentioned travel again, it was forgotten in time and it seemed to become a hurdle, invisible between the two.

Fang Chen gradually stopped smiling, and his eyes were clouded.

They are all changing, deformed by reality.

During this period, Fang Chen met Nie Shi's adoptive parents in the shopping mall. They took their young son shopping, and the family talked and laughed.

He stood not far from them, his heart was beating wildly, he felt the blood in his body was getting cold little by little, his fingers were so stiff that he couldn't make a fist.

That was the happiness of others, and had nothing to do with him or Nie Shi.

Fang Chen moved his eyes away, showing a rare indifference, and deliberately put on an indifferent gesture.But he still couldn't hold his hand tightly, and he seemed to be unwilling to wrap around him as if there was nothing, and tightly squeezed his throat, leaving invisible bloodstains on his throat.He didn't tell Nie Shi how to speak, some people still live well after hurting you.

The dean was hospitalized again, but this time he was not discharged, and stayed there for several months.

The weather was fine, so Fang Chen took a long car ride to visit the dean.She had lost a lot of weight, her skin was loosely wrapped around her bones, blood vessels and veins were protruding, and there were more silver threads than black hair.

When he woke up, the dean saw Fang Chen standing by the window, "You and Nie Shi used to come here together."

Fang Chen stopped opening the window, and looked back at the hospital bed: "... I will come to see you with him next time."

It's a pity that he will come by himself next time, carrying fruit.Sitting on the edge of the bed peeling apples, suddenly a pair of haggard hands covering the backs of his hands appeared in his sight. Fang Chen just raised his head halfway, and the dean said: "Next time, bring a bouquet of flowers. I haven't been out for a long time. I don't know how the flowers are blooming now."

"Okay." Fang Chen responded, the apple peel was broken in his hand, he couldn't peel it well, not as good as Nie Shi, Nie Shi could always peel a whole apple without cutting off the apple peel.

Later one day when Fang Chen came home, the light in the living room was on, and Nie Shi curled up on the sofa. Fang Chen walked over and touched his forehead: "You have a cold? Why don't you go back to bed and sleep?"

Nie Shi took his hand, resting his forehead on the back of his hand, and said in a muffled, nasal voice, "I'm waiting for you."

Fang Chen was stunned for a moment, and couldn't help laughing: "Why are you waiting for me? I won't disappear suddenly..." The second half of his sentence was hidden in the kiss, and Nie Shi grabbed his collar and kissed him, with scorching temperature, Enough to melt everything, including those random thoughts.

Fang Chen was pushed into the sofa, they hugged, Nie Shi clung to him, held Fang Chen firmly, and pressed his forehead against Fang Shen's neck.

"No..." Fang Chen was a little helpless, his voice was tinged with a smile, "What are you doing?"

"Hold you." Nie Shi's voice buzzed and shook Fang Chen's side neck, causing him to laugh a few times.

"Have you taken your medicine?" Fang Chen gently tugged at his hair.

Nie Shi strangled him a little tighter, and his warm breath hit his skin, softening his heart.

"I bought a car." Nie Shi said, raising his head but not looking at Fang Chen.

Fang Chen waited for a while and found that there was nothing to say. He couldn't help but tilt his head to see Nie Shi's face clearly: "And then? Didn't you always say you want to buy it before? What's wrong?"

"...Do you want to go out for a walk?" Nie Shi took his hand and interlocked his fingers, "Anywhere is fine."

Fang Chen was suddenly unable to answer.Nie Shi's so-called "going out for a walk" is naturally not that simple, he is inviting Fang Chen to travel.

Fang Chen's eyes lingered on the pure white ceiling for a while. Sometimes he felt that he was floating in the air, his feet couldn't reach the ground, and he walked forward in a daze. Now he was lying on the sofa, and Nie Shi pressed him heavily to let him Feeling weighty, knowing that you really are here.

"Okay." Fang Chen smiled, accepted the belated trip, and planted hope in his heart, "But next month you have to make time to come and see grandma with me."

Everything is slowly getting better, and he is also trying to take a step forward.

……

But he died anyway.

Curled up in a dark box, buried in the ground with the continuous drizzle.

What crime did he commit?

The surrounding color faded little by little, turning into a blank, no matter how Fang Chen turned around, there was boundless whiteness behind him.

He was turning his head when a mirror suddenly appeared in front of him.

He turned and saw himself in the mirror.

Fang Chen lightly touched the mirror with his hand, causing ripples. The young man in the mirror had exactly the same face as him, but his expression was different. There were too many things in those amber eyes, and his smile was bright. illusory.

"You should wake up." The man in the mirror said, his hands were joined together, the same size, "he is waiting for you."

"Who? Nie Shi?" Fang Chen looked around. The white sky gradually melted and turned into lead gray, and the rain fell on his cheeks. He hurriedly asked, "Who are you?!"

The person in the mirror put his hand down, his eyes were gentle and slightly playful, as if he was still a boy doing some childish prank, he almost murmured: "I am you." His hand stretched out from the mirror, and seeing About to touch Fang Chen's cheek...

Fang Chen struggled to open his eyes in his dream, and the pain of the wheels crushing his bones surged again. He returned to the cramped carriage and lay his pillow on the broken glass.

Death gnawed at him bit by bit, and he endured the pain again.

On a rainy cloudy day, he gasped for breath, heard the raindrops slapping down, and heard his heartbeat gradually weaken until it stopped.

He can move.

Fang Chen got up from the broken glass, and there was another "click", "click".He pulled out his feet that were under the car stiffly, they were twisted, the jeans were torn, and the flesh was hanging on his legs, blood and mud mixed together, dirty and dirty.The sound of bone growth drilled into his ears, no matter how loud the rain was, it couldn't cover it up, like a long nail hammering into the brain and disturbing the brain.There was an itching in the bone seams, the brain was buzzing, and the body was repairing itself, Fang Chen simply knelt down, kneeling heavily on the sharp glass, piercing his knees until they were bloody.He lowered his hands weakly, the rain got into his eyes and he raised his hand to wipe it, when he suddenly touched something, cold and soft to the touch.

Fang Chen froze, as if he was still a living person, his heart began to beat violently - there was someone beside him.

He forgot something.

Haven't remembered until now...

The rich fragrance of lilies spread, and the sound of rain hit his ears.

He remembered...he should remember that that morning was also a rainy day, and he and Nie Shi had planned to visit the dean early in the morning to bring a large bouquet of fragrant lilies.

Fang Chen was not used to the smell, so he put the bouquet of flowers on his lap. He was sitting in the passenger seat, and Nie Shi was driving.

Gray sky in the morning, with light rain,

The mountain road was muddy, the surrounding was very quiet, and there was no one around.

Only him and Nie Shi.

Fang Chen looked down at his palms, they were already limp and rotten, blood and mud fused together.He bowed his head and knelt among the debris for what seemed like a century. The rain had already wet his clothes and his rotten palms were also covered.

"Fang Chen..."

"Fang Chen."

Who is calling him?

Someone was trying to revive him.

Fang Chen finally dropped his eyes to the side, and at the same time stretched out his hand, handing over the palm with bones exposed, trembling, fingers interlocked.

There are people around him.

Blood washes the earth.

——It was Nie Shi.

The heavy rain poured down, burying the sins at the bottom of the deepest cliff.

He is rotting bit by bit, from head to toe, starting with a heart.

"Fang Chen."

Fang Chen raised his head and saw himself as a young man, with clear eyes and a carefree smile, not innocently like him later.

It was he who had been trying to wake himself up, trying to remind himself——

He didn't kill Nie Shi.

He and Nie Shi died together.

……

"You say everyone here is guilty? What about you?"

"Of course we are guilty."

——It is the original sin not to enter reincarnation.

The author has something to say: ……………… It seems that there is no sugar.But I personally feel that every time I write about the interaction between the two of them, it’s sugar

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