The old man said

I should have come to you long ago, but I am not brave enough, I always feel that I am not worthy to face you, and I cannot bear your love.

But I have no choice, my heart can't bear it, I came to see you, as for the use of seeing you, what to say and what to do, I never thought about it.See you, it's always good to see you.

After all, I still don't love it.If it is love, meeting is not suffering.

1949 New China was established.

Chu Fang secretly left the team, and in the eyes of others, he did whatever he wanted as always.Do whatever you want.

He actually didn't know Yao Mu's hometown, and he spent a lot of time asking to get a general idea, so he set off like this, heading for a future that he wasn't sure about, and he didn't know if his choice was right, maybe he didn't bother Could his life be better?Take a step back and watch how he is doing from a distance.

It was almost evening when he arrived at Qingsan Village, and the crowing of cocks could be heard one after another from the wooden bridge not far from the entrance of the village, and night was approaching.

He asked the returning peasant woman,

"Old man, do you know where Yao Mu lives?"

"Who are you?"

"I, I am his former comrade-in-arms."

"Oh, you go straight ahead, then turn right and go to the fourth house with a yard."

Seeing that the front door was closed tightly, he didn't dare to knock on the door and go in. The last time he saw Brother Zhongqiang, he heard what happened at that time. His eyes were half blind and his legs and feet were not smooth. So proud, probably don't want to see me.

He decided to look up from the courtyard wall next to him. After all, he used to be a good climber over walls and trees, but after all, he was injured in the war, and his body should not be as agile as before. After climbing up with difficulty, he took a breath but didn't Having mastered the balance, he fell downside down, closed his eyes and prepared to endure the coming pain, waited for a long time, was surprised that it didn't hurt much, and quickly got up to help the person under him, it turned out that someone was cushioning him.

"Do you want to climb over the wall again like before? I thought it was some kind of thief. Fortunately, I recognized it in time, and your appearance of climbing over the wall will not change for a moment..." Yao Mu was stunned for a moment, everything was so natural, natural Let yourself feel sorry for yourself, think that the person you have forgotten is just vaguely recognized, and you have to reach out to pick it up. You used to hide when you met before, but now you talk more. Is it so long since I haven’t seen you that you can’t hold back your words? Chu Fang pulled out his hand and walked slowly into the house.

Chu Fang also stayed there in a daze. At that time, he felt that the training was too boring, so he called everyone to play outside. He also called Yao Mu, but the other party always looked at him dumbly and didn't answer. When he disagreed, he climbed over the wall to play by himself, and he was surprised that no one found him every time he sneaked, because there was a person behind him.

"Brother Zhongqiang, is he alright? He always has a stomachache, has he been treated?" Yao Mu poured him a cup of tea. The celadon bowl should be the best thing.The room is very simple, with a dining table and a desk, and a chair is placed next to the two tables, and a chair is leaning against the window. Chu Fang fantasizes about Yao Mu sitting in front of the window and reading a book.A lamp casts Yao Mu's shadow on the wall, fluctuating up and down.

"..."

Chu Fang didn't answer, got up and closed the window, the wind was a bit strong, and Yao Mu's clothes were a bit thin.

"Did you come here specifically to find me...or did you just come to take a sneak peek?"

"..."

"Actually, you shouldn't feel guilty, and you must be having a hard time, but I don't think it's my fault either. As for whose fault it is, I'm afraid I'm the only one who struggles."

"I'm not here to take a sneak peek, I'm just afraid that you don't want to see me." He didn't dare to look Yao Mu in the eye.

"I don't want to see you, hmph" Yao Mu lowered his head and sneered softly, full of self-mockery, "I really don't want to see you, I thought so before I saw you, I almost forgot, but I'm still so cowardly, When I saw you, I couldn't even hold back my words, I kept saying, I thought I was going to cry, but my heart is full of bloody joy." Yao Mu covered his eyes, tears streaming from between his fingers.

When I saw you, all my armed forces were defeated.

But who said that wishful thinking can be exchanged for mutual love?

Kneeling in front of Yao Mu, he watched him cry silently with his hands covering his eyes, but he didn't know how to comfort him. He could only bury his head in Yao Mu's chest and said: I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I can't help it, I really don't know What should I do……

At the end of the night, he carried the sleeping Yao Mu to the bed, took off his shoes and covered the quilt, thought for a while, and went to fetch water to wipe off the tears on his face.After tidying up everything, he walked to the yard and sat in a dark place in a daze.He would feel distressed watching Yao Mu cry, watching him feel anxious about his injured leg, and would be moved by everything Yao Mu did. He also knew that the diary written by Yao Mu was all about himself, but this made him feel sad. He was even more confused, everything, should he love Yao Mu?Just like Yao Mu likes himself, but is it really like this?

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The author has something to say:

School has started, school has started, Fa Kaisen, my daily schedule has been broken, in the next chapter our white king Chufang fool will start class, just like me, hehe.Let's suffer together. respect.