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After a while, the sound of setting off firecrackers and the laughter of children came from outside. Fu Zeyu thought of his younger brother when he was a child, and asked, "Do you want to go out and set off fireworks with them?"

When I was young, my younger brother was in poor health. Every winter, he would be wrapped tightly, like a little bun, and he was a wild child who ran outside all day long. During the Chinese New Year, he set off fireworks in the playground with a few children from the neighbors. My mother Worried that my younger brother would catch a cold when he was blown outside, he was not allowed to come out and let him stay in the conservatory and watch TV. My younger brother lay on the glass window, looking at them with sparkling eyes, full of yearning and envy.

Fu Ze'an shook his head: "It's not naive for a big living person like me to set off fireworks outside, and I'm not a child anymore."

The mobile phone has been vibrating non-stop since the morning. QQ and WeChat have been bombarded early in the morning. Various group chats have started to send red envelopes. Any group has 99+, and the text messages are also 99+. Most of the content sent Unanimous, nothing more than wishing him a happy new year and a better year ahead, even the mobile phone company sent him a happy new year message.

Tapping on the keyboard quickly, he sent Jian Chengye a happy new year. His eyes were fixed on the screen. After a few minutes, a green dialog box popped up on the screen: "Let's have fun."

Have fun with a ghost.

During the past few days at home, he was not happy at all, he was so aggrieved, during the day, Yin Mo came to him whenever he could, and at night, he faced all kinds of express and hints from his parents.

Usually, you can put down your phone if you lose your breath, but this idiot can't ask one more question, how are you doing recently?

As night fell, the villa was brightly lit. The servants brought a plate of delicate dishes to the dining table, and the family sat at the dining table, chatting with each other.

After dinner, someone cleared the table, and the whole family sat neatly on the sofa to watch the Spring Festival Gala.

When the host started counting down to the approaching New Year, Fu Ze'an quickly took out his mobile phone and started calling.

Put the phone to your ear and walk towards the second floor.

The first floor is really too noisy, there are voices and children's noises, there is the sound of the TV broadcasting the Spring Festival Gala, and there is the sound of fireworks outside.

These voices are mixed together, perfectly overriding the voice from the phone.

Back in the room on the second floor, the surrounding hustle and bustle disappeared instantly, and a familiar voice came from his ear. Fu Ze'an watched the second hand turn and began to count down: "Five, four, three, two, one, Happy New Year!"

At the moment of counting to one, colorful fireworks instantly lit up in the dark sky.

Fu Ze'an clearly heard the sound of fireworks coming from the mobile phone and the man's smiling voice: "Happy New Year."

Jian Chengye was originally standing on the ground watching the fireworks. After seeing the caller ID, he quickly walked into the house and found a slightly quiet place. The phone was quiet, only Fu Ze'an's voice could be heard, unlike the hustle and bustle on his side. In comparison, the phone seemed too deserted, and he couldn't help frowning: "What are you doing now, why are you so deserted?"

His side was so noisy, hiding in the room, he could hear the deafening sound of fireworks.

Fu Ze'an stood by the floor-to-ceiling windows, quietly watching the fireworks blooming in the sky. The floor-to-ceiling windows are made of double-layer soundproof glass, which has a very good sound insulation effect and shields all the noisy sounds outside.

Hearing his question, he replied: "I hid in the room and called you. It was too noisy outside, and I couldn't hear the voice on the phone at all."

After thinking for a while, he tentatively said, "I'll tell you something."

Jian Chengye: "Tell me."

Fu Ze'an: "During the Chinese New Year, my mother has been urging me to get married, and helped me arrange several blind dates."

Jian Chengye was stunned for a moment, feeling an inexplicable sense of unhappiness in his heart. He pretended to be relaxed and happy and said, "This is a good thing. I'm almost thirty. If my parents were still alive, they would not only urge me to get married, they would definitely Urging me for a big fat boy!"

Fu Ze'an held the phone tightly, and hung up the phone with a snap.

Fuck your mother it's a good thing, fuck your mother's big fat boy.

Jian Chengye, you deserve to be single for the rest of your life and not be able to find a partner!

"Dong dong dong..."

There was a crisp knock on the door.

"Come in."

Mrs. Fu pushed open the door and saw her precious son standing by the window watching the fireworks alone, how desolate and desolate his slender back was

He walked quickly to his precious son and stuffed two red envelopes into his hands: "Happy New Year, this is the lucky money for you."

The hand that received the red envelope was very cold. Fu Ze'an's body was cold from childhood to winter, and his hands and feet were extremely cold. Mrs. Fu grabbed the hand of her precious son and held his son's hand tightly, trying to warm it up.

During the Chinese New Year, the elders have always had the habit of giving red envelopes to the younger generation. The red envelopes do not contain much cash.

Fu Ze'an took the red envelope and wished: "Happy New Year, I wish my mother good health and all the best!"

Mrs. Fu did not leave in a hurry after giving the red envelope, she quietly looked at her son's side face, and began to educate her son earnestly: "An'er, I have something to tell you, I know you will definitely not like it after hearing it. I'm happy, but I have to say, you are different from others, you like boys, your father and I are not stubborn people, besides, the country is open to allow homosexuals to marry, and we don't worry that you will be discriminated against outside, you are me Son, whoever you like is your freedom, but you have persisted in your feelings for Jian Chengye for so many years, it's time to let go."

Fu Ze'an's thin red lips were pursed into a straight line, and he looked out of the window without saying a word. His eyes seemed to be looking at the scenery, but when he looked closely, he found it was empty and lifeless.

Mrs. Fu sighed, and continued to persuade: "He is not the same type of person as you from the beginning. He is a straight man, and he likes girls. He doesn't like men, and he doesn't understand your feelings. He doesn't understand your difficulties." I know, you have tortured yourself so much these years, mom really can't bear to see you go on like this, break up with him as soon as possible, don't torture yourself like this anymore, mom looks uncomfortable!"

These truths don't need to be said, he understands them all in his heart.

It's just that he really couldn't do it, so he lowered his head and patted her hand: "I have my own sense of emotional matters. It's New Year's Eve today, so don't talk about such disappointing things about me. It's getting late and I'm sleepy , Mom, you should go back to your room early to rest!"

Mrs. Fu looked at her son seriously, with a forced smile on the corner of her mouth, she seemed to be talking to herself: "I don't know when, my son has changed, it seems that since he joined the army that summer, my son has changed. The son began to become rebellious, and began to disobey his parents. He made arrangements for you and did not walk the paved road. He insisted on joining the army and left the good life at home. However, he stayed in the army every day and did not come back. What kind of ecstasy soup made you like this, you ran upstairs just now to call him, right? Me, your dad, and your brother are not as important as him alone?"

The mother was full of powerless words, and Fu Ze'an's heart throbbed for no reason, his handsome brows frowned even tighter, his eyes were red, and he spoke with a somewhat hoarse voice: "Mom, it's getting late, go to bed early. "

Madam Fu took a deep breath, wiped away the tears on her cheeks, and did not forget to ask when she left and closed the door: "Turn up the heating in the room, don't catch a cold, go to bed earlier, I wish you a good dream!"

Looking at her leaving back, a sense of powerlessness hit her whole body.

Compared with his relatives and Jian Chengye, who is more important, this question doesn't make any sense to him.

The former is the most important family member in his life, and the latter is the person he loves the most in his life. Both are the most important existence in his life.

Why make such a meaningless comparison!

I can't help but think of Jian Chengye's face in my mind. I haven't seen each other for nearly ten days since we separated.

I picked up the mobile phone on the bedside table. It is now during the Spring Festival travel season. I wonder if I can buy a high-speed rail ticket for tomorrow morning.

Quickly grab a ticket on WeChat, and sleep contentedly.

In the early morning, I was not affected by what I said in the evening, and I was in the flower room in a happy mood. This year's roses bloomed so beautifully.

Fu Zeyu looked at the flower room, searched around the house, and finally found it. He didn't speak when he walked in. Fu Ze'an quickly said: "If you came to do ideological work, you can go out now. The ideological work that you should do, Mom did it for me yesterday, and I have my own sense of emotional matters."

Fu Ze'an picked up the scissors on the table and cut off the excess branches and leaves of the roses one by one.

I didn't feel embarrassed at all when I was told, I sat on the stool, looked at the pruning figure, and read the line that I had prepared in my mind: "Mom has finished telling you, but I still have something to say." You said, I checked the three generations of the family's ancestors clearly. Jian Chengye's family is in the remote mountainous area of ​​S City, and his ancestors were all farmers. In his third year of high school, there was a torrential rain in his hometown and a mudslide occurred. Both parents died in the mudslide. At that time He happened to be in school, survived the mudslide, and after high school he couldn't afford college and decided to join the military."

Fu Ze'an raised his eyebrows: "Keep talking, don't stop."

Fu Zeyu: "His family background is not important to us. The Fu family does not need to rely on marriage to consolidate their family status. What is important is Jian Chengye. Although he has a good character, he had a girlfriend when he was a sophomore in high school. They loved each other very much. There was a lot of trouble in the school. After Jian Chengye joined the army, the girl couldn't stand the long-distance relationship and proposed to break up. After the two broke up, they have kept in touch. The girl's parents value boys over girls and plan to graduate from high school and send her to work to relieve the family's burden. Burden, to support my younger brother who is studying, after Jian Chengye found out, he sent her half of his monthly salary to help her finish her studies."

The passage came to an abrupt end here, and Fu Ze'an, who was waiting quietly for the following, saw that he was no longer speaking, looked up at him and smiled, "Go ahead, why don't you say anything."

Fu Zeyu was going crazy. Isn't the meaning revealed in these two paragraphs obvious enough?

Jian Chengye once had a girlfriend!

The two are still inseparable!

Jian Chengye likes girls!He's a straight man!

It's already come to this point, why does the baby brother still look calm, or does he know all this already?

It shouldn’t be, I really want to blow his head to see if it’s filled with water or sand, so he said out of breath, “I’ve already talked to this point, do you want to continue talking.”

Fu Ze'an: "I already knew what you said."

The two are in the same dormitory, Fu Ze'an runs behind him every day, what color does Jian Chengye like?What do you like to eat?He knows exactly what kind of friends he has outside.

On the night when the two broke up, Jian Chengye came to him, crying and talking about how they met, how they fell in love, and how they broke up in the end.

That was the first time he saw Jian Chengye crying.

It turned out that he would cry because of a person.

After the breakup, the two had been ordinary friends. He knew that every letter Jian Chengye wrote in the military camp was addressed to that girl.

He doesn't care about any of this.

Because he knew that the girl had already been married and gave birth to a little boy last year. He had seen a picture of that little boy. The two of them could only be ordinary friends in this life, and there was no other relationship possible.

Already knew it!Already knew it!

Five words completely defeated him.

Fu Zeyu: "Since you know it, why do you insist on it pointlessly?"

Why do you need to persist?The question was too profound, and he didn't know how to answer it.

Changed the subject and said, "Why are you investigating him behind my back?"

Fu Zeyu said bluntly: "You are my precious brother, who do you want to spend the rest of your life with, of course I will check for you."

Don't let outsiders/scum abduct you.

In the end, I took all precautions, and was not abducted by someone/scum, but was abducted by a straight man who didn't understand romance and had low EQ.

What a big mistake in life!

Fu Ze'an put the pruned rose back in place, put down the scissors in his hand, with a hint of danger in his eyes: "No one is qualified to investigate him except me! You will do things secretly behind my back in the future, don't Blame me for revealing your young affairs to my sister-in-law."

Thinking of those romantic affairs when I was young, the old man blushed and coughed uncomfortably: "You are such a big person, what should you do? doing what."

Fu Ze'an: "Kneel down!"

After pruning the last pot of roses, I glanced at the time on my phone and set off for the high-speed rail station.

There were many visiting guests from the Chu family today. The old man and the old lady were chatting with their old friends below. They couldn't control him for a while, so they sneaked out through the back door with their suitcases.

For the first time in my life, I was sneaking around at home, as cautious as a thief who stole a treasure.