Sanctuary Huazhang I Mengyan

Chapter37

In the main hall of Huaxi Palace, after taking a bath, I feel uneasy. The agreed deadline is coming soon. Tonight is my last chance to retrieve my memory.Taking advantage of Luo Sihua's absence, I ordered someone to take a message and told Elliott that I would go back to the left hall to find him early this morning.

"After regaining my memory, please let me choose to stay or not." This was my only request at the time.

He was so distracted that I could clearly hear Roswald talking to me.

It wasn't until Luo Sihua's hand moved to my waist that I immediately came back to my senses: "Well, no. Luo Sihua, I'm not in the mood today, don't want it."

Luo Sihua grabbed my wrist impatiently and carried me directly onto the bed with all his strength.I've lost my mind, and I've even forgotten the basics of resistance.Luo Sihua covered me, unbuttoning the front buttons one by one.

I know what he's going to do, we've been together almost every night for years, but today I don't want to, I really just want to hug him and look at him and tell him I love him.

The shirt was ripped off, and soon he was completely naked.I'm not used to being carefully observed by the other party. Some things are more embarrassing than real guns.

Now the bedroom is brightly lit, and I have never liked having sex under strong light, so Roswale always leaves the only light source.But today he didn't, instead he made the light in the bedroom brighter.

The light refracts the perfect angle, illuminating sorrow, illuminating pain.

I lay naked on the bed, trying to close my eyes tightly, but my eyelashes were still trembling involuntarily.Rothwald knew every sensitive spot of mine, but he didn't touch any.He just gently rubbed my cheeks with his hands, sliding from the forehead to the eyes, and stroked the bridge of the nose and stopped on the lips.

"Yi'er..." Luo Sihua called my name in a low voice, his voice was uncontrollably sad, "You are going to the left hall today."

My heart sank.What was originally reasonable now sounds like betrayal, and what he didn't care about letting him know is now embarrassing.I responded slightly, and just about to explain, Luo Sihua's fingers pressed my lips.

"Do you remember, the first time the two of us went to the sea of ​​poppies, you told me that I could completely trust you. Because you will never betray me, and you will always be by my side."

I raised my eyes to look at him, obviously he was my beloved lover, but at this moment, a chill appeared in my heart.

"You also promised to be my partner when you become an adult. I have been waiting for this day."

My hands and feet are free, but right now they are so heavy that I can't move at all.

"I expected it to be like this at the beginning, but if you fall in love, you can't escape from the cage, and I don't want to escape at all. Yier, we have been cocooning each other in order to restrain each other, but in the end we are still bound in the cocoon."

He spoke in such a sad tone, he had never been so vulnerable in front of me.Some people don't shed tears, but they cry.I really want to raise my wrist and touch my lover's flawless face. His pale skin has become almost transparent and will disappear at any time.

I was really heartbroken, and I blamed myself too much. I blamed myself for not being able to utter a word of comfort even though my heart hurts.I can only look at him, separated by a distance of light years.

"Yi'er, I promised that we will never be separated for the rest of our lives, and I will always love you." I don't know if it was an illusion, but his eye circles turned red, "I will never regret this sentence forever. How about us, my only lover is you..."

I want to get up and kiss him, and I want to tell him not to talk, I am very sad, and stop torturing each other.He undressed and landed directly on top of me.He's thin, but I feel heavy.Not just physically, but mentally...

"No, don't... I'm sorry... I don't think about it today... Woo!"

Before the following words could be uttered, the sound was automatically silenced by the intense pressure and pain.

No foreplay, no teasing, no lubrication... He broke my legs and jumped straight to the last step, just in!

"No...it hurts! It hurts!"

Even the body that has been used to Huanai still couldn't help trembling in pain.

Luo Sihua has always been strong in self-control, and when making love, he will be tender beforehand, and then slowly enter when I am completely emotional.In other words, I have never suffered any pain in the past few years, and making love is a completely voluntary pleasure for me.

He didn't even give me time to adjust, he started twitching crazily.

I didn't even have the strength to shout out the pain, and my body fluttered up and down with his swing.This feeling is terrible, every time I feel that I have been embedded so deep, he will always pull out a little, and then forcefully send it in, and send it to a deeper place, to an unbelievable level.

I've never found sex so painful.I tried to run forward several times, but it only made him go deeper.

Luo Sihua galloped on me quickly, no longer paying attention to skills, and had no rules at all.

He ecstatically increased his strength and kissed the bottom of my shoulder deeply.I gradually regained the pleasure, and the emotion made me forget to resist.

"I'm sorry, Er."

He moved a lot, and I was still teetering below, dizzy and in pain, wanting to scream.It was obviously done to the point of being torn apart, but the pleasure was still unstoppable.I hooked his neck, put my chin on his shoulder, and opened my mouth to pant.

His kiss fell all the way and stopped on my collarbone, brushed away the broken hair that blocked my eyes, and kissed my forehead.

I couldn't see his expression, I didn't know if it was from passion or panic, but his voice trembled more than mine. "Yi'er, forgive me, okay? Don't forget me, okay? No matter where you are, remember that I love you, okay?"

Luo Sihua often said "is it good", such as "let's go shopping today, shall we?", "wait for me here for a while, shall we?", but he always used interrogative words to express an affirmative tone.

He knew that I would definitely say yes, and he didn't think of asking when he said this, but just a statement.

I found out later that this was probably caused by his excessive respect for others and his obedience to him. He has always been so proud and confident.

But this time, he was really begging and asking, helpless like a child who can't eat candy.

He really asked me again, okay?

I hugged him with my back, moved my body weight upwards, and clinged to him, allowing him to enter deeper.

I kissed him back affectionately, and tried my best to kiss his neck, behind the ears, and the tip of his nose: "Luo Sihua, I don't blame you..."

But, I don't know why he seeks my forgiveness.

He clasped my hand, pressed it on the bed, and intertwined my fingers.His strength crushed me, but I still responded to him obediently.The fit of the body is incredible, and the hug becomes tender.

As I've decided, tonight, I'm going to find Elliott.Ask him to help me lift the seal of memory.

I don't know what's going to happen in the future, how many times we can have this kind of body fusion.I have confidence in myself, no matter what I remember, it will not change my love for him; but I have no confidence in the future, I have no certainty in being together.

Forget about it tonight, tomorrow morning, it will be a brand new me, continue to love you.

"I love you……"

"I love you……"

"I love you!"

I don't know how many times I repeated it, but I just want him to remember how much Yi'er loves him.Even if there are some things, love cannot be compromised.

His physical stamina was astonishingly good, and after venting, he rekindled his desire.I was exhausted from going back and forth, and by the end I wasn't sure if he was trying to make me pass out, but I did pass out for about an hour anyway.

When I got up, Luo Sihua had already fallen asleep peacefully, and his peaceful sleeping appearance was quiet and beautiful.I stared at him with wide eyes for a long time, as if I wanted to imprint this moment in my mind and never forget it.

In fact, I will never forget it.Hundreds of years later, his last face is still engraved in his heart, and it has become a collection of exquisite oil paintings that will never fade.

I have always been very clear that in the field of love, you will welcome and send away many people, and only after experiencing longing and abandonment will you become mature.Many sworn vows will become a thing of the past, and those who grind your neck tonight may not use you to sleep tomorrow night.

It's just that I never really thought that these things will also come true to me, and that we will experience such a cruel ending if we love each other like this.

I can't even imagine that after tonight, I think that the person who has been in love with him all his life may never be able to sleep by his pillow.

I walked to the door, changed into a new suit, and opened the door.

I stood by the door, turned my head again, and was stunned for a long time.

I wanted to kiss him again, but it still didn't pass.

I am afraid that as long as I touch his skin, I will never have the courage to go out again.I gasped with my back against the wall.

Actually, I should look back.In fact, as long as I look back, I can see the teardrops in the corners of Luo Sihua's eyes that can no longer be hidden; I can know that it is him who can't sleep the most tonight and watched the moonlight all night.

It's just that I didn't look back and closed the door.

It also closed the door to happiness between us.

The identity of me and Luo Sihua has always been a fact that I have deliberately ignored, but I never thought that our identities will only become more and more disparate over time, and the possibility of us being together will only become smaller.

When I left along the corridor, I once again caught a glimpse of the peach hearts carved by myself on the wall, one by one intertwined with each other, like endless love words, whispering in my ears.

I stood at the gate of the left hall of Huaxi Palace and took a deep breath.

In fact, I can be a little more confused and wait for them to leave, and everything will pass.I will be an adult in a short time, and Roswale and I can hold a wedding.I don't care if I'm in the square or in the sea of ​​poppies.

I have always wanted to say to Luo Sihua, as long as I have you, I don't care where I am.

It's just that I'm too stubborn, and I don't want my life to be muddled.The allure of the truth is always strong, especially the truth that is carefully concealed.In short, I don't want to live a lie, I want to know who I am.

It's just that I don't know that a lie is always a lie, but the truth may become another kind of lie.

Orson's night is rich in purple beauty, just like a lover's purple eyes are mysterious and intoxicating.

It is really not easy to remember a person or a relationship with your life.But I have a hunch that I will only fall in love with one person in my life.

I pushed open the heavy door of the left palace, walked through the courtyard, climbed up the spiral staircase step by step, and came to Elliott's open door.

The chains of fate, thus changing the trajectory.

There is no turning back, the fate that was doomed before.

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