Sanctuary Huazhang II The Nightmare

chapter37

I can hardly remember what happened after that, everything became muddled, only endless sadness, heartbreak and despair.

I open my eyes.

There was no one around, and the interior decoration reminded me that I was sleeping in a room in the left hall of Huaxi Palace.The clothes I was wearing were still the ones I wore when I walked out of the main hall that night. I slowly got up and felt a headache.

My life is like one nightmare after another. The happy life I thought was just a short peace after covering up the truth.

I rushed out of the house, there were guards placed by Elliott outside the house, but as the master of the Holy Shield, no one could stop me.

I have only one thought, to see Roswaal.If you want to see Luo Sihua, you have to ask him personally if he loves me deeply now.

I am not a person who can tolerate flaws, as long as he says yes, I will ignore the past and continue to be with him.

But when I was approaching the stairs, I was stopped by Elliott.

"Eden, you should be able to understand why I returned the memory to you. I didn't want you to relive the love between you and His Royal Highness Luo Sihua. You have learned the truth, and you, as the master of the Holy Shield, should How to do it."

"Eden, you can clearly distinguish between dreams and reality. You have understood what is responsibility and what is forced since you were young. Love is definitely not everything. There are too many things that are more valuable and important than feelings. One day you will understand that you and Luo Sihua is just a mistake, you are destined to be an antagonistic relationship."

My mind is very messy, thousands of thoughts are entangled together, and I can't make sense of them.

"The holy shield and holy sword exist for the purpose of restraint and balance, and are destined to belong to different racial positions. Eden, I don't care what happened between you and Luo Sihua, but..."

"Elliot, I know, I have to go back to Eates. But I just want to see him again, and I have something to say to him."

"Eden, do you really think you'll come back after you go?"

"I'll be back, I promise. I'm not going to get carried away with emotion, but you've just learned so much shocking truth, give me time to digest it anyway."

I can't even recall how Elliott answered at that time, I just remember that I pushed Elliott away and ran out, all the way to the main hall of Huaxi Palace.

I wanted to find Luo Sihua, but I couldn't find Luo Sihua anywhere. I found the study from the bedroom like crazy.

I couldn't believe it, last night we were still entangled in love, Roswale promised to love me, and after only a few hours, we would become strangers.

In the end, I stood in the dormitory where I used to get along with Luo Sihua day and night, watching the scenery that I looked out of the window countless times, and I would never have the opportunity to see it again. Tears rushed down my cheeks uncontrollably.

Thinking of the fact that it has only been less than ten years since I really met Luo Sihua, but the tears I shed for him have already exceeded the standard share of ten years.

Love may not be everything, but does everything look bleak without the one you love?

Standing in front of the window, I thought of a lot.

Luo Sihua told me that when I become an adult, I will have a wedding with me, and let everyone in the Sanctuary know how much we love each other.

Now I'm not that long away from being an adult, but I don't think I'll ever marry him in my life.

I left here quickly, as long as I am here, it is impossible to stop missing.My love for Luo Sihua, after these three years of sweet dreams, has already extended to an unknown length.

Elliott knew me, and he knew that once I learned the truth, I would not stay in Orson willfully.I used to dare not even imagine being separated from him, but now I have to choose to leave by myself.

what is love.

I've been wondering about this for a long time, but never got an answer.

I no longer understand it as a necessity for growth as I did when I was a child. I don’t know if all love must be entangled in struggle and pain in order to be sublimated.

I passed through the corridors of Huaxi Palace that I have shuttled countless times.

There have been many times when we made love together and went back hugging each other, or I stood at the other end of the corridor quietly waiting for him to come back from the court meeting, and there were also times when we quarreled and I got awkward and I ran out and he chased me along the corridor... …

And now that I set foot here for the last time, I didn't expect this. I just told myself over and over again that Luo Sihua loves me.

Any kind of love is love, and love caused by sympathy, jealousy, deceit, lies, or even uglier things cannot change its essence after all.I can accept that there have been scars and blemishes between Luo Sihua and me, but I can only accept the arrangement of fate.

I said this to myself in my head, as if I really believed it.

Then I went back to Elliott's left hall and stayed in the house for an afternoon.

I kept crying, and I couldn't stop crying.At the beginning, it was still a loud cry, but then it lost all strength, and it simply turned into a low sob, and finally there was only whimpering and panting.

It seems that since birth, I haven't thought about such a mess in my mind.

All the love is attached to my heart, all the responsibilities are pressing every step of the way, and all the timidity and cowardice are overwhelming me. In many moments, I almost want to run directly back to Luo Sihua's bedroom, hug him and act like a baby and release him.

Elliott told me that they had signed a peace treaty and that we were going back to Aets tomorrow.

Now when I think of the azure blue color of Aates, I can still vividly remember it.Memories will not go far, but too long let me go.

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The next day I followed Elliott's embassy in preparation for departure.Orson's send-off procession was very respectable and grand.Luo Sihua stood at the front, looking straight at me.

He looked in a bad state of mind, and I knew I was too, but there was a little more grace at the moment.Qingcheng's face is gorgeously decorated, a crystal pendant hangs on her forehead, and the clear blue contains the sadness of the sea.

Like the uncontrollable sadness in the bright purple eyes.His eyelashes are fluttering like a feather fan, and the bangs of his black hair are a little long. In fact, I was still stopping him from cutting his hair just a few days ago, and it was still on the grounds that it was uncomfortable to touch.

I bit my lip tightly, blood was about to drip.I was in such a bad state that all the preparations I had made last night were ruined.How much I want to rush over and snuggle in his arms, and hear him call me my dear baby as dotingly as in a dream.

Elliott took a step forward, "Thank you for His Royal Highness Luoshua's hospitality over the past few days. We have spent a very meaningful time in Orson. On behalf of my race, I promise His Highness that all parts of the peace treaty Both are inviolable, and Aitz hopes to maintain a friendly and cooperative relationship with Orson for a long time."

Luo Sihua said calmly: "This is also our honor."

"In addition, we are also very grateful to His Royal Highness Luo Sihua for taking good care of my brother Eden in the past three years. Even if he returns to Aicz, Eden will not forget his gratitude to you."

All surprised, searching, and contemptuous eyes focused on me.All kinds of voices of doubt and suspicion spread in my ears, including Orson's people and the soldiers inside Aates.

Alicia and Patrick were there too, standing far in the back, far from our line.I suddenly heard all the efforts made by Alicia. She is indeed not an awkward little woman, she just doesn't want both Luo Sihua and me to become tragedies.

For a split second I could barely hold my head up, unable to bear the pain of breathing.

God knows how much I want to kiss Roswale at this moment, just like he kissed me madly, hotly, and destructively when he was parting.The world is working hard, and the sea is changing.

Luo Sihua, how much I want to say I love you loudly.

None of our previous promises were wiped out overnight, and I want to be with you forever and ever.I know it wouldn't hurt if I did at this point, since I'm leaving soon.

But with so many people watching, I suddenly couldn't cry out.I noticed that Roswald's fingers were tightly clenched—he seemed about to say something, but he didn't say anything either.

After going through all the trials and deceptions, we, who are destined to be in different positions but bear the same responsibility, will only feel desperate and embarrassed when we say this word—even if this is my most sincere emotion and most true words.

We have had so many touching vows in the past, and like all lovers in the past, we have loved each other as much as we can.

But if we can't reach the end, who can we blame?Are we wrong, our destiny is too heavy, or is our love really a mistake from beginning to end?Who can tell, so many unbreakable puzzles...

"His Royal Highness, it's getting late, and we should be on our way. In the future, Orson and Aates will definitely live together in friendship and make a contribution to the peace and balance of the sanctuary."

Elliot smiled and waved to greet his envoys. Several carriages stepped forward, and the guards took a step forward.

Alicia said politely: "Please take care all the way, Orson welcomes friendly visits from all countries."

Suddenly a burst of music sounded, and the movement of farewell and blessing resounded in the huge square of the imperial capital. It was obviously a bright tune, but it sounded like mourning to me.

Elliott turned to me: "Your Highness Eden, it's time for us to go back."

I nodded meekly, and followed Elliott to step into the second carriage.

Looking up at Orson, the sky is still bright purple and flawless, with a few floating clouds floating in the clear sky, and clusters of golden light shining on the magically decorated buildings.The light stretches, like the affection that cannot be broken in this life.

I finally turned around and looked at Roswald.

Coincidentally, Luo Sihua also turned his head, and met my gaze directly, no longer looking at each other silently.He opened his vermilion lips lightly, his voice was inaudible, and I could only judge his words by the shape of his lips: "I'm sorry, Yi'er. It's fine."

well...

Tears filled my eyes all of a sudden, and I couldn't help it even though I tried my best, so I escaped and got into the car.

This is just a nightmare, as long as I wake up again, I will not remember anything, and all the pain and despair will no longer exist. I gave up the sacred artifact, but in exchange for a new life.

Luo Sihua, we are not wrong with each other, but you and I both know that even if we are talking hoarsely about our love at the moment, our separation is inevitable.

But I really had to hold on to the handle in the car tightly to restrain myself from rushing out of the car and hugging him regardless.

I will be fine, and we will meet again in the future.Even if you don't see me, you won't forget me, right, right...

Tears ran down my cheeks, hopeless, heartbroken, desolate, and resentful.

I really can't do it, and face reality calmly.

I love him.

The Second Nightmare -End-

Writer's words:

When I first had an idea, I always thought about how people fall in love with each other.There is an answer in this movie, Eden and Luo Sihua are not happy, but being in love itself is a kind of luck.

This is the end of writing here, thank you all.