Inhabit you as a forest

The street lamps extend far along the street, and when the silhouette of the people is the most beautiful, they must have the help of moonlight.Cheng Juan lowered his eyes, put his eyes on the shadows at his feet, elongated and then retracted, never tired of it.

Spring and autumn are fleeting, and the one who stays with me the longest is this lonely shadow.

In the evening, I had a dinner with a few colleagues. The restaurant was not far from her home. After eating, she didn't take a taxi and walked back with the night breeze blowing.

I drank two glasses of wine to add to the fun, far from drunk, conscious, but a little too wanton.

It was Wen Xu who was thinking about it when he stepped out with his left foot, and it was Wen Xu who was thinking about it when he stepped out with his right foot.

During the Spring Festival, what Wen Xu said replayed in her mind a hundred times.

Like a seed, it is planted deeper and deeper, and gradually grows into obsession.

Wen Xu is sometimes naive and naive, because she is in the position of the stars all year round, she thinks things as simple as possible, and speaks as straightforwardly as she wants.

Naturally, things are mostly done for her own comfort, and what she says often makes people unhappy.

People always have shortcomings, Wen Xu is nothing more than these, Cheng Juan can accept it, but he also left her because of this.

But it can't be said that Wen Xu is stupid or short-sighted, she is very shrewd, after all, the family runs a business, and she is also the boss.

Cheng Juan would even stand in the third perspective and praise Wen Xu's words with pride.

Once Wen Xu made up her mind to trap someone, she couldn't tolerate them saying no. The words of that day were laid out in front of her face layer by layer, and she listened to them and remembered them in her heart.

First, retreat to advance, and make a non-dominant posture to coax people; then retreat to talk about the emotional injuries suffered in the past, and explain the later performance; then introspection, and finally express your heart and express your determination.

It took Cheng Juan a lot of time to figure out this set of procedures.

The reason was that for a long time, she was restless and couldn't think deeply about the events of that day. She only remembered that Wen Xu said that she would wait for her.

This made her restless, she and Wen Xu were not suitable for each other, she had already seen it clearly.But now Wen Xu was unwilling to go forward, but stopped and waited for her.

She did not say anything out of fear, for fear that this promise would cause trouble to Wen Xu.Waiting for the day when the spirit of "high spirits and high ambitions" passes away, and thinking about living a new life, will you feel embarrassed because of the words you once promised.

She didn't want Wen Xu to sneak up on the feelings that should be taken for granted in the future because of what he said at the moment, and he would not be in a good mood.

She sentenced Wen Xu from the bottom of her heart, convinced that Wen Xu could not do what she said.

In the final analysis, Cheng Juan does not believe in the return of the prodigal son.As for why she didn't believe it, she didn't know. She didn't have relevant experience, but she didn't want to believe it because of her understanding of human nature.

But she also deeply reflected on why she speculated on Wen Xu and took his sincerity as impulsiveness.

"Prodigal son" is not suitable for Wen Xu.

She forbids her to use it herself.

Wen Xu, who teased her at the beginning, was extremely decent and polite, never considered a "rogue".Later, it was her fault that there were money disputes, and Wen Xu used money to smash her dignity before she came up with arrogance.

During the four or five years of getting along, Wen Xu was very considerate and did not embarrass her in this regard because he gave her a sum of money.

If she really wanted to say "the prodigal son", it was because at first she could feel that Wen Xu was playing games and didn't take her and 30 seriously.Wen Xu didn't bother to hide.

And she judged from Wen Xu's familiarity that she was not the only one around Wen Xu, and some clues later could also confirm her judgment.

But after that, in Wen Xu's words, after they got acquainted, Wen Xu's life became simpler.At least I didn't hear her answer other people's flirtatious calls, and I didn't bother to prepare gifts for others.

When Cheng Juan first found out, he had no confidence to think that Wen Xu might have hidden it and didn't want her to know about those affairs.

Then he denied himself, why did Wen Xu want to hide, when we first got together, he didn't bother to lie to her, and he couldn't make her feel comfortable when he was so familiar that he would get bored at any time.

She could guess that Wen Xu had probably never found someone new, and she was the only one around.

So she fell in love with Wen Xu, not because of impulsiveness, nor because Wen Xu treated her badly, she endured the humiliation and asked for trouble to like the benefactor.

It was she who gradually discovered that Wen Xu treated her unusually, this unusualness was so dazzling in her difficult years, she fell into it uncontrollably.

But she didn't give Wen Xu any special award or chastity monument because of this.

The unpromised bed partner relationship kept her awake. Even though there was no one around Wen Xu for the time being, it would be easy for her to find someone to sleep with casually someday. What was there for her to feel relieved and happy.

So she couldn't help sticking the word "prodigal son" on Wen Xu's head.

Even Wen Xu clarified with her.

She was willing to believe every word Wen Xu said that day.

Even if I really couldn't believe it, I was moved and warmed by those words.

But she has no plans to turn back. At her age and situation, every decision is difficult.

It was difficult to leave Wen Xu, and it was also difficult to return to Wen Xu.

She can't be blindly optimistic just because of those few paragraphs, and mess up the cards she just arranged.

Even if Wen Xu does what he says and stays with her with a correct attitude in the future, but Wen Xu has already been injured, is Liu Chengjuan really that good?In the future, can he really take care of Wen Xu, prevent her from being wronged, and prevent her from remembering her past injuries?

Cheng Juan wanted to say yes, but she dared not say so, she had to think carefully.

A person like her thinks about three steps before taking a step, so she walks steadily and is exhausted because of this.

She will never be as easily happy as Wen Xu, especially after losing Wen Xu.

She never contacted Wen Xu, and Wen Xu never contacted her.

She didn't want Wen Xu to wait for her, it seemed like a responsibility that she had to bear.

Sometimes that responsibility made her tired, and she wanted to find someone to fake a relationship with, and let Wen Xu give up.

It's a bad idea to think about it, she can't bear it.

It's fine if Wen Xu doesn't take her seriously. If Wen Xu is really waiting for her, her bad idea will make Wen Xu very sad.

She couldn't think of Wen Xu's sad look, like the most beautiful flower on a branch in spring was blown away by the wind, drooping her head listlessly.

The beautiful eyes of amorous feelings are hung with residual red, the eyebrows are unfurled, and the corners of the lips are smiling.

The beauty looks worried, and a womanizer like her can break her heart at a glance.

In the next few months, she only saw Wen Xu once in the photos taken by Sheng Qi.

It was just March, before the flowers had fully bloomed, Wen Xu put on a skirt.A section of her porcelain-white calf was exposed, and Cheng Juan felt cold for her when she saw it, and wanted to cover her with a blanket.

She smiled happily, compared with Wen Lian who was pursing her lips and smiling, she was simply unrestrained.

Cheng Juan looked at that photo many times and laughed too.

During Qingming, she went home to pay homage to her mother, but didn't contact Sheng Qi and the others, and drove the car near Wen Xu's house on the day she left.I didn't plan to get out of the car, just wanted to take a look around there.

What's the use of doing self-impressing things if you change your mind in two blocks and waste your time?So it went straight to the highway.

She wondered in her heart whether Wen Xu would really wait for her if she was single for three or five years.

But what's the point of her consuming Wen Xu, just to see Wen Xu's ugly behavior of breaking his promise because he couldn't wait any longer?

Then instead of three or five years, just one year, she wanted to see if Wen Xu could afford to wait.

She gave a date from the bottom of her heart.

April 4th was Sheng Qi's birthday, Cheng Juan didn't go back to Yujiang, he just bought a present and sent it there.

They had dinner at Han Ruohua's house that night, and Sheng Qi sent her a message saying that Wen Xu was a little depressed because he didn't see her.

Wen Xu originally thought that on Sheng Qi's birthday, Cheng Juan would definitely go back.

Cheng Juan feels sorry for her. She is a person who doesn't value emotions. When she is busy with work, she won't take care of her father's or younger siblings' birthdays, let alone Sheng Qi's birthdays.

Sheng Qi also said that Wen Xu didn't feel well due to a cold today, so he went back first after eating.

Cheng Juan's heart tightened, and he couldn't hold back his words: "She wears so little, how can she not catch a cold?"

Sheng Qi said, "I conveyed it to you."

After working overtime, Cheng Juan, who was eating supper alone, had a hot face, guessing what Wen Xu must have said, Sheng Qi seemed not to be completely neutral.

But it was only that one time, afterward Sheng Qi didn't mention Wen Xu to her again, only mentioned her own happy life.

She and Wen Lian had a good time, a family of four, three people and one dog, warm and comfortable, and they went on a trip together on May Day.

Cheng Juan looked only envious.

In the second half of the year, she got busy with work, and she only went back to Yujiang once during the period, and it was because her father was unwell.

On her birthday, Wen Xu, who hadn't contacted her all this time, sent a message of congratulations.

She understood another meaning: I'm still waiting.

This message is more precious than any gift.

She thought of her first birthday after being with Wen Xu.

Their family only eats noodles for their birthdays, and they don't know how to buy cakes.

Sheng Qi bought the cake for the first time, two small pieces, delicate and soft, she didn't dare to ask the price.

Later, when I went to college, when each roommate celebrated his birthday, we all bought it for that person and ate it together.

But it was not as delicious as the birthday cake Wen Xu bought her. It had three layers and different flavors.

She said that she couldn't finish it, Wen Xu said: "I don't buy it just to finish it, you try more and choose what you like the most."

She was still working on her birthday, but luckily she didn't need to work overtime.

Sheng Qi and Wen Lian drove over with a puppy in their arms and a cake, specially celebrating her birthday.

The cake opened, it was her favorite brand and flavor.

She knew who bought it when she saw it, but she didn't say anything.Sheng Qi didn't talk too much, he just took a lot of photos of her.

She looked down at her dark gray formal suit, feeling a little annoyed, she would have known better if she had changed.

After seeing her house, Sheng Qi couldn't help but sigh with emotion: "I really admire you, no matter how nice the house you live in, you can make it feel like a house without walls."

Cheng Juan can only laugh, she really doesn't like hoarding things, the house is always empty.

Sheng Qi is different, there is almost no clean wall in the house, either to hang pictures or put things on.

Sheng Qi asked her, "Are you lonely here alone?"

"Work is very fulfilling." She pretended not to understand.

Holding the dog in his arms, Sheng Qi said to her, "I just saw Xiao Qi roll his eyes."

When Cheng Juan heard the words and looked closely, the puppy's eyes were black and watery, and he stuck out his tongue innocently at her.

Goodbye Wen Xu, it's the Spring Festival again, a whole year has passed.

In fact, she never thought that Wen Xu had such patience.

After Wen Xu sent her home last year, she felt mixed emotions and felt a little tired at the same time.

She expected that Wen Xu would often show his presence in the future, stick to her like that day, show his sincerity, and maybe chase after her to a new city.

but no.

Except for that text message and that birthday cake, Wen Xu never bothered her.

On Wen Xu's birthday, she didn't send a word, didn't prepare a gift, and Wen Xu didn't come to "excuse the teacher".

According to Wen Xu's previous personality, she would be very angry if Cheng Juan was so careless.

But Cheng Juan didn't send a message that day, and after waiting for a day with anticipation, Wen Xu didn't lose his composure to look for her and lose his temper with her.

Cheng Juan felt that he had become childish, and pretended to be ruthless enough to be stingy in sending a message, but in fact, he was waiting for that person to come to her.

Why do people need to take the initiative.If you really look forward to it, just make a phone call to bless yourself, and torture yourself for a day in vain.

In short, she was overwhelmed by the great sense of loss that day, and she couldn't help wondering why Wen Xu ignored her neglect, whether she had learned to be "sensible and considerate", or she didn't care at all.

Perhaps Wen Xu's birthday wishes and cake were just prepared casually. During the long year, it's easy to spare some time to do these two things.

For the rest of the time, is Wen Xu really waiting for her every day?

At the beginning of the year, she could barely believe in something, but at the end of the year, she didn't dare to count on it at all. Time is as gentle as water, but it has the ability to kill everything.

In other words, what did she do herself.

This year was fine without Wen Xu, and she deliberately waited for her for a year, even if they didn't wait, she deserved it.

Sheng Qi called her for dinner on the fifth day of the lunar new year, and she arrived at ten o'clock.

After sitting down and chatting for a while, Sheng Qi asked her: "Can you see Wen Xu? If so, I'll invite her to come eat with me. If not, forget it, and call her to come tonight."

She doesn't ask "do you want to", she says "can you".

In Sheng Qi's eyes, Liu Chengjuan might be heartless, leaving without hesitation and without nostalgia.

So this temptation to help Wen Xu was also full of caution. If she was bored and couldn't even look at Wen Xu more, Sheng Qi would never say a word.

Cheng Juan thought, and Sheng Qi quietly helped her make tea without even urging her.

If you say you can't, Wen Xu will definitely not come, and I'm afraid you won't contact her or see her in the coming year.

If it is possible... Cheng Juan is a little scared for some reason, she is obviously the person she misses, and she has dreamed about it countless times in her dreams, but she hasn't seen her in a year, and she doesn't even have the courage to face her when she suddenly wants to see her.

She was afraid that the fiery and warm eyes last year would become flat and polite this year.

Wen Xu wanted to see her, did he just look at her attitude, "It's okay if it doesn't work", she recalled Wen Xu's voice in her mind.

Forgetting what she was doing at the time, Wen Xu said this.Wen Xu has never been difficult for himself, and never hesitates to forget it.

Cheng Juan had hundreds of trivial thoughts in that short half minute, and when these thoughts were over, she nodded: "We can eat together."

She can't gamble.

Sheng Qi didn't make any fuss, as if they were normal friends, "Oh, let me call her."

Sitting there, Cheng Juan suddenly felt that the time was extremely long, so long that one second was cut into countless moments. She checked the time several times, but even 5 minutes did not pass.

She suddenly felt that the time was too fast and she was not ready yet.She went into the bathroom to straighten her hair and clothes, and if she wasn't worried about being laughed at by Sheng Qi, she would also like to reapply her lipstick.

But before going out, she was no longer afraid of people making jokes, so she lightly added a layer.

Looking at the person in the mirror, she thought that her looks had nothing to do with beauty, and Wen Xu never praised her for being pretty.

But ever since she met Wen Xu, she knew that Wen Xu was interested in her. It was almost hidden covetousness that made her think about what was good about her, why Wen Xu still liked her after so many years.

I haven't seen her for a year. Will there still be something about her that attracts Wen Xu?

Sheng Qi was busy with Wen Lian in the kitchen, while Cheng Juan was sitting in the living room, constantly checking the time.

Four and ten minutes later, the doorbell rang.

She hurried over, feeling that her legs were weak, and her brain was ahead of her legs.Like running 3000 meters at a sports meeting, it is obvious that I can't run anymore, but I am unwilling to stop.

When she opened the door, Wen Xu didn't expect it to be her, her original natural smile froze slightly, with a random restraint, but the arc was even better: "Long time no see."

"Long time no see." Cheng Juan was at a loss for words, and it was cold outside, so she hurried to let someone into the house.

Four 10 minutes, about 25 minutes from Wen Xu's house, and the remaining 15 minutes can't draw such a delicate makeup.

Wen Xu was ready early in the morning.

But he gave her the decision-making power, seeing or not seeing her was as she wished.

Thinking of this, Cheng Juan felt sour in his heart, but he didn't dare to be hypocritical, and said politely, "Let me help you make a cup of hot tea."

Wen Xu didn't agree immediately, and looked at her intently for a while with a smile on her face, "It's pretty good, not thin."

Cheng Juan was suddenly speechless and stood where he was, not knowing what to do.Wen Xu frowned, "Make tea."