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Xiao Guo seldom expresses himself, he has not said such words for too long, it is very unnatural, and the speed of speech is very slow.After finishing speaking, he raised his hand to smoke to cover his face.

Teng turned his face to look at him, and asked slowly, "Really?"

"Yes." Xiao Guo thought for a while, and finally said honestly: "Actually, even if you don't come, I will go to find you."

Teng Cuo took a puff of smoke, stared at Xiao Guo, and asked, "Why are you looking for me?"

"I want to see you," Xiao Guo said in a low voice, "I want to take care of you."

Teng Cuo laughed out loud, with a very contemptuous attitude.He ran out of cigarettes in his hand, and the hot red highlights in the night were crushed and thrown away.Then he wanted to order a new one, Xiao Guo held his wrist and said, "Stop it, it's not good for your health."

"Hiss..." Teng Cuo elongated his voice and said, "I didn't realize before that Brother Xiao is a good wife and mother."

Xiao Guo didn't speak for a long time, Teng Cuo broke free from his palm, lit the fire and smoked in one go, the smoke ring almost spit on Xiao Guo's face.

"I don't need a good wife, and you don't have the ability to be a good mother." Teng Cuo said, "Actually, that boy is a good one tonight, and he was disturbed by you."

Teng Cuo took the last puff of his cigarette, and looked at the person halfway from behind the thick white mist, with the word "seduce" written on the corners of his eyes and eyebrows, but there was a danger seeping out of his eyes, making Xiao Guo look at him. Chill down the spine.However, even this danger is tinged with heat. Standing in the dark night, Teng Cuo, glamorous and feminine are unavoidable adjectives.

Xiao Guo stubbed out the cigarette in his hand, his breathing became heavy, his shoulders heaved a little, and he said to Teng Cuo: "Those are not good people...they are not worthy of you."

Teng Cuo smiled softly and asked, "Are you jealous?"

Unexpectedly, Xiao Guo gave a quick "hmm".Then he threw away the cigarette and lowered his head slightly closer to Teng Cuo.

Teng Cuo was not afraid of such a scene, he even took a step forward, so that the two people's chests were stuck together through the thin summer clothes.He raised his face slightly, his long and thick eyelashes brushed against Xiao Guo's chin, brushing the green stubble.

"If I had known this before, why would I have done it in the first place," Teng Cuo said bewitchingly, "I don't know who it was, who pretended to be chaste at my place that day."

On a sultry night, Teng Cuo's breathing was very warm, and it hit his neck completely, and a kind of numbness rushed up from Xiao Guo's tailbone.His Adam's apple slid a few times uncontrollably, and Teng Cuo saw it all.

"Do you want to?" He wiped Xiao Guo's neck with his lips, then his voice suddenly turned cold, and asked, "What do you think of me?"

Xiao Guo frowned, he found that Teng Cuo could always fall into a self-consistent and extremely pessimistic mood.He reached out and grabbed Teng Cuo's arm, and said, "Xiao Zhuo, I didn't mean that."

"What do you mean?" Teng Cuo raised his eyebrows, and said casually: "I wanted to have sex with you that day, but you missed it. Since you didn't give it, I don't want it now either. I'm just here for fun tonight Yes, Brother Xiao, don't be too sentimental."

Xiao Guo's expression didn't change much, but he held Teng Cuo's hand tightly, and lowered his head as if pleading.

Teng Cuo raised his head and asked, "Tell me, what do you want?"

Xiao Guo said, "I think we start over."

"Impossible," Teng Cuo said decisively, he stared at Xiao Guo with a very sarcastic expression, "The person in your heart is Nan Zhuo."

"You are Nan Zhuo," Xiao Guo said calmly, "You can deny it, but...you are Nan Zhuo. You can grow up, your appearance, speech, behavior and habits can be changed, but those past days can't be erased, even Forgotten, they live forever."

Teng took two steps back and whispered, "No."

"Xiao Zhuo." Xiao Guo's voice hit his ears heavily, he didn't go around the corner, he just said: "Believe me, we can go back to how we were before."

He looked at Xiao Guo for a long time.Gradually, a smile spread from the corners of his raised mouth, touched every corner of his face, and finally reached his eyes.He laughed so loudly that his eyelashes trembled.

Xiao Guo stretched out his hand to hold his shoulder, but Teng Cuo had already burst into tears from laughter.Then the sound in his throat gradually turned into a whimper, and occasionally broken laughter mixed with it, becoming an indescribable accusation.Xiao Guo broke out in a cold sweat, and his hands trembled uncontrollably.

"Xiao Guo." Teng Cuo stared at him and pronounced his name.

Then he suddenly rushed forward, pressed Xiao Guo against the car door, and grabbed Xiao Guo's neck with both hands.

There was a dark red in his eyes, and the jet-black hair hung down, some of which brushed against Xiao Guo's neck.Xiao Guo didn't struggle, he let go of his hand and instead held Teng Cuo's forearm.He closed his eyes for a moment, and the blood under his eyelids was a little congested because his breathing was blocked.

"Xiao Guo," Teng Cuo said vaguely, "Look at my current state, I can't go back, I can't go back."

His mental breakdown, violent and helpless without warning, is the real state of his mental illness.The night became distorted, hallucinations invaded, Teng Cuo's hand holding Xiao Guo's neck slowly let go.His palm slid down, gripped Xiao Guo's side neck, turned into stroking his Adam's apple and collarbone, Xiao Guo could feel the soft and slippery skin.He saw the redness in Teng Cuo's eyes fade away, and his eyes slowly traced his eyebrows and eyes with deep tenderness.

After a long time, Teng Cuo's hand slipped down, and he lowered his head, right in front of Xiao Guo, with his face pressed against Xiao Guo's chest.

Listening to Xiao Guo's heartbeat, he said repeatedly: "I can't go back."

The clothes on Xiao Guo's chest were soaked, Teng Cuo's murmurs gradually became inaudible, his fingertips tightly held Xiao Guo's skirt, his body was as soft as silk.Xiao Guo wrapped his arms around his waist easily, and scooped him up.

There are many people and things in front of Teng Cuo, but they all disappear at a certain moment.He opened his eyes with great effort, but could see nothing.

He felt a quick jolt in the dark, and then knew nothing.

***

This is Teng Cuo's first illness since returning to China. It may be because he did not take lithium salt treatment regularly, or it may be because the person he faced tonight was Xiao Guo.

Too much has happened in the past ten years, and Teng missed it well or badly.The list of diagnosis of bipolar disorder and depression was under the pile of medicines on his bedside table, and Xiao Guo had already seen it.

The bright red flowers like blood drops occupy the vast mountains and fields, the child lies permanently in the pond, the blade cuts across, and the fat man's grin turns into a scream.The sky was very dark, and the originally clean rainwater fell on people's hands, seeping into white powder.The cane hit the ground, and the prostrate boy raised his head, worried that his secret would be discovered.He was trapped in the garden, the fire was burning in his heart, and he still felt cold.

These pictures rotated to make a tearing sound, Teng Cuo clawed at the edge of chaotic consciousness, and the darkness began to swallow everything.He fell into an abyss on his back, and the world was on it, but he kept falling.He opened his eyes and found that even the light was gone.

Some people are able to fight in the light and wear armor, but it is not Teng's fault.

This kind of hell is very familiar to Teng Cuo. He has been expelled from the world since he was born, but he never thought of going back.However, tonight he became defeated in laughter and tears, helplessly shouting Xiao Guo's name.

He whispered, "Brother Xiao."

A warm and rough texture replaced the coldness, and the strong embrace made his bones ache, but there was peace of mind in this pain, he didn't have to move, and nothing bad would come near.He fell into a world without wind and rain, and he wanted to wake up, which made him happy.

Teng Cuo opened his eyes and saw Xiao Guo's protruding masseter muscles and lower forehead line due to his exertion.

He was lying on the sofa in his apartment with his head resting on Xiao Guo's lap.

Teng Cuo turned his head with difficulty, and there were pills and water on the coffee table.The curtains in the living room are drawn, the floor lamp in the corner of the room is on, and the round lampshade looks like a depreciated and yellowed moon.

He sat up, Xiao Guo's hand was properly dragged on the back of his head.Teng Cuo turned his head to stare at Xiao Guo, his eyes still a little distracted.

Xiao Guo didn't speak, let him take medicine first.Teng Cuo licked the drops of water on his lips and realized what had happened.

Xiao Guo's eyes were red, he took the cup from Teng Cuo, and said in a trembling voice, "...Xiao Zhuo."

Teng Cuo lowered his eyelids and raised them again, and when he looked at Xiao Guo again, his eyes became very sharp again.He said, "Brother Xiao."

Xiao Guo asked with some difficulty: "Can I still call you that?"

"It's just a title." Teng Cuo raised one corner of his mouth, raised an eyebrow at Xiao Guo, and said in a very lazy tone: "Of course, it's up to you."

He recovered and became elusive again.The morbid charm was brought into full play by his appearance, his face looked pale even under the warm light, his lips were bloodless, trembling slightly.

"I'm sorry," Xiao Guo said in a low voice, "It's my fault, I'm sorry."

"It has nothing to do with you," Teng bit his lower lip by mistake, and said, "I told you, I'm sick."

Xiao Guo shook his head, he was really worried.He said, "I won't force you anymore, never again. But can you let me take care of you?"

"I still have the ability to take care of myself." Teng shook his body by mistake, "What do you want?"

"You're sick," Xiao Guo paused, "I can't let you go."

These two sentences may not be causally related, and only the person who said them knows the taste.Xiao Guo's hand slowly moved up along Teng Cuo's arm, and finally slipped on Teng Cuo's side face in a comforting manner.

Teng Cuo's eyes were filled with light and shadow, and he asked Xiao Guo: "Do you want to make it up to me?"

"I really can't get over what happened back then, but you can interpret it any way you want." Xiao Guo lowered his eyes, was silent for a while, and said, "Just treat me as a brother, Xiao Zhuo."

Teng Cuo asked: "What do you mean?"

Xiao Guo said, "literally."

He looked at Teng Cuo deeply, and continued: "You call me 'Brother Xiao', I think it's very good, this is a title I can afford now. What happened back then was that I was sorry for you, and you had resentment in your heart. I know, you are taking those medicines again now. Now that I am here, I won’t let you get worse alone. I want you to get better, and I will accompany you. Be self-willed and don’t feel burdened, okay?”

His natural tone is very low, and when he said the words "I'm with you", he was sincere and firm, but there was no sense of ambiguity.Teng looked at him with a wrong smile for a while, and said, "Okay, I'll be more self-willed, you can catch it."

Xiao Guo's state obviously relaxed a little, and he gave a low "hmm" to Teng Cuo, and said, "If you want, you can order me... anything."

It's a weird conversation, where two people feel the same way about each other, and none of the emotions are pure.But in the end, it somehow became a kind of community.Teng smiled wrongly and said, "I want to eat candy."

There is sugar on the coffee table, and the living room is even more chaotic than when Xiao Guo came last time.Xiao Guo leaned over to pick up a milk-flavored one, peeled off the candy wrapper and handed it to Teng Cuo.

Teng Cuo leaned over and tasted it with his hand, and narrowed his eyes in satisfaction.He was very tired, so he lay down on the sofa again, leaning on Xiao Guo's legs to lick sweets and eat, very comfortable.Tang was always in Xiao Guo's hands, feeding him with his hands hanging down.

After eating half of the candy, Teng Cuo pushed it away and said, "You know how to serve people, Brother Xiao, have you practiced before?"

Xiao Guo was taken aback for a moment, then shook his head.He glanced at the time and softly asked Teng Cuo to take a bath.

Teng Cuo tasted the remaining taste on his lips, raised his hand and touched his chin, and asked, "Are you together, Brother Xiao?"

A faint smile appeared in the corner of Xiao Guo's eyes, and he said, "I'll wait for you here, if you feel unwell, remember to call me."

Teng Cuo looked at him for a while, stood up and went to the bathroom, Xiao Guo put the candy that Teng Cuo hadn't finished into his mouth, and crushed it after a few bites.

When Teng Cuo came out of the shower, the living room had already been tidied up, and Xiao Guo was sitting on the sofa, looking ahead and wondering what he was thinking.Teng Cuo walked over to sit next to him, his hair was wet, hanging in front of him, dripping water was falling on Xiao Guo's lap.

Xiao Guo looked down, stood up and asked, "Is there a hair dryer?"

Teng wrong said: "No."

Xiao Guo didn't say anything else, turned around and went into the bathroom, and a few seconds later took a towel and came out to wipe Teng Cuo's hair.Teng Cuo naturally changed to sitting cross-legged, with his back to him.

Xiao Guo had never done such a thing before, when he covered Teng Cuo's hair with his hands, he felt a strange and soft feeling in his heart.Teng Cuo's hair is not soft, but it is thick and long, and it has a texture when it is wet.The pajamas he was wearing were very thin, and a large area of ​​his back was soaked, and Xiao Guo could see the protruding spine underneath.

His hands are big and rough, with water-stained hair wrapped around them, cold and smooth, with an indescribable contrast between the touch and the picture, which is very attractive.He couldn't see it himself, nor could Teng Cuo in front of him, but the cold and hard lines of Xiao Guo's face softened a little.

He didn't dare to push hard, and Teng Cuo inadvertently raised his head. He thought he had pulled the hair of the person, so he slowed down immediately, but fortunately, it was almost finished.

"Brother Xiao," Teng Cuo hugged the cushion and asked, "Will you live with me in the future?"

Xiao Guo paused his hands and said, "Do you want to?"

Teng Cuo was quiet for a few seconds, then nodded.

"Then I'll come over." Xiao Guo said.

Teng Cuo immediately turned to look at him, blinking slyly.

Xiao Guo honestly came to his senses and said, "I... sleep in the living room."

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