as gentle as you

The winter vacation is always short and warm, because the New Year will be celebrated after more than ten days off.

Since the two "quarreled", Ling Fei hadn't contacted Wen Yiran for a long time.

During this period of time, Ling Fei desperately wrote homework for the winter vacation in her room, and played computer games desperately after finishing her homework, trying to forget Wen Yiran's existence.

She's been listening to her all along, and she's really trying to forget her.

She thought that the longer distance and longer time would make her let go of her feelings for Wen Yiran, but after finishing her winter vacation homework and getting tired of playing computer games, she still couldn't forget this woman.

Not even a little annoying.

After Ling Fei had just finished arguing with Wen Yiran that night, she really hated this woman a little at the time, she even hated her a little, hated her for ignoring this relationship, hated her for ignoring her feelings, and even more hated her for lying to herself.

However, time has passed and the distance has been far away. It seems that the feelings no longer exist, but as soon as Ling Fei calms down, Wen Yiran's every frown, smile and every move will appear in Ling Fei's mind, and she will start to miss her crazily.

Missing is like a wild vine in the dark, which only grows in the dark night. After being moistened by tears in the silent night, it begins to grow wildly, and soon climbs the entire wall of the heart.

So only thoughts and resentment towards myself remained.

Yes, she hated herself.Why can't she let go resolutely, why she must, and what makes her hate the most is the teacher-student relationship between them.This relationship is like a natural moat that separates them. In private, she can be friends with herself alone, but once they arrive at school or in class, they can only be teachers and students.This disparity in status made Ling Fei look at her forever from a position that was far away from her.Ling Fei believes that if she is not her student, if she is someone of her age, she will definitely not reject herself.

However, nothing if.

Sometimes Ling Fei would take out her phone, and turn to the special attention column on WeChat to see Wen Yiran's latest updates. Even though she knew that Moments had always been blank, she would subconsciously flip through them; or turn to Looking at the phone book, seeing the three words "Wen Yiran", I wanted to call her crazily, but I couldn't press the index finger controlled by my brain.

When I first met Wen Yiran and knew her mobile phone number, Ling Fei gave her a remark of "Teacher Wen". Later, when she found out that she liked her, she changed the remark to "Yiran", but Ling Fei didn't know the name in her heart. How many times did she call it; but at the end, one day Ling Fei changed her remark to the indifferent "Wen Yiran".

What she thought at the time was that if she wanted to forget her, she should first start with the remark, not the kind of intimate remark.So she changed it.

But now it seems that it is useless.

This day happened to be New Year's Eve, Li Li and Ling Gang didn't go out, Ling Fei was also at home, and the family of three could finally celebrate the New Year together.

When was the last time New Years Eve was like this?It seems to be the year when Ling Fei just entered junior high school.And that year was also the year when Ling Fei's parents started to have quarrels.Since then, either she celebrates the New Year at home alone, or she celebrates the New Year at home with her mother or father, and the number of people is always inconsistent.

It was already evening, and it was rare for parents to sit in the living room to watch the Spring Festival Gala. Ling Fei felt bored after watching it for a while, so she went back to her room.

From time to time, the sky outside was lit up like daylight by fireworks, and the moment the fireworks bloomed, the whole sky resounded.

Outside the window, the lights of every house are on, and sometimes the noise of children and the laughter of people watching the sketches of the Spring Festival Gala can be heard, which is very lively.

But Ling Fei in the room was eerily quiet.

She didn't turn on the light, and fell down on the bed, listening to the sounds around her quietly.

After a long while, she took out her mobile phone, turned to the phone book by accident, and saw Wen Yiran's name again.

Ling Fei's heart fell into a huge battle between heaven and man.

In her heart, she still wanted to call her, listen to her voice, and wonder if she was doing well... However, the stubbornness in her bones did not allow her to do so.

After hesitating for a long time, Ling Fei finally decided to call her.

So, with trembling fingers, she dialed it for her.

When the first beep came from the phone, Ling Fei's heart was about to jump into her throat.

Finally, after the final beep, a mechanical and indifferent female voice came from the mobile phone, "Hello, the number you dialed is currently in use..." as expected.

In the end, Wen Yiran still didn't answer Ling Fei's call.

Did she start to hate herself so much that she didn't even want to answer the phone?Or, is she still not ready to say anything to herself?

Could it be that I am not even qualified to say a happy new year to her?

The sky is full of dazzling fireworks outside the window, and every household is full of family reunion, a piece of happiness.Ling Fei stayed alone in the room, feeling extremely lonely, as if her heart was drowning in an ice cellar, it was so cold that she couldn't breathe.

Pata—tears dripped on the dimly lit phone screen, JJ Lin's "I Still Miss Her" was playing in the earphones, Ling Fei stared blankly at the lyrics on the phone screen, the tears flowed uncontrollably again Flow down.

Wen Yiran stared at the eye-catching "Xiao Fei" on the screen of the phone for a long time. The piercing ringtone seemed to be a reminder to shake her determination. She wanted to press it several times, but finally hung up the phone.

She figured it out, whether she hated her or hated her, as the older party, she must kill this deformed relationship in the cradle, no matter what the consequences would be, it was better than Ling Fei having to suffer from others for a lifetime Pointing.

I hope she can understand sooner, her good intentions...

While thinking, the phone suddenly beeped, and a text message came in.

Wen Yiran picked it up and took a look, and it was indeed Ling Fei who said, "Happy New Year."

Immediately afterwards, another message came: "Also, I miss you so much."

The moment Wen Yiran saw the second text message, Wen Yiran almost had the urge to call her to tell her not to send any more, but in the end he clicked on the option and blocked Ling Fei.

Ling Fei was editing the third text message, but when she pressed the send button, she realized that it could not be sent.

For a long time, she stared blankly at the two words "pull black", then threw her mobile phone randomly on the bedside, her face was completely buried in the quilt, her body was trembling, and she was unwilling to come out for a long time.

On the morning of the first day of the Lunar New Year, Xiao Yihan went to Wen Yiran's house.

"Yihan, how many times have I told you, come here as soon as you come, what do you want to buy? Don't do this next time." Mother Wen said, holding Xiao Yihan's hand earnestly.

Xiao Yihan also smiled and said: "Aunt Wen, what are you talking about, I am a good friend of Yiran, and I have long regarded you as my second mother, so how can the younger generation come to see the elders without bringing something?" Reason? Besides, this is my wish, so you can accept it."

"Okay, okay, as long as your little mouth can say..."

Since Xiao Yihan came early in the morning, Wen Yiran guessed that she might not have had breakfast, so he prepared a bowl of porridge and eggs for her.

She put the breakfast on the table, sat down and asked, "Yihan, are your parents okay?"

After thanking Xiao Yihan, he said: "It's all right, let you remember."

The three exchanged pleasantries for a while before Xiao Yihan explained the reason why she came so early.It turned out that she had performed well in the company in Ningcheng for the past two years, and the head office was planning to send her as the deputy general manager of the branch in Ningcheng, and she was here to handle the handover procedures today.

"Then I would like to congratulate you, Yihan, you will be promoted immediately." Wen Yiran congratulated with a smile.

Mother Wen worried: "You should be busy again with this promotion. Your mother always misses your health when she calls me, and asked me to take care of you if I can. Wouldn't you be busier than before after you got promoted?" ?" Xiao Yihan's parents lived abroad all year round and rarely came back. Although Wen Yiran's father is gone, the friendship between the two families has always been there.

"Aunt Wen, don't worry about me. As long as you take good care of your own body, Yiran and I will work harder and have no worries." Xiao Yihan got up, went to Mother Wen's back and beat her Back up, "Although I have been promoted, the workload of the deputy general manager is much less than before. I may work overtime from time to time, and the rest is really nothing."

"really?"

"Of course it's true!"

……

Xiao Yihan talked to them for a while, and left in a hurry after breakfast.

After Xiao Yihan left, Mother Wen couldn't help sighing: "Yihan has such good conditions, and I don't know what kind of husband's family I will find in the future. Whoever marries her is really lucky!"

Wen Yiran naturally didn't worry about her good friend's marriage, but she thought of Ling Fei again.

School will start soon after the new year.She just hopes that she can figure it out as soon as possible, and it would be good for both of them to let her go as soon as possible, otherwise school will start...

Forget it, let's talk about it when school starts.Wen Yiran thought.

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Even later, Happy National Day everyone~