The last time to say I love you

Xu Zhisheng played several times in a row, but hung up after one beep. When the fourth call was finally connected, no one said a word.

Li Su was on his way to find Lin Han, but Lin Han suddenly looked for him, and he didn't know what seemed urgent.

Li Su never thought that Xu Zhisheng would call him. Xu Zhisheng's post that went viral on the campus network today made him not have the courage to answer Xu Zhisheng's call.

Xu Zhisheng's scandals spread throughout Lichuan one after another, and he couldn't suppress it. The person who broke the news was anonymous. It was said that this anonymous person was a classmate of Xu Zhisheng's junior high school, and he still had a photo of Xu Zhisheng in his hand.

Among the scandals that have been pulled out are those love letters from the same person.

The love letters in Xu Zhisheng's handwriting were placed on the campus network one after another, but the contents were not the ones that broke out yesterday, and even the names of the people who confessed were different.

He couldn't believe it, and he didn't want to believe it. He didn't know how to face Xu Zhisheng now.

"I like you, very much." A simple and clear sentence.

Now both ends were still, and no one spoke. Xu Zhisheng heard Gao Lv's steady and slight breathing from the other end of the phone.

"Do you know how cheap your words are?"

After saying that, Li Su himself was a little surprised, he obviously didn't mean to say these things, why did he become like this when he opened his mouth?

But those things lingered in his mind one after another, and he couldn't forget them even if he wanted to. He didn't even know what Xu Zhisheng said was true.

When I was a sophomore in high school, I said I liked him but didn't know anything about him with others. Now that the love letter incident broke out, he hid behind Gao Li and followed Gao Li...

And those love letters that are more affectionate than dogs make him feel ashamed.

Which of his Xu Zhisheng's words is true...

Perhaps for him, Xu Zhisheng, Li Su had no place in his heart at all!That so-called affection made him feel guilty, that terrible habit made him soft-hearted and made him turn back...

In the end, the matter of the love letter might be a lie, but he pretended to be passionate and took it seriously.

"Don't you have anything to say about today's events?"

Why did you run away when you saw him?why not explain?Is it because he broke out and didn't dare to face him again?

Li Su stared fixedly at the moving vehicles, he didn't want to believe anything anymore, he wanted to hear Xu Zhisheng tell the truth of those things himself, this time he only listened to what Xu Zhisheng said.

As long as he denies it, even if it is true or not, this time he believes...Thaksin.

He anxiously waited for Xu Zhisheng on the other end of the phone to answer, waiting for him to say his sentence

None of that is true.

But what he waited for was that Xu Zhisheng skipped over it, it was his heart to deceive himself and not get a response.

Xu Zhisheng didn't answer his question, calling his name with a tired voice.

"Li Su..."

This is the last time I called you, and no one like me will appear in your life in the future.

Xu Zhisheng was panting with difficulty while holding the mobile phone, the blood on his hand was dripping down like endless flow, he frowned and trembling his lips did not dare to look at those bloodstains.

This time he actually felt that the blood was a bit scary, and the red rust smell filled his entire nasal cavity.

This time, not only his blood but also his life was lost.

Ask him if he is afraid?He was actually afraid in his heart, the blood was too much, gushing out like running water and couldn't stop it.

Anyone who experiences this feeling of loss of life is panic.

But what he was afraid of was not death.

He tried his best to suppress his strange voice and emotions and said slowly:

"99 times."

I liked you 74 times as a joke and replied, and the remaining 25 times I really liked you but didn't reply a word.

"Xu Zhisheng, why didn't you explain! Why didn't you answer!!!"

Li Su's raging voice was hoarse and unpleasant, it came out from the phone and spread to every cell in his body.

Li Su's eyes were red like a raging beast in trouble, and the teardrops falling from his left eye all reflected his embarrassment and self-indulgence.

He murmured with deep begging in his tone, "Why don't you explain..."

Didn't you lie to him all the time?Why didn't you lie this time?

"It's not necessary... Yes, what they said is true, everything is true. I am that kind of person."

There is no need for an explanation, is there...

Anyway, they won't believe it, and you won't believe it, so why bother explaining or not?

His deep affection for Li Su has also come to an end, so there is no need to explain anything, and he is too lazy to explain these.

Anyway, he is going to die... What kind of trouble would it be for him to say it...

Just let them do that, it's fine...

I won't see you again, it's all over.

"Li Su, from the second year of high school to the present, have you ever really liked me at all..."

When Xu Zhisheng asked this sentence, he even felt a little ridiculous. He obviously felt uncomfortable after asking this question, but he just wanted to hear Li Su's answer again.

Xu Zhisheng longed for Li Su's answer in his heart, but at the same time was afraid that Li Su would say it.

But Li Su's next words shattered all his fantasies and expectations.

"Why don't you die? Who likes you? I miss you now and dream of dying! Let me tell you, Xu Zhisheng... I saved you, which is the worst thing I have ever done in my life!! You are satisfied with this answer Yet!!!"

Li Su never thought that his angry words would make him completely lose a boy who liked him so much that he loved him from the bottom of his heart.

I've seen it through tomorrow, but why I'm still sad.

What ran across the cheeks and flowed to the corners of the mouth, salty.

Is it tears...

Didn't the tears run dry long ago...

Li Su, in the future, will you remember that a person named Xu Zhisheng once appeared in your life, that person once regarded you as a yearning, and even loved you fanatically.

Even just once.

"Thank you, Li Su, and I'm sorry."

Thank you for saving me so that I have the faith to live, thank you for being kind to me, thank you for everything...

It was my mistake to break into your world without permission, sorry.

Xiao, who was overconfident without permission, thought you were my fault, sorry.

All of them are my fault, sorry.

"I love you……"

Xu Zhisheng felt a lot more relaxed when he said these three words, and the boulder on his heart seemed to disappear in an instant.

No one knew what these three words meant, only Xu Zhisheng knew that this was a farewell to his fate.

This was the first time Xu Zhisheng said these three words to Li Su, and it was also the last time, and they did not go back.

And it's time for him to go back to where he should be, the world is not suitable for him.

So he gave up, he couldn't fight against those people's bad words, he couldn't fight against their rumors, he couldn't see Li Su's disgusting eyes, and he couldn't accept his humble face down to the bone.

He didn't want to be the man they said, that's not him, but he still lived that kind of person, because he was that kind of person in their eyes.

When people don't understand, trust and believe, Xu Yuan is also like this. No one believes that Xu Yi was framed by someone, even his father doesn't believe him, so it's his retribution for him to live like this.

"Li Su, for the rest of your life, I wish you well, everything is peaceful, we... are all over..."

Their meeting is a bad fate, if it starts with Jinjiang, let it end with Jinjiang.

This time it was Xu Zhisheng who hung up the phone first. After hanging up, the bloody cell phone in his hand also fell to the ground, bounced on the ground and then lay quietly on the ground.

The passers-by saw Xu Zhisheng's appearance but hurried past as if they didn't see him. Some of them saw Xu Zhisheng and wanted to go up to inquire but were stopped by the people next to him.

"Are you crazy? Didn't you see that man was covered in blood? If it's a murderer, can you protect yourself? And if something happens, can you be responsible? Go away and don't meddle in your own business."

"But he doesn't look like a murderer...what if he commits suicide later?"

"Knowing people, knowing the face, not knowing the heart, how can you commit suicide after standing for so long without jumping, and besides, what does this have to do with you?"

"Can……"

"Don't worry about it. One thing more is worse than one thing less. You see, you are enthusiastic, and others don't go. What the hell are you enthusiastic about?"

Some of them picked up their mobile phones and dialed 110 and 120 silently even though they didn't dare to approach them.

Xu Zhisheng grabbed the railing with both hands, and one foot had already stretched out. Suddenly, he heard a familiar voice calling him.

"Sound of Xu!!!"

Xu Zhisheng turned his head and looked at the boy. He saw panic and loss in the boy's eyes.

That boy is very good, he has given him sweets, coaxed him, beat him up for him, comforted him, cried worse than him when he was in a mess, and always appeared in front of him when he was bullied. Beside him, the young man loved him and turned his back on him, without the disgust in his eyes, and finally told him that he liked him.

That young man was Gao Li, a man who treated him very well.

It would be great if I could get to know Gao Li in the first year of junior high school. Only such a self is worthy of Gao Li's precious love. He thinks that such a self will definitely fall in love with Gao Li.

But he wasn't himself at that time, he also got to know Li Su earlier, and was moved by others earlier.

That person once treated him as well as Gao Li, acted as his father, helped him over the wall, and bought him red bean syrup.

Maybe others think it's nothing, but the red bean syrup will never be forgotten in his life.

He has a small heart and can only accommodate the boy who bought him brown sugar water.

"Thank you...and sorry."

Thank you for being nice to me, and sorry for letting you meet a damn person like me.

All the difficulties and experiences he encountered were said to teach him to grow up. If he can bear it, he will grow up. If he can't bear it, he can only perish, and he is the second type.

He always felt that they were not here to teach him to grow up, but to kill him with a machete.

If it didn't kill him, how could he teach him to grow up in such a cruel way...

Each one is a poisonous sharp blade that can see blood at the touch of a touch.

Forget it, it doesn't make any sense... just take it as an excuse for his cowardice and incompetence.

After seeing Xu Zhisheng's pale smile, Gao Lu thought of something and ran towards Xu Zhisheng like crazy.

"Xu Zhisheng! Stop! Don't!!"

Xu Zhisheng looked down at the turbulent river flowing under the bridge and suddenly laughed, tears also came out as he smiled.

He didn't know what he was laughing at, maybe he was laughing at his stupid and ridiculous life.

Xu Zhisheng's eyes were very red, and there was no gleam of death in his eyes. Huge teardrops fell from the sockets of his eyes and dripped on his blood-stained hands.

You have won this game, you have won all the yearning in my heart very well, and taught me what it means to grow up that life is better than death.

Let me live in the world and die in the hearts of the people.

Xu Zhisheng was caught off guard and uttered the first foul language in his life to Jinjiang.

"I/fuck/you/mom/! I told you I hate you guys! Haha..."

As soon as he finished cursing, he couldn't help sobbing, his voice filled with endless collapse and despair.

The other foot also stepped out of the fence and quickly jumped forward without the slightest hesitation. Gao Lu just watched helplessly as Xu Zhisheng jumped down in front of him.

Really... I hate you guys to death.

The moment Xu Zhisheng jumped down, he felt that the world was quiet, there was no gossip, and the sound of the wind blowing by his ears sounded so reassuring.

I'm sorry...his life ended up dirtying this river...

too tired……

I swear by my life, and I am willing to dedicate my body, including my life, to all the ghosts and ghosts in the river.

I wish to redeem this sin at the price of sacrifice, please let him sleep here forever...

Really... so tired...

The icy river water swallowed Xu Zhisheng little by little, Xu Zhisheng didn't struggle and let his body sink to the bottom of the river little by little.

The moment he jumped into the river, there seemed to be tens of thousands of hands in the river holding him down, for fear that he would suddenly go back on his word and return to where he was.

The blood on his hands also spread in the water little by little, staining the water of the river red.

The blood-red water seemed to celebrate Xu Zhisheng's liberation, and it became more and more red.

In a daze, Xu Zhisheng seemed to have seen someone swimming towards him, just like the scene at that time, but this time it was not the boy.

It was Gao Lu, not Li Su.

He smiled when he saw Gao Lu being dragged upstream, and slowly closed his eyes in the oxygen-deficient river.

He has tasted a lot of hardships, but he can't erase the scars on his heart.

He walked the most difficult road, but he couldn't walk the gentle road.

Because he touched the warmth that shouldn't be touched, he completely died in the light transformed from this sharp blade.

The light gradually disappeared in front of Xu Zhisheng, and the boy's figure gradually turned into ashes until he couldn't breathe.

This article is over.

Screams and panic sounded at the moment Xu Zhisheng jumped into the water. Gao Lu felt the color of the sky change after hearing the sound of falling into the water, and his heart fell into the river with Xu Zhisheng. Jump off the railing and jump into the river.

It scared passers-by again, and some passers-by were afraid of being involved and ran faster than anyone else.

The sound of the police siren instantly rang through the entire Tiantian Bridge, and several police cars surrounded Jinjiang.

"All retreat!"

Suddenly a serious voice came from the bridgehead, and a man in a police uniform ran up the stairs, looked at the edge of the bridge and jumped off the bridge without any hesitation.

Gao Lv saw Xu Zhisheng who was falling and tried his best to swim towards Xu Zhisheng. Just when he was about to touch Xu Zhisheng, a pair of strong arms wrapped around his waist and pulled him up. Gao Lv stared wide at once. Seeing the distance between himself and Xu Zhisheng widen again, he desperately tried to break free from the pull of this man.

Xu Zhisheng!Xu Zhisheng! ! !That is Xu Zhisheng!He was obviously close to being able to hold Xu Zhisheng! ! !

Gao Lu was pulled upstream and just watched Xu Zhisheng fall little by little, swallowed by the endless darkness of the deep sea and disappeared without a trace.

Gao Lu was dragged ashore by the police, and Gao Lu wanted to jump down without even thinking about it.

"Let go! Let go!!!"

"Do you want to die! Don't die!!!"

"Get out! Get out!!! If something happens to him, I won't let you go! I'll let you all be buried with him!!!"

The policeman ignored the irrational Gao Li and said to the other two policemen:

"This student is out of control. You two come over and hold him down. I'll go down and have a look."

The two policemen nodded in response, and they both supported Gao Li at the same time.

"Deputy Li, the water is too fast. It probably rushed downstream. Search and rescue personnel and medical personnel are on their way."

"Keep an eye on him and wait for me to come up."

As he said that, he told Deputy Police Officer Li to jump into the river again.

"Xu Zhisheng! Xu Zhisheng!"

Gao Lu's face was covered with tears and he wanted to resist, but he was dragged so hard that he could only watch the flowing river and couldn't do anything.

Gao Lu was about to go crazy, obviously he was about to catch Xu Zhisheng just now.

How can he calm down, he likes the crazy boy in that river!Right in that river that can swallow thousands of lives at any time!

Xu Zhisheng shouldn't have to bear this... It's obviously not his fault... It's not his fault! !

He broke down and yelled: "He's waiting for me! You idiots! Brats! Let go! Let me go!! Fuck you!"

How does it feel to watch someone you love commit suicide?

Does it hurt?

Gao Lv was not only in pain, but finally felt the feeling of despair to the point of wanting to die.

My whole body was in excruciating pain, and my blood was cold.

It didn't take long for the police to go down, and the search and rescue personnel arrived. They jumped into the icy river wearing their equipment.

Minutes and seconds passed and there was still no news. Gao Li felt that a second seemed as long as a century.

I don't know how long I waited for the scene where a group of people emerged from the river in unison, except for Xu Zhisheng.

When the search and rescue personnel rescued the cramping and drowning policeman to the shore, Gao Li asked them:

"What about others? Huh? What about him?"

"Jiang Shui was too anxious to find it. It may have been more than half an hour..."

Gao Li interrupted the search and rescue personnel before they finished speaking:

"You fart!! I don't allow you to talk nonsense!!!"

Gao Lv was afraid that those people would say that word, he really couldn't stand it...

This time, we searched downstream, and within 10 minutes of going down, a search and rescue worker carried a person covered in pink blood and came ashore from the yacht.

Seeing Xu Zhisheng being carried to the shore by the lifeguards, Gao Li couldn't bear it anymore, and broke free from the restraints of the two policemen, stumbling over and snatching Xu Zhisheng into his arms.

The biting chill began to spread from his fingertips to his whole body. Looking at the pale face without a trace of blood in his arms, Gao Lu's teardrops came out all at once, and he quickly took off his already soaked shirt and wrapped it in the On Xu Zhisheng.

Xu Zhisheng's body was still very thin, Gao Lu couldn't feel Xu Zhisheng's breath, and panic began to appear in his eyes.

After seeing the shocking wounds on Xu Zhisheng's wrist, Gao Lv violently tore off his trousers in a panic and hurriedly wrapped Xu Zhisheng's wrist tightly to prevent the shocking wounds from bleeding.

The knife wound was more severe than the first knife, and it was already bone-deep, and the separated flesh was so high that he was afraid to see it, and he was still wearing the wristband with the sun pattern he gave him.

Without detecting Xu Zhisheng's snort, he put Xu Zhisheng on the ground and gave him chest compressions.

Because he didn't believe that the boy would die just like that.

The hand that pressed was sore Xu Zhisheng still didn't wake up, Gao Lv still couldn't help reaching out his hand to check the man's breath after an hour passed.

All of a sudden, I was stunned, as if my nerves had been pulled out by someone.

not breathing...

no warmth...

"The voice of Xu..."

Gao Lu picked up Xu Zhisheng from the ground and hugged him tightly, his hands were trembling, Xu Zhisheng's body was so cold that he didn't feel any warmth.

It was so cold that he felt that what he was hugging was not a person but something from a freezer.

Tears gushed out unprepared, and the whole body that had been soaked for a long time was only the eye sockets and when the tears ran across the cheeks, there was a little warmth. Looking at Xu Zhisheng, whose eyes were wet and his lips were pale, Gao Lv felt indescribably uncomfortable. Heart palpitations come and go.

Obviously, he was almost able to catch Xu Zhisheng just now...

Why did things become like this...

He watched Xu Zhisheng fall into the bottom of the river little by little, and when he was dragged up by the police, he seemed to see Xu Zhisheng smiling at him. That smile was a smile that Gao Li had never seen before, so real that there was no trace of it. camouflage.

As if celebrating his release.

"Get up...Xu Zhisheng..."

Gao Lv held Xu Zhisheng's head in one hand, and pressed his face against Xu Zhisheng's head. In the end, he couldn't help sobbing. The cry was like the cry of a lone wolf on the grassland, which made the surrounding people feel depressed and uncomfortable. .

Gao Lu's hot tears dripped on Xu Zhisheng's cold head, Gao Lu still didn't seem to give up on him, he stretched out his hands and rubbed Xu Zhisheng's cold hands continuously.

"Xu Zhisheng...Xu Zhisheng...are you getting up...please..."

"Didn't you say... you will leave Chuanjiang after the college entrance examination? It's okay... I can follow you... I can protect you from being bullied by anyone... I will protect you for the rest of my life..."

"Don't do that to Xu Zhisheng...don't treat me like this...speak...speak..."

"Ahhhhh!!!"

Gao Lv's emotions seemed to have collapsed, and he couldn't help holding Xu Zhisheng and screaming in pain.

The onlookers began to feel that Gao Li was scary, and they even thought Gao Li was crazy.

When the ambulance and a large number of police arrived, what they saw was Gao Li holding Xu Zhisheng, who had lost his soul, and no one could separate him from the long-dead Xu Zhisheng.

When the doctor squatted in front of Gao Lu and Xu Zhisheng, Gao Lu finally came back to his senses, and looked at the medical staff in front of him beggingly with tears in his eyes.

Protecting Xu Zhisheng behind him, he knelt down on his knees and kowtowed to them continuously, every time he kowtowed so hard that his head was broken after several consecutive kowtows, and blood flowed from his forehead.

"Please save him! Help him..."

Gao Lu's mind went blank, he couldn't think of anything else, he just thought that Xu Zhisheng couldn't die, he couldn't live without Xu Zhisheng...

Gao Lu was panicked, even more panicked than when he lost Jiang Xi, and his heart hurt more than when he lost Jiang Xi. What made him even more uncomfortable was that he once again witnessed an important person die in front of him but was powerless.

It was like this again, dying in front of him again and again...

One and two were so gentle before they died... One and two were so unhesitating when they abandoned him, never thinking about him...

Never thought about how he would go through those pains again and again...

Xiaoli, I'm sorry...live well...

Gao Li, thank you and I'm sorry...

Who wants your apology!return!Come back to me! ! !

"I have money... I will give you a lot of money! Save him! Save him!"

Gao Lu's eyes were full of begging and hope, but they couldn't bear to tell this young man the cruel truth.

They are neither gods nor gods, and they cannot take back the lives that have been left long ago.