Pain fetish

On the fifth day of Fu Ge's hospitalization, the fever finally subsided, the inflammation in the inner cavity was brought under control, and he woke up slowly.

But he was waking up very little, only a few hours a day with his eyes open, a thin ball huddled under the quilt, silent.

He was like a bird that has landed on a high tower, with broken wings, a limp beak, and clouded eyes that can't see the direction.

Even though the chains on his feet were already untied and no one restricted his freedom, he still didn't dare to move even a little bit, even if he just looked up at the sky.

What slowly healed was only the physical pain, but a bigger hole was opened in the already riddled spiritual world.

The hallucinations have become more and more serious, to the point where it is impossible to distinguish between the virtual and the real, the past and the present.

He always woke up in the evening, sitting in a small ball on the bed, talking to the void in front of him.

Sometimes they talk about basketball, and he still remembers that Qi Han was hit on the head by a basketball in the second week of the first meeting.

Sometimes when talking about painting, he said that he couldn't always paint the sunset because his eyes couldn't help but look elsewhere.

And a few other times, it's about Mr., who asks with fascination and dependence, "Are you coming home tonight?"

Qi Han wanted to talk back, wanted to hug him and said to be with you tonight and from now on, but he didn't even dare to go into the ward to meet anyone.

Because the most frequent hallucination in Fu Ge was their 18-year-old wedding.

The wedding that I was looking forward to, but couldn't wait for.

The wedding that he personally ruined.

"Ahan, I went to see a Chinese pastry chef today and asked him to teach me how to make dim sum."

Little Beta hugged her legs, put her chin on her knees, tilted her head slightly, and asked a cloud of air with a happy face: "Shall I make the wedding cake myself?"

Qi Han was standing outside wearing a bluetooth headset, looking at him through the one-way glass, his heart ached like it was going to shatter, "Okay... Brother wants to do it... just do it, I'll be with you... ...."

Fu Ge couldn't see his people, and couldn't hear his voice, so he just talked to his own Mr. Bear.

"I went to the auditorium to look around again today, and found that the fireworks at the entrance are all roses and lilies. I want to add two hawthorn flowers."

Qi Han kept nodding his head against the glass, "Okay, if you like it, brother, I'll pick it up for you in the afternoon."

In the ward, Fu Ge changed his posture again, raised his head a little, and tapped his knees with gauze-wrapped fingers, a bit of embarrassment flashed across his face.

"I also met a high school sketch teacher and invited him to our wedding, you know? He said we were the bravest couple he had ever seen, and we were engaged and bound for life when we were just 18 years old."

He smiled slowly, showing one side of waxy white canine teeth, "I told him, because I have the best alpha in the world, there is nothing to be afraid of."

"I'm not good..." Qi Han closed his eyes tightly, and repeated these words with trembling lips: "I'm not good at all...Brother, stop talking, don't love me so much , I am not worthy of your liking..."

He begged Fu Ge to stop, to stop liking him, to stop trusting him, to stop so helplessly and pitifully recalling the only past between the two of them, but Fu Ge couldn't do it.

He has nothing left, he can only immerse himself in memory, relying on those fragmented hallucinations to spend every minute of darkness and every past year.

"I'm really looking forward to our wedding. I really want to get engaged right away, and then get married again. Let's go to Tibet again for our honeymoon. I want to fulfill my wish."

"I was thinking, fortunately there are only 28 days in February, the wedding can be earlier, but sometimes I think why there are 28 days in February, I can't wait."

"Isn't it too unreserved to say that? Don't laugh at me."

............

Mr. Xiong in the hallucination seemed to have moved, and Fu Ge also slowly turned around, looking in the direction of the glass window.

The two pairs of eyes looked at each other for an instant, Qi Han outside the ward was in great pain, Fu Ge in the ward was sweet and happy, and there was a layer of glass that could no longer penetrate between them.

"Actually, I didn't mean to be too anxious, it's because I prepared a little surprise for you, and I can't wait to tell you about it." Fu Ge's eyes curved into a pair of crescent moons, and he slid his palm down to touch his lower abdomen.

Qi Han's heart trembled violently, and he didn't even dare to open his eyes again. He leaned against the glass in despair, clenched his hands into fists, and let Fu Ge's gentle voice penetrate the eardrum like a blade.

"I have a lifetime mark on me that you left."

"I know...I know Xiaoge, I know..."

Qi Han was about to die of pain, he kept nodding his head, tears streaming down the glass.

The tacit understanding between the lovers finally appeared after five years, and the two voices inside and outside the ward miraculously merged together——

Fu Ge: "It seems to be left over from that susceptible period."

Qi Han: "Is it left over from that susceptible period..."

Fu Ge: "I was very scared at first, but later I realized it was a mark. I thought I must give you a surprise."

Qi Han: "Did my brother be very scared at first, but later I realized it was a mark, and wanted to create a surprise for me..."

With a "bang" it exploded in the corridor, Qi Han growled and smashed his fist on the glass, the extremely remorseful Alpha slid down against the window, like a giant dragon with lost treasure, guarding the hollow cave Sobbing.

That night, while Fu Ge was fully asleep, Qi Han opened the door of the ward and walked in, sitting by the bed and watching him.

Little Beta lost more than a little bit of weight compared to five years ago. Lying on the bed, only a thin skeleton remained. His originally white and pink skin revealed a layer of sickly paleness, and even the blood vessels under his neck were clearly visible.

In the past, the most cherished hand used for painting had to be smeared with thick hand cream every night, and when kissed by Qi Han, he had to be carefully told to be careful. It was covered with fine wounds, and the palm wrapped in gauze was even more horrible, almost a piece of flesh was gouged out by a piece of glass.

However, this is not the worst.

On the left side of Fu Ge's lower abdomen, near the hip bone, Qi Han found an old scar that was half a finger long

It is the surgical incision left by the cleaning mark.

Such a hideous scar, the area around the incision had turned dark brown, lying on his thin and narrow abdomen like a centipede.

Cruel and resolute, it shows that this beta can no longer belong to anyone.

Qi Han unbuttoned his clothes a little, and slowly fell on the old scar with a moist and hot kiss, "Xiao Ge...does it still hurt?"

"I heard from the doctor that to clean the mark, the circle of flesh stained with my pheromone in the inner cavity should be scraped off hard. Can the doctor you find do it well...they will give it to you after surgery. Have you taken painkillers?"

He trembled and closed his eyes, and the fingertips rubbing the knife edge were so painful that even his heart convulsed, "Did it...it hurt so much... Did you hate me to death... .”

The person on the hospital bed trembled suddenly, Qi Han raised his eyes immediately, and met Fu Ge who had just woken up from the nightmare.

He saw with his own eyes that the blankness in little Beta's eyes turned into surprise, fear, and then the strongest hatred in an instant.

"Get off! Get off - don't touch me!!!"

He screamed sharply, and kicked and kicked Qi Han indiscriminately, trying to push Qi Han away, but with a lot of strength in his hands, he was pushed under the bed by the reaction.

Qi Han immediately flew over to catch him, and a silver light flashed at the end of his eyes in the next second, and when he landed, little Beta had already inserted the fork into his shoulder.

Pressing against the gauze and stabbing into the unhealed wound again, the sharp tip of the fork completely sank into the flesh, and a few drops of blood splashed out immediately, staining the left half of Qi Han's face.

Little Beta was frightened by the blood and his face.

He couldn't tell who Qi Han in front of him was, the executioner or his alpha.

When Chen Xing heard the movement and broke in with his bodyguards, he was shocked to see the scene in front of him.

"Fuck! What's the matter with you, let him go!"

The bodyguard immediately rushed up to subdue Fu Ge, Qi Han stood sideways to block him, one hand protected his shoulder and the other grabbed his wrist holding the fork, "Get out."

"Huh? Dude, are you crazy! He's trying to kill you—"

"I'll tell you!"

"...Come on, I won't play with Erbaiwu anymore!" Chen Xing led him away cursing, and the door of the ward was closed again.

Blood dripped down the fork and wet Fu Ge's hand. Qi Han was in pain until his forehead was covered with bead-sized beads of sweat, but he didn't groan from the beginning to the end.

He looked at Fu Ge without changing his face, and said softly and cautiously, "It's okay, Xiaoge, it's okay, let go first...let go first..."

He held down the dinner fork with his left hand, and tried to break Fu Ge's hand with his right hand, not daring to use any strength for fear of touching the wound on his palm again, "Come on, let go gently, take it slow...slow down a little......"

Fu Ge let go of his hand, staring blankly at the streaks of bright red that flowed down his arms, and tears rolled down for some reason.

"You bleed a lot..."

Qi Han didn't bother to pull out the fork, he gently hugged him into his arms, wiped the end of his eyes with the only clean place on the back of his hand, and coaxed him in a trembling voice: "It's okay, I don't hurt, why are you crying?" ..."

But Fu Ge raised his red eyes and asked him, "Why can't you die with so much blood?"

The fingertips froze, Qi Han froze there.

After a long silence, he withdrew his hand, and a forced smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, like a child who clumsily makes up for something wrong, not knowing where to start.

He glanced at Fu Ge, then at his shoulder, then gritted his teeth and pulled out the fork, the blood-stained silver metal fell off from his hand.

With a bang, Fu Ge trembled in fright.

"I'm sorry..." Qi Han apologized for the sound, "I didn't mean it."

Two streams of blood gushed out of the wound again, and it was almost unstoppable. Now his face was frighteningly pale, and dizziness flashed before his eyes.

"It's cold on the ground, let's get up first." He shook his head vigorously, wiped the blood off his hands with a tissue, and reached out to pull Fu Ge.

"Don't come...don't come! I beg you don't come..."

Little Beta backed away in panic, crawled back on hands and feet, tears poured out, and kicked Qi Han's shoulders several times during the struggle, Alpha groaned and covered his shoulders, not daring to move anymore .

"Xiao Ge, I don't do anything..." Qi Han said, "It's ice on the ground, the doctor said you can't catch cold anymore."

Fu Ge choked and shook his head, tightening his untied hospital gown with both hands, "No, please go away! I can't...I don't want to do it again..."

He thought that Qi Han wanted to continue the game in the unfinished building, and desperately hid himself in the corner, but found that no place was safe, and Qi Han was always staring at him from behind.

He stopped running, lowered his eyes as if giving up, and clutched the corner of his clothes with bloody hands, "This is a hospital, how can you humiliate me...to be satisfied..."

"No, it's not Xiaoge, I didn't think that way...I just want to help you up..."

Fu Ge didn't believe his words at all, sobbing and panting with a lump in his neck, "If you strip me naked and throw me on the ground, will anyone come to see it? Or find another group of bosses and let me go to drink with you?"

He raised his eyes full of water, and his lips trembled twice: "Qi Han... I am also human, I am not so cheap..."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Xiaoge, I was wrong, I know everything..."

He knelt on the ground, in pain that pierced his lungs. The once strong and domineering 3S alpha was now like a broken ornament that could be blown down by a gust of wind, humbly repenting for his crimes.

"I know, the manuscript, the life mark, the album, the things in the alley, and... and Mr. Bear, I know everything, I misunderstood you, I made a mistake..."

"You know? You say you know?"

Fu Ge suddenly burst into a smirk, his chest heaved and heaved into laughter, rusty blood oozes from his chapped lips, "But what's the use of knowing now... I've already become like this. …”

Unexamined, dilapidated, unable to feel his own existence, without any consciousness except pain, and even loathe himself.

He didn't dare to sleep, because closing his eyes was an endless nightmare, and he was even more afraid of waking up, because what he saw when he opened his eyes was only hallucinations.

His life had stopped long ago, and he was forever left in the nightmare at the age of 18, even if he died, he would not be able to rest for a moment.

"I will make it up to you...Little song, I will change it..."

Qi Han raised his hand feebly, his voice was so weak that it was about to be scattered in the wind, bleeding as he promised: "I will be by your side, and the illnesses in your body and in your heart will heal, shall we take our time... ...I will love you forever, just like Mr. Bear..."

"Don't mention Mr. Bear! Don't mention him! You don't deserve to mention him!" He grabbed the vase and smashed it hard, the porcelain pieces exploded on top of Qi Han's head, blood dripped from his head immediately.

Alpha swayed and managed to stabilize himself by propping up on the bed.

He walked on his knees and took a step closer to Fu Ge, with a hoarse voice: "But we are one person, and I am Mr. Bear, you can't just want him and me..."

Fu Ge blinked his turbid eyes, his face was full of bewilderment and helplessness, he shook his head in pain, and said, "My Mr. Bear is dead...he doesn't love me, he's been with me from beginning to end. Using me, he hates me..."

"No! It's not like that! I love you, Xiaoge, I've always loved you. I thought, I thought you were betraying me. I—"

"Yes, you talked a lot."

Fu Ge was crying silently, his eyes were dimmed, as long as he closed his eyes, those words and tortures would be vivid in his mind.

"You say that the father pays the debt, you say that I deserve to be born in Fu's family, you say that Fu Zhenying and I are in trouble, you say that they tortured you for fourteen days, you want me to taste that feeling, who told me to vote wrong What about the tire..."

"But Qi Han, you made a mistake from the beginning."

He closed his eyes like ashes, and a tear slipped from the end of his eyes.

"My father died when I was seven years old. As a friend, Fu Zhenying accepted a large sum of support from my father before agreeing to adopt me. I am not his child at all."

He leaned on the wall and stood up, walked up to Qi Han step by step, raised his cold face with bloody hands, "Do you think you tortured the son who killed his father and enemy? But I have no hatred with you at all." relation......"

The one who died at the hands of Qi Han in those fourteen days was not the accomplice who had carried his father's sinful debts, but the boy who had loved him innocently for two years.

"They ruined you, and you ruined me."

Fu Ge straightened up, walked out of the ward, and let Qi Han collapse on the ground like a puddle of mud, without looking at him again.

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If the entanglement of the parents is still there, the little song will never be clear, and this chapter also has a lot of words!Open your mouth wide to eat starfish!Whoa whoa whoa!Starfish has a lot of words and a lot of words???????