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Lu Qingchen woke up at noon the next day, and Dr. Lin was changing his medicine.

He saw that Dr. Lin was no longer as unresponsive as yesterday, and his face turned pale almost instantly.Dr. Lin comforted him in a low voice, saying that he was a doctor and that his health was fine, and changing the medicine didn't hurt, just bear with it.So he calmed down, didn't speak, didn't react, and when the medicine was applied to some places, the pain was severe and he tried his best to endure it.

Doctor Lin sighed again.

Dr. Lin left after changing the medicine.

Lu Qingchen lay on the bed for a long time, the house was too quiet inside and out.He tried to move his body, and finally he was able to stand up while leaning on the wall.He slowly moved to the door, locked the door, and took some time to move to the bathroom.Looking at himself in the mirror, half of his face was swollen, the corner of his mouth was broken, one eye was severely congested, and his palm was wrapped like a rice dumpling.

He was a little hungry, he hadn't eaten for a long time, and his head was dizzy badly.But he didn't dare to go out, he didn't know what was waiting for him outside, so he simply leaned on the sink, turned on the faucet, took a few sips of water from the mouthwash cup and drank.

After drinking enough water, he slowly moved out when he had some strength.

The situation was urgent yesterday, Su Changxian and Dr. Lin put him in a guest bedroom next to the master bedroom to deal with the injury.This happened to be Lu Qingchen's luck again. In the master bedroom full of Shen Junhuai's aura and belongings, Lu Qingchen might not be able to stay for a moment now.

The guest bedroom does not have a balcony, but has a semi-circular floor-to-ceiling window. The dark gray curtains are thick and wide, and it looks like a huge curtain when it is evened out.Lu Qingchen got into this big "curtain", wrapped himself tightly, and soon fell asleep again.

But not long after sleeping, he heard the sound of the door lock opening.He was like a fledgling bird suddenly awakened by an unknown danger from the outside world, all the hairs on his body stood on end, alert to every sound.The door opened, footsteps approached, and finally stopped outside the curtains.

He hid in the curtains and tried his best to hold his breath, but he still couldn't control his trembling, and even the curtains were rattled.He felt a hand grab the curtain and pull it aside.

He screamed hoarsely uncontrollably, his back was against the wall and he couldn't retreat any more, so he could only try his best to hide his head behind the curtain.He was probably crying again, tears waving everywhere.He was surrounded by two arms, and those arms were probably afraid of hurting him, so they didn't dare to use force.He still tried his best to hide and shouted until he vomited out all the water he drank.

A burst of chaos.

After a long time, he finally calmed down, but he still couldn't look up at Shen Junhuai's face.

He was still hiding in the pile of curtains, his face was pressed against his arms, and only a small ring of hair was exposed.Shen Junhuai sat on the bed, and the two faced each other in silence.

"A year ago, it was... two people." He opened his mouth first, trying to speak as smoothly as possible, but it was difficult, "I... was locked in a room on the ship, they, they forced me to take medicine. "

"I don't know them..."

"I don't know why..."

……

The intermittent narration took more than half an hour, and the fragmented and chaotic language is not difficult to piece together the whole picture of the incident.

So far, the hidden secrets have come to light, and all the questions have been answered.

The midday sun was strong, but it couldn't drive away the haze in the room.

Shen Junhuai sat like a silent sculpture, not saying a word from the beginning to the end.He stood up, glanced at the person behind the curtain, and was about to leave.When he walked to the door, he heard Lu Qingchen say softly: "I'm sorry."

He stopped abruptly.

The person hiding behind the curtain had just experienced a disaster, and his description was completely ruined, but he shook his body and said sorry first.

What are you sorry for?He didn't feel sorry for anyone, only someone was sorry for him.But there is no one who should apologize, and those who should not apologize are terrified.

He didn't speak any more, and walked out of the room that suffocated him.

For a long time after that, Lu Qingchen lived in a muddle.

He stayed in the studio during the day and slept in the guest bedroom at night.

He doesn't go out anymore, and Auntie Hour will come to cook every day, bring the food to the door of the bedroom on the second floor, and then leave.He doesn't want to go to the living room and dining room, so he eats in the bedroom, and after eating, he goes downstairs to put the dishes back in the kitchen.In addition, he easily refused to leave the studio and bedroom on the second floor.

He can't see Shen Junhuai very much, the two of them can always stagger their time perfectly, one goes to bed early and wakes up late, and the other leaves early and returns late.In fact, Lu Qingchen couldn't sleep well, and could barely sleep for three or four hours a day.When he closed his eyes, he could see many strange scenes in the darkness, like flying insects, like sparks splashing, the sound was loud and quiet, and the appearance was indistinguishable.

He could hear the sound of Shen Junhuai coming back late at night. At that time, he was usually lying on the bed, with his eyes open, he heard the car outside, the car door closed, heard Shen Junhuai's footsteps from far to near, and heard him walking into the living room and going upstairs. , and then stopped at the door of the bedroom.

The two bedrooms were next to each other, Shen Junhuai seemed to pause at the door of the bedroom for a while every time, and then opened the door of his own room and walked in.During that short period of time, Lu Qingchen would find that the cells in his whole body tensed up, and he didn't even dare to breathe loudly.

After that night, the two didn't speak a word again.

He is like a traveler who has been walking in the desert for a long time, longing for the embrace and acceptance of the oasis in the distance, but also afraid that the oasis is actually a mirage, swallowing his remaining vitality.Not daring to get close and eager, just like a moth, afraid of the death of fire, but unable to resist the attraction of light at the same time.

He no longer had the courage to go out, and as usual, he smiled and said "you are back" to his lover.

When he couldn't sleep at night, he started watching "Spirited Away" non-stop.

Everyone loves Chihiro, but he loves the faceless man.

That faceless man who is lonely, cowardly, and longing for warmth, that faceless man who always wears a smiling mask and stands alone in the shadows, everything he can produce with all his strength is not what Chihiro wants.He can only quietly accompany Qianxun for a certain distance, and then completely withdraw from Qianxun's life at the end.

Lu Qingchen often put his shirt over his head, and muttered to himself in the bathroom mirror: "Look, this is the faceless man."

He later painted large clusters of red roses, but covered the roses with a black curtain: "Look, this is the man without a face."

His mental state is getting worse and worse. He used to be thin, but now he is almost skinny.

That night, he woke up from a lethargic sleep, very thirsty, probably because he was drowsy, half-closed his eyes, and wobbled downstairs.The dim floor lamp in the living room was on, and he lowered his head, stepping on the light and shadow, and walked slowly to the kitchen to find water.

Subconsciously, he didn't want to stay in the kitchen for a long time, so he walked back with a water glass in his hand, and bumped into someone's arms as soon as he turned his head.

He quickly took half a step back to distance himself from the opponent.He lowered his head and stared at his toes, squeezed the water glass hard, and tried his best not to let the water spill out.A tightening numbness and pain began to permeate the heart again, forcing him to take deep breaths.

Shen Junhuai looked at him without speaking for a long time.

"I, I'll go up after drinking my saliva." He felt that he should say something to explain, but he didn't know whether to speak or not.He was afraid of Shen Junhuai's silence, because he didn't know what kind of emotions and plans were behind the silence.It was as if if I took the initiative to provoke the topic and break the silence, I would be safe.

The wound on his face has healed, only some faint bruises remain, and his hands can move freely, but the whole person is like a ghost, his hands, feet and expression are not real.

He even took a sip of water, and then said: "I finished drinking... I went up..." His teeth chattered uncontrollably, which became the end of every word he uttered.His whole body was stiff and he wanted to leave the kitchen quickly, but when he reached the door, Shen Junhuai had no intention of moving away.

He raised his head and glanced hastily at the person standing in front of him.

The moment Shen Junhuai stretched out his hand to hug him, the cup in Lu Qingchen's hand slipped out of fright, and there was a crisp snap, which made the two of them freeze in place at the same time.

Lu Qingchen bent over in a hurry to pick it up, but was stopped by Shen Junhuai. "Let me clean it up!" Shen Junhuai quickly cleaned up the broken glass, and said to Lu Qingchen who stood silently aside, "Let's talk."

Let's talk!

After Lu Qingchen heard this sentence, his pupils shrank instantly, and he was a little unsteady holding on to the wall.

He is afraid to talk.

Shen Junhuai seemed a little unbearable, and wanted to go to help him, but considering that he would be afraid, he stopped where he was. "Don't be afraid, just talk." He used a very slow tone, trying not to sound so ups and downs about the matter.

He walked over, led Lu Qingchen to the living room slowly, and sat on the sofa.Lu Qingchen sat down upright, like a primary school student waiting for the teacher to call and answer questions.

Before waiting too long, I heard Shen Junhuai say: "I will solve the matter between Fang Du's family and Chen Xuxing. Don't be afraid. I misunderstood you before, so I apologize to you." He looked at Lu Qingchen seriously, "Sorry, it's my fault for hurting you."

Lu Qingchen's tensed shoulders dropped.

"Also," Shen Junhuai paused, "You are not in good health now, I have already contacted the hospital, and I will send you there tomorrow."

Dr. Lin visited Lu Qingchen several times later, and suggested to go to the hospital for a full-body examination many times.But for the matter of going to the hospital, Lu Qingchen was surprisingly stubborn, and his lack of cooperation allowed him to "observe the situation again" at home.

The observation has been dragged on like this, until now, his thinness and mental state have reached the point where no one can pretend to be invisible anymore.

When Shen Junhuai said "There is still", Lu Qingchen arched his back.

He was breathing shallowly and felt his stomach knotting.He looked at Shen Junhuai on the other side of the sofa from a distance of two people. The dark orange light and shadow distorted Shen Junhuai's face, and he looked very fierce when he spoke without expression.

"I won't go." Lu Qingchen was a little anxious.

Although he is still very scared, he has already forgiven many things. Every day when he thinks about things and thinks about the pain, he tells himself in his heart, forgive me, so that everyone can be as usual, and everything will be as if nothing happened .

He just wants to stay at home now, not to leave everything he is dependent on and used to, why make things difficult for him?

"As usual" turned out to be a luxury.

"Be obedient, you have to go to the hospital." Shen Junhuai expected that he would not cooperate, but this time he was not so easy to talk to.Lu Qingchen's physical condition is very bad, and his mental condition must also be intervened.

"I'm not going!" He shrank back again, the corners of his eyes were red, and the corners of his mouth drooped uncontrollably.

"I don't want to go to the hospital, I don't want to take a boat, I don't want to paint... I was wrong..."

Uncontrollable words blurted out, like secrets hidden in Pandora's box, once the lid was opened, all of them came out.

"I didn't get on the boat on purpose, I didn't do it on purpose, I was wrong, I will never dare again..." He suppressed crying, bent over and grabbed Shen Junhuai's sleeve.

"I won't draw anymore, I won't see anyone, I won't go anywhere, please don't send me to the hospital, okay?"

"It doesn't matter if you hit me. I don't hurt. It really doesn't hurt at all. As long as you don't get angry, I don't care." His tears seemed to flow endlessly, and Shen Junhuai's entire arm was wet.

"I won't do anything you don't like, and I can learn what others can do."

"I, I still have a lot of things to do. I want to wait for you to come back at home and bake a cake for you. I can't go to the hospital, please..."

Shen Junhuai lived to be 30 years old, and has never been overwhelmed by endless regret and severe pain like this moment.

"Going to the hospital is just to see a doctor, it's not that I won't come back."

"Don't cry."

"We'll go home after we're done."

"I won't leave you alone in the hospital."

"Okay, okay, no, we won't go."

"I'm not going anywhere, I'm at home."

"Sorry……"