Deer in the forest

Lin Shen was startled by his own obsession.

Indulging in that kiss made him afraid.He spent the next few days annoyed, asking himself who on earth gave you the courage to make you want to fly moths to the flame again.

He will not give up until he is burned to ashes in the hot but dangerous fire.

Li Jibai seemed unaware of Lin Shen's entanglement and distraction, and he still went out late and returned early every day, and accompanied Lin Shen to see his grandmother, friends, eat, walk and watch TV.

All the patience in this life was given to one person.

Lin Shen also visited Yancheng.

The nursing home where grandma lives is actually considered Yan family property, and the circle is so big that you can see it when you look up and down.Yancheng didn't know it at first, but later he heard his father mention it by chance, and then he realized that the old man Li Jibai valued very much was Grandma Lin Shen whom his father said "someone in the Li family is going to have an operation".

When I found out, I came to visit once.For love and reason, for public and private reasons, Lin Shen should return to visit Yancheng, but he still hesitated for a long time.He was very grateful to Yancheng for his help, but he had exposed his worst side in front of him, and he felt a little uncomfortable when we met again, and he was pulling back and forth in his heart.

Finally met.Yancheng was considerate of him, and made an appointment at a coffee shop.When Lin Shen went to the appointment, Li Jibai wanted to follow him again, and would not listen to what he said.

Had to be together.

Yan Cheng was not surprised when he saw Li Jibai, as if he had expected him to come.After exchanging pleasantries, the three of them sat together drinking coffee and fell into a strange silence.

Lin Shen first broke the embarrassment, said that he was grateful for the care of his grandmother, said that the environment of the nursing home was very good, and said... Then there was really nothing to say.

There are too few common topics that they can talk about. If you have to say thank you for taking me in, Lin Shen is embarrassed; when you talk about the various things after leaving the country by boat, Li Jibai is embarrassed; , All three of them were embarrassed.

Fortunately, Li Jibai asked about the recent joint medical beauty project between Yanjia and Hongbai, and it is progressing smoothly, and it will open around the end of the year.Speaking of work, the men gradually relaxed, and the three of them had lunch together again. At the end of the day, Lin Shen had regained the calmness and sympathy he had when he first met Yancheng.

Yancheng embraced him like an old friend for many years, with a little regret: "It's a pity that you left soon, and I don't know when we will meet again." Just now they talked about Lin Shen's studies and future plans, and Lin Shen was very natural He said that his one-month vacation is coming to an end, and he will return to country M next week. As for his plans after graduation, he may stay there.

Yan Cheng noticed that when this topic was mentioned, Li Jibai was very nervous beside him. When he heard Lin Shen easily say that he might not come back, his complexion sank visibly. After that, the three of them bid farewell, but his complexion did not improve. .

On the way back, the atmosphere was silent.

The two were silent all the way, so Lin Shen simply closed his eyes and rested his mind.He knew why Li Jibai was in a bad mood, but he didn't want to accommodate.I will go back after the holiday, and I will take her to live with my grandma after she recuperates for a while. There is really no need to come back.

He waited for the expected retention, questioning or outbreak.

However, Li Jibai just grimaced.Afterwards, the two returned home as usual, Li Jibai went to the study to deal with work, and Lin Shen went to play with Brooke for a while.

Some things cannot be avoided by avoiding them. Li Jibai pretended to be calm on the surface, but was finally shattered when he learned from Li Zhu that Lin Shen had booked a return ticket in two days.

But even if he knew this inevitable outcome, and knew that this person would leave again sooner or later, he was still immersed in his own wishful thinking, hoping that Lin Shen would leave him a way out.

Now that there is no way out, he is waiting for the sentence at the sealed exit, like a hopeless mute, unable to utter the plea of ​​"please stay" at the last moment.

——He knew he had no face to say that.

The night before Lin Shen left, he hesitated for a long time before knocking on the closed door.Just after taking a shower, Lin Shen was wearing a bathrobe loosely, and opened the door for him while wiping his hair with one hand.

Drops of water dripped from the forehead, slid over the chin, and fell into the neckline of the stacked bathrobes. "Is there something wrong?" Lin Shen asked.

Li Jibai stared at the drop of water, his Adam's apple rolled, and he turned his eyes away: "Let's see, is there anything else you need?"

Lin Shen smiled, without any meaning, just smiled simply, like treating an old friend: "It's all packed, and Aunt Su stuffed me with a bunch of food, saying that I can't eat it outside, so I'm afraid I won't be hungry." .”

"You can't eat it outside." Li Jibai's voice was very low, like the mournful cry of a dying animal, "You can come back to eat at any time."

Then he raised his head and asked again, "Are you still..."

His voice trembled, and he spoke intermittently, and finally finished the question: "Are you still willing to come back?"

Lin Shen paused his hand for wiping his hair, his eyes flickered a few times, he couldn't answer this topic.But Li Jibai's sadness is too obvious, and his expectation is too strong, he can only pretend to ignore it.

"It's okay." After a long silence, Li Jibai talked to himself, and smiled as if regaining his courage, comforting Lin Shen and himself, "It's okay if you don't come back, I'll go find you. Now I have a lot of work to do. Cut it in half, and you can run on both sides.”

"After you graduate, plan your future according to your own ideas. No matter what decision you make, I will accompany you."

"No matter how I plan for the future, will you stay with me?" Lin Shen asked, with an inexplicable smile, "I plan to stay in Liuguang to help after graduation. If I have time, I will take my grandma around the world. If I am lucky If so, in the future, I may find someone I love to marry and live a normal and happy life.”

"Even so, are you with me?"

Li Jibai stood there stunned, his face turned from white to blue.

The air was silent, and Lin Shen's words hit the eardrums with a slap on the head, lingering incessantly.Just thinking about that scene—with a more gentle and considerate lover by his side, it could be Sean, it could be anyone else, but it’s not Li Jibai—he feels that the end of the world is nothing more than that, Life is really not interesting at all.

He felt that if it came to that, he might kill them, and maybe commit suicide.

So with red eyes and trembling hands, he slowly pulled Lin Shen who was sitting by the bed. In a posture that no one could have expected, he bent and knelt by the bed. Slender-boned calves.

"If... there is a day, I'm afraid I still can't let you go. I don't have such a big heart and pattern, and I will watch you spend the rest of my life with others."

"Ah Shen, ever since you left, they have advised me that it is better to forget each other than to stay in the rivers and lakes. This is so funny." Li Jibai sneered at himself, and said a dirty word, "Go to hell!"

"I will not let go. No matter what plans you have in the future, no matter where you are, I must be with you."

He finally came to a conclusion desperately: "No one can do it except me."

He speaks tough, but his heart is bluffing, as if he is a brat who can only speak harshly, saying ridiculous threats, but in fact there is nothing he can do.

Those words were actually pleas in disguise.

Li Jibai finally tasted the pain of love, turned all the sharp thorns upside down, and stabbed himself.

At the airport, there is still an hour before the flight takes off.There were a lot of people who came to see them off. Compared with the previous two times when they fled in embarrassment, this time they left in a grand and grand manner.

Both Lao Ding and Li Zhu gave him warm hugs and blessings, which were much the same, both inside and outside the words asked him to come back to see if he had nothing to do, and it was best to come back as soon as he graduated to inherit Hongbai.

Li Jibai was quite decent, and before Lin went deep into the gate, he took a step forward and hugged him.Everyone watched, Lin Shen couldn't push him away, so he had to let him hug him for a while.

Li Jibai hugged him tightly, not like hugging, but more like wanting to rub him into his body.He said everything that should be said, and at the end he followed his heart and said the most popular and common love words in the world.

Three words.

I love you!

Three months later.

Without warning, Lin Shen appeared in Xianyue Villa with luggage.He paid the taxi fare, walked slowly through the gate, and walked in along the path.

Lao Ding was startled when he saw people on the surveillance camera.

"Why didn't you say anything when you came back?"

Lin Shen glared at him: "Do you need to report when you come back now?"

The old top smiled: "No, no, no. After all, you are my boss now, just give me a salary increase next month."

Hiding the phone behind his back with one hand, he quickly unlocked and opened the screen, and typed a message blindly.

Li Jibai left the house and ran away.

Everyone looked at each other in blank dismay, the boss who was just sitting in a panic discussing the group's financial statements for the first two quarters, after receiving a message, rushed out at the speed of an arrow, so fast that he ran out of the afterimage.

When had Li Jibai, who was always calm and calm, ever been like this?Everyone looked at the empty main seat. If it wasn't for the fact that the office chair was still shaking slightly, they even wondered if the boss had really sat here for a meeting just now.

"Ah Shen——" Li Jibai suppressed his beating heart, and walked step by step to Lin Shen who was teasing Brooke. The ghost knows how much effort he spent to make himself look calm and decent, and then asked the old man. The same thing: "Why didn't you say anything when you came back?"

The midsummer afternoon was very humid, and the air seemed to be filled with small blisters.Li Jibai was sweating because of the fast walk, his hair was wet and stuck to his forehead, his shirt was not very neat, and there were faint traces of wetness.

Lin Shen gave Brook a bath as soon as he came back, and he hasn't finished washing yet.Looking back, seeing Li Jibai's embarrassed face but trying to pretend to be calm, he reached out and took a handkerchief from the shelf and threw it over.

Then he said normally: "I'm on vacation, I'll be back."

Li Jibai grabbed the handkerchief and wiped his face indiscriminately: "Oh, oh, good, good."

Lin Shen glared at him: "That's Brook's handkerchief, I asked you to come and help, not to wipe your face yourself."

"Huh?" Li Jibai couldn't hear what Lin Shen was saying at all, and his mind was about to be blown by the realization that "Lin Shen is back", and now he saw a living person in front of him, his whole body My heart is about to fly, I don't care what kind of veil or not.

Lin Shen ignored him and brushed Brook's bristles with a brush.He was wearing a large white T-shirt, a pair of black shorts, and his hair was cut short. When he turned his back to the person, he could see the nicely shaped butterfly bones slightly protruding. The shorts were the previous one, and Li Jibai recognized them. It was his special clothes for Brooke to take a bath. It looked good on him, showing his well-proportioned calves.

Um?There are more muscles on the calf than before, and muscle strips will appear when exerting force, which should be due to the relatively heavy exercise recently.

But he is still too thin, so he should eat more and make up for it. After all, he suffered too many injuries in the early years and his health is not very good.

Lin Shen called him again, finally interrupting Li Jibai's wild thoughts, "Come and help me, I can't catch it anymore."

Brooke is already full of foam, and he is in the final fight with Lin Shen. It has been more than three months since he saw Lin Shen. When he met him, he just wanted to make out, and refused to take a bath obediently. He threw foam all over the floor, like a big Large white mushrooms glow colorfully in the sun.

Li Jibai came back to his senses, rolled up his shirt sleeves indiscriminately, and joined the battlefield.

Half an hour later, the two men and the dog finished the big project of taking a bath, dripping with sweat.

Brooke was tired, so he hid in the den to take a nap, leaving only the two sitting outside in the shade of the steps drinking a cool drink.

"How long is the vacation...?" Li Jibai asked cautiously.

"A month."

"Yeah." Li Jibai lowered his head and took a big sip of the cold drink. He drank too quickly, his temples were a little numb, and his eye sockets were also sore.

They all knew what Lin Shen's return this time meant.

Compromise, forgive, start over, no matter what it is, Ah Shen is back.

"I have to go back after school starts," Lin Shen said.

"Well, I know." Li Jibai said, and hastily added, "I'll take you back after school starts, and then I'll pick you up during the Christmas holidays."

Emphasized the meaning of "you are just going to study in another place, not leaving me, this is your home, you have changed your mind, you can't just leave, we will be together for the rest of our lives".

Lin Shen didn't know that Li Jibai's barrage was flying all over the sky, so he just said "yes" softly.

This one word made all of Li Jibai's barrages come true.

"Ah Shen..." Li Jibai suddenly turned around and hugged him, with his entire upper body lying on Lin Shen's lap, his hands tightly wrapped around his waist, his movements were so fast and hasty that he almost knocked him down the steps.

Lin Shen was taken aback, spilling more than half of the cold drink in his hand.Just as he was about to sit up straight, he heard the person who buried his head in his lap say, "I'm very happy, very happy, thank you, Shen, thank you for coming back."

Li Jibai's voice was muffled, as if it was squeezed out of his throat, only Lin Shen knew that when the man spoke, his shoulders shook violently.

Gently caressing his shoulder with a hand, the heat of the palm transmits the heartbeat.

The rhythms of the two heartbeats gradually stalemate, gradually becoming the same frequency.

Li Jibai weaved a net with everyone, grandma, Li Zhu, Lao Ding, and himself, to catch the wandering people in other places, and to catch the already cold hearts.

Lin Shen asked himself that he was not a cold-blooded person. He had too much concern and reluctance here, but the one he was most reluctant to part with was the person who had walked into his heart since he was 18 years old.

The silver chain, which was still warm, was taken off and hung on another person's neck. The delicately carved deer head slid over the Adam's apple. Li Jibai covered Lin Shen's neck with both hands, rubbed the skin with his fingertips lightly, and kissed him very reverently. .

"Never take it off again, okay?"

"it is good."

"I must be included in all future plans, okay?"

"it is good."

"I'm sorry..." He said sorry countless times before he was qualified to say the other three words.

"I love you."

It took them a long time, passing through thorns and swamps, over mountains and deserts, and finally reunited in a hot sunny season after a long absence.

I met this time, and I will never leave again, saying that forever is too far away, let's finish the rest of my life!

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