Deer in the forest

Lin Shen was finally willing to look up at him.

Li Jibai probably didn't sleep much last night, with two dark circles on his face, wearing a fluffy sweater and home pants, he looked non-aggressive.He leaned his back against the door, lowered his eyes, and looked depressed, like an abandoned beast, crushed by the reality that "Lin Shen refuses to leave him any words".

The daylight is getting brighter and brighter, and the whole apartment is warm. The small sofa and dining table and chairs in the living room have a warm and simple atmosphere, diluting the cold and tense atmosphere in the room.

One stood by the door, the other leaned against the window sill, standing opposite each other, separated by more than ten years of entanglement and joy, anger, hurt and forbearance, a gap was torn out by time, no matter how warm the sun was, it could not reach the bottom of the ditch.

At least Lin Shen couldn't cross it, and didn't want to cross it.

"You go." I don't know how long it took, Lin Shen broke the silence of the room, "We..." The words no owe each other stuck in his throat, and he remembered what Li Jibai said, he said no if he owed it or not Calculate.

Forget it, let's not talk about this.

"I want to live my own life. I don't need to surround myself with others, I don't need to speak and do things purposefully, and I don't need to force myself to laugh when I want to cry."

"I know it's hard, but I want to try."

Lin Shen spoke with difficulty, and was already sweating after finishing a few words.He hoped that Li Jibai would understand and not overdraw his trust.Although there is nothing to overdraw.

Li Jibai stared fixedly at Lin Shen, rejoicing that he was finally willing to talk so much, but also suffering from how he had forced him to become like that in the past. Fight hard.

"Okay, you can live whatever life you want, follow your own plan, and don't worry about anything else." Li Jibai said, "I will never disturb you. You can study and make friends here without any worries. I."

"Also, Lao Ding is very good, and grandma is also very good. If you want to see them, I will take you to see them anytime."

When it comes to grandma and Lao Ding, Lin Shen is not as calm as before.

Li Jibai hurriedly said, "I know you want to take grandma away, Lao Ding told me. But she is not in good health for long-distance treks now, I have already arranged for a specialist to customize a recuperation course for her, and when she gets better, I will Bring her back to join you."

Li Jibai knew that grandma was Lin Shen's only concern now, so he had to work hard on it.As long as grandma is still around, no matter where Lin Shen goes, there will be traces to follow.Lin Shen is also aware of grandma's situation, and staying in the nursing home is the safest way for now.He could only hope that Li Jibai would keep his word, and that when grandma got better, he would really be able to take her over.

"Ah Shen, eat your breakfast first, okay?"

Lin Shen shook his head, he didn't want to accept any kindness from Li Jibai.He knows Li Jibai too well, as long as he starts today, he may receive lunch, dinner, or even something else later.

Li Jibai didn't say to leave, and Lin Shen refused to go there. The delicate stalemate between the two was interrupted by the ringing of the phone.

Lu Qingchen's gentle voice rang out, which could be heard clearly in the quiet space: "Aming, are you okay? I drank too much yesterday, just woke up, and forgot to call you."

Lin Shen tried his best to ignore Li Jibai's existence, and tried to answer Lu Qingchen's question normally: "I'm fine."

Lu Qingchen laughed happily: "I know you didn't drink, Jun Huai told me, he poured you a glass of white wine, but you didn't take a sip. By the way, Sean just called me to ask about your birthday He also said that he must catch up with you. Sean is good, his family background is very talented, and the key is that he loves others, think about it!"

Li Jibai's eyes were fixed on himself, and he could feel the tenseness of that person's whole body when he heard the name Sean from a long distance away.Lin Shen just felt uncomfortable, he didn't want to talk about this topic anymore, he just wanted to hang up the phone quickly.

But Lu Qingchen still said: "Come over to my house for dinner on weekends. The Tyrannosaurus rex is away on a business trip. I'll invite Sean too. Let's have a weekend art carnival."

Lin Shen vaguely said yes, then hung up the phone hastily.

Li Jibai looked quite calm, he patiently waited for Lin Shen to finish hanging up the phone, and then said: "You have a good meal, then I'll go first." With a smile on his face, he opened the door and left.

Lin Shen stared at the closed door, calmed down for a while, then walked to the door, changed his shoes and went out, picked up the garbage and the lunch box Li Jibai left at the door, and went downstairs to throw them away together.

Lin Shen wondered if Li Jibai was watching him.Because every day after he got up, within half an hour, there would be a knock on the door.If Lin Shen didn't open the door, Li Jibai would call outside: "Ah Shen, breakfast is at the door, remember to take it."

He seldom goes out, prepares for the entrance exam at home, and occasionally goes out for shopping.Li Jibai came to deliver breakfast almost every day, and every time he saw that there was still a lunch box at the door that had not been touched the day before, he was not annoyed, and silently replaced it with a new one, still knocking on the door with a good temper and calling Lin Shen to have breakfast.

Lin Shen finally ran out of rations at home.

There has been another heavy snowfall in the past few days, and the power is occasionally cut off at home.Lin Shen rummaged through the refrigerator, only a few eggs were left, so he had to order takeaway for lunch.When the takeaway arrived, he opened the door to get it, and saw the familiar lunch boxes at the door, piled up in the corner, looking pitiful.

He kicked the lunch box out with his foot, came in with his takeaway, and closed the door.

The Chinese restaurant that Li Jibai ordered every day was expensive, and Lin Shen used to like to eat his food, but because of Li Jibai, he didn't want to eat it now.You can save money by not eating.Li Jibai is so rich, so let's decide if he loves it, or go bankrupt!

Lin Shen ate a few mouthfuls of food indignantly, it was too unpalatable, he pushed the lunch box away, and he was so angry.You block my door every day, what do you want to do?Why am I afraid to go out, I am afraid of what he will do?I can't even eat a meal happily now, what kind of life is this?

Go fuck it!

He changed his clothes, put on his hat, scarf and gloves, grabbed his wallet and went out.

As soon as he went out, he saw Li Jibai standing on the steps of the door, and the black car was parked by the side of the road.

Lin Shen didn't stop on his feet, and walked quickly to the bus stop sign on the side of the road.

"Ah Shen——" Li Jibai chased after him, "Are you going out?" He was wearing a gray down jacket casually, the clothes were not zipped properly, and the cotton pajamas at the neckline were exposed, he must have rushed over in a hurry of.

Lin Shen suspected that Li Jibai lived downstairs, otherwise how could someone notice him if there was any movement?Otherwise, it would be impossible to come here so fast.

"I'm driving, I'll see you off!" Li Jibai followed Lin Shen to stand at the stop sign, and continued to lobby, "The bus stopped today, and the snow is too heavy. If you want to go out, I'll see you off."

Sure enough, there was a temporary sign hanging on the stop sign, which said that the bus line was suspended due to snowfall, and the traffic would resume after the conditions for passage were met.Lin Shen stared at the stop sign in a daze, Li Jibai was one step away from him, a safe social distance.He didn't dare to get too close, and he spoke unconsciously with a sense of coaxing: "Are you going to go shopping? You can't go without a car, and the things are not easy to get. If you really don't want me to take you, I'll leave the car to you and drive by myself, okay?"

When did Li Jibai say that?

Lin Shen put away his emotions, lowered his head and said "no", then turned and walked back.

Li Jibai followed closely again, entered the door together, went up the stairs together, and walked to the third floor together.Lin Shen stopped at the door, squeezed his fists, and looked back at Li Jibai.

"I won't go in." Li Jibai hurriedly said, "I live downstairs from you, if you need anything, call me anytime."

The sound insulation of the old building is not good, no wonder Li Jibai can hear the sound and find him when he wakes up.Lin Shen didn't say anything, he opened the door and entered the room expressionlessly.

When the knock on the door came in the afternoon, Lin Shen was reading a book and his head was dazed.The person who came to knock on his door now was no one except Li Jibai.After a while, Lin Shen stood up slowly, stood at the door for a while, made sure that there was no one outside, and gently opened the door.

There are three large shopping bags outside the door, including fruits, vegetables, and snacks. There are even two green onions with green leaves sticking out of the bags.Lin Shen's footsteps stuck to the ground, staring at the pile of things in a daze.

There was a note in the bag, and Lin Shen picked it up. It was written in Li Jibai's handwriting in strong, strong handwriting: "Supermarkets are rushing to buy them. I managed to grab these. I won't deliver breakfast in the future, and I won't bother you anymore." , but you accept these, okay?"

Turn it over, and there is a word on the back: "It's really hard to grab, don't bother me with food, they are innocent."

Li Jibai seems to have suddenly learned a brand new grammar, clumsily expressing areas he has never been in contact with before, showing favor and weakness in disguise.Although one of them is trying to express, the other is still trying to avoid, but this new environment and context gradually dilutes Lin Shen's anxiety - and this is what Li Jibai wants.

Lin Shen hesitated for a moment, then dragged a few bags into the room and closed the door with a bang.

After a while, a figure appeared at the corner of the stairs, standing there for a long time, the dust splashed by the closed door floated in the sunlight, inhaled into the lungs, a little choking.

Li Jibai felt a long-lost joy.

After delivering the "rations", Li Jibai disappeared for a few days and stopped knocking on the door every day.

By Saturday night, the snow had finally melted and the air was getting bitterly cold.

Lu Qingchen called a long time ago, and the art party for the three of them is ready for the weekend. Sean must come to pick him up. This person's enthusiasm has already caused Lin Shen a lot of trouble, so he began to think seriously, and he must make it clear to Sean as soon as possible.It might be inconvenient to go to Lu Qingchen's house, so let's just make it clear in the car.

He baked a box of blueberry pie in advance, and Lu Qingchen couldn't forget it after eating it once in a while, so he specially baked some more this time, carefully packed the lunch box, put a thermal bag on it, and put on a coat to go out.

After several serious injuries, Lin Shen has become very afraid of the cold in the past few years, and the winter is a bit difficult. He wraps himself tightly from head to toe, regardless of hearing impairment and vision impairment, he just hides his head in a warm coat and walks around.So when he heard someone calling him vaguely, he didn't stop until his arm was grabbed from behind.

"I'll see you off." Li Jibai had a smile on his face, his face was a little haggard, his hair was unkempt, and he had a dusty smell, "I went back two days ago, and the company has some urgent matters. Deal with it, I just came back this afternoon." He explained his itinerary, turning a blind eye to the impatience and indifference on Lin Shen's face.

Lin Shen withdrew his arm, took a step back and opened the distance: "No need, I have an appointment."

"I know--"

"Ming, here!" A shout came from behind, interrupting Li Jibai's words. Sean braked the car, stood next to Lin Shen, opened the car door and jumped out.With surprise and anticipation on his face, the tall young man gave Lin Shen a hearty smile, "I'm not late, am I? The road is not easy to walk, we have to drive slowly." The young man embraced Lin Shen affectionately. With deep shoulders, he took him behind him, and took the heat preservation bag with the other hand.

Lin Shen didn't hide, and turned around to get into the car with Sean's strength.

"Ah Shen!" Li Jibai yelled heavily, his eyes were sharp and dangerous like a knife piercing the surface of a lake in winter.He stared at Sean's hand on Lin Shen's shoulder, and a surge of hostility surged from the bottom of his heart, "Come back! I'll take you there."

Lin Shen stopped for a moment, but then continued with the previous action of getting into the car.

Li Jibai stared at the small half of Lin Shen's face hidden in the scarf, trying to see a trace of hesitation, but there was nothing.He clenched his fists and took a sudden step forward, but Lin Shen's subconscious avoidance stung him and made him freeze in place.

Lin Shen's eyelashes were covered with fine ice, and there was a layer of damp mist in his eyes. When he looked at people like this, he looked like a frightened deer, as if a trace of prayer was slashed, and it passed by so fast that he couldn't catch it.

Li Jibai felt a sharp pain in his chest.

A word stuck in his throat, unable to utter or swallow.

Ah Shen, don't be afraid, I... I didn't intend to hurt you, I was just too jealous, jealous of the person who can joke with you, jealous of the car that can take you.

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The story of Lu Qingchen and Shen Junhuai is next door, and it is also a series of scumbags not being human.