In the silent place

"Cat...cat..." There were murmurs in the air from time to time, with a strange hoarseness.Bai Yutang hugged Zhan Zhao tightly, rolled over and pressed him down, as if he wanted to swallow him up, sucking his lips hard.

The ferocious enthusiasm this time made Zhan Zhao a little overwhelmed.Perhaps it was because of his illness, Bai Yutang actually rarely kissed him, and even if there were a few times, it was like a touch of water.Zhan Zhao closed his eyes, an unspeakable sourness suddenly spread from the bottom of his heart.He hugged Bai Yutang back vigorously, as if trying to exhaust all the impulses in his life to respond to him.

This was an extremely youthful action, but it drove Bai Yutang almost crazy.A strong desire surged out from his body and heart at the same time, sweeping in like a tide, drowning him in an instant.His kisses were frantic and domineering, with a hint of predation, lingering repeatedly between Zhan Zhao's lips, neck and collarbone, until he realized that the other party was about to be suffocated by his kiss, and then he let him go slightly reluctantly.

The breath in the lungs seemed to be evacuated, and it seemed that he would suffocate to death in the next second.Zhan Zhao was lying on his back on the bed panting heavily, a thin layer of water vapor floated in his half-closed eyes, making him look a bit hazy.

"well enough?"

The faces of the two people were very close, the tips of their noses almost touched, and the scorching breath hit their faces, which made Zhan Zhao feel at a loss in embarrassment.He slowly let go of the hand buried in Bai Yutang's hair, and pushed him calmly. "It's okay."

Looking at the rare blood on Zhan Zhao's face, Bai Yutang lowered his head, and couldn't help but wrap his mouth around the other's earlobe.Zhan Zhao couldn't stand his provocation, his spine went numb, his whole body seemed to be electrified, and he almost didn't make a sound.The hand that slipped into the clothes was more like a branding iron. Wherever it went, every nerve screamed, and the skin was so hot that it seemed to be on fire.

"Hey, where are you touching?!" A spot on his chest was suddenly pinched, Zhan Zhao's body trembled abruptly, his arms tightened and immediately clamped that dishonest hand tightly.

"Of course it's a favorite place to touch. Who made you so enthusiastic so early in the morning? No wonder I'm here." Bai Yutang smiled and raised his head, seeing that Zhan Zhao's brows were slightly wrinkled, and the steam in his eyes seemed to be getting heavier Somewhat, the expression that seemed to be angry but not angry was a bit more unspeakable than usual in his eyes.He struggled and moved the pinched fingers, and felt Zhan Zhao's tense body suddenly spring like a spring, so big that his forehead almost hit his teeth .

"you!..."

"You can touch me if you are not convinced. I promise not to fight back. Let you touch me as much as you want, how about that? Huh?" Bai Yutang raised his eyebrows as he said.

"No need." Zhan Zhao gasped as he said, his eyes widened, staring at Bai Yutang without blinking. "You'd better leave it to yourself."

brat!Seeing the sly look in Zhan Zhao's eyes, Bai Yutang gritted his teeth in hatred.He was obviously polite, elegant and humble in front of others, but why did he turn into a sharp-mouthed cat when he came to me?I really don't know how I provoked this person in my previous life.In fact, from a long time ago, he discovered that there was something wrong with him. Maybe he really owed him something in his previous life?He smiled, let go of Zhang Zhao and jumped off the bed.If things go on like this, it's inevitable that the gun will go off the rails. Although he himself doesn't mind it at all, and even wishes for it a little bit, but considering Zhan Zhao's current physical condition, no matter how unbearable it is, he still forces himself to be patient and let the slightly swelled up. The desire was slowly suppressed.

"Don't move, I'll get a towel to wipe your sweat."

It was like being in a stove just now, but at this moment the heat gradually dissipated and the chill invaded, only then did I feel a dampness and coolness coming from my body.Zhan Zhao wiped his forehead, then sat up. "Don't bother, I'm going to take a hot shower."

Bai Yutang hesitated for a moment, and said, "Do you want me to help you?"

"No, I can do it myself." Zhan Zhao stood up, walked to the cabinet, and found a blue sweatshirt from inside.Bai Yutang kept looking at him, until he turned around and walked to the door, and couldn't help reminding: "Don't wash for too long."

"I know." Zhan Zhao turned his head and smiled. "There is breakfast made by my aunt in the oven. If you are hungry, eat it first, and you don't have to wait for me."

Bai Yutang rubbed his stomach, and muttered with his mouth curled up, "Why are your ears so sharp?"

When Zhan Zhao heard it, the corners of his mouth unconsciously turned into a crescent shape. "It's so loud, it's hard not to hear it." After finishing speaking, he turned and walked out the door.

When Zhan Zhao came out of the wash, he poked his head into the dining room, and found that Bai Yutang was buried in the porridge.He spread the towel over his head, walked over and sat down on the dining chair opposite.

"Don't wait for me."

"It's hard for you to give orders once, of course I have to listen." Bai Yutang raised his head and smiled brightly. "You are like the old man who weeds in our community. Regardless of spring, summer, autumn and winter, he always wears a white towel on his head." As he said, he raised his hand and pulled the towel off Zhan Zhao's head. "Go blow-dry your hair."

After staying in the bathroom for a long time, I was a little out of breath.Now Zhan Zhao is warm all over, sitting in the dining room and doesn't want to move. "Wait a while and go again."

Bai Yutang finished the bean bun in his hand and drank the rice porridge in the bowl in a few mouthfuls as if he had settled the battle. "Go, I'll blow it for you."

When Bai Yutang finished clearing the dishes on the table, Zhan Zhao couldn't help but get up. "I will do it myself."

"Okay, just your snoring trick can only fool your aunt." Bai Yutang dragged him into the bathroom without any explanation.

The ventilation fan was still on, and more than half of the heat in the bathroom had disappeared.Bai Yutang raised his arm, took a towel from the towel rack, wiped the mirror in front of the sink, and then took a chair for Zhan Zhao to sit on.The blower made a whirring sound, blowing through the hair and passing over the ears, and occasionally hot air penetrated into the ears, which caused goose bumps all over Zhan Zhao's body.

"Is it comfortable?" Bai Yutang asked while gently rubbing Zhan Zhao's hair.

"En." Zhan Zhao closed his eyes and snorted, feeling so comfortable that he wanted to sleep.

"Tell you something."

"What's the matter?" Zhan Zhao opened his eyes and slightly turned his head.

"Be honest, we haven't finished blowing yet." Bai Yutang put his hands on his ears, making him face forward.Although the mirror has been wiped, the water drops are still wet, like a car window that has been scraped by a windshield wiper, and the images of the two of them are somewhat blurred.

"Do you remember Da Liu?"

"I remember." After Zhan Zhao answered, Bai Yutang didn't reply for a long time, so he couldn't help feeling a little worried. "What's up with him?"

"It's nothing. After the things about you and me were exposed on the Internet a while ago, he suddenly found me on Weibo and said he wanted to meet you. In fact, after I debuted, I had almost no contact with my classmates. Maybe they thought I've changed."

"It's true, you are now a household name and a big star."

"I said you can't say something nice to comfort me?"

"Then teach me."

"What I taught you is useless! Then I might as well comfort myself!" Bai Yutang yelled at the top of his voice, and finally started beeping again. "Are you so happy to run on me?"

"If you can't even run on me, who am I going to run on?"

"Who did you learn this from? Did my fourth brother teach you?" The more Bai Yutang listened, the more strange it became. Why did this kid speak more and more like Jiang Xiaozi recently.

Compared to Bai Yutang's little excitement, Zhan Zhao still had that indifferent smile on his face. "My fourth brother taught me how to make herbal tea, and you taught me everything else."

Bai Yutang was so choked that he couldn't say a word, so he couldn't help but hit Zhan Zhao's head. "Can you learn something better?"

Zhan Zhao glanced at Bai Yutang in the mirror: "Why did you hit me?"

"That's what you asked for!" Bai Yutang said angrily, and suddenly he felt teasing. "Otherwise, you can learn from what we did in the house just now..."

Zhan Zhao nonchalantly scratched his right cheek which was itchy from the hair, and began to change the subject calmly. "You just said that Da Liu wanted to see me?"

Bai Yutang knew that he was thin-skinned, so he didn't try to expose it, he just pursed his lips for fun. "Well, he said that after Siyan knew that you were still in touch with me, he called and harassed him every day, but Siyan held grudges and didn't want to contact me directly, so he had to ask him. And Da Liu said that he wanted to see me too. Yours, I just don’t know if you are willing or not, so let me come to you first to find out the wind.”

"It's been almost six years since I saw them. I miss them too." Zhan Zhao said with emotion.

"Then I'll turn around and tell Liu that you agreed?"

"Well, I have time anytime." Zhan Zhao had just finished his answer when he remembered something. "Which city are they in now? I remember Siyan'er went to university in Shanghai."

"Da Liu is in our city, Siyan'er has stayed in Shanghai to develop, don't worry, it won't take long for him to get here by high-speed train."

"Okay, tell Liu my mobile phone number later."

"Alright then." Bai Yutang patted Zhan Zhao's shoulder pretendingly, and bowed. "You have combed your hair, please go to the house to rest first, and I will serve you breakfast here."

Zhan Zhao didn't hold back for a moment, and almost laughed out loud. "Okay, I'm happy today, I don't need you to serve me."

"How does this happen?" Bai Yutang finished speaking, washed his hands, took a step back, turned around when he got out of the bathroom, and ran to the kitchen to serve Zhan Zhao breakfast.

Zhan Zhao supported the white porcelain rim of the washbasin, looked at Bai Yutang's back, and laughed until his ribs hurt.

As Zhan Zhao said, Liu Rong didn't come back until after ten o'clock.Jiang Dong hadn't seen anyone, so he was probably hanging out with his future wife at this time.Bai Yutang helped Liu Rong cook lunch together, and after the meal forced Zhan Zhao to take a nap. When Zhan Zhao woke up, Bai Yutang was stretching his legs and browsing the web beside him with his hand in his hands.

Zhan Zhao saw that he was smiling wickedly, and poked his head to see what was going on, but Bai Yutang's reaction was so quick that he turned the monitor away and refused to show him.

"What are you looking at?"

"It's not suitable for children, it's not suitable for you."

Zhan Zhao glanced at him and sat up leaning against the back of the bed. "Forget it if you don't show it."

Seeing that he was still a little dazed, Bai Yutang shook his head, and pulled up the quilt for him, covering him up to his chin. "You promise not to be angry first, and I'll show you."

"Row."

"You answered so quickly, you didn't use your brain when you saw it. I'll give you another chance."

"Forget it if you don't show it." Zhan Zhao said, shrugging his shoulders and letting out a sigh.

He showed a lack of interest, but instead aroused Bai Yutang's interest. "Look at this." He picked up the computer and put it on Zhan Zhao's lap, pointing to a picture on the screen, looking at it happily.

The picture shows two babies, pink and tender, one is wearing a light blue bellyband, with a pacifier in his mouth, fists in his fat little hands, sleeping soundly.The other was lying naked beside him, sneaking kisses to the sleeping toddler.Zhan Zhao looked at it for a long time but couldn't see anything about this picture that could make him angry. "Quite cute."

When Bai Yutang heard it, he lay down on the bed and laughed wildly.Confused by him, Zhan Zhao piled the computers aside, lifted the quilt and got out of bed.

Bai Yutang laughed so hard that he was out of breath, and said intermittently: "Then...the one in that painting is you...you and me."

Zhan Zhao was stunned for a second, then lowered his head and scratched his brow. "No way..."

"There are others, do you want to continue watching?"

"No need." Zhan Zhao answered this sentence faster than the previous one.Seeing his reaction, Bai Yutang covered his stomach with laughter.Zhan Zhao thought to himself, this person will dig another hole for himself in the future, so he won't jump anymore.

After washing his face and returning to the house, the quilt on the bed has been folded and placed squarely on the head of the bed.The handbag was also closed and placed on the octagonal window sill.Bai Yutang was sitting on the edge of the bed, looking at him with a smile on his face.

"Do you want to go to the book?"

Zhan Zhao's eyes lit up, but then darkened in an instant. "My aunt won't agree."

"You just say you want to go or not."

"Of course I want to." Zhan Zhao smiled faintly, revealing a little helplessness.After the bookstore opened, he had never been to the bookstore with Bai Yutang, but in the dream, such a situation had happened countless times.This wish has always been deeply entrenched in his heart like a demon.

"For the sake of your good performance today, I will reluctantly ask your aunt to ask for mercy." Bai Yutang stood up as he spoke, and turned his head as soon as he reached the door. "What are you still doing? Hurry up and change into warmer clothes."

Although looking forward to it, Zhan Zhao didn't have too many illusions about this matter.After all, not long after being discharged from the hospital, being able to walk around the house occasionally is already the biggest concession expressed by my aunt. "It's fine if my aunt doesn't agree, and it's the same if I go again in the future."

"Don't worry, I have my measure." Bai Yutang smiled confidently, turned and walked out of the room.

'Bai Yutang goes out, one is worth two'.In the past, Bai Yutang often used this sentence as a mantra, but he didn't expect it to come true this time?The result was unexpected, Zhan Zhao was as happy as a child for a moment, hugged his aunt and said back and forth, "Auntie, you are so kind."It made Liu Rong's heart soften.Bai Yutang drove the car to the entrance of the building first, then dragged Zhan Zhao down the stairs step by step.Zhan Zhao was wearing a thick sweater and a milky-yellow fleece coat. Before going out, Liu Rong stopped him, asked him to put on a mask, pulled his hat on for him, and tied a cashmere scarf around his neck. It wasn't until he was wrapped up that it was almost a season behind Bai Yutang's clothes before he was relieved to let him go out.Bai Yutang pursed his lips and laughed, and said with a smile that he would call him 'Arctic Cat' as soon as he got in the car.Zhan Zhao's heart was already filled with joy, no matter what Bai Yutang called him, he just smiled and didn't answer.

This kind of life can't help but make people dependent.In Bai Yutang's words and deeds, he seldom regarded him as a seriously ill person.He tried his best not to stop the space that should be left to him.With the occasional indulgence, he will no longer show nervousness, or even panic, as he did when he was dealing with a fragile vase.Zhan Zhao couldn't help but think that during the time they were separated, something changed after all.When they were young, their emotions were indulgent and frivolous. After experiencing emotional separation and reunion, they all grew up.Although the nature is still the same, the two people now understand each other better and understand life better.Even if he is gone one day in the future, Bai Yutang should be able to continue living with a strong smile.So when I am alive, I must leave the happiest memory to this person, so that when he thinks of himself in the future, he can show the warmest and brightest smile.Perhaps no one had ever told Bai Yutang that that was the most suitable expression for him.

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