When gentleness is worn into the ancient dog blood crematorium

Lu Chen raised his eyebrows slightly, pulled off the stethoscope on his neck, threw the pen and the medical record book on the table, leaned back, and folded his arms: "Aren't you married?"

"Mr. Fu, if I heard correctly, what do you mean, you want to have a lifetime relationship with my patient?"

"I don't need to explain to you, Wanwan, come home with me." Fu Sihan's face was gloomy, and he didn't want to talk to Lu Chen, he took Chi Baiwan's hand, and his five fingers were tightly intertwined with his hand, completely enveloping his hand In the palm of a large hand.

Chi Baiwan bit his lip subconsciously, and pulled his hand back forcefully, the soles of his shoes were stuck in place like long nails.

Fu Sihan panicked when he saw it, Chi Baiwan would bite his lip every time he expressed his unwillingness.

"Wanwan... Don't get me wrong, I like you, I want to be with you, it doesn't really matter whether you get married or not, okay?"

Chi Baiwan lowered his eyes and said in a dry voice, "I don't care."

Fu Sihan clenched his wrists tightly with both hands, and his brows were forced into a frown: "Shall we talk about it when we go home?"

"Not good!" Lu Chen restrained his smile, got up and unbuttoned his white coat one by one, put the clothes aside, and said in a strong tone: "Let's make it clear today, since you are not in a relationship, you don't plan to get married , then you should let him go and let him chase a better life."

Fu Sihan replied with a cold face: "He is mine. I accept that he doesn't want to fall in love with me, and I can wait. It doesn't matter if I wait for the rest of my life, but I absolutely can't let him go."

Lu Chen's expression turned very bad all of a sudden, "Fu Sihan, let me tell you clearly that your mentality is sick and unhealthy, and it is a typical paranoid personality disorder. You really need treatment. Looking at Wanwan now His psychological condition is very unstable, I don't feel relieved to hand him over to you, the most important thing is that he needs to be alone, and it is best to stay away from you, a lunatic!"

Fu Sihan showed displeasure, "Am I crazy? If it wasn't for him, Chi Baiwan, do you think I would stand here and listen to your nonsense?"

Lu Chen strode forward, grabbed Fu Sihan's tie and pulled his face towards him, and said through gritted teeth, "Bai Wan, why did he have the bad luck of eight lifetimes to meet such a bastard like you? Listen carefully, don't you Cherish him, some people want to love him, if I were your parents, I would tie up your mad dog at home to prevent you from going out and biting people!"

Lu Chen clenched his fists tightly and looked at Chi Baiwan with burning eyes: "Wanwan, don't be afraid, I can call the police right now and sue him for infringing on your personal life, as long as you give me an answer, would you like to stay with me?" By his side? If you don't want to, I can take you to a place where no one can find you, but you may have to quit the entertainment industry because of this, but don't worry, I will ask someone to help you find a job, I won't let you suffer like this again!"

Fu Sihan raised his chin slightly, lowered his eyelids, looked down at his eyes, and said in a low voice, "Lu Chen, you are still young, don't do stupid things that destroy your future, talk nonsense without measure, I will give you a chance , go out now, I'll pretend you didn't say these words."

Lu Chen: "You threatened me?!"

Fu Sihan: "Is it not possible?"

Lu Chen: "Fu Sihan! Don't be so arrogant!"

Fu Sihan said coldly: "I will do what I say, Lu Chen, don't make me angry."

Lu Chen clenched his teeth, and his expression was extremely struggling, "Fu Sihan, don't think that if I control my brother, my brother will obediently listen to you. He has been working hard in the business for so many years, how could he give in so easily?"

Fu Sihan raised his phone, pressed a row of phone numbers, and showed it to Lu Chen: "If I dial, your free travel will be over. Lu Chen, think about it carefully."

There was nothing Lu Chen could do, he could only punch the wall, open the door and stand outside, not leaving an inch.

Fu Sihan looked back at Chi Baiwan. Compared with the anger in Lu Chen's pupils, his heart ached even more. Trembling and stroking his cheek: "Wanwan, don't you belong to me? We were still making love this morning, and you were so gentle under me. Is it all fake?"

Chi Baiwan stared at him blankly, his voice was still a little hoarse from crying just now, he unzipped his clothes with his own hands, and asked him numbly: "Didn't you just want to fuck me by saying this? Yes, I'll let you The last one is enough, open it up and let you go, after it's over, you'll let me go, right?"

Fu Sihan pulled up his zipper, closed his collar tightly, and stopped him from moving, "No, I can't let go, I'm afraid you will abandon me if I let go... I know you've already Don't love me anymore, but it doesn't matter, we still have so many years to spend together, you call me crazy, I will accept it, as long as you don't leave... Even if you have given up, I will take you Tie it to your side, no matter what means you use, even, even if it's like the first time we met..."

Chi Baiwan watched Fu Sihan's mouth open and close, feeling exhausted in his mind.

For a year, he habitually avoided the harm Fu Sihan gave him, and sealed his heart, preventing him from even the slightest possibility of prying his mind.

Originally, his heart was as hard as steel, but even today, he was still thinking that maybe in three to five years, he would really forgive Fu Sihan, because he had done all the considerate and gentle things he had never done in his life, enough to It made Chi Baiwan feel flustered, and his heart was inevitably touched. The love that he had expected so much returned to him briefly in these days, making his heart very complicated.

He really loved Fu Sihan, how could such a person turn his head and treat him well like a wooden man? ?

But the truth gave him a slap in the face, no matter how good he was to himself, he still didn't learn to respect him.

He clearly knew that if he didn't dare to accept Fu Sihan's love anymore, it would ruin him forever.

Time to end.

Chi Baiwan shook off his hand, closed his eyes tightly, and stepped back towards the window step by step.

"This is the second floor. If I turn around and jump down, I may fall to the back of my head and die. Your life is brilliant, so you don't want to bear the debt of my life, right? Wouldn't it be better to save a little dignity for each other? Don't you love face-saving the most? Is there anyone? Don't make an exception for me..."

When Chi Baiwan said these words, his expression was very calm. As soon as his eyes were opened, they were blank and empty, without waves, like a pool of stagnant water.

Fu Sihan held his hands in vain, grasping the air with his slender fingers, and asked with a choked voice, "Wanwan, is it that important to you whether you get married or not?"

"Brother Han."

It's been a year, and this is the only time Chi Baiwan called him that, his shoulders trembled, and ten thin bloodstains were scratched on the white wall with his fingers.

Fu Sihan's eyes became extremely shaken by this brother Han's voice, and his vision was blurred. He wanted to hug Chi Baiwan desperately, but when Chi Baiwan looked at him like an enemy, he suddenly didn't dare.

He remembered just this morning, after Chi Baiwan was half pushed and half done by him, because he was too weak, he nestled in his arms and let him take a bath, with a pair of thin white feet stepping on the white bathtub, so quiet and well-behaved, Fu Si Han had a momentary impulse to put a gold silk anklet on him, so that he would always belong to him.

He spoke so forcefully, but when he was really facing the person he thought and loved in his heart, Fu Sihan still lowered his arrogance. He had never bowed his head or been soft for anyone in his life, but for Chi Baiwan Bow his head, he confessed.

But even if he admits to falling, this pit is not willing to let him fall.

Fu Sihan wanted to get closer, but when Chi Baiwan turned around and sat on the window frame, Fu Sihan could only stop and stare at him: "Speak, I'll listen..."

"I never wanted to marry you, so I'm not mad at being married at all. You never understood... I just want to break up with you, I want to end our relationship, it hurts, it suffocates me, if You really respect me, really love me, just give me back my freedom, don't kidnap me with your love, it will only make me hate you more."

Chi Baiwan's cheeks were pale, and he looked at Fu Sihan with sorrowful eyes. The person he once loved deeply was hurting all over his face. He took a deep breath and his eyes were filled with tears.

Crying is an emotion that can be contagious. For a while, Chi Baiwan was also heartbroken. His peach blossom eyes became red and moist, and he bit his lips tightly, refusing to cry out.

Fu Sihan had never had such a moment of losing his composure. Hearing Chi Baiwan's last words, he froze in place like a bolt from the blue, letting the tears fall down like a broken thread, hitting his dark and bright face. on the leather shoes.

After a long time, he walked over slowly, grabbed Chi Baiwan's wrist, gently tore the riddled Canary off the window sill, pressed his head into his arms, and gently rubbed him with his fingers. almost coaxing, persuading, and cherishing her hair, she asked him: "Then... are you willing to give me another chance if I let you go?"

Chi Baiwan's cheek was pressed against his chest, and tears couldn't stop flowing. He didn't speak, just kept silent.

Fu Sihan hugged him, murmured, and said in a low voice: "Okay, don't cry, don't cry, my heart aches, don't cry Wanwan, if you cry again, I really can't help but regret it... "

Chi Baiwan's eyes were covered with tears, he couldn't breathe because of the pain in his heart, he kept shaking his head, but rubbed the hot tears on Fu Sihan, messing up his suit.

Fu Sihan rested his chin on his hair, and said softly: "Wanwan, you said, I don't respect you, I'm kidnapping you with my love, I'm sorry, it's my fault for you to look at me like this. Since it is your decision to want to leave, then I am willing, willing..." Fu Sihan choked up for a long, long time before saying with great difficulty: "I am willing to give you freedom, let you leave, and I am willing to watch you do it. Back to yourself, as long as you are happy, as long as you feel happy, I can do anything for you, I don’t want to see you cry anymore, even if you really, really don’t love me anymore, I also hope that you can live without me In those days, I lived very well."

Chi Baiwan finally couldn't help it this time, he cried so much that he couldn't help himself, he grabbed Fu Sihan's collar and refused to let go, he buried his head on his collarbone, and wept loudly.

Fu Sihan kept touching his head comfortingly, let the tears wet his hair, closed his eyes, and waited until Chi Baiwan stopped crying and gasped for breath, then said softly: "Wanwan... ..."

"I love you."

He let go of Chi Baiwan, even though it was like letting go of a treasure that was hard to get, but he had to leave, and if he promised Chi Baiwan, he must do it.

After leaving the door of the consulting room, Fu Sihan pulled Lu Chen who had been listening by the door back to the stairwell. Along the way, Lu Chen didn't say a word. He listened to the two people's conversation from beginning to end, thought twice, and asked: "Why don't you want to get married?"

Fu Sihan's eyes were painful, and there were bloodshot eyes in the white eyes. He said quietly: "I hate marriage. The impression marriage left on me is cold and disgusting, just like my grandparents and my parents. People who love each other forcibly squeeze together, and then forcibly separate two people who love each other, just for stability and perfection in the eyes of others. Most marriages in the world are imprisonment, and I hate any form of imprisonment. I have never obeyed in my life Because of fate, I don't want to be at the mercy of marriage, to be controlled by anyone... At least, I used to think so."

Lu Chen's thinking was completely led by him, "Then, what are you thinking now?"

Fu Sihan looked back and glanced at the withered poplar tree outside the window. It is winter now, but when spring comes, it will revive and become lush again.

"I want to be imprisoned by a marriage. It may be a deadly sweet poison for me. Maybe everything is not as bad as I imagined. Every day without him is torture. I think I can't bear it anymore." That kind of loneliness."

Fu Sihan turned around and looked directly at Lu Chen, "Doctor Lu," he said with serious eyes, "Please be my psychiatrist, I think, let him accept me again as my lover, relative, and best friend, not a lover, Canary, I don't want to treat him like that again, I want to pursue him openly after the illness is cured."

Lu Chen stared blankly. He had quarreled with Fu Sihan just now, and he said after a long time, "What if you fail?"

Fu Sihan laughed softly, "I have never failed before. The word failure is not a word I am familiar with."

"But if the other party is Chi Baiwan, then I can bear the failure. As long as it is him, I will do whatever it takes to win back his heart."

"If he doesn't accept it, then I will spend my whole life waiting for him to turn around. Even if I watch him fall in love with others and get married, even if my love can no longer be known to him, I will never give up changing for him."

Fu Sihan's eyes were like stars, and in Lu Chen's eyes, there was a steadfast light, "I will do what I say."