Feeding equation

We didn't come out of the sanitarium until after Hessie was fully asleep.

At this time, the sky has become a thick black like ink.The cold wind in the suburbs blows from all directions, caressing the leaves that have not yet fallen from the branches, making a rustling sound.The street lights have been fully lit, and they are neatly arranged in two rows, like a crowd sending us off.

To be honest, this is the first time I know how exhausting it is to take care of a mentally ill patient.It's more exhausting than running 50 laps on the playground.In fact, I think this kind of tiredness is not just in the category of exhaustion.Generally speaking, this can rise to physical and mental exhaustion.

"It's really tiring to deal with women." With a wry smile, he followed Wu Si to get the car.Looking at his vigorous figure, he couldn't help but start to admire him for playing with Hai Qian for so long and still keep his spirits up.In comparison, I am really like an elderly person who feels backache even when I lift my legs to walk.

Wu Si, who was walking in front of me, turned to look at me when he heard my words.

"Aren't you tired of dealing with men?" He curved his lips meaningfully.I know he's teasing me with words, but I'm too tired now to bother with him.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Wu Si abnormally didn't continue to pester me.In the silent air, it seemed that even each other's breath could be heard clearly.Time seemed to be frozen at this moment, and even the wind that was whistling just now disappeared for some reason.Only the footsteps of the two of us resounded in this lonely space.clack clack clack...

Inexplicably feeling a little depressed, in the too quiet atmosphere, even not talking back to Wu Si just now seems to have become a crime.In fact, I usually don't pay much attention to these things, the more angry he is, the happier I am.But today is different, he accompanied me to visit Hai Qian, I saw his attitude towards Hai Qian, and my heart softened unconsciously.

"Uh, what, I found that you seem to be very experienced in taking care of Hai Qian..." He casually brought up a topic to ease the awkward atmosphere, stepped forward three steps and took two steps to catch up with Wu Si, walking side by side with him.I scratched my head and continued to walk, feeling Wu Si's glance, I turned my head and laughed a couple of times.

A moment of silence.

Wu Si looked at me strangely, and kept staring until I mistakenly thought that there was something on his face, when he suddenly spoke.

"Hessie's illness is very similar to my mother's." This time, I was speechless.

The night wind continues to rise and fall as we speak.Blowing my shirt, flipping the corners of my clothes.I suddenly felt a little cold, yes, counting the days, it should be almost Mid-Autumn Festival.

I looked up at the moon hanging in the sky, there was still a corner missing, but it was bright enough.I have never liked the moon, because it feels too lonely.

"Women, it's very difficult to deal with." Wu Si who was walking beside him said suddenly.If the foreword doesn't match the afterword, I'm taken aback.

Not paying attention to my attitude, Wu Si looked up at the sky.The dark sky, the sparse stars, but taking advantage of the bright moon, it looks more and more lonely.

He continued: "Women are really complicated creatures. They are easily swayed by emotions, but they are also very shrewd. You can easily use her, but you can be easily used by her. Even sometimes, in the Without your knowledge, she will surprise you and stab you in the back..."

I didn't understand why he said this, I frowned slightly.My heart was in a mess for a moment, as if a broken rag was blocked and a bowl of rotten rice porridge was poured on top of it.

"Indeed, sometimes you can't figure out what they're thinking at all." For the first time, I stood on the same front with Wu Si on the fact that women are complicated.

Inexplicably, I thought of Hua Lin, and thought of the different dreams between her and me.Thinking of the dark green hat she knitted for me without telling me, I couldn't even smile when I put it on my head.

Men will have brain problems, especially for their own women.When I think of Hua Lin stretching his legs under a certain man, I feel a prickly pain in my heart like being pricked by a needle.This is no longer the category of whether I like her or not. The man's desire for dominance seems to be brought into full play at this moment.

I feel like I'm really useless sometimes.I don't even know who that bastard bastard Hua Lin is having an affair with!Maybe I should dig three feet to find him, and then take a gun and beat the kid into a hornet's nest.But when I saw Hua Lin's gradually estranged attitude towards me, I suddenly realized that they didn't care no matter what.Hua Lin, she is just someone who doesn't love me.Maybe she never loved me, just as she once said, we are together just because it is suitable.

But how long can this kind of loveless love last?Maybe from the beginning, my view of love was wrong.

From the three-story villa in the nursing home to the underground garage where we parked.Originally, this distance was not too far, but it became extremely long because of the different thoughts between Wu Si and I.On both sides of the wide road, outside the rounded cobblestone road is a flowerbed full of grass.The fragrance of plants floats in the nose, making people feel inexplicably peaceful and at ease.

"I found that maybe women are really not suitable for me." When I said this sentence suddenly, even I was a little shocked.Feeling Wuji's gaze on my face, I raised the corners of my mouth and gave a wry smile.

"Actually, I found that no one is suitable for me." He added.This time, I spoke frankly.

After turning another corner, Wu Si asked me to stand there and get the car by myself.When he came out, he took out a cigarette from his pocket in a bored manner and lit it.My addiction to smoking is not too great, but occasionally it can calm myself.

Wu Si drove out quickly, and while sitting in the driver's seat...

"Hey, Wu Si, why am I driving again!" I yelled at him, but only saw his face that should be taken for granted.

"You don't have to, I'd be happy to spend the night here." He smiled.But I think this scumbag is not only hateful, but also a rascal.

He gritted his teeth silently, holding back the bad temper that was about to vent.Just as I was about to start the accelerator, Wu Si suddenly pressed me against the car window.

"What are you doing?!" I yelled at him, seeing his approaching face, a chill came out from the soles of my feet.

Although we are out of the gate of the sanatorium now, the distance from the sanatorium is not far away.I've had the experience of being bullied by him in the car, so deep down I'm always repelled by his approach.

"Hae-xi, what do you think of me?" Just as I was about to fight back unceremoniously if he took a step closer to me, he suddenly said something that was confusing.

"Huh?" I was puzzled and frowned. "How about what?"

Suddenly, I feel that the conversation between the two of us is like a young couple in middle school.The girl asked the boy: "Senior, what do you think of me? Since you think I'm good, can you accept me?"

Rare vulgarity, the mood inexplicably improved.Resisting the urge to laugh, I tilted my head and began to think seriously.

"You are a bad person."

"that's it?"

"Then what else?" I couldn't help but roll my eyes, but he suddenly smiled grinningly, and then returned to his bad nature.

"No one has ever dared to say that about me. You are the first one. Haixi, should I give you a special certificate?" His tone was serious, and matched with the dark night, he looked like a sucker. A bat that lives on with human blood.

My eyelids twitched twice, and I felt like I was stepping on a tiger's tail.

I was so carried away just now...

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