Feeding equation

Why not resist?

Is it lack of courage, or lack of determination?Or, is it incapable?

Being dragged out of Xing Xing Club by Wu Si, the people who saw our surprise thought that I had angered the young master of the Red Gang again.

Since I was a child, the fact that I was hated by this young master has been deeply ingrained in the hearts of most people.Firstly, I am the son of an undercover agent, and secondly, I often hang out with Wu Cheng's illegitimate son.These two things are enough to attract all the anger of the young master of the Wu family.

It's just that I didn't expect that over the years, the hatred that this young master of the Wu family has towards me has almost continued unabated.

Sadly, I was dragged and dragged by Wu Si to push the sporty sports car by the side of the road.The moment my butt touched the soft seat, the sharp pain made me jump up suddenly.My head hit the car hard because of the vigorous movement, and there was a strong "bang", which made the sound seem to bring unprecedented pain.

Hot and humid tears were forced out of my eye sockets, so I subconsciously covered my head, but the moment I raised my hands, Wu Si cut them behind my back.

"Sit down, Haixi." The voice was indescribably calm, but the warning in the words was still very obvious.

I forcefully opened my eyes dazzled by tears, and stared at the domineering and hateful scum in front of me through the mist.

I really hate it!The feeling of being suppressed and restrained can only make me feel sad hatred, like a fountain of water flowing out continuously, making my limbs and bones seem to be immersed in a piece of ice.

The hands that were clipped backwards were tightly held together because of hatred, the nails were embedded in the flesh, and even brought out wet blood, but I didn't feel the slightest pain.

"Why do you always treat me like this?" I almost yelled out this sentence.

I really don't understand, is it because of that small antecedent, is it because Wu Cheng once broke a palm to protect my father, is it because I always stay with Wu Zilun whom he hates, so Wu Si hates me?Hate me to the bone?So you have to use this method to retaliate against me?

Such inhuman torture?He might as well kill me!Even if I don't want to die, I can't die for Hessie.But I also don't want, don't want to be tortured by him like this!

I stared at him bitterly, my body trembling with anger, was really like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered in his hands that restrained me.

Why?Why do you treat me so? !

I've been dying to ask this question!He hates me, obviously hates me so much that I don't know why!

But Wu Si just smiled, raised the corners of his mouth with some pleasure when he heard my question, as usual, calm and arrogant.

"Why? Because I hate you!" I stretched out my hand to caress my face. When I said these words, those eyes seemed to become pinholes, and the black pupils inside seemed to store thousands of words. million needles.

"As for why I hate you? Do you want to know, Haixi?" He asked questions while answering them, which was very similar to Wu Si's usual style.

He doesn't give anyone a respite from what he considers a threat.

I froze for a while and didn't speak.

I already knew Wu Si hated me.But listening to him say it himself, there is still a different feeling.

Why hate?

My hatred is because I was oppressed and bullied.And him, why?

His hand moved to my neck, and slowly caressed my neck as before, it seemed that with just a little force, I would be easily crushed to death by him like an insignificant ant .

Yet I was looking straight at him.I would like to see his reason, what powerful and inconceivable reason made him imprison Haisey like crazy, and even threatened me abnormally, taking revenge on me one after another.

"Hai Xi, it's because of your mother that my mother went crazy and died." With a flat and relaxed tone, his words flowed slowly from his thin lips. "The appearance of your mother forced my mother to death." His expression was very serious, and there was awe-inspiring determination in his eyes when he looked at me.And I was just taken aback.

"My mother forced your mother to death?" I repeated his words with an expression of disbelief on my face.

He is ridiculous, I have never seen my mother, how can I see him who is almost as old as me.

"I didn't lie to you, it's the truth." As if sensing my disbelief, a playful smile appeared on his face, then he withdrew his hand, sat in the driver's seat and looked sideways at me.

"Back when your father's undercover work was discovered and almost killed the entire Red Gang, how do you think my father was willing to exchange one hand for the life of a traitor? If it wasn't for your mother's willingness to sacrifice herself, your family would follow the gang rules, of course I'm going to be dragged out to fill the sea! However, it's because your mother happened to be my father's first love in the early years, and that's why you have lost your lives..."

The sudden news, like thunder, made me almost scream.

is that so? !

The old news that people talked about in the early years, aren't those lies? !

Suddenly, I remembered the family photo I found with Hai Qian at home. The face of the woman with long hair up to her waist was dug into a big hole, so that we could not see her appearance at all.

Father said: "You don't have a mother, your mother died a long time ago." When he said that, he always felt infinitely sentimental, which made us think that it was his deepest love for his late mother.

Then Wu Cheng said: "Haixi, your father is a great man, he protected you and your mother." Wu Cheng's broken arm swayed in front of the people, and his exposed bare arm seemed to have withered in autumn branches.

Yeah, if the words in Wu Si's words are true.Then our father is naturally very great, because he sacrificed our mother for our life, so Wu Chengcheng and his first love are happily together.He can come up with the best of both worlds and put it into practice, which is naturally great.

But, even if this is the case, what does Wu Si's mother's death have to do with my mother?obviously...

"Wu Si, for your pity's sake, let me tell you another secret..." Wu Si's voice sounded out again, with a cold look on his face, and he squinted at me, Those eyes were painfully cold.Then he said: "After your mother became my father's concubine, she actually had a child with my father. Haixi, do you want to know who that child is..."

"No!" I stopped him, and the blood in my whole body froze almost instantly when I heard these words.

That kid... that kid...

Wu Cheng has only one illegitimate child...

that kid...

In the heart, something seems to be scraping quickly, leaving pieces of dry pain on the soft surface of the heart.My whole body trembled, and I couldn't tell whether it was due to the mischief of the internal watch, or the fact that was constantly added to Wu Si's words.

In panic, I seemed to see countless disdainful eyes floating around me for many years. They stared at me one by one, and those hatred eyes seemed to be able to penetrate me just by looking.

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"Dad, aren't you a policeman? Why do we have to be looked down upon here?" I stood in front of the door when I was seven or eight years old, my whole body was dirty and muddy, as if I had just rolled through the mud, "Since they are all Bad guys, then arrest them all!" I was bullied again by children my age, who called me "the son of a traitor" and "a spineless guy".They said my mother was Wu Cheng's concubine, but I obviously didn't even know who my mother was.

My father, Hai Zhanhui, was repairing the car in his yard, and got out of the bottom of the big jeep with his body covered in engine oil.The jujube trees in the yard are already full of green fruits, which look very beautiful like small lanterns.

"Hai Xi, how many times have I told you that a man should not cry!" His brows were deeply frowned, forming a small word "Chuan" between his brows.

I've always liked my dad, he looked tall and upright, a real man.But there is only one thing that I really don't like, that is, he is obviously full of the honor of the police family at home, but he is willing to be driven by others outside, and even work for the bad guys.

He said: "Haixi, we owe the Wu family, I will work hard for the Wu family, even you."

But why do we have to sacrifice our lives for the Wu family?Why should I sacrifice my life for the Wu family?Everyone doesn't like me, they will say I am "the son of the scorpion", but I have always regarded it as an honor.He even instigated his father to regain his glory and stop working for those bad guys outside.

However, at this time, my father always looked at me very complicatedly, and then shook his head with a wry smile.

"Hae Tin, I am the one who was betrayed by the organization, we can't go anywhere."

Then he said, "Haixi, you are too young to understand."

But what do I not understand?I knew from a young age that my father was making compromises in order to protect the lives of Hai Qian and me.But I am growing up slowly, and I am gradually growing into a man, I am obviously not afraid of death!

I have always been reluctant to accept the current living conditions. Even though my father accepted it, the glory of being born in a police family still brought me a unique factor since I was a child.I always feel that there is a sense of mission in my blood that those bad guys don't have. I think I can break through my father's cage, and break through the cage my father set up for me.Until one day, that hateful Wu Cheng brought that hateful Wu Zilun to appear in front of me.

"Haixi, you have to protect him." Wu Cheng's serious expression is still lingering in my mind even now.This is obviously his own son, but he didn't even dare to recognize it all these years. It wasn't until his wife, the eldest sister of the Red Gang, went crazy recently that he dared to bring this child over to recognize his ancestor.

I looked at the boy who was timidly hiding behind Wu Cheng in front of me, and I didn't feel any good feelings in my heart.

I know I hate him, from beginning to end.

"You must protect him!" Wu Si's words were like a spell, trapping me beside his illegitimate son, as if from now on, I could only be the child's nanny.

"Protect him like a brother!" came his hateful words, but I didn't even want to hear them.

At that time, Wu Cheng's brother-in-law Qian Dalin wanted to send someone to kill Wu Zilun because of his sister's affairs, but due to Wu Cheng's secret protection and temporary soft-heartedness, although Wu Zilun suffered a lot, he was still safe and strong. grow up.

I once asked him: "Wu Zilun, your name is really strange!" I pursed my mouth, looked at the small boy in front of me, with a look of disgust in my eyes, "What is the name of all of us?" They are all crisp and neat, and you are the only one with such a strange name!"

Wu Zilun in front of him was drawing with his head down and holding a crayon in his hands. Under his brush, he was drawing a woman with very long hair.She was wearing a pink dress and carrying a pink bag.

"Mom, my mother's name is Xiaozi." He handed the finished painting to me, with a bright smile on his face.

I was burned by his smile, and the deep jealousy welling up in my heart, combined with the intuitive dislike of this child, made me impulsively tear up the painting of the woman in the pink dress in my hand.

I think Wu Zilun is too wordy, really too wordy!I don't have a mother, obviously I don't have a mother, he drew a mother for me, so I hate him even more.

That day, Wu Zilun cried.He cried like pear blossoms and rain.

"I want to avenge my mother!" A small child with a small voice, in this huge world, just a gust of wind can blow him away.

He wants revenge?Are you looking for me?

The corner of my mouth raised into a smile, laughing at his overthinking.However, he said: "I want to seek revenge from Wu Si..."

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The author has something to say: 13 years is coming to an end, thank you everyone. Let's work hard together in 14 years!