reborn stepfather

I don't know how long it has passed, and there are fewer and fewer people around. After receiving a call, the head teacher who was with me said in surprise, "What? Director Xu's daughter has woken up? Are you all right? That's great, I'll be right there."

I left in a hurry, so I was the only one left.

I sat on the bench like a clay sculpture, staring at the two dusty traces on my knees after kneeling on the floor, unable to think, my mind was still dull and blank.The lights in the operating room were still on, no one came here, and the noisy voices outside seemed to be inaudible, only the red lights flickered, like a heart struggling for life and death.

"I don't know exactly how it happened, because it happened after school. I didn't know until some students called for help." This is what the head teacher said to me just now, "It seems that Xu Baorong and Chi Qian made an appointment Fortunately, we met on the bridge, but I don’t know what happened during the conversation, student Xu Baorong suddenly stepped over the railing on the bridge, and student Chi Qian stretched out his hand to hold her, but was dragged down instead.”

I closed my eyes, and my clenched fists trembled.

"I heard from a student who happened to pass by the police that I vaguely heard what Xu Baorong said, 'Let's die together, then we can be together forever. This incident has never happened in our school, and the two students are excellent students. Even if they are better than usual, we did not think about it. Moreover, Xu Baorong has always been cheerful and has a very friendly attitude towards everyone, so I really I didn't expect her to have such an improper relationship with classmate Chi Qian, this is my dereliction of duty, here, I apologize to you."

"There's no such thing." I stared straight at the floor in front of me, and managed to find my hoarse voice, "There is nothing between them, stop joking, what kind of martyrdom is, it's just bullshit!"

Speaking of which, I almost yelled out, and my emotions were completely out of control.

Don't be too funny about martyrdom, this kind of non-existent thing, you can draw conclusions without knowing the real situation. There are many things that are completely different from what they appear on the surface. Eyes can be deceiving.

The head teacher had no choice but to sit beside me and said, "Father Chi Qian, let's go over there, Chi Qian should be..."

At this point, his cell phone rang, so he stopped talking, and rushed to curry favor with Director Xu.

My palms were sweating, and I could only wait anxiously.

At this time, I only felt the light flickering in front of me, I raised my head, the red light turned green, I bounced off the chair, the door opened, I began to tremble uncontrollably, I held my breath and used all my strength in prayer.

"Sorry, we've done our best."

Seeing the doctor shaking his head at me solemnly, I almost collapsed to the ground.

For a moment, everything seemed to be gone, and the world was completely gray with a "bang". The doctor came to support me, and he asked something in my ear, but I couldn't hear a word.I stared straight at the man who was pushed out of the operating room by the nurse. He was covered from head to toe and lay quietly.

"The head was hit violently and managed to survive for such a long time, but he was completely unresponsive when the brain waves were detected. If he hadn't cut his throat and used a ventilator to maintain it, he might have stopped breathing. This can undoubtedly be judged as brain death. Sorry. ,Please grief."

I watched him being pushed into a room and parked. There was no machine in it, and it coldly showed his fate that had been abandoned.

"You can go and say goodbye to your family."

The doctor whispered, and gradually let go of his hand.

I stood there in a daze, before I digested the doctor's words, and staggered to his side.

Quietly laying my head against him, I reached out and held him with trembling hands.

How is it possible, how is it possible, yesterday he still smiled at me tenderly and kissed me so passionately.

It was as if something had been hollowed out in my heart, and the flesh and skin were pulled out forcefully like this. The pain was so painful that I couldn't hold back my tears, but after that, there was endless cold and emptiness, making people at a loss what to do.

It turns out... so this is the taste of loss?

The person who is within reach by my side, the person who said I will never leave you will never let go, is it just lost?

I kept rubbing his already cold hands, but I couldn't restore the remaining warmth that had passed away.

Why are you lying.

Didn't you say that you will always hold my hand tightly?

Didn't you promise that?

Is it because I didn't say I love you?Is it because I've been running away?

Don't you always look like you know me well? Don't you know that I am timid and always indecisive? I also want to be the kind of person who can say what is in my heart and have the courage to say it out loud. But I can't do it.I am your father, even if I really love you, I dare not say it honestly.

I have always been conflicted in my heart, and I don’t know how to treat you. I have a lot of worries, and when I see you, I feel that my thoughts are dirty. I am actually moved by the son I raised by myself.This is simply unforgivable.

I think you may meet someone better, and you may grow up to fall in love with someone who is more suitable for you, instead of me, a middle-aged uncle who has achieved nothing.

I want to give you more time, so that you can have more choices. If you are willing to come back and love me after experiencing the excitement of the outside world, then you will not regret it, and I will feel better in my heart.

Anyway, I will always have you alone, I can no longer fall in love with others, I am willing to wait for a long time, it is okay, because my life will not change any more.

I can wait for you, even if you may not look back, even if you fall in love with someone else, it doesn't matter.

I can still be your father, and I still won't lose you.

I think so.

But I never thought that I would be separated from you like this.

I never thought that one day, the hand you never let go will be let go forever.

Tears fell one by one, and I finally couldn't help crying.

In fact, I have always wanted to tell you that every time I was kissed by you, I was so angry that I wanted to beat you up, but I was afraid that you would find out that my face was blushing and my heartbeat was beating. Every time you suddenly hugged me from behind, I would laugh immediately I quickly put on a straight face to cover it up, afraid of being seen through by you, even if I am angry under you, I am annoyed at myself who can't be angry with you even at this time.

After Li Qiu left, I swore that I would never fall in love with anyone again until I met you.

It’s okay if you trade my life, wake up, I promise you whatever you want to do in the future, I will never run away again, okay?

Don't leave me, okay, in fact, I only have you alone......

I have never felt pain like this, it seems to erupt from the depths of the bone marrow, the pain is so painful that I can hardly breathe, every cry turns into a helpless whimper in my mouth, and my heart breaks like a knife.

"dad?"

I suddenly felt my shoulders being shaken violently.

Looking up, although my eyes were blurred by tears, I could clearly see that the person in front of me was Chi Qian.

It was already evening at this time, there was a row of long windows in the corridor of the hospital, the dusk was falling one by one, and the floor tiles were covered with dazzling reflections, I stared blankly at Chi Qian, a piece of gauze was pasted on his forehead , with scratches on the arms and face, and the bright sunset behind it, it looks so real and lifelike.

I blinked a tear, and my whole body collapsed instantly.

My Chi Qian really left, he came out of his body to see me for the last time, with auspicious light behind him.

"Dad? Dad? What's wrong with you? Why are you here?"

Oh my god, even the anxious voice sounds echoed, my Chi Qian is really leaving.

Thinking of this, I feel even more sad. I was kneeling on the ground and collapsed on the ground as if I had lost all strength.

"Dad? Who is this? Why do you keep holding strangers' hands? And why are you crying?" Chi Qian was a little confused by the current situation.

I lowered my head, and the tears in my eyes were about to fall again, so I could only reach out and grab his trouser legs with trembling hands.

"Ajuan, don't go."

"Ok?"

"Don't leave even if you become a ghost, I'm not afraid, as long as you are here, I'm not afraid, don't go, stay here with me, I will seal the doors and windows of the house, so that the sun won't let the sun Hurting you, I will never eat garlic or buy garlic again, and throw away all the mirrors at home. I can change my living habits in the future, I will sleep during the day and wake up at night, we can still live together, don’t leave, Didn’t you say you want to stay with me forever? It won’t take long. I’m already in my thirties, and I’m going to die in 30 to [-] years. At that time, we’ll reincarnate together, maybe we can still be neighbors... ..”

"......Um??"

Chi Qian squatted down and broke my hand, letting me who had lost my mind touch his face: "I'm fine, Dad, I'm really fine. Look, Dad, I'm really fine, I just choked on a few sips of water and fell into a coma After a while, the skin was scratched by branches and stones, you can feel it, can you touch me? My hands are hot, I also have a shadow, I am not dead, I am not a ghost, look, I am fine .”

The voice was so gentle and soft that I couldn't help but believe it.

"I'm fine, Dad, I'm really fine." He stretched out his warm hands to hold my face so that I could look at him, "I'm fine, I won't leave you, I'm fine , I will always be with you."

The moment I touched his clear eyes, I couldn't help but burst into tears.

I stretched out my arms tremblingly, and hugged him gently with the greatest luck and hesitation.

I made a mistake, I made a mistake, right?

As if lost and found again, I hugged him with the greatest strength, buried him on his shoulder and wept bitterly.

"It's okay, Dad, it's okay."

Chi Qian whispered in my ear over and over again.

I was immersed in sadness, and I didn’t know what was going on afterwards, I just remembered that the floor was shaking all the time for no reason, Chi Qian kept holding me, which made me feel at ease, I closed my eyes and leaned on his shoulder and sucked Nose: "You can't leave me even if you die."

"..."

"If you become a ghost, you have to come back to accompany me."

"..."

"Yellow Spring Road is waiting for me to walk together."

"..."

There was no response all the time, and I was scared and flustered in my heart. I grabbed Chi Qian's clothes tightly, and was so wronged that I was about to cry: "You answer me, you answer me, I won't lie, I will I love you, and I won't run away either, Chi Qian, please answer me, I'm a little scared, I'm really scared..."

"Dad, what did you say?" It sounded that Chi Qian's voice was trembling inexplicably, "Say it again."

I sniffed and hugged him tighter: "I will love you."

"......Say it again."

"I will love you."

"Say it again."

"I love you."

Chi Qian kissed him suddenly, and before I recovered from my widened and frightened eyes, I was shocked to find that I had actually returned home.

Looking again, I was sitting in Chi Qian's arms.

He seems to hold me all the way?

Ugh? !

So he is still alive?

I pushed him away, Chi Qian didn't expect it, and was slapped down on the sofa by my palm.

He lay there restlessly, with a smile on his bruised mouth.

The next moment, I was a little unsure, and poked his face as if dealing with a fragile object: "Are you okay?"

"Ah."

"Who is in the operating room?"

"how could I know."

"Then who did I sign the consent form for the operation?"

"......how could I know."

"Are you really okay?" I asked again worriedly.

"Father, do you want to check for yourself?" He narrowed his eyes and smiled.

"...How to confirm?"

He grabbed my hand and put my hand on one of his bulging parts when I was in a daze.

It was only then that I realized that my posture riding on him was a bit... a bit ambiguous...

Looking up at Chi Qian again, he hooked his lips, reached out and grabbed my tie, and suddenly pulled me down with force.

Nose to nose, breathing intertwined, lips almost touching themselves.

He stuck out his tongue and licked me, his voice was soft and seductive: "Dad, do you want to fuck me?"

My eyes were straightened, and I swallowed my saliva with a "gudong".

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