Just like a dream

Qin Fu hung up the video and stared at the glowing phone screen for a long time before walking back to the room from the small balcony in the corridor.

The three roommates had been holding back their military training for a month, and they were teaming up with the dormitory next door. When they saw Qin Fu arrive, they just greeted him without looking back. One of them asked him if he was videoing with his brother again.

Qin Fu made videos with Li Musheng every day, and the whole dormitory knew about it, and it was already familiar to him, but it was the first time Qin Fu came back from playing the video without a smile on his face.

On the next Saturday, Qin Fu went to the office of the Student Union to be on duty, and by the way wrote the after-school homework for last week's high math.Seeing Cui Yuming while on duty, Qin Fu casually asked him how he could be with one person for a lifetime.

Cui Yuming smiled and said, of course it is marriage.Then he added, saying that there is no insurance these days, and it is too difficult to divorce after getting married, but marriage is the closest way to the promise of being together for a lifetime.

"What if you can't get married?" Qin Fu asked.

Cui Yuming was stopped by the question, and scratched the back of his head: "If you don't get married, you will live your whole life. Isn't this ruining other girls?"

Qin Fu couldn't laugh or cry, and explained to Cui Yuming: "It's not a girl."

"A man?!" Cui Yuming was startled, and couldn't control his voice, and yelled.Qin Fu got up and told him to keep his voice down. Just as he was about to explain, the door of the office was pushed open. The deputy director of the Student Union Organization Department pushed in and asked, "What kind of man or woman? Don't speak too loudly when you're on duty. The teacher heard that he will be punished on Monday."

Cui Yuming immediately apologized, and the vice minister sat down at the table and said with a smile: "I don't think it matters if you're a man or a woman. What attracts me to love is that it's so fleeting and yet so indomitable."

"Some people say that love will die after three months, but I don't know how many people go through fire and water for love with a lifespan of only three months. Brave romantics. Tang Xianzu said that love does not know where it starts. As it goes deeper, life can be Death, death can be resurrected. The great feeling that can transcend life and death is too shallow to be imprisoned by a mere gender."

Qin Fu wanted to explain, but the deputy minister was so eloquent that he had no room to interrupt, so he could only look at Cui Yuming helplessly.

Cui Yuming was moved by the vice minister's passionate speech, and nodded: "Sometimes gender really doesn't matter, falling in love with someone is just because he is him."

The girl on duty from the Propaganda Department next door said: "Because most people are bisexual, both boys and girls are fine, but they are coerced by the thinking of modern society and mistakenly think that they only like the opposite sex. But real homosexuals and heterosexuals, There is still no way that both genders like it."

It was the first time Qin Fu heard the word bisexual, but he felt that he was not bisexual either.Whether it is a boy or a girl, he can't accept doing too intimate things with them. The physical touch between friends is already the largest scale he can bear.But for Li Musheng, he couldn't help but always wanted to hug him, put him in his pocket, and take him with him wherever he went.

It doesn't seem to matter whether Li Musheng is a man or a woman, the important thing is that he is Li Musheng.There is no one in the world who understands himself better than him, and no one can support himself no matter what he does.

But if Li Musheng was a girl, Qin Fu felt that he would not be so speechless when confronted by Han Shuang.He would rush home yesterday night, confess to Li Musheng, and get married immediately when he reaches the legal age, just like Cui Yuming said, protect him for the rest of his life with a marriage that is closest to a lifetime promise, so that he will not be hurt by anyone.

Cui Yuming grabbed Qin Fu's hand with both hands and said, "They are right, I am shallow."

"It's not what you think..." Qin Fu pulled out his hand and confessed under the gaze of three pairs of eyes, "I don't know what to say, and I can't tell what my feelings for him are. It's very complicated. But I just want to protect him for the rest of my life."

"Is this not considered love?" Cui Yuming asked.

The girl from the Propaganda Department said: "Of course not. There are too many feelings in the world, such as family love, friendship, fellowship, and even sympathy between rivals. But only love is special. Only love will make you think Get close, kiss or do something more intimate. Do you want to do that with that person?"

It was the first time Qin Fu talked about such a profound topic with a group of irrelevant people. After his mother passed away, he could only talk about these things with Li Musheng.Li Musheng grew up in the same environment as himself, and his understanding of many things is also very similar. There is no way to have a collision of ideas from all over the world like now.

"I think you can trust your inner judgment." Seeing Qin Fu's hesitation, the deputy minister said, "What is love? I remember a big boss said it. Love is like a sneeze. It can't be hidden. Unless he I don’t want to admit it, otherwise no one will be unable to distinguish love.”

"To be in harmony with that person, to spend the rest of my life with that person, to be with that person in death and death, love is so mysterious and so great. I think you actually have the answer in your heart, but you have never thought about that answer."

When it was time to change shifts, Qin Fu thanked the others and went to the library alone with his textbooks.

Even though the deputy minister vowed that he would be able to tell the difference between love and other emotions, Qin Fu was still skeptical.

Want to kiss Li Musheng?

Qin Fu sat in the study room of the library and closed his eyes. Li Musheng seemed to be standing in front of him right now, smiling and calling him brother.

Qin Fu's heart moved, and he buried his head in his arms, with a smile on his lips.

Such Li Musheng, who wouldn't want to kiss him?

As for more intimate things, Qin Fu had never done it, and he didn't dare to think about it. He didn't want to blaspheme Li Musheng, and imagined Li Musheng's appearance of making love under his body.

While thinking wildly, he finished writing the high math topic, Qin Fu previewed the next day's class, went to the cafeteria for dinner, and received a video invitation from Li Musheng when he returned to the dormitory.

"Brother, why didn't you video with me yesterday? I've been waiting for you for a long time." Li Musheng acted like a baby to Qin Fu with some blame.

Qin Fu thought about it, and guessed that it was Han Shuang who deleted the chat history of the video on Li Musheng's phone.He secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and he didn't want Li Musheng to know that he had contact with Han Shuang last night, so as to prevent Li Musheng from thinking wildly.

"I had something to do in the student union yesterday. I discussed it with Cui Yuming until very late. I was afraid that you would fall asleep, so I didn't dare to disturb you." Qin Fu made up a lie and explained to Li Musheng.

Li Musheng was sitting cross-legged on the bed at this time, wrapped in the fat pajamas, making his face smaller, his eyes bright, and he didn't have the slightest doubt about Qin Fu's words.

"Brother, you have to sleep well, you can't stay up late." Li Musheng smiled with his eyes bent, stretched out his hand to scratch his hair, and said with a look of confusion, "You are with Cui Yuming every day, and the relationship is so good, I will be jealous .”

Li Musheng and Qin Fu often said such intimate words, but Qin Fu realized for the first time that the communication between the two of them was too ambiguous, and his heartbeat suddenly became chaotic, and he didn't dare to look directly at Li Musheng in the video.

Qin Fu knew that Li Musheng was exquisite. People around him always said that he looked like a girl when he was a freshman in high school, but recently Li Musheng began to grow taller, and his masculine edges and corners began to appear. The previous vague sense of gender has disappeared. Exhausted, but this not only did not weaken Li Musheng's beauty, but made him more attractive than before.

Qin Fu looked at him, almost unable to remember how to breathe.

Li Musheng didn't notice Qin Fu's abnormality, so he blinked and confessed to Qin Fu that he went to Han Shuang's house yesterday.

"Did he do anything to you?" Qin Fu asked.

"Damn, of course not. I just went to study with him." Li Musheng felt that he was like a parent who was questioning whether his child was bullied by a puppy love partner, and his face turned red instantly, but for some reason, the more he explained, the more annoying Feeling overwhelmed.

"Xiaosheng, I..." Qin Fu opened his mouth, and suddenly his brain short-circuited. He couldn't remember what he wanted to say just now, so he changed the topic, "Han Shuang is not a decent person. I think he treats feelings a little casually. You I have no objection to being friends with him, but don't fall in love with him, I'm afraid you will be hurt by him."

Li Musheng felt that Qin Fu had misunderstood Han Shuang, but he understood Qin Fu's temper. If he spoke for Han Shuang, an outsider, Qin Fu's impression of Han Shuang would not change, and might even worsen. So I just obediently agreed, and explained to him: "Brother, Han Shuang and I are really just ordinary friends. As you know, I'm not very good at making friends. Xia Jingjing doesn't care about me when she's in love recently, and only Han Shuang plays with me. I I will not go to his house in the future, and I will keep a distance from him at school, and there will never be any physical contact."

"That's not what I meant. I don't object to you making friends, but Han Shuang likes you, and I'm afraid he will hurt you." Qin Fu was in a mess, not knowing how to explain to Li Musheng.He wasn't restricting Li Musheng's friendship, but he didn't want Li Musheng and Han Shuang to get too close.

Although Han Shuang didn't mess around in school, Qin Fu had seen him clubbing in private, and knew that he was the kind of person who had no scruples about his feelings, and he was afraid that Li Musheng would be hurt by him.

But it didn't seem to be purely because of this. Qin Fu felt that there should be a deeper reason, but he couldn't explain it for a while.

Li Musheng responded one by one, and Qin Fu asked again: "Xiao Sheng, do you have someone you like now?"

Li Musheng's face turned red visibly on the other side of the video, his eyes wandered to other places, and he shook his head at Qin Fu: "No, brother, I only want to study hard now, and I want to go to A University to find you, there is nothing else idea."

Seeing Li Musheng's reaction, Qin Fu's heart turned cold: "Who is that person? Is he from your class?"

"Brother! Did you tell me..." Li Musheng felt guilty and raised his voice, but his voice immediately weakened again. He liked Qin Fu, but Qin Fu liked girls. The only family members will be lost.

Li Musheng's denial was not convincing, Qin Fu felt depressed, and wished he could fly home and ask Li Musheng right now.

After hanging up the video, Qin Fu suddenly realized that although Han Shuang was indeed not a good man, maybe he wasn't targeting Han Shuang either. He just couldn't accept the possibility of Li Musheng having a relationship with other people.