Just like a dream

It was already night when Li Musheng returned home, the community was quiet, and the old corridor still used voice-activated lights, which needed to be stomped to light up.

Li Musheng coughed a few times, but the voice-activated light did not respond, so he could only reach out to touch the touch switch.

The dim light finally turned on slowly, and there was a slight noise inside the lampshade, creaking, like the sound of some kind of crustacean wings flapping.When Li Musheng went up to the third floor, the electronic lock was changed by Qin Fu, because Li Musheng always forgot to bring the key. Closed out of their own home.

It's a pity that now Li Musheng can enter this door every time, but there is no home behind the door.

The old residential area is always dark and dark, with moisture invisible to the naked eye. You can only feel the dampness when you walk past it, like a scene in a ghost movie, but in a city as big as City A, this dilapidated house is Li Mu. The home that Sheng Hua only got with all her savings.

Xia Jingjing reported to Li Musheng on her mobile phone that she was safe, saying that she had arrived at the hotel and planned to go to the scenic spots tomorrow.Li Musheng returned her a smiling face, then turned off the phone screen, didn't eat dinner, went straight into the bedroom, closed the bedroom door, and dared to take out a stack of photos from the locked drawer in the back of the closet.

Those photos were all taken when he was in college. He and Qin Fu were crowded together in this dilapidated house. Qin Fu saved money and bought a second-hand Polaroid, and excitedly took Li Musheng to take a few photos.

Later, the two discovered that Polaroid photo paper is very expensive, and every photo is made of money, so the Polaroid was idle, but Qin Fu seemed to have an old-fashioned obsession with physical photos, and took a lot of photos with his mobile phone. , took it to a photography studio and paid for someone to help print it, but I was not willing to print too much, so I only picked up a few favorites and took them home.

Sitting cross-legged on the bed, Li Musheng looked down at the photos, as if infected by the emotions in the photos, he also laughed lowly.After laughing, he felt lonely again. The dark night was like a suffocating net, covering all his emotions.

Li Musheng hid the photo again, remembering what Qin Fu had said to him during the day, and without any sleepiness, he lit a cigarette by the window of the balcony and took a few puffs.

The moon tonight is a good moon, perfectly round without any blemishes, but people are crippled.

Li Musheng hummed Teresa Teng's "May I Live Long" while smoking a cigarette. After smoking one, he went back to the house and opened a can of beer, listening to the song while leaning against the balcony window with headphones on.

Back then, Qin Fu cut off contact with Qin Yehua for himself, and neither of them had a source of income. Li Musheng studied computer and spent a lot of time writing codes every day. He had no spare time to do other things, so Qin Fu went to school while going to school. Earn money part-time.

At that time, life was bitter and sweet, and the air conditioner was only willing to be turned on for two hours in winter. The two of us shivered on the bed in the bedroom, and only had the most basic survival instinct.

Qin Fu held Li Musheng in his arms and said that in the future, he must have more money than Qin Yehua and give Li Musheng everything he could.

Since Qin Fu took office, Sheng'an's production value has doubled compared to before. Qin Fu is no longer the boy who had to wait for the time to turn on the air conditioner, but he did not give anything he promised to Li Musheng.

Li Musheng drank some wine and couldn't help thinking about the past.

He and Qin Fu seldom quarreled in the past, but they had a very fierce quarrel with him in high school.

That was one month after the end of the spring outing, during the spring sports meeting.

The sports meeting lasted for two days. In the middle of the two nights, the school would let all classes play patriotic educational films on the computer screens in the classrooms, and force all students to stay and watch them. The excuse is that they are afraid that students will go crazy after school. , Bring students together to kill time together.

However, patriotic education movies are always full of cruel reality. The sixteen or seventeen-year-olds can only see the overflowing youth and restless heart. Except for some top students in the front row of the classroom who are watching seriously, the students sitting in the back row The students were all in a lack of interest, either playing cards together, or a few of them holding their mobile phones horizontally and playing games behind the teacher who came to visit from time to time.

Li Musheng watched the movie for a while, but he couldn't stand it anymore, so he looked around and looked at the back row a few times, and met Han Shuang's eyes.

Before the movie started, Han Shuang had already moved the chair and ran to the back row. When she was tired from playing cards, she got up and gave up her seat to someone else. She sat on the table by the window in the back row and watched over a few classmates who were fighting the landlord.

Han Shuang noticed Li Musheng's gaze, raised his eyebrows at him, pointed out the window, and signaled Li Musheng to go out.

Li Musheng didn't know what Han Shuang asked him to go out for, but based on what he knew about Han Shuang, if he didn't go out with him, the other party would hold back a fight and quarrel with him sooner or later.

Li Musheng and Han Shuang walked out of the teaching building one after the other, and went to the flower bed behind the building.

The flower bed behind the teaching building is next to the playground, and several mushroom pavilions have been built, which are holy places for young couples to secretly date without their teachers behind their backs. But today, most students watch movies in the classroom, and the mushroom pavilions are empty, with no one there.

Li Musheng couldn't figure out why Han Shuang called him here, but when he saw Han Shuang sitting down, he found a place next to him to sit next to him.

"Today's moon is so beautiful." Han Shuang looked at the round silver hook in the sky and said suddenly.

Li Musheng suddenly realized something and couldn't help being a little nervous.

He had seen someone on the Internet saying that the beauty of the moonlight is a subtle expression of "I like you". The hazy night made the atmosphere a bit seductive, and Li Musheng was so scared that his heart almost jumped out.

But he immediately thought that what Han Shuang said was that the moon was beautiful, not that the moonlight was so beautiful. It should be pure emotion and nothing else. It was because he thought too much.

"Li Musheng, do you have someone you like?" Han Shuang asked.

Li Musheng looked at Han Shuang in surprise, he was almost sure that Han Shuang asked him to come out for some other purpose.

But both of them are boys, how can they like each other like men and women?

But why not?

"Hey, someone I like..." Li Musheng wanted to say no, but Qin Fu's face flashed in front of his eyes, making him hold back the words, "Maybe there is...I, I'm not sure."

Li Musheng's ambiguous statement was obviously misleading. When Li Musheng found that Han Shuang was looking at him with joy, all the explanations seemed to cover up.

"The person you like, is it me?" Han Shuang blushed, and stretched out a hand to cover the back of Li Musheng's hand.

Li Musheng shrank his hands back, and Han Shuang immediately frowned, looking a little displeased.

Li Musheng is clear that if he denies it now, Han Shuang must have a big fight with him, but if he acquiesces, the result seems to be even worse, and he will probably associate with Han Shuang in a daze.

Li Musheng admits that Han Shuang is handsome, not like Qin Fu who looks educated and reasonable, but handsome and handsome, a bit like the handsome underworld big brother in the romance novels serialized in magazines.But Li Musheng had never regarded Han Shuang as a love object, and Han Shuang's sudden confession was nothing but surprise to him.

"I, I..." Li Musheng weighed his words, afraid that Han Shuang would be sad if he said something too harsh, and he was afraid that he would misunderstand if he didn't speak clearly.

But Han Shuang didn't have the patience to listen to Li Musheng's euphemism, and said bluntly: "Li Musheng, I like you, I mean, would you like to be my boyfriend? a city……"

Han Shuang only spoke half of her beautiful longing when she was suddenly punched in the face.

Qin Fu and his girlfriend were walking on the playground, and they came to the toilet on the way, passing by the aisle in front of the Mushroom Pavilion, and heard Han Shuang's confession to Li Musheng clearly.

"You bloody gay, how dare you covet my younger brother!" Qin Fu was completely enraged, and hit him directly with his fists clenched. Han Shuang didn't expect that a person would suddenly appear from behind, and he was caught off guard by a punch, and immediately Annoyed, he got up and wanted to fight Qin Fu.

Li Musheng had no time to react to the successive changes tonight. By the time he realized what had happened, Qin Fu and Han Shuang were already fighting together.

Li Musheng stepped forward to stop it, but when the two big boys who were 1.8 meters tall tried their best to fight, Li Musheng couldn't intervene at all.

"The teacher is here, run!" Li Musheng was quick to wit, and shouted at the two of them. Qin Fu woke up like a dream, grabbed Li Musheng's hand and wanted to run towards the playground.

But Li Musheng didn't leave immediately. He looked back at Han Shuang, who had a bruised nose and a swollen face, and whispered apologetically, "I'm sorry Brother Han, my brother didn't do it on purpose, and I'll apologize to you later."

Qin Fu snorted, glanced sideways at Han Shuang, stood between the two of them, pointed at Han Shuang's nose and said angrily, "I'm sorry for his grandfather, if you're gay, try to touch my brother again. "

Han Shuang is not a character who can swallow his anger. He raised his fist and wanted to fight Qin Fu again. Li Musheng hurriedly inserted between the two, pushed Han Shuang back, and said submissively: "Brother Han, give it to me!" To save face, my brother is more excited."

"What kind of brother is he!" But seeing Li Musheng's face, Han Shuang withdrew his hand angrily, glared at Qin Fu, gave him the middle finger, and left angrily.

After arriving behind the rockery next to the playground, Li Musheng shook off Qin Fu's hand and asked him why he eavesdropped on his conversation with Han Shuang.

"I was passing by to go to the bathroom, and I saw it from a distance. I felt like you, and I wanted to go up and say hello. Who would have thought to hear that pervert..."

Li Musheng interrupted Qin Fu and said, "Brother, he is my friend, not a pervert."

Qin Fu thought of the love letter that Li Musheng secretly gave him, and Han Shuang's confession just now. Could it be that if he didn't happen to pass by today, Xiaosheng would fall in love with someone else?Qin Fu was distracted for a moment, and said indiscriminately: "Xiao Sheng, I didn't mean to take care of you, but you are still young and don't know how disgusting homosexuality is. They...they all have diseases."

"Qin Fu, do you really think homosexuality is so disgusting?" Li Musheng has always been quite ignorant and shy. He has never talked about this topic with Qin Fu. He never thought that Qin Fu has such a big interest in liking homosexuality. Prejudice, I suddenly felt dark in front of my eyes.Even his vague fondness for Qin Fu was splashed with dirty water.

Qin Fu saw that Li Musheng was still losing his temper at himself when he said this, and felt that Li Musheng was favoring Han Shuang, so he couldn't get angry, and shouted at Li Musheng: "Li Musheng, you are capable, Why, do you really want to have sex with a male classmate?"

Qin Fu's voice was not low, Wang Xiaoxuan was waiting for him not far away, and when he saw that the person hadn't come for a long time, he just came to find him. When Li Musheng saw Wang Xiaoxuan, the last bit of reason was wiped out: "Why, can you fall in love with a girl? I'm not allowed to fall in love with boys? Qin Fu, let me tell you, I'm gay, don't you think homosexuality is disgusting? If you're disgusting, stay away from me!"