Xue Huan

Mrs. Li's surname is Lin. When she went back to her natal home that time, she saw that the girl from her brother's house was cute and cute, so she wanted to take her home for a few days. Her brother couldn't beat her, so he followed her.

"Xunhuan, this is your cousin, named Shiyin, you have to take good care of her."

Xiao Xunhuan had never seen a child younger than herself. At that time, Lin Shiyin had not grown up with the cold and noble appearance. Her body smaller than Xunhuan timidly shrank behind Mrs. Li, showing half of her cheeks and her fair skin. Translucent, the tender ones seem to be somewhat transparent, and there is an obvious trace of fear in the watery eyes, which is inevitable for a child who is leaving home for the first time.Seeing this, Xiao Xunhuan only felt that he had a responsibility on him instantly. Looking at the weak cousin, a desire to protect spontaneously arose, and he smiled gently at the little girl, saying:

"I will take good care of my cousin and not let anyone bully her."

The gentleness on Xiao Xun Huan's face reassured the little girl a lot, Rourou called "Cousin", the voice was not much louder than a cat's meow, Li Xun Huan felt even more pity in his heart.

Ximen Chuuxue looked at this new little girl, thinking of multiple playmates, his eldest brother is much older than him, and his daily homework is also tight. This little guy is actually quite lonely, but is this playmate too weak? After a while, Simon secretly frowned.

The Li family is a scholarly family, and the head of the family, Li Songling, is the Shangshu of the dynasty, and he is not at home all year round.Like every parent who expects their son to become a dragon, the Li couple have high hopes for their two children. They only want the Li family to be a champion. Xiao Xunhuan has been enlightened to study since he can remember. will try.Both of them are extremely intelligent. In Ximen Chuuxue's opinion, Li Chengyu's high school is expected.

Time flies by, Ximen Chuixue has been by Li Xunhuan's side for another ten years, Xiaotuanzi, oh no, it's not Xiaotuanzi anymore, but Ximen still can't get rid of this impression in his heart, the boy's figure is elongated, straight as pine , every strand of his hair has been taken care of properly, the young man's eyebrows and eyes are more delicate and gentle, and his temperament is more charming, Ximen Chuuxue sometimes dazzles.

Many things happened in the past ten years. For example, Lin Shiyin's mother died early, and her father asked her younger sister to take Xiao Shiyin to the Li family to be raised. She would go back for a few months a year, so as to avoid the inconvenience of being a grown man with her daughter.So the life of Xiao Xunhuan and Xiao Shiyin's childhood sweethearts began.Ximen Chuuxue has watched the two play and chase in the garden countless times, recite poems and fuss under the plum tree, and play the harp and cymbal in harmony.

Another example is that Li Xunhuan was successful in kung fu, and then practiced throwing knives.Perhaps the little guy didn't use the knife in his hand as a weapon at first, but started carving out of interest. The first work he carved was a fox, which was very clumsy. He gave it to his cousin Lin Shiyin. For some reason, Ximen Fubuki had some low air pressure at that time.Then came his elder brother, then his parents, and later even every servant in Li Yuan had a share. Ximen Chuuxue sometimes couldn't help thinking that if he could see himself, he would definitely have a share for himself.Imagination is imagination after all, and Ximen Chuuxue is always behind him.Sometimes he is in a trance. He has been here for too long, but such a long time has slipped away like a cloud of smoke. Sometimes he can't distinguish between illusion and reality. No one can communicate and no one can touch it. Not desperate?After wandering in a desperate situation for more than ten years, Ximen Chuuxue is not a god after all, so he can't help but feel confused and resentful.But fortunately, he stroked the soft hair on the top of the boy's head beside him. Anyway, no one was aware of his existence, and he did this action with extraordinarily peace of mind.Li Xun Huan is his only connection with this world, it doesn't matter if he restrained him, he is still glad that this man's constant warmth for ten years has made him calm now.

When Li Xunhuan was 12 years old, a sudden illness took away his mother's life. Before she died, the mother held the hands of her two sons and spoke her last wish with difficulty:

"If either of your two brothers can be the number one scholar in high school, I will not be ashamed of the ancestors of the Li family if I go down." A champion, this has always been a big regret in their hearts.

The two agreed with tears, and then Li Yuan died.

It was the first time that Ximen Chuuxue saw Li Xunhuan so sad, and it was also the first time that he hated his current state. The young man held back his tears to survive his mother's funeral, and had to force his face to show a strong face so that his father and brother who were also grieving would not worry. One night When they are human, they often shrink into a ball and whimper in a low voice.No one came to comfort him except Ximen Chuuxue, whom no one could see. At that moment, Ximen Chuuxue was extremely irritable, and it was the first time that his distressed emotions were so strong. He stopped Li Xunhuan from behind, and gave him a little comfort in a self-deceiving way.The next day, seeing him push open the door as if nothing had happened, with his usual humble and smooth face, it seemed that the pain of losing his mother had passed.It's just that during that time he became thinner and thinner, and his already thin body became thinner.Fortunately, Lin Shiyin carefully discovered what was wrong with Li Xunhuan, and her gentle consideration and companionship helped Li Xunhuan through the most difficult period of losing his mother, and the relationship between the two became deeper.Lang Qizhuma's childhood sweetheart, Li's mother planned to fight against them again before she was alive, his father and brother also agreed, Ximen Chuixue was very relieved to see that Li Xunhuan was accompanied by someone.He couldn't help but feel sorry for this child. He grew up with him all the way, and it can be said that he knew him better than anyone around him. He also imagined that if he married a wife in the future, would his child be as cute as Li Xunhuan, and then he was not sure. Well, it doesn't matter if you are generally likable, there is only one Li Xunhuan in the world after all.

Li Chengyu studied harder after his mother passed away. The exam was just around the corner, and when Li's mother passed away, his mother's dying words weighed heavily on his heart like a mountain. , this burden will definitely rest on his younger brother's shoulders, Xun Huan's body is a little weaker than him, even if he practices martial arts later, he can't make people completely at ease.And he also understands Li Xunhuan's character, he loves the freedom of the world more than the court's Lilu.With such an idea, he worked really hard.

Things don't always go as expected, the news of Li Chengyu's visit to the flower and his success came back to Taiyuan, and the disappointment on Li's father's face was clearly caught by Li Xunhuan.To make matters worse, Xu Shi endured too much before the test. Li Chengyu suffered a serious illness after high school, and his body completely collapsed. The lingering sickness made people worry.The shadow of his mother's death has not completely dissipated, and his elder brother looked like this again. Li Xunhuan still has lingering fears when he thinks about those days.Because of his severe illness, the Holy One asked Li Chengyu to go home to recover from his illness, and then returned to the court to serve. At this time, Li's father also retired and returned home. His beloved wife died, and his beloved son was sick. The emperor could not find a reason to refuse his request.Father and brother are not in good health, Li Xunhuan serves soup and medicine all day long, lest they will leave him like his mother, and they will not let go while practicing martial arts and studying. For his hard work, Ximen Chuuxue has only silent company, but this company is for the person involved But without knowing it.

This situation did not improve until Brother Li got married a year later. This girl and Li Chengyu had also known each other for many years. He is also deeply affectionate.After she joined the family, she took care of the Li family and gave Li Xunhuan a chance to breathe a sigh of relief. The relationship between the uncle and sister-in-law was very good.When the situation at home stabilized, Li Xunhuan finally had the opportunity to set foot in the rivers and lakes. This was his long-cherished wish, and his family knew it well.This year he was 14 years old.

Li Xunhuan should belong to the Jianghu, and the determination of a young man is fully revealed at this age.The chivalrous pride in his bones was unrestrained, and he drew his sword to help when the road was rough, but in just one year, he picked four or five dens of thieves and saved many people, including some young women who were secretly favored by him when he rescued them. Ximen Chuuxue thought it was very interesting that he was at a loss at first and declined politely.I'm used to seeing this man's sophistication without being shocked by honor or disgrace, this attitude is really fresh.

This was the most unrestrained and unrestrained time in Li Xunhuan's life. He drank and sang, lit a lamp and looked at the sword, and even Ximen Chuuxue ignited a bit of pride.In the past year, he has made many friends, rich merchants, high-ranking officials, and all kinds of religions, but he has also made many enemies. Only then did Ximen Chuuxue discover that this person also has a side that can make people angry. A side that won't show to relatives and friends, a poisonous tongue can almost choke people to death.No matter which rivers and lakes you are in, there will always be decent people who hold the banner of justice but engage in thieves, but this type of people is exactly what Li Xunhuan hates. The helpers were so angry that they turned red and raised their knives, but Li Xun Huan remained calm as before, sipping his wine and spit out a sentence without a single curse word.This kind of Li Xunhuan is very lively, but Ximen Chuuxue can't say that he is not worried at all. The despicableness of these people is always beyond the imagination of young people, but fortunately, after the initial setbacks, Li Xunhuan can always handle it. His bones and talents are very good, and it is only a matter of time before he becomes famous. These people can't stop him, and Ximen Chuuxue is very confident.Challenges, big and small, came one after another. At the beginning, there were defeats and then there were few opponents. After more than a year, Xiao Li Feidao's reputation gradually spread.

The only thing that made Ximen Chuuxue slightly dissatisfied was Li Xunhuan's good wine temperament. No one said much when he was away from home, but he didn't mean to be restrained at all. The first time Li Xunhuan had a drink was when his mother passed away, the pain was too much The tragedy, although Ximen Chuuxue felt worried, but there was nothing he could do.Maybe Li Xunhuan fell in love with the taste of this thing the first time he opened the precept. When walking in the rivers and lakes, there is always a wine bag with him, filled with the best bamboo leaf green. Although his drinking posture is elegant and beautiful, it can't stop Ximen Chuuxue from frowning trend.Already weak, even if he practiced martial arts, he needed to take good care of it. Alcohol hurts the heart the most. No one could see him being so light on his body, but even though he was dissatisfied in every possible way, he couldn't complain to him at all.

In any case, Ximen Chuuxue's mood didn't affect Li Xunhuan at all.Stopping and stopping for more than a year, the two of them have traveled all over the country. They have seen the prosperity of the grass growing and the birds flying, the magnificence of the rivers and waterfalls, the bamboo forests, the deep forests of the pine mountains, and the beautiful and colorful years. Ximen Chuuxue only thinks that life seems to last a lifetime , But then a letter from Taiyuan told him bluntly that this was just an illusion given to you by life, and the dream-like years of more than a year have since become misty clouds in memories.

Although Li Chengyu's health has improved, it hasn't been very good. Li's father has indulged Li Xunhuan for more than a year, and now it's time for the provincial examination, so he should come back and prepare for the imperial examination.Li Xunhuan doesn't like officialdom, Ximen Chuuxue knows very well that his ambitions, dreams and blood all belong to the Jianghu, but Li Xunhuan will never learn to reject the expectations of his relatives.

Unsurprisingly, he won the Juren after returning home, and during the three years of preparing for the exam, he occasionally set foot in the rivers and lakes, but most of them were entrusted by friends or Xiaoxiao who came to solve some challenges, so although he didn't show up often, Xiao Li Feidao His name became more and more mysterious.Among them, there are good people like Bai Xiaosheng, he has arranged a list of weapons, and Xiao Li Feidao is just in the third place.There are many reasons for this, perhaps it is that he has accepted more than a hundred challenges, large and small, since he walked the rivers and lakes, and he has never retreated or failed. The temperament of jade is unforgettable.There are many heroes in the world, and there are many reckless heroes. How many people can there be like this?This may be just a joke, but his gentle eyes seem to contain the green of the whole spring, and how many people have been fascinated is unknown.But one thing is for sure, Xiao Li Feidao belongs to the Jianghu, who can separate them?

Li Xunhuan went to Beijing to rush for the exam this year. His father and brother sent each other off with their sick bodies, and they explained in detail and asked not to mention it. Not long after, they left space for Lin Shiyin who came with him. The difference between the two is only two years old. Now Lin Shiyin is also out A slim young girl, but the beauty is now facing her cousin with tears in her eyes and speechless, the two of them never get together much, this time he will go to the capital not long after his return, Lin Shiyin only feels that parting is like a blunt knife cutting inch by inch in mind.Li Xunhuan was reluctant to give up for a while, but forced a smile to promise:

"When I'm in high school, I'll come back and marry you." Vows are often just seasonings for pain, but unfortunately no one knew it at the time.

The prosperity of Kyoto is always filled with the taste of desire for equity, and in this season, the Zhuangyuan Building in Beijing is the most prosperous place in the city.Candidates rushing to take the exam from all over the world gathered together, flattering each other, probing, and writing essays all day long.Li Xun Huan is incompatible with this scene. Although he always smiles gently and modestly, he is not very happy. .

Ximen Chuuxue never passed the exam, but he knew it was not easy.Accompanied by Li Xunhuan for a few days in a cell-like hut, he obviously had a choice to stay in a more open place outside the house, but he didn't even know why he didn't make this choice.When I left the examination room nine days later, I was shocked to feel like a lifetime away.He waited with him for the announcement, watched him leaning against the window rail and looking into the distance, sipping a glass of wine, whether it was an illusion or not, but at such a young age, he felt somewhat lonely out of thin air.Accompanying him into the Golden Palace, watching the emperor Bifeng reincarnate and change the number one scholar to Tanhualang, saying that he has earned the reputation of his father and son Santanhua, the astonishment in Li Xunhuan's eyes faded away, and he respectfully accepted the decree. With the addition of Xiao Li Tanhua, the Hanlin Academy has gained a famous romantic Hanlin.

The emperor personally handwritten the imperial couplet and sent it to Taiyuan Mansion:

A family of seven Jinshi, father and son three times

This is really a great honor, but "Tanhua, it's Tanhua again..." Father Li murmured.After all, Tanhua was not the No. [-] scholar. Even though he knew that it was not something human could do, he was disappointed and was hit hard, and this blow made him sick.

Li Xun Huan is running on the official road at this moment, he has not closed his eyes for three days and three nights.Three days ago, he received a letter from his brother's family who was critically ill, hastily drafted a memorial to ask for leave, and set off without waiting for a response.After changing three good horses along the way, he didn't seem to feel tired. He only had one thought in his mind: go faster, go faster!

When he rushed home, his face was already haggard and dusty, and before he had time to tidy up, he hurried to his brother's room.

Li Chengyu was on his deathbed, holding his breath and waiting for his younger brother to return home to see him for the last time.But now seeing his face full of wind and frost, he was full of distress and reluctance, he tried his best to draw a smile, and said:

"Look at you...you can't even see the slightest flirtatious appearance...be careful...be careful Shiyin will not want you after seeing it..." His eyes were sunken, and he was almost skinny Out of shape, how could she still have the appearance of being as rich as jade in the past.

Li Xunhuan could only feel the sadness in his eyes, his elder brother always loved him, and the warmth of brotherhood in the past was now pouring into his heart like molten iron, but he knew that he should not show sorrow at this moment, how could he let his elder brother get into this situation Also worry about him.

"If you can't see it... then you can't see it, brother..." He choked up and couldn't say another word, for fear that the tears would roll out of his eyes uncontrollably.

Li Chengyu couldn't see his hard-working and forbearing appearance, and for a moment he only felt sadness from his heart, and he couldn't feel guilt in his eyes.What is he guilty of?Li Xun Huan was even more sad, he taught him since he was a child, pitied him, pampered him, protected him, there is no more perfect elder brother than him, why does he feel guilty towards him now?His handsome and elegant elder brother is now tormented by the illness, Li Xunhuan held his hand tremblingly, just like what he did to himself every winter when he was a child, but the warm hands that used to be no longer warm.

"From now on, you... want to... take care of... take care of yourself..." What do you want, what do you want, be happy, be happy, that's all A free and unrestrained life.Big Brother can no longer protect you, so, Xun Huan, he lamented in his heart, you are too subservient, will you take good care of yourself when no one is watching?He hasn't had time to see him and Shiyin get married and have children, and he hasn't had time to see his children and grandchildren, how can he be reconciled?But so what if you are not reconciled, things are unpredictable in the world, and you can't help yourself. He slowly moved his eyes to look at his wife who had been guarding him in undressed clothes. At this moment, she had no tears in her eyes and looked calm. He seemed to have seen through her decisive plan under her calm appearance. , but she couldn't stop her at all. She was still so young, and he still failed her in the end.Then he looked at the sad old father, it was really unfilial to let him send a white-haired man to a black-haired man.But so what?With all kinds of reluctance and all kinds of helplessness, he closed his eyes and couldn't open them again.Standing before the arrival of a person, who said he didn't die young.

The palm of his hand sank, and Li Xun Huan knew that his eldest brother was gone.What is the pain of bereavement?He experienced it years ago.All kinds of mournful wailing choked in his throat, his hair couldn't swallow, he almost wanted to vomit blood, but now he couldn't even shed tears, look at the trembling sister-in-law beside him, old tears filled his temples with frost Father, he swallowed tears with red eyes, where will the tears that can't come out go?He wanted to go back to his chest, scald his intestines, and die in pain, but he didn't show it on his face. He helped the old man back to the room and left the last space for the poor widowed woman. This was the only thing he had. can do.

Xu Shi was blessed but misfortunes never come singly. The next day, the servants found the bodies of Li and his wife in the room. They were dressed solemnly. They thought that the sister-in-law died for him not long after they left.His son and daughter-in-law passed away one after another. Li Songling couldn't bear the blow in the end, and he passed away not long after.Li Xunhuan was the only one left in the huge Li Garden.

That day the sky was as blue as ice, and the sun as sunny as gold, Li Xun Huan knew that he would be alone from now on.

Grief had made him numb physically and mentally. He stood at the gate of Li Yuan, watching the coffins of his father and brother and sister-in-law being carried out one by one. His back was still straight, but Ximen Chuuxue felt that he was crumbling.Ximen Chuixue's hand holding the sword turned pale, and his pale palm was pinched with red marks, so what if he followed Li Xun Huan's grief?After all, he can only wander outside his world like a spectator forever.God is so fair, let him see it but never touch it.

Lin Shiyin hurried over and broke Li Xunhuan's numb cage.With tears in her eyes, she threw herself into her cousin's arms, and the two embraced tightly. In this world, Li Xunhuan had only Lin Shiyin as his relative.