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This night, Su Hang was not awakened by the nightmare again.

She was still in a dream, still in that hospital corridor, still in that ward, the person who looked exactly like her, and Cheng Zhiang who was on the verge of death.

All the pictures are the same as every previous night.

It's just that this time she seems to be lucky enough to bring in the memories from reality, and she clearly knows that this is a dream.

She didn't stop her dream self from saying those words, nor did she help Cheng Zhiang, she just walked into the ward and looked at each other coldly.

Cheng Zhiang still said those words that made her panic and uneasy, and those eyes full of lifeless eyes also came to her.

Her complexion was frosty all the time, and her eyes stared at the sharp sword hidden in the darkness like a torch.

Slowly, they all turned into thick gray smoke and drifted away from her eyes.

In the morning, Su Hang woke up naturally, and reflexively turned over to hug the people around him.

It's just that her arms were thrown into the air, her sleepiness subsided a little, she wrinkled her face and half opened her eyes to look for the person who should have been hugged into her arms.

Xiao Yige took care of the skin in front of the dressing table, unscrewed the bottles and jars on the table, and applied the lotion on the white and greasy skin.

She pulled the skirt down a little, so that the shoulders and neck were also favored.

The slender curves were exposed to the air for a moment before being covered up. Su Hang was so fascinated by it that he didn't even respond when he came to sit by the bed.

Xiao Yige stretched out a finger to lightly poke the center of her brow, and said in a playful tone with a natural softness: "Wake up and don't make a sound, peek at me here."

Suhang reached out from under the quilt to grab the corner of her nightgown, and said in a sleepy voice, "You look good."

This mouth is really sweet.

Xiao Yige smiled and leaned over to kiss her cheek, "I'm hungry, get up and make breakfast for me."

Suhang raised his chin to kiss deeply, but Xiao Yige's hand blocked his mouth.

She blinked aggrievedly, as if asking why she wasn't allowed to kiss.

Xiao Yige let go helplessly, "...go brush your teeth and wash your face, or don't even think about it."

This person's hair was messy, and he was lazy as if he hadn't woken up. With such a kiss, the two of them would probably roll into the bed later, and half a day would just be gone.

Suhang immediately got up from the bed, "I'll go right away."

As if in a hurry, Yigulu got off the bed and went straight to the bathroom.

But after washing up, he didn't continue the intimacy just now, instead he honestly went to the kitchen to make breakfast.

Today is the second day of the Lunar New Year, so they don't need to go to their elders anymore, the two of them just stay at home to eat, drink and have fun.

Earlier, Xiao Yige prepared a lot of snacks, and the two of them started picking out movies to watch after breakfast.

They never get tired of watching old movies, so they searched for "Tang Bohu Spots Autumn Fragrance", and hugged each other on the sofa in the humorous tone of the movie.

When Tang Bohu's fantasy when picking up the kite was shattered, Xiao Yige couldn't help laughing in Suhang's arms.

Suhang lowered his head and sniffed the fragrance in her ears, he preferred to immerse himself in the tranquility and intimacy of embracing Xiao Yige compared to movies.

Xiao Yige felt that Suhang was absent-minded about the movie, so he turned his head and rubbed her face, "Why do you keep making small moves?"

Either the hands were dishonest, or the warm breath was handed over. He was really not interested in the movie at all.

Su Hang and her forehead touched each other, and murmured in attachment: "I watch it occasionally, and I want to sleep by your side."

The quality of sleep these days is not good, and now she wants to sleep when she is free, these two days have been comforted by Xiao Yige, she even wants to do nothing but sleep by Xiao Yige's side.

Xiao Yige pressed the tip of her nose against hers, hesitated for a moment and then said: "Hang Hang, I have something to discuss with you."

"Huh?" Suhang raised his lips.

"I want to find a psychiatrist for you," Xiao Yige breathed heavily, seeing the smile slowly disappearing from the corners of her lips in front of her eyes, she explained without concealing her concern, "Your condition is starting to affect your body, although my comfort these two days has made you feel uncomfortable. You have improved a bit, but the fundamental knot has not been untied, and one day it will relapse again. If this continues, your body will not be able to bear it, and this is not something we can solve alone."

The call she made last night was to ask a friend to help her contact a trusted psychiatrist.

The consolation these two days had played a certain soothing effect on Suhang, but she had hit the right button in the end, and she had no idea how to completely get rid of Suhang's heart disease next.

The most important thing is that the appeasement in the past two days is only a relief, and it is a temporary effect rather than a permanent cure.

To completely relieve Suhang, professionals are needed to prescribe the right medicine. If she continues to blunder like a headless chicken, there is no guarantee that one day Suhang's symptoms will worsen.

Suhang was quiet, and said with a normal face: "I don't think it's necessary, just recover slowly."

Xiao Yige turned to her, holding her face patiently and softly, "Hanghang, we can't keep adjusting by ourselves, I can only let you temporarily relieve it these two days, your knot still exists. I don't I know what to do next, and I don't know if it will be counterproductive, I am really worried about you..."

If possible, Xiao Yige didn't want Suhang to feel that he was sick.

This is obviously the negative emotions imposed on her by Cheng Zhiang, fear, accusation, oppression, so much dirt like a mountain weighed on Suhang, no matter who changed today, she couldn't bear it.

Suhang's heart has reached its limit and cannot stand the experiment.

Xiao Yige touched her trembling eyelashes with his fingertips, and slowly kissed her lips again and again, worry and tenderness melted between his lips.

"Let me think."

Suhang finally spoke, lowering his gaze.

Xiao Yige smiled gratifiedly, "Okay."

In the afternoon, Suhang wanted to go out for a walk.

Xiao Yige didn't stop her, thinking that she probably wanted to stay and think about whether to see a psychiatrist.

Su Hang drove the car and went as he wanted on the deserted streets.

The second day of the Lunar New Year is still a day for family reunions, no shops are open, and there are no pedestrians.

She called Yao Ji'an, and it happened that Yao Ji'an returned to his home from his parents' house, so he immediately invited her over.

There were no shops open on the street, so she couldn't buy any gifts, so she had to buy some snacks and drinks from Yao Ji'an's community store to bring them up.

Yao Ji'an smiled when he opened the door, and joked as he welcomed her in: "What are you doing, come to complain to me on the second day of the new year?"

Suhang handed her the things and smiled as easily as possible: "I want to chat with you."

Yao Ji'an looked at the snacks and then at Suhang inquiringly, guessing half-understood: "Is something wrong with Yige? Don't want to hang around for three months again."

I don't know what kind of unique impression the original agreement gave Yao Ji'an, but now seeing her troubles, I always feel that she is going to shrink herself into a shell again.

Suhang smiled and said: "No, listen to me slowly."

Yao Ji'an readily agreed: "Okay, I just plan to stay at home today."

The two of them went to the tea table by the window. Yao Ji'an opened the tea leaves he had just bought and made a pot of hot tea, paired with the snacks he bought in Suzhou and Hangzhou, looking nondescript and doing whatever he wanted.

After taking a sip of hot tea, Su Hang breathed a sigh of relief and said, "Did you know that I was the only one present when Cheng Zhiang left?"

Yao Ji'an brewed tea, and replied casually: "Yes, Feifei came back and told me. I won't talk too much with Feifei, but I think it's a good thing that your life will not be disturbed in the future."

She can't learn Mo Feifei's submachine gun-like mouth, after all, the dead are the most important, but she really thinks that this incident is not a bad thing for Suhang, and it even brings a more comfortable life.

Having worked together for many years, Suhang naturally knew what Yao Ji'an meant, and said with a slight smile: "I understand. What I want to say is that since he left, I always have nightmares. I dreamed of the day he left, and dreamed that he accused me of killing me. I lost him... I tried my best to suppress the fear brought by this dream, I don’t think I’m afraid of it, but I’m always affected by it.”

The more she spoke, the lower her voice became, and at the end she sighed softly, showing the powerlessness after struggling.

"So?" Yao Ji'an took a sip of tea, keenly aware that this is not the point.

Suhang and Xiao Yige usually have a good relationship, this kind of nightmare can be told to Xiao Yige, why bother to seek her from afar, I am afraid that the key to Suhang's heavy heart is not here.

She tore open a packet of beef jerky and waited while eating.

Suhang took another sip of tea, and it was a bit difficult to speak: "Yi Ge said that he wanted to hire a psychiatrist for me, but when he was kicked out by Cheng Zhiang when he was young, my mother also wanted to hire a psychiatrist for me..."

Yao Ji'an struggled to bite the chewy beef jerky, and nodded suddenly, the key point was here.

Swallowing a mouthful of jerky, she pointed it out bluntly: "Are you afraid of seeing a doctor?"

Suhang nodded, then pursed his lips and shook his head, "I think I can deal with this, I don't need to see a doctor, and it's not my fault, why is it me who got sick in the end... Sister Ji An, the one who should bear it is not I."

When she was a child, Su Lanjun saw that she didn't like to laugh anymore, so he was so anxious to take her to see a psychiatrist.

She didn't agree, and whenever Su Lanjun wanted to take action, she locked herself in the room.

Su Lanjun had no choice but to see that she didn't have any problems in her daily life, so she gradually gave up this idea.

She has come here smoothly for so many years, and there is nothing wrong with her psychology, at most, her temperament has changed a little, which means that she is victorious in the end, and there is nothing wrong with her.

Yao Ji'an understood it.

The negative influence brought by Cheng Zhiang has been from Suhang's childhood to growing up, and he can't get rid of it even now. Now Suhang's psychological state is somewhat problematic. His thinking is stuck in a dead end and he can't turn a corner. He still doesn't know how to analyze it from another angle.

But she couldn't point it out so directly, she took a sip of tea and organized her words for a while, and said, "I think, you should try to put yourself in another place and look at yourself from the perspective of Auntie and Yige. They will think you are wrong So, do you think you have to bear these bad things? Obviously not. "

Suhang picked up the teacup, sipped the tea, and gnawed his teeth on the rim of the cup.

How could she think that Su Lanjun and Xiao Yige thought there was something wrong with her, she just wanted to defeat Cheng Zhiang by herself, including the mind control left by him.

She wanted to get rid of it all on her own, and she didn't want to be trampled underfoot by things that were trying to destroy her.

What's more, she is much better now than before. In the past, she didn't even want to share with Su Lanjun, but now she will rely on Xiao Yige.

While she was thinking, Yao Ji'an said again: "These things are not in conflict. Needing to see a doctor doesn't mean you bear the consequences of these things. Seeing a doctor just means that your girlfriend and your mother care about you, there are not so many messy meanings. understand?"

Suhang was still nibbling on the rim of the cup with his teeth, silently looking down at the tea in the cup.

Yao Ji'an laughed, and his usual unkind words suddenly became sharper: "If we really want to talk about the result of these things, shouldn't Cheng Zhiang die of illness. If he was better to you and aunt in the past, there would be no Cheng Yuzhe.

When you grow up and stay with Yi Ge, won't what he wants come true?This is a drama in which he dug his own grave step by step. You are just a supporting role passing by in this drama. You can't be called responsible for anything, but you are implicated and hurt by him. Shouldn't this be treated? "

After a second, two seconds passed, Suhang was still silent.

After an unknown amount of time, she suddenly put down her teacup and smiled, "I'm so stupid."

In this story with Cheng Zhiang, she should not be the protagonist, but a supporting role that pushes the protagonist towards the cliff step by step.

The person who bears the ending of the story is never her, but Cheng Zhiang.

"Thank you, Sister Ji An," Su Hang stood up and thanked, and couldn't wait to go home, "You are really good at comforting, sometimes I can't think of another angle of things."

Yao Ji'an got up and smiled nonchalantly: "You are younger than me, and you didn't have much social experience in the past. If you are a boss for a few more years, you will be like me."

Suhang smiled without saying a word, and looked into the living room.

There are so many fresh ingredients on the coffee table that one person can't finish them all.

Her mood moved slightly, "...Is this for two people?"

"Well," Yao Ji'an admitted generously, with some emotion in his words, "For dinner tonight, my heart is not made of iron."

Suhang didn't ask any more questions, and drove back to Taohuayuan before the meal time.

There is no one along the way, but in her view, it is a bright and bright road.

She couldn't wait to park the car and go upstairs, when she opened the door, she saw Xiao Yige brought a glass of juice and put it on the coffee table.

Seeing her come back, Xiao Yige smiled: "Are you back?"

He didn't rush to ask her where she went, whether she had figured out the problem, but just looked at her so quietly and gently.

With the cold air outside, Suhang took off his coat and threw it on the sofa in a few steps, and embraced her in his arms with playful eyes.

"Yige, I'm fine..." She breathed unevenly, and the corners of her mouth curved happily, "I'm all fine, I'm not afraid anymore, I won't have any more nightmares tonight."

When her whispering came to an end, she let go of her arms to look at Xiao Yige.

Xiao Yige held back a smile and frowned, looking suspicious and worried.

The joy of Su Hang rushing all the way back suddenly sank, she held Xiao Yige's hand and touched her face, "Then you find a psychiatrist for me, as long as it can make you feel at ease."

Xiao Yige was a little surprised: "Really?"

"Well," Suhang nodded heavily, smiling meekly with his lips curved, "I'm obedient."

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Yige: Obedient is a good baby.