Offensive change: superficial love

"If my mother disappears one day, will Yu Ju come to look for her?" Yan Ziyou rested his chin on his palm, his beautiful eyes were filled with a smile, and he was staring at Yan Ji expectantly.

Her well-trimmed long curly hair was fluffed up by a lace headband, casually placed on her chest, and the dark green long dress made her skin so white that it glowed.

Yan Ziyou seems to have really returned to that little body. He just stepped into junior high school, holding the pen in his hand, and is lazily lying on the carpet in the living room, writing his homework——Yan Ziyou doesn't like him sitting on the table with a serious eye. Studying in the study room, she thinks it will make Yan Ji look like a little nerd.

After a short period of daze, Yan Ju seemed to have finally come to his senses. He remembered his answer at that time:

"I won't look for it, I still have to go to class, and my father will bring my mother back."

"Mom likes to run outside when she gets angry, but Dad can always guess where you are."

And the subsequent ending also shows that the other party can indeed always find Yan Ziyou.

It's just that he didn't bring her back intact this time.

"Do you have to go?" Yan Ju calmly raised his head to meet her gaze, and gave different reactions.

Yan Ziyou seemed to be at a loss because of this question, he wrapped his fingers around the ends of his hair with a guilty conscience, and his bright smile restrained a little, as if he had been poked into something sad.

"Maybe." She pinched Yan Ju's milky face, and the broken diamonds on the manicure made Yan Ju a little itchy, "There are too many uncertainties in life. Although my mother is very reluctant to part with Chang Chang, maybe someone God I would want to be a ray of wind."

She smiled coquettishly, like an ignorant girl, completely unaware of how cruel the assumptions she made were to children who depended on their mothers.

Yan Ziyou paused for a moment, stood up and hugged Yan Yan's waist, trying hard to imagine picking him up and turning him around like when he was a child, but unfortunately, Yan Yan had already started to twitch quickly at the beginning of the year, and at this time his stature was almost reaching her shoulders up.

Yan Ziyou, who tried unsuccessfully, seemed to be a little regretful. She pretended to be indifferent and picked up the end of what she just said: "It may also be a wave, a bird, a star, or a ray of sunshine."

After finishing speaking, she couldn't stop coughing several times, and gently covered Yan Ji's eyes with the palm of her hand as if trying to cover it up: "What does Chang Chang like?"

It was only then that Yan Ju noticed that Yan Ziyou was really too white, not a healthy whiteness, but a misty paleness, paired with cherry red nails, even faintly revealing a bit of abnormal sickness .

He was a little dazed.

The dream was so deceptive that he really couldn't tell whether it was a deep memory that he had been reluctant to touch for many years, or the brain was automatically completing an "artistic" detail——

After all, the skin of a person who has passed away really shouldn't look too healthy.

Thoughts were still churning silently, and the words that had been brewing for a long time flowed out of his throat uncontrollably. Although Yan Ji was ready to cut off from the past, even though it was just an illusory exercise, he still trembled a little:

"You can become the sunset, I like the sunset."

"In this way, every time I see you in the future, it means that there will be good weather the next day."

Yan Ziyou muttered Yan Ji's answer several times, as if he was very satisfied, he hugged him lightly from behind: "No problem, Chang Chang can do whatever she wants."

"Mom." Yan Ju called out lightly, he took a deep breath, paused for a moment, and finally poured out the confusion that had been lingering in his heart for more than ten years, "You always ask me this kind of question recently , Are you paving the way for abandoning me?"

The other party's leaving without explanation has always been a part of Yan Ju's complicated heart. This feeling of being let go easily is not good. It is difficult to wait for a response to the mystery.

Yan Ju seems to be stuffed into the narrow gap where his mother loves him so much but doesn't love him. The only observer who can make this uncertainty collapse can no longer give him an answer.

The only thing he can do is to reconstruct the past and fill up his regrets in the void of dreams.

Yan Ju didn't want or dare to touch this memory before, but it's different now.

He knew that the moment he opened his eyes, no matter how broken he was, someone would be sensitive to him and kiss his forehead softly, as if coaxing a child living in a nightmare, with a tone that could penetrate every inch of anxiety She smiled and asked him, "Did you sleep well?"

"Why are you so wronged?"

……

Yan Ziyou's body seemed to be stiff, but the moment he realized it, he hugged Yan Ji tightly into his arms: "How could it be, how could it be, my baby, why do you think so..."

Yan Ju couldn't see her expression, but felt that she sounded sad: "Mom hates you, but mom can't take you with me."

"You have to grow up healthy and healthy, do what you want to do, meet like-minded friends, and fall in love with the person you like."

"If it goes well, you will slowly grow old in the process of experiencing countless happiness in the world. If you are lucky enough, there may be someone who can accompany you through this process."

"Mom is just a small part of your happiness, and you are also a small part of your mother, so don't regret it." Yan Ziyou kissed Yan Ji's hair, and said to himself with some regret, "I Selfish enough already..."

The next second, she smiled and took Yan Ju's hand, as if floating, she led Yan Ju out of the house: "Don't study so hard, you are already very good, No.1."

"Let's go to see the sunset..."

The moment he walked out of the door, the scene suddenly jumped——

There is no need for logic in dreams.

Whoever I want to see may not be able to meet, and those who don't want to see will always come out to bother me inexplicably.

"Sorry, I can't get away here. Can you do the project in Jingcheng yourself?" Bo Lu, who has graduated for a year, drove to pick up Yan Ji who had finished his defense and went back to the company. At that time, the question was directly thrown out.

Yan Ju couldn't help but startled.

By the way, this is the scene before he returns to Jingcheng for the last time except for the one not long ago.

He originally didn't want to talk about it in person, but because of Bo Lu's repeated requests and the other party's promise that "I will go back with you, I want to see the city you lived in and your childhood home", Yan Ji agreed.

As a result, he was busy with everything, and released his pigeons before leaving.

But Yan Ju remembers that he didn't seem to have any unnecessary reaction at that time, he just replied flatly "Yes, this project is easier".

There was no displeasure, and he didn't bother to explain his previous resistance to the other party.

And Bo Lu didn't ask, he just seemed very relieved, ruffled Yan Ji's hair with a teasing smile, like a mature and stable lover, calling the nickname he gave Yan Ji when he was a student , and praised gently: "It's amazing, you can already be on your own."

"No. 1."

……

So Yan Yu went back to Jingcheng by himself, stayed in the hotel booked by the company and did not go home, and went to the cemetery alone to see Yan Ziyou the day before his return.

The exhaustion of many days of running was mixed with low and delicate emotions. Yan Yan sat silently on the stone steps and listened to the cicadas for an unknown amount of time. Finally, he even fell asleep leaning against the tombstone. The administrator called him when the park was about to close. wake up.

On the way down the mountain that day, Yan Ju accidentally drove in the wrong direction and drove into a private beach.

The owner there is an old couple who have retired for many years. Their children have immigrated long ago, but they are unable to leave their homeland, and they accompany each other to retire here.

Yan Jie sat on the reef on the shore chatting with the two, drank the rice wine they made themselves, and saw the most beautiful sunset in their lives.

The red flame-like sunset glow burns layers of waves like clouds.

Last time he wanted to take Chu Ruxu to see it again.

It's a pity that the kid was busy with other things at the time.

"Brother, brother, Yan Ju..."

"Wow, wang wang!"

There seemed to be a familiar voice calling him in the haze. Although he was a little bit reluctant, Yan Ju still tried his best to open his eyes and persuade himself to wake up.

The car window on his side was lowered at some point, and the sea breeze with a faint salty smell blew in unscrupulously.

Yan Ju, whose consciousness had not yet fully recovered, couldn't help feeling a little dazed.

Chu Ruxu, who was standing outside holding Brownie, pinched Yan Ji's chin mysteriously, not allowing him to shift his gaze a little bit.

Chu Ruxu's arms were propped on the window sill, and the hair that he hadn't had time to take care of carefully was stroked back casually. He took a soft kiss with Yan Ju who hadn't reacted yet.

"Do you remember what we missed in Jingcheng last time?" Chu Ruxu asked softly, her eyes full of flamboyant smiles.

After finishing speaking, as if he couldn't wait for a response, he moved his fingers directly along Yan Ju's jaw line, gently supported his side face, and straightened Yan Ju's head.

In an instant, the sky, rendered magnificent enough by nature, crashed into Yan Ji's eyes.

The thick cumulonimbus clouds on the left have not completely dissipated, and they seem to be touching the sea level. They are willingly reflected in a deep blue, and the haze mixed in the clouds is still faintly beating.

On the right side is the orange-red that slowly permeates to the other side. The blood-like color decreases in saturation layer by layer from far to near. Even the froth that is slapped is sprinkled with glittering gold powder.

The setting sun that is about to fall is hidden behind, broken in the gap between the clouds that are gradually merging, just burn quietly, and don't care what the embers will disperse.

The connection between the dream and the reality was too smooth, Yan Ji blinked blankly, and even couldn't tell whether he had really woken up or not.

Until Chu Ruxu opened the car door.

Brownie jumped onto his lap enthusiastically, whining and coquettishly expertly.

On the other hand, Chu Ruxu leaned down, approached him arrogantly, and kissed the tears at the corner of his eyes with great pity.

Only then did Yan Ju notice the slight dampness on his temples, and he actually cried in his dream?

It's a bit embarrassing.

But Chu Ruxu didn't give him a chance to think about these details. With his fingertips, he gently brushed the hair on Yan Ju's forehead that covered his eyes to the side of his face, and then dropped a kiss with a slight bite on his lips. .

After a while, Chu Ruxu separated from Yan Ju in satisfaction, and then kissed the tip of his nose and the redness at the corners of his eyes, which spread to his ears.

"The sea that I couldn't accompany you to see last time, I made up for it this time."

Chu Ruxu's tone was frivolous yet solemn, and his clear, youthful voice was deliberately lowered, which made Yan Ju feel amused reflexively, but also inexplicably relieved.

His eyes were full of worry and pity, as in Yan Ju's dream, he pretended to be relaxed and asked, "Did you sleep well?"

"Why are you so wronged?"

But in the end there are still some subtle differences.

Just as Yan Ju was about to subconsciously shake his head and deny it, Chu Ruxu seemed to know something, pinching Yan Ju's mouth up and down, not wanting to hear him make random remarks there to try to be strong.

After the two stared at each other in silence for a moment, he probably felt that Yan Ji's appearance was a little weird and cute, but he couldn't help it, and burst out laughing.

The romantic and lingering atmosphere around him immediately dissipated most of it.

Chu Ruxu rubbed Yan Ju's frowning brows in a consoling manner, knowingly let go of Yan Ju, but he didn't seem to intend to give up the promise he had prepared in advance.

He took Yan Ju's hand and interlocked his fingers.

Yan Ju's young lover, the attitude between the lines is as solemn as an oath, he said: "I will try my best to make up for all your regrets."

"Yan Ji."

"Don't be sad anymore."

……

The author says:

Come, come, come -3-

I hardly slept last night when I was tossing and unlocking the lock, and today I am not in a good state, and I didn’t write out the agreed addition, my fault orz;

Tomorrow, double shift will be the bottom line, and three shifts will be made as much as possible. Thank you for your understanding, post!

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感谢在2022-09-1500:00:00-2022-09-1722:09:42期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦——

Thanks to the little angels who cast the landmines: Planet, Brownie the puppy, and Ah Qing want to get rich one by one;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：一杏袅里74瓶；阿晴要暴富25瓶；小狗布朗尼13瓶；哥只是个传说10瓶；黎阿酒8瓶；程轶、老婆快更新、cxxx5瓶；长翅膀的梦、你的猫在我手里2瓶；宅家的巨兔、改不了的堕性、susuna——闲小鱼、磕CP使我快乐、夏听清颂、江橘1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!