The Cliff of Eternal Sun

He lied.

He lied to Ji Suian, he didn't just walk around outside casually, he followed a direction, and walked a long way, from early morning to dusk, the bustling gradually faded, he relied on A pair of feet, almost out of the city.

He also lied to himself. From the moment he woke up, he knew his next path. This was an accident that shouldn't have happened, and he had to leave.He knew exactly what he should do in his heart, and he made up his mind, but every time he took a step forward, there was a voice in his heart that bewitched him to go back—go back, you can see Ji Suian when you go back, and go see He glanced...

When the sun was setting, he stood in the fading twilight and stopped.

The longing in his heart was so strong that it wanted to swallow him, every bone in him was in severe pain because of this longing, he couldn't resist, so he made excuses for himself - go back, at least return the key to Ji Suian, and then he just go.

After making a decision, he turned around and walked towards the way he came. His pace became faster and faster, and he almost ran at the end.

In the early morning of the next day, when there was another movement outside the door, Wei Mu put the key that he had clutched all night on the bedside table.The gray pajamas next to him had already been neatly folded, and struggle flashed in his eyes, he had worn this dress, Ji Suian probably would not want it again, instead of throwing it away, could he take it away?After hesitating for a moment, he stuffed the pajamas into his bag.

The mobile phone that Ji Suian gave him last night is still in his hand. The black body, low-key color and style are what Ji Suian prefers. Wei Mu gently stroked it with his fingers, as if he could still Feel the temperature of Ji Suian once holding it.

Now that he has decided to indulge his selfishness once, there is no difference between fifty steps and one hundred steps. He also put his mobile phone in the bag, sticking to his gray pajamas.

This morning was no different from yesterday. He followed Ji Suian downstairs, watched Ji Suian get in the car and start it, and said "goodbye" to Ji Suian seriously again, and then looked at the black car far away. go.

After leaving the community, he stood on the side of the road for a while, this time Ji Suian did not come back.

Wei Mu finally decided to leave.

He didn't have a clear destination, and it wasn't the first time for him to go on such a purposeless journey.

After Zhou Mingchuan was imprisoned, Dehai went bankrupt, and Wei Mu also left that bustling city by the sea.He didn't bring any luggage, so he went to the train station alone, looked at the big screen on the square outside the station for a while, randomly chose the train with the farthest distance, and it took more than 20 hours to reach the terminal.

It was a slow train, and he bought the cheapest hard seat. There were people coming and going in the carriage, mixed with various accents. He sat in the innermost position by the window, leaning his head against the wall, but fell asleep. He had the sweetest sleep in years, and sometimes he would be woken up by noisy human voices, but he was so sleepy that he couldn't open his eyes, and fell asleep after only being awake for a moment.

The hard seat is uncomfortable, and sitting for a long time makes the legs swollen and painful, but he listened to the laughter of people in his sleep, and his heart felt more relaxed than ever.The relaxed feeling was like a mildew, quickly spreading all over his body, and finally turned into a void where he didn't know what to do anymore.

But he didn't want to die, he always wanted to live.

He once fed a stray dog ​​as a child.The dog was only three or four months old, and somehow got separated from the bitch, and hid in the reeds by the river every day looking for garbage to eat. After Wei Mu found it, he went to feed it almost every day.It was a pure black puppy with soft fur and warm black eyes, so Wei Mu named it "Xiao Hei".That might have been his first friend, but they didn't hang out together for very long.

One evening, when Wei Mu went to look for it again, he found that it was lying sleepy on the root of the reed, and didn't raise its head when it heard any movement, and its blood was everywhere on the ground.Wei Mu was terrified, squatting down and touching its head carefully, but only felt the heavy panting of the usual lively little milk dog. Wei Mu called it "Xiao Hei", and it raised its head slightly, with black eyes Moist, as if begging, gently rubbed Wei Mu's hand with his nose.

It couldn't stand up anymore, Wei Mu ran on the street while holding it and crying, trying to find a place where he could see a doctor for it, but he didn't know where to go at all. It was strange for a child to cry on the street with a dog in his arms, so he came over to look at it, and then told him regretfully that the dog would not survive.He cried uncontrollably and begged them to save Xiao Hei. The people on the side of the road shook their heads and said, "It can only rely on itself, if it can survive it, it will live, if it cannot survive it, it will die."

The puppy in his arms was so obedient, he didn't snort from the beginning to the end, and just lay motionless in his small arms.Wei Mu watched its pair of warm black eyes open, then slowly close again, open again when Wei Mu shook it, then close again, and finally ended up in this posture forever.

Those dark eyes remained in Wei Mu's memory for a long time. It was the first time he knew death, and since then, he wanted to live no matter what.

The terminal of that train was a city whose name he had never heard before, called Willow Hill.The small city in the mountains was poor and backward, but he was not dissatisfied. He just wanted to find a place far away from Zhou Mingchuan, the place where Liang Yan and Wei Yi lived, and far away from Ji Suian.

During the three years by Zhou Mingchuan's side, he earned money that he thought he would never earn in his lifetime, donated most of it, and the rest was enough for him to live in that small city safely.He rented a small house with a yard and tried his best to live a normal life. He planted a lot of flowers in the yard, but for some reason, even though he spent so much energy, those flowers never lived long. One day it inevitably goes to decline, and the small courtyard is always fresh and tender for a while, and then it is bare again.

He didn't think about the future, but he seemed to be waiting for something in the dark.

Until his body reacted with discomfort and his abdomen hurt for several days in a row, like every life-saving person, he hurried to the largest hospital in Liushan and got the best number.

The doctor frowned while watching the film, as if he didn't know how to speak, and finally said in his eager eyes, you should be mentally prepared, it may be gastric cancer, but the lesion is not obvious now, and a more detailed examination is needed to find out. confirm.

Under the strange sight of the doctor, Wei Mu finally couldn't hold back a smile. He said, thank you doctor, and then left the hospital easily, ignoring the shouts behind him, and didn't do any further examinations.

He spent the whole afternoon pulling out most of the dead flowers and plants, and then retreated from the house. In the scorching red sunset, he locked the courtyard door, took a taxi by the side of the road, and set his destination at 100 Deep mountains many kilometers away.

In the early morning of the next day, when he stood on the top of the mountain, the cool wind blew over his body, and there was a crimson dawn in the distant sky, he looked up and felt very happy.He thought in his heart that he was different from Liang Yan, he didn't want to give up, it was just his fate, and he couldn't help it, he had tried his best to live, but there were always things that couldn't be done in this world, He just went with the flow, so he no longer needs to feel guilty about this life.

He could finally leave with peace of mind.