The Cliff of Eternal Sun

He kept falling and falling in the darkness, the feeling of weightlessness was extremely strong, all the sensations suddenly disappeared, and his chest was nothing but emptiness.

He slowly opened his eyes and saw the yellow light and shadow printed on the white ceiling. This feeling seemed to last half his life, and he fell into an indescribable trance.

He turned his head and saw magnificent clouds hanging in the sky outside the window, and the red sunset light reflected into the room, dyeing the curtains pale pink.The sun also fell on the bed without hesitation, and fell on the back of his hand. He looked at it quietly for a while, then raised his hand. The sun was not disturbed, and it still enveloped the back of his hand warmly.

This is a beautiful evening.

It reminded him of a day many years ago when there were such gorgeous clouds and sunsets.

That time Ji Suian was busy all night and didn't come home until eight or nine in the morning. He took a shower and went to bed.Because it was the weekend, Wei Mu didn't go to work, and was afraid of disturbing Ji Suian, so he stayed in the study all morning. At noon, he made the meal and Ji Suian still refused to get up, half-opening his eyes and mumbled that he would not eat. He fell asleep again.He looked really sleepy, his eyes were black and blue, Wei Mu didn't want to call him again, so he went to have lunch by himself, then he had nothing to do, so he took a book from the bookshelf and went back to the bedroom, and went to bed Leaning next to Ji Suian to read a book.

The sunshine that day was also terribly good, illuminating the bedroom brightly and cleanly, and everything was very comfortable.He read a book for a while, looked at Ji Suian who fell asleep next to him for a while, and when he was tired of sitting and reading, he changed to a prone position to read. Looking at it, he remembered that the flowers at home hadn't been watered for several days, and he got up quickly He went to water the flowers with his slippers on, came back and lay down on the bed to pick up the book after watering, then he simply stopped reading and just focused on Ji Suian.

Unknowingly, he himself fell asleep, and when he woke up, the sky was still not dark, but the sun turned into a warm orange.Ji Suian's hands were wrapped around his waist at some point, and the thin bedding wrapped around the two of them exuded the fresh and clean smell of sunlight and laundry detergent. He watched Ji Suian sleeping peacefully under the setting sun. Eyebrows, thinking that he has done so many things this day, going out and coming back, falling asleep and waking up again, Ji Suian is still lying peacefully beside him, he can see him whenever he wants, life How can it be so good, so good that it is doubtful if it is a dream...

It really was a dream, and now, he woke up from the dream.

When Ji Suian pushed open the door, Wei Mu was sitting on the bed and watching the sunset outside the window intently.Hearing the sound of the door, he turned his head, and the eyes of the two met at a distance of two or three meters. Ji Suian's heart beat abnormally, and there was a slight numbness.Even if he spent a whole day digesting the fact that the person in front of him didn't know anything about what happened next, when he really met eye to eye, he still didn't know how to face it.

The two looked at each other for a moment, Wei Mu first looked away and smiled, as if a little embarrassed.He raised his hand meaninglessly and put it back on the quilt. He looked at the bed under him and said very apologetically, "I'm sorry, I made your bed dirty."

Ji Suian's heart seemed to be tightly squeezed by someone. He looked at Wei Mu's low neck, so thin and pale that it could almost be broken, and his shoulders were so thin that he felt a little lonely. Underneath, there are two deep and terrifying scars.

The corner of the doorknob pinched his palm, causing slight pain. Ji Suian gripped it hard, and then slowly let go. He took a step into the room, with a normal calm face, and said: "It's okay. .”

After this sentence was finished, the two of them had nothing else to say, and the room fell into a brief silence. After a moment of silence, Ji Suian asked again: "What do you want to eat?"

Wei Mu was obviously stunned for a moment, then raised his head in astonishment, Ji Suian frowned, turned around abruptly, left a sentence "I see it done", and walked out of the room quickly.

Ji Suian seldom cooks. When the two were together, Wei Mu cooked most of the time. Later, when they separated, the number of times he opened fire was even more rare. There was not much in the refrigerator, so it took a long time to find You can only order a bowl of clear soup noodles.

When the water boiled, Wei Mu came out of the bedroom. His steps were very light, and he closed the door very carefully. Ji Suian pretended not to notice, but just focused on the water in the pot. After a while, he took the While making noodles, I glanced over from the corner of my eye and saw Wei Mu sitting on the wooden stool next to the bar, staring at him with some ecstasy.

Every time we met in the past these days, Wei Mu's eyes were always fixed on him. He felt that the deep affection inside was fake, and he was only bored, but now, he watched the noodles collapse in the boiling water. Soft, think, this is Wei Mu who is just 23 years old. The 23-year-old Wei Mu who hasn't betrayed him yet and even really loves him, in the face of Wei Mu like this, his previous determination suddenly seems to be useless.

But Wei Mu's gaze didn't stay on him for too long. Soon, when he looked at Wei Mu again, he found that his head was lowered, as if he had become very interested in the wooden countertop. Ji Suian After watching it several times, he never raised his head again.

He stopped looking at Ji Suian, but Ji Suian couldn't help but started to look at him. Some yellow lights beside the bar hit the top of his hair, reflecting a layer of soft black on his hair. His body was unhealthy. The frailty was also softened by the light. He sat there, his whole person was as quiet as a painting that would never make a sound.

This was the first time Ji Suian looked at him so carefully after meeting again, and it was also the first time he wondered whether Wei Mu had a good meal these days.

There is no answer to this question, Ji Suian will not open his mouth to ask, and when he brought the noodles to Wei Mu, Wei Mu did not show any unusual interest, just lowered his head and picked up a thin slice with chopsticks. The noodles were slowly stuffed into the mouth.He didn't seem to be enjoying his meal. Ji Suian wanted to open his mouth several times, saying that if he didn't want to eat, he would leave it alone. In the end, he held back, but Wei Mu still ate it all bit by bit, and there was not even soup left. .

After eating, he consciously cleaned up the dishes and took them to the kitchen to wash. He didn't even look at Ji Suian during the whole process, but the strange thing is, the more he behaved, the more Ji Suian wanted to see him.

Ji Suian also felt that he should go to quiet down, so when Wei Mu came out of the kitchen, he turned and walked towards the study.When he was about to open the door and go in, Wei Mu suddenly asked, "Can I come with you?"

Ji Suian looked back at him, and as soon as his gaze touched Wei Mu's eyes, he quickly avoided and lowered his head: "I won't disturb your work if I don't make any noise."

After a few seconds of silence, Ji Suian let out a vague "um" from his nasal cavity, as if agreeing to his request.

Wei Mu was indeed very quiet, sitting motionless on the sofa opposite the desk, even if he tried to catch it, his breathing was so soft that he couldn't hear it.Ji Suian knew that he was constantly looking at him, but every time he raised his eyes, Wei Mu's eyes would quickly hide, and it took a long time before he slowly stretched out a little tentacles to test, Ji Suian suddenly looked at him after a long absence. Feeling soft towards him, he stopped looking up and focused his eyes on the document, letting Wei Mu look at it.

The sound of the hands of the clock on the wall was insignificant, but it gradually became the loudest sound in the room. Ji Suian was a little disturbed by the click, and finally couldn't help but raised his head, and found that Wei Mu was still sitting upright. On the sofa, both hands were neatly placed on his lap, but his eyes were closed.His face was lifted slightly, as if he was seriously feeling the sound and atmosphere in the room, and there was some wonderful smile on the corner of his mouth.

Ji Suian moved his fingers on the document, the paper turned over a page, and there was a slight friction sound, Wei Mu's head tilted slightly to one side, as if trying to capture the sound into his own invisible box, The smile on the corner of his mouth deepened.

Pages of documents were flipped through his hands, but Ji Suian didn't read a single word, his eyes were fixed on the person opposite.A long time ago, the study room in their home was small, but the two of them were always squeezed in it at the same time. When he was reading, Wei Mu would sit across from him with a book to read. Occasionally Wei Mu worked overtime, and he also read while reading. Accompanied by the side.Or even further, in the school library, they sat facing each other, hiding some unexplained thoughts, and secretly paying attention to the sound of the people opposite them flipping books many times.

Maybe it was because he hadn't heard the page turn for a long time, Wei Mu opened his eyes suspiciously, just in time to meet Shang Ji Suian's gaze staring at him, for a moment he seemed to be dragged from the illusion into reality, his body shook for a while He lowered his head in embarrassment, as if he had made a huge mistake, he apologized to Ji Suian in a panic, and said, "I'm sorry."

Ji Suian didn't speak, but turned his gaze back to his subordinate's documents, as if concentrating on his work.But Wei Mu seemed frightened, he didn't raise his head again, he didn't say he was going to leave, he just sat quietly.

After finishing the little work, Ji Suian took the book to read again, until after eleven o'clock in the middle of the night, he glanced at his watch, put the book on the table, looked at the person sitting opposite, and said :"It is late."

Wei Mu understood what he meant, stood up obediently and walked towards the door, he paused before going out, Ji Suian stared at his movements, and said, "I'll read the book again."

Wei Mu nodded, and walked out of the study room, the door closed with a click, Ji Suian still stared at it for a long time, after a long time, he leaned back in the chair, closed his eyes, and uttered a Come on.