The Cliff of Eternal Sun

There was a splash in the Hehu Lake behind him, and Ji Suian was brought back to his senses. Looking back, he saw a white duck jumping into the water and heading downstream towards the bridge. A little further away, Qishan stood peacefully in the night. A black outline can be vaguely seen.

Everything is the same as it was many years ago.

He has not thought about those things for a long time, but today he is sitting in the familiar campus, the library with people coming and going, the rippling Hehu Lake, the Qishan Mountain in the distance, the tall Chinese parasol trees, the paths he has walked countless times... ...He was shrouded in it, and he was a little obsessed with the memories of those long ago.

Those things that I thought I had long forgotten were brought back to my eyes one by one, and even the small details were as clear as if they had just happened.

He remembered that Wei Mu would hiccup when he was nervous, not one or two hiccups, but a series of hiccups every ten or so seconds, lasting for half a day before stopping.When the two of them spent the night outside for the first time, Wei Mu looked calm, but he couldn't help hiccupping from the moment he entered the room. The person sat on the edge of the bed, but looked very serious from beginning to end.It wasn't until Ji Suian couldn't help laughing that he blushed, grabbed Ji Suian's hand anxiously, and said, "It might be good if you hit me and scare me." , he couldn't help hiccupping again.Ji Suian laughed even more happily. Seeing that Wei Mu was really anxious, he reached out and hit him on the back, but it was light and useless.Wei Mu was dissatisfied, saying that this would not work and that he had to work hard.But he just couldn't bear it.

He remembered that although Wei Mu looked tall and thin, he had a big appetite.Even though the two of them slept on the same bed that night, they were really just sleeping. Neither of them dared to think about that aspect, but they were both extremely nervous, and it wasn't until midnight that he was about to fall asleep in a daze. , just closed his eyes but was woken up again by Wei Mu.Wei Mu looked at him seriously and said, I want to confess something to you.Ji Suian was frightened by his ready tone, thinking that there was something serious, the drowsiness that had finally brewed was completely gone, and he hurriedly sat up.Who knows that after waiting for a long time, Wei Mu said with a blushing face, I lied to you before, but in fact, I have a big appetite, and I don't dare to take too much every time I eat with you.He stretched out two fingers and said, I can eat two big bowls of rice.

Perhaps because of eating too much, Wei Mu's health has always been very good, and he has never been sick.He is not picky about food, as long as the food is well-cooked, he can eat anything that tastes good, the only exception is bitter gourd.Ji Suian can occasionally eat something fresh, but Wei Mu frowns when he sees it, and refuses to touch it at all.

He remembered that there was a scar on the palm of Wei Mu's right hand, a thin and long one that stretched across the entire palm. He said that it was naughty when he climbed a tree when he was a child and was scratched by a branch when he fell.That scar was healed early in the morning, but it is not easy to be touched by others, usually he would not even let Ji Suian see it.At that time, Ji Suian just liked to tease him, and when he couldn't catch him, when he was on the bed, taking advantage of Wei Mu's distraction, he spread his palms little by little, deliberately touching the scar lightly. Kissing lightly, Wei Mu wanted to push him, but his hands couldn't move him. Every time, his eyes turned red immediately, and he didn't look like he was going to cry, but he was so wronged that he became more and more emotional. .

He remembered that the two words Wei Mu couldn't hear him call the most were "brother".Ji Suian's birthday is in March, but Wei Mu was born on the very special first day of the Lunar New Year, three months older than Ji Suian, this slight age difference usually does not attract people's attention, until a certain time, Ji Suian Suian's mind was confused, and somehow he remembered the messy things that Yang Feng had been nagging in his ear a few days ago, and before he had time to think about it, the three words "calling brother" came out in a mixed breath.He is usually very shameless when it comes to speech, and he seldom utters nasty words. Neither of them is a very playful person, and when he said it, his face became hot.Unexpectedly, Wei Mu refused, he struggled and said that he wanted to shout, and it was he who shouted.He opened his head of nonsense, and his face was already flung out, Ji Suian refused to accept it easily, so he leaned down, rubbed against Wei Mu's sweaty temples, and leaned against his ear, really He called out "Brother" obediently, and Wei Mu's reaction was too loud in an instant.Afterwards, Ji Suian seemed to have obtained some magic weapon, and when he wanted to tease Wei Mu, he groaned, and Wei Muneng blushed immediately, stuttering and unable to speak.

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In these numerous and numerous memories, the self inside actually thought that the two of them could go far together.

Once he took Ji Tangtang and Wei Mu out to play together. At that time, he hadn't confessed their relationship with Ji Tangtang. After returning home, Ji Tangtang sat opposite him and stared at him until Ji Suian wanted to chase her away. Suddenly, she asked, "Will you marry him?"

He said, "How do two men get married?"

Ji Tangtang didn't give up, and asked again: "Then do you want to marry him?"

He was silent for a while, then said, "I don't want to."

Ji Tangtang showed a somewhat confused expression, and didn't understand what he meant, but he was looking at the sunlight falling on the ground in front of him, which was dazzlingly bright, and the words he just wanted to understand seemed to have placed a shadow under his heart. The solid bottom gave him infinite confidence, thinking that everything is within reach.

He raised his eyes, smiled slightly, and said, "I don't want to marry him, but I want to be with him like this for the rest of my life."

The surrounding night was dark, and Ji Suian's eyes gradually became cold.He held out a treasured and cherished heart, and envisioned Wei Mu in every node of his future life. What did Wei Mu give back to him?

The appearance of Wei Mu getting off Zhou Mingchuan's car is vivid in his memory. At first he explained that it was socializing, then he was silent, and then Wei Mu looked him straight in the eyes and told him word by word that Zhou Mingchuan said he liked him , can give him the manager position of the head office, and help him climb higher in the future, and if he doesn't agree, then even the current assistant position of the branch company will not be kept.

"I didn't refuse." When Wei Mu said this, he was as cold as a stranger.

Until now, five years later, Ji Suian didn't want to think about his humble and ugly appearance at that time. He asked Wei Mu if he had any difficulties, and after getting a negative answer, he went to investigate by himself without giving up, but he didn't investigate anything. come out.Everything was normal, and the betrayal happened peacefully.But he still didn't want to believe it, he pulled Wei Mu and said that we went to see a psychiatrist, you were just too sad because of your mother's death.

"I'm not sad because of her," Wei Mu said, "If possible, I hope she's not my mother."

He tried all the methods he could think of at the time, and finally even told Wei Mu that he could go to Ji Yanzhi to let Wei Mu join the Ji Group, but he still got rejected.He finally realized that Wei Mu's will to leave was so resolute, and all the efforts he had made to keep him back turned into ferocious mouths that sent out ear-piercing ridicules at him.

He calmed down, changed back to the calm and self-reliant Ji Suian, and accepted the sloppy ending of the first relationship in his life.When he met Wei Mu for the last time, he told Wei Mu that it was you who chose to leave, and no matter whether you regret it or not, don't come back again. We only have one chance, and it will be used up when it is used up, and there will be no more possibilities.

Wei Mu turned around and smiled at him, still as obedient as when he first met in the library, and said, "Okay."

Like an auction, snapping the final hammer, it's over, never to be changed.

All the good or bad things in the past, likes or dislikes, thought about for a lifetime or not, all become meaningless and even disgusting in such an ugly ending.