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He didn't receive the expected impact, and after realizing it, Yu You Le immediately surrounded Mu Yan with his arms and legs.

This person's hot and cold attitude made him anxious, he hated Mu Yan for being indifferent, and the grievances of the past few days broke out one after another, and the tears could not stop, "It's not that I haven't slept, I don't want you to be responsible...Are you a man?" Mu Yan! Is it because you don’t even want me to fuck you?”

Mu Yan could hardly look him in the face, "That's different."

"Why is it different, what are you pretending to be a serious person..." Yu Yule took short breaths, choking aggressively, "Are you a serious person, who put it in there all night, who bought a rabbit tail for me to wear, Who painted on me..."

"Yu Yule!" Mu Yan gritted his teeth and interrupted, but he couldn't say anything after that.

"Why, which sentence did I blame you?" Yu Yule bit her lower lip. Seeing that the person was irritated, she forced her emotions back to soften her voice, and buried her crying face into his arms, "Just once, I don't want You are responsible, I will not pester you..."

Compared with the burst of desire just now, Mu Yan's chest was full of distress at the moment, he finally couldn't help it, kissed Yu Le's cheek and eyes delicately, and kept apologizing in a low voice.

"I don't want to be sorry..." The two stuck together, and Yu Yule grabbed his back. After a long time, he only heard Mu Yan's helpless and forbearing sigh, and he closed his eyes in despair, "... Okay, I won’t force you, as long as you return the note, it’s a note I wrote, and I want you to return it.”

Mu Yan froze suddenly.

Yu Yule quickly wiped away her tears, and looked directly at Mu Yan, "The only thing you know about those notes stuffed in the mailbox is me, I just want those notes, and I won't force anything else."

"No..." Mu Yan blurted out.

With just two words, Yu Youle suddenly had a fit. He beat Mu Yan's chest hard, again and again, as if venting all his anger in the past four years, "Why not! Why do you take it away from me? Why? Everything is up to you! Just because I love you, I have to suffer everything!" He kept kicking and beating Mu Yan, "Give it back to me! Give it back to me!"

When he left, Mu Yan took only two things with him, the list and the note Yu Yule wrote to him.

Those notes are only seventeen, but they have witnessed their best time so far.Relying on these, Mu Yan endured day after day, and it was his only spiritual salvation in his desperate days.

Mu Yan kept apologizing in a low voice, Yu Yule pushed his head and wanted to get up, but suddenly stopped when his fingers brushed his hair, he suppressed all his emotions and voices at once, and even wanted to make his heart beat lighter Some.

He gently groped through Mu Yan's hair, and after touching the trace that made him feel cold again, he met Mu Yan's eyes, which were filled with shock and confusion, without blinking.

Mu Yan was at a loss because of this, he grabbed his hand stiffly, and was also speechless in a daze.

It was empty for a second, and the cry of collapse broke out again in the small space. Yu Yule's hoarse cry was very sad in the silent night. He grabbed Mu Yan's collar tightly, sobbing until he couldn't take a breath. "Bastard! Mu Yan, you bastard!...What are you doing! What are you doing!"

In an instant, everything was explained, why everyone prevented him from communicating with the attending doctor when he was in Australia, and why Mu Yan was in a hurry to return to China, and then left without making a sound.

In the third year after Mu Yan left, on the eve of Yu Le University's graduation, a lawyer approached him and handed over the real estate certificate, insurance contract and a lifetime fund set up for him.

In the few thin documents, all the problems or accidents that Yu Le will encounter in his later life are covered and can be solved. Mu Yan has predicted everything for him, and there is nothing missing.Even if Yu Yule doesn't do anything in the next few decades, he can live freely and peacefully.

Under the extreme grief and anger, Yu Yule's thoughts were in a mess, "...do you think you are great, do you think it is for my own good?...you don't even give me the right to know, you never thought Respect me too much! You have never put me on the same level as you. Are you afraid that you will die? Are you afraid that I will die in pain? I won’t! Mu Yan...what are you doing!"

Mu Yan let him kick and beat him to vent his anger, "No, no..."

Yu Yule pushed Mu Yan away and sat up, staring at him to calm down alone.After a few minutes, he whispered again, "I want to see it."

The situation between the two of them suddenly turned upside down, Mu Yan didn't dare to refuse him anymore, and turned his head to him hesitantly.

Yu Yule was prepared before gently brushing his hair away. The surgical scars had been minimized as much as possible, but the scars on the scalp were still oozing.He gasped and ran to the upper floor without a word.

Mu Yan sat back on the bench with a sullen face, and the sobs on the top continued, but he was not as presumptuous as before, either for him or for himself, or both.Hearing the suppressed cry of the child, Mu Yan felt extremely uncomfortable. After several struggles, he climbed up to the top and coaxed him softly.

"Crying too much hurts your eyes, stop crying..."

Yu Yule turned his back to him, he wanted to bite Mu Yan to death, but also wanted to throw himself into his arms, the two pulled each other, too many emotions that had nowhere to vent swelled in his chest, but at the moment he was only pulling his own Sleeves, even the tears can't stop.

Mu Yan touched the hair on the back of his head, "Don't be like this, Yoyo..."

Yu Yule opened his hand, "Don't touch me!"

"I……"

Yu Yule sniffed, and turned to stare at him, "What are you?... Your first reaction when something happened was to leave me behind. What did I do wrong and you want to treat me like this?"

"You didn't do anything wrong. It was me who was wrong, and it was all my fault." Mu Yan looked distressed, picked up the crying slug, and patted his back to help him calm down.It took a long time before I spoke with difficulty, "...I don't want to, but I don't know how to choose...you think about it, if it was you at that time, you knew that I was sick, and the chance of being completely cured was very small, what would you do? ?”

Feeling that the person in his arms listened to what he said, he continued in a deep voice, "You may even give up your studies, stay in front of the hospital bed, accompany me for surgery, chemotherapy, recurrence, and repeat until I recover, but if you are unlucky Some, you have to experience my death and deal with everything alone... Those are your most important years, I can't."

Yu Yule choked with sobs, "...then you can discuss it with me, as long as you tell me clearly, we can coordinate well, you have a hundred ways better than leaving me behind, why did you choose this... as long as Tell me clearly, I will listen to everything you say..."

He thought of himself a few years ago, and knew that Mu Yan was not exaggerating.During that time, Mu Yan was his whole world, and he lived for Mu Yan because of him, so he was very likely to do what Mu Yan said.

Realizing this, Yu Yule couldn't restrain himself, leaned against him and cried and coughed, "But have you ever thought... As long as you are still here, as long as I am with you, I am willing to spend a few years. Don't care! You're not afraid to die and I don't understand..."

"...I thought about it, but I can't."

Thinking of their current situation, Yu Yule stood up and looked at Mu Yan with blurred eyes, "Then now...you are well and you are back, why didn't you tell me directly, why didn't you make up with me."

Hearing this, Mu Yan was startled again and again, it turned out that with the child, he didn't even need to beg for forgiveness.He was speechless for a moment because of the shock, but subconsciously pulled him into his arms, kissed his wet face and lips, and apologized over and over again.

In fact, at the moment when Mu Yan made his decision, he was even thankful that the child relied more on him than he loved him.In this way, even if he leaves or even dies, it will be easier for Yu Yule to come out. After all, a heartbroken man who leaves without saying goodbye is easier to forget than a lover who is separated forever.

But at the moment, he clearly realized that he had underestimated the child's love for him, and Yu Youle could tell it apart very clearly.

"I said I don't want to be sorry!" Yu Yule was full of grievances, "Why do you always worry so much! You are not the only one who can think, I understand, I have always understood, better than you! ... But I don't care, I am at a disadvantage It will never be you, you are a coward!"

In the middle of the night, Yu Yule's tears finally stopped. He knew that it would be embarrassing to cry until he was tired and fell asleep, but he still struggled for less than 5 minutes, and fell asleep leaning on Mu Yan.

Mu Yan felt that what he said couldn't be more correct. His many worries and worries, in other words, were fears, so he was in a dilemma, which made people even more sad.He seems to be able to dominate everything, but he is still not as brave and honest as a child.

In fact, most of the time, he doesn't need to think about things so complicated, he just needs to ask himself if he can let go of Yu Yule.

The answer is obvious.

He never can.

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Stubborn Mountain Journey Seven:

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