After being dedicated to the villain

"The chili does hurt when it hits the eyes and cuts, but it's really not a poison, it's just a pungent condiment, like ginger and garlic."

Pepper has been in Dayue Kingdom for a relatively short time, and people here have not had time to discover its edible value. It may be that the shopkeeper often goes out and spreads the seeds here inadvertently, and various coincidences have appeared.

Coincidentally, Duan Lingyao mistakenly thought that Song Sijin was going to kill him.

"That is to say, I won't die?"

"If it's really poisonous, I also drank the soup, and I will die with you, don't worry."

"no!"

Too many jokes were made back and forth on Song Sijin, the cold wind blew, his heartbroken head cleared up bit by bit, Duan Lingyao thought about it, and suddenly felt ashamed.

If it were someone else, how could he be so messed up all of a sudden, it would be embarrassing to be like this... But I'm so happy!

Duan Lingyao was so happy that when the rain cleared, he turned around and jumped onto Song Sijin's body. He hugged him tightly like an octopus, with his wet face pressed against Song Sijin's, he said in a loud voice: " I knew brother Jin was the best to me, it was all a misunderstanding, that's great..."

No, there is nothing good about it.

Song Sijin pushed him and told him to get off his body.

When Duan Lingyao stood on the ground, he was still subconsciously sticking to Song Sijin's body. He pouted, wanting to ask for a kiss at this emotional moment: "Brother Jin, why don't you hug him..."

Song Sijin ducked and asked, "Where shall we go next?"

Duan Lingyao did not doubt that he was there, and said: "I haven't figured it out yet. I can go down the mountain and follow them and leave, or I can continue to wait here. Since they can find this, my family will definitely be able to find this too."

Song Sijin took a deep breath, his beating heart became more and more determined, he raised his hand to wipe off the tears on Duan Lingyao's face, looked at him gently but firmly and said, "Lingyao, let's separate."

Duan Lingyao froze in place: "What did you say?"

"You already have a lot of ideas, and you have thought of everything, let's separate."

"I don't quite understand, what does this mean?" Duan Lingyao tried to make the atmosphere of this moment a little easier, "Brother Jin, are you joking?"

"I'm not kidding, and you know it, I'm just fed up with you."

It turned out that caring about someone meant that one's emotions no longer belonged solely to oneself. The heart of Duan Lingyao, who had just been happy not long ago, sank wildly again.

Song Sijin was telling him as well as himself: "Lingyao, I don't want to scold you, nor do I want to quarrel with you. It's just that you don't like me anymore, it's not good for you or me. You recover I remember and refuse to tell me. I always feel that I am going to harm you, and lose my temper whenever there is a conflict. You are unruly, domineering, suspicious, and like to avoid. There are so many things in the past, you can let go, but when I am with you, it is really Very tired. Now you are relying more and more on me, this, this is very bad, if you separate in the future, you will suffer even more, so let's take advantage of now... let's go our separate ways. "

He couldn't bear to look into Duan Lingyao's eyes, he knew how heartbroken and angry Duan Lingyao must be after he finished speaking.

He still knows him well.

As Song Sijin expected, Duan Lingyao was really annoyed when he said this: "What do you mean, is it all my fault? Brother Jin is too much, obviously you also evaded!"

"Yes, I'm not good either. Two bad people will only make it worse when they're together."

"No, you can't say that, how can I be so bad, you don't understand me at all!"

I knew it would be like this—Song Sijin was a little disappointed, but also a little thankful, he was actually relieved, then turned and walked out.

"That's right, I don't know you, but Duan Lingyao, have you given me a chance to get to know you? Forget it, I don't really want to know you. People like you... can't talk to each other at all."

The truth always hurts, it would be great if Duan Lingyao started to hate him.

Can--

"Okay, you can go if you have the ability. There are chasing soldiers outside. I can see where you can go. You can't do anything by yourself. Be careful that you don't even have enough food! Song Sijin... I won't let you go! You can’t be so irresponsible, why is it all my fault, well, I was wrong, but there’s no need to be so stingy——hey, slow down, listen to me, you can’t leave me——Song Sijin , Song Sijin! Brother Jin, I was wrong, I will not doubt you anymore really! I will never doubt you again, I was wrong...I was wrong, Brother Jin, don’t go away—— "

From strong to soft, the voice is out of tune.

When I was about to leave, I was used to talking harshly. Only now did I realize how painful it is to watch others leave. Those who were originally unwilling to leave could not watch the other person leave.

And those who really want to leave will just leave as soon as they say it.

Looking at the back that was about to disappear outside the door, the relaxation and happiness of the previous few days suddenly appeared in front of his eyes - that was the most relaxed period of time for him, he didn't have to bear anything, he didn't have to think about anything, he just had to smile happily , Turning around, you can see Song Sijin's gentle eyes.

There is no fear, no estrangement, between him and Brother Jin, there are only stars in the sky and pure happiness.

The thorns that had been pricked in his heart so closely were suddenly pierced deep at the same time.

People who are used to bitterness can no longer bear the bitter taste after tasting the sweetest candy.

The most inseparable sweetness that is about to be lost is enough to destroy a person's pride.

"sorry!"

Song Sijin stopped in astonishment, he thought he heard it wrong, a person like Duan Lingyao who is still stubborn at the moment of death, would actually say these three words when he is sober?

"I'm sorry." The hoarse voice was filled with deep powerlessness and a hint of mourning. Under the cold moonlight, Duan Lingyao looked at Song Sijin's back in despair. The starlight dimmed in his always bright eyes. And so pale with pure heartache.

"Actually, you're still blaming me, right? Blame me for what I did to you before, blame me for never apologizing to you Brother Jin, I really know I was wrong, and I haven't forgotten it."

Song Sijin clasped his hands tightly, not daring to look back at him, he was afraid that his heart would soften: "You only apologized because you wanted to keep me, how could a person like you—"

"Didn't you feel it at all? Yes, you are so stupid." The most tears Duan Lingyao shed in this life were given to Song Sijin, "Blame me for being stupid before, thinking that even if I don't apologize, as long as I treat you well in the future , I can slowly make up for it... But I really know I was wrong."

Song Sijin trembled slightly, unable to say that he didn't feel it at all.Don't listen, go away, don't talk to him again, don't look into his eyes again, it's going to be over-the intuition is crazily warning at this moment.

But Song Sijin was too weak, he couldn't move.

Duan Lingyao cried and laughed, and he was laughing at himself. It turned out that he was also in such a state of embarrassment: "Brother Jin, you said you didn't understand me, and you said you didn't understand me." You can’t talk to me, okay, I’ll tell you everything now, I beg you, don’t go.”

He raised his footsteps slowly and took a step forward: "I know, I really didn't treat you very well before, so I don't blame you for not believing me. But brother Jin, I'm just... just too scared. You asked I, why on earth is always so stubborn, I will tell you now, why on earth. "

"Because my biological mother thought I killed her two good sons, and never smiled at me once after I got home! Because my biological father sent 29 letters home without mentioning me a word Because my good grandmother personally proposed to send me to be raised in the palace, and my sister-in-law made false promises every day, because she was afraid that I would kill her two children! All of them thought I was unworthy, they were afraid that I would hate me, Look down on me too! And because... because I'm afraid."

People who have never been truly tolerated, no matter how fragile they are secretly, they will always habitually build high walls to protect themselves in front of others.

Duan Lingyao's voice was trembling, like thin ice on a stream in spring, it would shatter and melt with just a light touch: "I'm afraid I'll give in to you and apologize, but you still don't forgive me, you hate me so much, hate me so much ... I'm afraid I won't be able to keep anything in the end, and I don't even have any dignity in front of you."

He was afraid that he would lose control and give everything he had, but in the end he would still have nothing, even losing himself.

But in the end, he still lost everything.

No, he doesn't want anything anymore, he just wants his brother Jin.

"You won't hate me if you said that I changed it, I really will change it, I may, may not be able to change it all at once, but I will definitely be better than before, really, I swear... By the way, aren't you very worried about your aunt, I asked Xin Yi to look for it!"

Duan Lingyao suddenly remembered something, and hurriedly said as if grabbing a life-saving straw: "Before I left Qingya Temple, I asked Xin Yi to find my aunt. We rescued her, and I will be filial to her. I also want to Make it up to you, never let outsiders bully you, really, brother Jin...you look back at me."

When Duan Lingyao walked behind Song Sijin and the two were close at hand, the person in front of him still didn't look back, and he began to slowly embrace a trace of anticipation.

Duan Lingyao stopped moving forward, he gently raised his hand, only a crack away from Song Sijin's back, if he moved a little further, he would be able to touch him.

But Duan Lingyao was about to lose his courage, so his fingertips just stayed there, unable to touch Song Sijin.

Sure enough, he still had nothing.

Seeing Song Sijin still turning his back to him, Duan Lingyao's voice became more bitter and desperate, "Does it mean that no matter what I do, you will never forgive me?"

After some heart-breaking words, Duan Lingyao exhausted all his strength, and he slumped to the ground, hugging his legs in a daze: Since he will never get Song Sijin's sincerity, why not forcefully keep him as before? ?

But obviously yesterday, they didn't need to do this.

After all, what was forced was not as sweet as what Song Sijin voluntarily gave. Duan Lingyao, who had already tasted that kind of good taste, couldn't bear to go back to the past - but what he couldn't bear was to lose it completely.

Duan Lingyao was about to drive himself crazy, but before he really went crazy, Song Sijin turned around, squatted down gently, and touched the top of his head.

Duan Lingyao looked at him blankly, looked at him, but didn't seem to be looking at him.

What else?

They bathe in the same moonlight, look at the same beautiful scenery, and blow the same mountain breeze, but they have completely different lives and personalities.

Song Sijin said: "Lingyao, even if I can forgive you for what you did to me, but you kill people like hemp, and you have countless male pets, I...I really can't accept these things, remember? You even killed Lan Chi's younger brother, if you hadn't killed him, perhaps so many tragedies would not have happened. So let me go, and yourself too."

Duan Lingyao was stunned for a moment, then ecstatically, he stepped forward in embarrassment, and hugged Song Sijin's waist lightly: "I killed him, but that person also wanted to kill me, he was sent by someone else Spy, if I don't kill him, he will kill me, it's not my fault, it's not fair!"

Song Sijin didn't expect that there was a story behind it, and his mood became more and more complicated. He didn't doubt Duan Lingyao's explanation this time, because he himself had experienced the assassination of Duan Lingyao: "But your male pets..."

"I explained it before." Duan Lingyao raised his face and said cautiously, "Brother Jin, you have clearly said before that you don't think I'm that bad, but why don't you believe me?"

"Because you didn't tell me anything, can that be considered an explanation?" Song Sijin was helpless.

Duan Lingyao wiped his crying face in embarrassment. To him, many things were shameful and embarrassing. He didn't want to tell others, but he was already so embarrassed in front of Song Sijin, what were he afraid of: "Okay, I I will tell you everything, I will tell you everything. Because there are always people who want to get close to me, I have no choice but to do that..."

Some things may be difficult for Song Sijin to understand. Duan Lingyao must become a hopeless bastard who is close to the royal family, and it would be best for this bastard to prevent the government of Xinguo from inheriting the family because of his good looks.

The royal family needs a hostage, but not just one.

Only in this way can he gain the favor of the Holy One in the deep palace, survive smoothly, and befriend the third prince.

But he didn't really want to sleep with so many messy people. Duan Lingyao knew what kind of thoughts they had, besides, he didn't like them.

So he deliberately found two people as shields, and Duan Lingyao deliberately let go of many rumors in the outside world. His methods of torturing the spies were indeed cruel. When word spread, the dead man who was carried out of the mansion became the man he played with. Pet.

After all, from the beginning to the end, stripping off the outermost layer of glamorous skin of the little father-in-law that everyone fears reveals such a barren and embarrassing truth—the more you have nothing, the more you want to prove that you have everything. have.

Duan Lingyao is not afraid of the hatred, fear and insults from outsiders, but he is ashamed to reveal the truth in front of the person he loves the most. Only Song Sijin's contempt and ridicule makes him unable to accept it anyway.

Because in this world, only he had the simplest kindness and tenderness towards himself.

But he still peeled off that layer of skin, in front of Song Sijin.

"Brother Jin, I'm done talking, you, you can't just leave me like this...I told you everything..."

The young man who voluntarily fell into the dust, exposed the most fragile and soft, the most empty and purest heart, gave Song Sijin the right to kill himself - as long as he simply mocked and refused, he would To be able to kill Duan Lingyao and give any sincere courage for the rest of his life.

Fortunately, Song Sijin is a soft-hearted person.

He looked into those determined and helpless eyes, but he still couldn't make up his mind—Song Sijin lamented that this was the reason why he suddenly wanted to separate from Duan Lingyao just now.

Because he knows exactly how soft-hearted he is, and he also knows how bad he is at dealing with a Duan Lingyao who is slowly changing but is still very good at acting coquettishly.

He was afraid that if he stayed with Duan Lingyao for a while longer, he would uselessly forgive all the wrong things he had done, and even develop feelings that should not have appeared.

He and Duan Lingyao are people from two worlds. Being with Duan Lingyao means countless risks-the biggest still comes from Duan Lingyao, because Song Sijin has no power to resist. Once Duan Lingyao changes his mind or goes bad in the future, he will lose all.

This is not what Song Sijin wanted. Song Sijin originally only wanted to live an ordinary life...but maybe everyone has a trace of an everlasting adventurous spirit hidden in their hearts. The pursuit of excitement is an indelible human nature.

No, no, nothing is true. He must still want to focus on safety. His intuition, his brain, and all the cells in his body have been warning him, and just now—the alarm bell exploded !

Not only because there is a person who is determined to love himself madly, but also because facing such a person, he actually finds something cute in it—then the truth gathered in bits and pieces in the past, after puncturing something, becomes more and more It's getting clearer.

He wanted to quickly cut off the connection between the two, but he didn't expect Duan Lingyao to be so stronger than the one who touched him.

Sour, sweet, bitter, spicy, salty, full of five flavors in his heart, maybe he shouldn't have stopped to listen to Duan Lingyao's explanation just now!

What can the soft-hearted Song Sijin do?

It's so worthless, what if I like him in the future?

Song Sijin raised his hand and hammered his head: "Don't cry, I don't hate you, really, I believe in you too, stop now, don't cry!"

Song Sijin, who was crying, was in a mess.

Duan Lingyao sobbed: "Is it true this time? Really, really, didn't lie to me? Really, really forgive me? Then...you have to like me a little more!"

"Okay, okay, I can't forgive you, I like you a little more, just a little, don't think too much, but this time it's real, really!"

It's not a forced letting go on the premise of parting. Facing Duan Lingyao like this, Song Sijin's compassion cannot but be touched.

Song Sijin has always been a person who is easily satisfied, but few people sincerely apologize to him after hurting him.

He couldn't help himself.

Duan Lingyao lay in his arms and wept loudly, heart-piercingly, like a little black cat wet by the rain.

Then while crying, he tried his best to get into Song Sijin's arms.

"Why are you still crying?" Song Sijin was at a loss, his head grew bigger, help, can someone tell Duan Lingyao to stop?If he continued to cry, Song Sijin couldn't help but blame himself.

Duan Lingyao pressed against Song Sijin's chest, weeping until his clothes were soaked, the salty and cold tears were warmed by Song Sijin's body.

He was out of breath from crying and spoke incoherently, then suddenly laughed a couple of times, dripping with joy: "I don't know, don't ask, you just don't know!"

Song Sijin was extremely helpless, holding the crying little devil who seemed to never stop, and sighed to the moon while resting his chin.

Has the eternal moon seen too many entangled earthly people, can you give him some pointers?

Instruct Song Sijin how to choose so as not to get worse.

It's better to instruct Song Sijin again on how to change his heart.

But the moon will not give him the answer, the moon just watches, sees the joys and sorrows of all people, and sees that they still have to rely on themselves to find the answer.

The author says:

感谢在2022-09-1103:53:34-2022-09-1118:20:50期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦——

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: 2 bottles of warm wind wine;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!